Today
I met a doe name Ruuqa,an interesting character who accompanied me despite my quiet demeaner.
A fawn also brought a smile to my face I know not its name other than the real deer mask it wore.Shortly after leaving me a blue fawn cast the bird mask on me.Ironic in a way since I am the black sparrow.Is,it possible he knows my secret,not much I can do other than rest among these bluberries tonight
Music is the melody of life it is my heart it is the only thing that keeps me going.It flows in my veins like a breath of fresh air.I am consumed by it ,for it is the only thing that has ever given me hope.Each day it surround me and clings to my soul,it's very easy to get lost in this world of music and once you do you will never be the same.But I also have a secret I grow wings like the sparrow and can fly in the sky.Who am I,just a stranger to most but someday I'll take my throne back and become queen Human
Name---Esmerelda Heights
Gender ---female
orientation--straight
age--- 16
Instruments she plays violin,piano,cello,and the flute .
She loves music she finds her compony in the melody and the song it creates.She is often alone because most don't give her a chance.She knows nothing of love how it is to be loved or love some one.Her exterior is very hard and cold She is the heir to the sparrow thrown but her uncle killed her father and overthough him.Because her life was jeapardy she had to flee her home in Moriantar.
As a deer
species--white tail deer
gender --female
love--none
family-none
Ruuqa--acquaintance
Enemies
She finds herself spending her time in the ruins singing with the birds.If she think she is not alone she will stop singing.She is rather skinny she tends not to eat much because she consumes herself with nature and music
Positive
Loves birds
singing
music
nature
Negative
Shy
quiet
cold
tends to really only show emotion in her music.
Cut the sound
Pure silence
Is all that was needed
Caving in
Going under
Waves crashing
Can't escape
These shackles
Are too tight
The sun is fading
The dark is consuming
Birds song
And the cricket melody
Spinning in circles
My body is not my own
Who is in control?
For it is not me
I can't seem to stop
Unstoppable
Pathetic
Tears stream down my face
Nothing I can do
Beat my fists against the wall
Shout my protests
As loud as I can
But who will hear
Who will listen
Who would act
So far no one is willing
I don't see the light
My mind is sinking me into a dark abiss
My eye lids are heavy
Say goodbye
The tv's off
No sound
Just silence
The sun is gone
Giving everything in my world
A little less color
Why should it matter
In your eyes I'm nothing
Nothing I do
Or try to do make you proud
Never
Never have I heard that word come
Willingly and meaningfully out of your mouth
Each day I am reminded
That I am alive
And your the one that made it happen
It might seem selfish
But I didn't choose to come into this world
And know that I'm here
I don't wanna be
A tear can run down my face
But I'll just turn away
That's the way I've been raised
I feel like a burden
You stay only for me
And you say those words
And it feels as if I have the whole world on my shoulders
I love you so much
And I know you love me to
If I could I would have gone back in time
Ten months before I was born
And I would say go back to your hometown
And cling to your son
And perhaps things would have changed
Perhaps know you would be hugging him
And sharing a smile
Instead of being in a world where for awhile
That won't happed
Stuck in this world with your daughter
In a situation your trying to improve
Things could have been different
I could never leave you
You've given me so much
And say I'm the only reason your around
How could I.
Music is the melody of life it is my heart it is the only thing that keeps me going.It flows in my veins like a breath of fresh air.I am consumed by it ,for it is the only thing that has ever given me hope
It seems just like yesterday
But so far long gone
I'm so ashamed
I just wanna hide
I can't face these mistakes
I can't look into you eyes
And see you searching mine
For the truth
My world started falling apart
I bow my head
And hide my eyes and tried to hide
My shame that haunts me
The trust is broken
The honesty is gone
The innocent girl
Has long since fadded away
Into the wind
She got lost in this hurricane
I'm so afraid to confront
This problem
Which I created
There is no one else to blame
But how can I open the door
And let you in
To let these truthful words be spoken
Truthful but hurtful all the same
After all we've gone through
I can't believe I messed up
Like this
You've been through alot with me
The sunsets in the background
With the occasional sirens in the street
And the plea of a man on the otherside of the door
Begging to know the truth
Not knowing how the truth would break his heart
On the other side our leading lady is sitting on the ground
Trying to stiffle her crying
And asking him to leave and forget her
Without an explanation
But he is resiliant
And continues to persist
On what went wrong.
I don't consider myself an artist
Even though I say writing,sketching and dancing
Are all forms of art
I stand by that
But when it comes to my own work
I'm my worst critic
You may call me a hypocrite
For saying one thing and speaking another
But my line's in my sketching always seem to lack
A certain something
My words that I write
That form poems
A few seem to like
Honest and true are they
But it wasn't until a year and a half ago
That this all started
I was encouraged to try to draw
With not experience
I just grabbed a pencil and paper
And started
Until I can get at least an outline done
I'm focused on the task
Continually examining what I have created
But their are very few of which I'm proud of
My siren and my Draco
Are their names
But I doubt if you shall remeber
Are you still their ?
Or have you already clicked back
To the home page
Regardless it seems
My words continue
About this journey that somehow started
By an unknown cause
My poems had a similiar beginning
The inspiration for those came from many places
From songs
Experiences from the past,present,
Or something I dream of
A painting perhaps is my muse
As I see it something come to mind
And the words start to flow
My story might be different from the artist who painted it
But it is my interpretation
Some of the situations that I write are something I never experienced
But I put myself in their world
For a moment
In their life
To grasp the moment and the emotion.
I never want my words to not display the truth
I want them to tell a story
Whether it be revenge,sorrow,happiness
To me it needs that display
To catch others eye
To make them stop
Even for just a moment to relate.
Sketching,and writing are still very knew to me
But my last form
I started at a fairly young age
Dance
I never did anything besides dance
Aside from school
This was the only thing I ever wanted to do
I'm not the best
I will say that
But it is in this art
I never knew this feeling
My heart first felt
A strange and unfamiliar emotion
That crashed into me
Like the waves of a sea
The sky didn't part
To reveal a rainbow
But the clouds were whiter
And the birds started singing their song
But at first it went unnoticed
I tried to fight this emotion
Retaliating with a vengence
Our quarreling became regular bantering
I tried to shove you away
But by some unknown force
I kept encountering you
I was never a person to cling to one for company
However,I grew accustomed to you
And expected our encounters and your company
Until one day I discovered you left
I froze and my world seem to loose it's color
Your voice and laughter started ringing in my head
My heart hurts
Foolish have I been
So cautious so unsure of what this feeling was
Till your gone
A tear slips from my eye
An unseen thing to be witnessed in public
But it's real and this feeling for you is real
And I can't let it slip away
I race off torwards your destination
My heart is heavy
And will remain that way
Till you are by my side once more
