A will of my own
Not to be deceived
A heart with good intentions
Will forever be tried
To be broken down
In pieces
That float in the the breeze
Scattered across the horizon
Days or maybe years will pass
Until someone discovers that piece
Someone who will not disguard it
Beacause they see the potential
That you yourself never saw
Time,trust and love
Soon restores that broken puzzle
Stronger than you were
Even though it seems impossible
Your pride and humility
Glow about you
Thank those who broke you down
For their words and actions started a journey to a better you
And know they are suffering in some way or anothers
Behind their hards mask do they hide
With a steel barrier between themselves and others
That can easly be shattered by a simple knock.
Thanks those who took the time to piece you back together
For they to might have been where you were
Together you can strenghten one another
But alone you can stand and fight for yourself
Even so why be alone
Friends
Since the beginning of time
They can be our strenghth
But also our greatest weakness
All in all we all have a will
An unknown plan with some purpose
That we are fullfilling
It's not written in gold
Nor something that can be foretold
It's what we do from day to day
The dreams we dwell on
And chase so vigorously
But on this e journey we are never alone
The gently breaze made her smile as she lay in the garden.But this was no ordinary garden for it was the garden of the Goblin King.Sierra, lay on her back with her eyes closed bathing in the sun.
It was an odd day for she could not hear any of her goblin friends,an unusual thing to say the least.Sighing she sat up and shaded her eyes from the sun.Hoggle appeared only for a moment before going into the castle.Standing she brushed some grass off her dress,one thing some would not approve of would be the fact that she was barefoot.As an embassador for the Goblin Kingdom one would think it indecent but she did not care.He doesn't love you those words whispered in her ear.I know she admitted her voice was feint.She knew this voice it was the labyrinth.
"I haven't seen or heard from him"she admitted
"Foolish girl"it said sympathetically
Sierra closed her eyes and then opened them sharply"Don't give me your sympathy,for I know it is not sincere"
"Dear child it is sincere,but he wants to keep you only because if you leave his social being will be deminished.Is that any life for a young girl such as yourself?"
"Regardless of right or wrong it is my decision,"she smirked slightly
"Even the almighty spirit of the labyrinth can not weild the heart to make decisions such as these."
The spirit laughes"You are wise beyong your years,I did well in choosing you,but still be warry of the heartache that might follow."
"I know but till my heart finds piece and the answer it's searching for I will stay."
"Perhaps my dear but,be prepared to meet someone at noon in the stables,he shall accompany you today on your ride.
"Who is it?"she questioned
"Now my dear that would take the fun out of the surprise."
"Labyrith "sierra repeated but it did not answer.
I feel like the Goblin King popping in and out of this site lately.* Dannii knows lol*
God the rps we had brings back memories.
Any way the reason I haven't been here was a couple weeks ago I broke my fourth metatarsal in my left foot.I can't dance,or really do any stenuous exercising for awhile.
And also my grandmother went back into the hospital and was releases Wednesday.But as of yesterday she is back in the hospital.She's complaining of pain in her chest and neck,but the doctors are not coming up with anything.She had a stroke in December,which is something the is wighing heavily on my mind.Between this,school,and other things I neglected Tef.But I have come back ,and hopefully you'll welcome me back.
I come to you
In this trying time
Seeking friendships of old
My friends
I am not as strong as I was when I left you
Let me cry on your shoulder
And release this fear
That's been caged in my mind
I missed you all so dearly
I feel so week
But memories of the past
Lead me to believe
You'll help pick me up
And give me strength
That I so dearly need
It was one of those evenings that gave you peace.The sky is dark blue and the breeze gently rufffles through the trees.As if to wake them from their sleeping slumber,to prepare them from spring.If I had a choice I would have stayed in a hammock outside all night.Granted I don't have one but if I did,I would choose tonight to use it.Spring at long last seems to be coming,a long awaited arrival for some.
To put those cold,freezing nights behind us,as well as the snow and sleet,to give a warm and hearty welcome to the joys of spring.This might sound weird but it smells like spring,to me at least.
Not to put spring above other seasons but I treasure it the most.The time of new life is such a beautiful thing to witness.
Anyway back to tonight's experience.The lake water is finally unfrozen.The sound of it gently lapping at the bank reminds me of a smaller and tamer sea.There are no owls to be seen or unheard,unfortunately,but with out a doubt I will see them soon.Only the occasional bat screech,allows me to hear the nocturnal animal somewhere in the night sky.
