Sitting here
I can clearly see
That bottle of red wine
And that empty glass next to it
But the recent event
Have left me in shock
And speechless
I sigh
Closing my eyes
As tonights memories
Flow back into my mind
It started out
With a simple picnic on the beach
And then a walk along the teasing tides
Hand in hand we walk
Together
The moment could not have been more perfect
I wasnt worried about how my mom dislike
I was simply enjoying the moment
Then he turns me around
His eyes looking deep into mine
Allowing no escape
I love you he says
I love you and that will not change
He says confidently
Marry me he says
His hand cupping my chin
Coming in for the kiss
But I turn my head
I did not know the reason
Was in a natural reaction
I dont know
I need to think about it was my reply
He stood there dumbfouded
Then he started to walk off
Clearly hurt
I called out to him
But he said nothing
And he did not come back to my side
Im so confused
I know I love him
So why am I hesitating
I groan
I finally just give in
As I pour myself a glass of red wine
It does not take long to empty it
As I go back to my original state of confusion