This is all I have for now,but for me it is enough.
Spring come gently
And wake the trees
With your gentle breeze
So that they may wake
And spread their leaves
Let nature awake
From their winter slumber
To bring back the life in the land
For so long it has been unusually quiet
Let the deer stray back into the yard
With their little fawns beside them
Let all the animals be blessed
With little ones
May each be safe from harm
That they may grow strong
Let the sun shine brightly
So that the trees
May stand tall and proud
Allow the rain to come in a timely manner
To refresh the hearth
And to restore balance to nature
Come O spring
And bring peace and harmony to the land.
No food passes into her mouth
Like a secret
It's hidden in many places
She speaks in silence
Her eyes say it all
The determination is there
Without considering the consequences
Or maybe they were considered
But simply dismissed
She searches for acceptance
She aims to be that perfect girl
A creature we have yet to ever see
But so many have strived to become
She exercises extensively
But never seems to eat
She has you fooled
You see the food on her plate
It seems to disapear
Little do we know its hidden under the table
Or even in the napkin
Silently she walks
When others voice their concern
About her
She lashes out
Her voice is like a whip
Stinging them
That had good intentions
But they can clearly see the loss
A day turns to a week
And she's barely eaten enough to keep a bird alive
She makes it by through sheer will pour
Her mind says its enough
It begins this inner turmoil
Where it twists the thought process
Saying over and over
Like a broken record
That she is too fat
So she'll put that salad down
And drink a glass of water instead
Until one day the body rules out the mind
And begins to shut down
Denourshed of it's proper nutrition it rebels
The park is quiet
I am all alone
The birds do not sing
And even if they did
The joy of the melody
Would escape this mind today
Your name I keep saying
In my mind
It seems so loud
I'm almost afraid it would slip out
And my voice would say your name
I could curse myself a million times
For even remembering your face
I still think about you
Even know
After all this time
Why is it that I can't seem to forget you
Looking back I see the good times
We shared together
But why must it be hard to remember the bad times
It's confusing
You think after we tried twice
That I would honestly forget you
I don't want to remeber you
I want to move on
But every time I try
I see you smilling at me
I want to forget everything
Your not even close to me
But your holding me back
It's like an imaginiary rope
That's tied to my mind
Always keeping me thinking about you
If you knew these things
What would say
That I was pathetic
Would you laugh to my face
Or would you be silent
Because you feel the same
The last option is something I really don't even consider
Curse my mind
That straps me to you
The shadow in my life
That has long since moved on
But is still so vivid in my head
I can't cut the string
It seems to be invisble
Was this your cruel wish
That I in someway would never forget you
As we both walk this earth
On separate paths
Never to meet again.
I finally did it I always wanted to have all my poems in one spot and know I do and of course it's 1:30 when I finish but I don't care.Putting this togther reminds me of alot of things that have happened since I started Tef.For me this is where my writing started as well as my sketching.And know I have my own little library that I hope you enjoy as I continue to add more and more
I wanna do more
To reach outside the box
But I'm tied down
There words still ring clear
It's not safe
Do as we say
And hey
You'll do great
Go here
And receive the education
A life thats already been planned
I can see that future
It's as plane as day
But along the way
Why am I suppose to give up
What has become and will always be apart of my soul
It's an extension of me
Like a tree that has many branches
If you cut the limbs off
You still have the same tree
But at the same time different
I want to further my learning
There is no doubt on that subject
But must I be shackled to only your needs and desires
It is selfish there is no denying that
You only want the best for me
But everytime I try to think about giving itu up
I feel like crying
I don't even have to see your face to see the disbelief
Childish you may think
But to me it's not
It's much more important
I must correct myself on one point
You have sacrificed many things in your life
Just for me
Should I go your way and utter not a word
While the tears flow endlessly inside
Or should I rebel
Take a stand for what I love and follow the dream
You've said we could use for plan B
Confusion
Frustration
Anxiety
Are some of feelings I have
I love you
And I want you to be apart of this life I live
But would following my dream
Cause a disruption in our relationship
I'm at a loss for words
Either path is not easy
Each could bring dissapointment
For either of us
I haven't reached that crossroad yet
But I can see it in the distance
As it slowly approaches
