[Personal Blog] Me in a Nutchos

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10/09/2024
Hello, everyone.

First of all, I apologize for disappearing entirely. Truth be told, I lost the motivation to roleplay and socialize. My projects have been taking up a lot of my time, as I hope to become a professional writer someday. I still love roleplaying and chatting with you guys, though, don't get me wrong. I just don't feel like doing it anymore. I'm always tired, and my mental health hasn't been great for the past years. I'll be okay, though.

To be honest, I originally left the TEF community for a personal reason I chose not to disclose, as I didn't want to talk about it (and still don't). Stuff happened that made me want to isolate myself. Since then, I've been hesitating to come back. The thing is, even if I was to come back, I don't think it would be anytime soon. I won't go into details here, but I'm adjusting to my new daily life, and I don't know how I can add roleplay in there without it becoming too much of a distraction.

I was also getting tired of having my characters sitting in-forest doing nothing all day long. TEF and its community did help me with my social anxiety, and it was fun at times. But other times, I just didn't see the point. Staying motivated for long text-based RPs had proven to be difficult as well. I love them, but there were several times where I just gave up due to lack of interest/motivation. Not to mention updating my characters' diaries. Obviously, it's my problem, not anyone else's. But these are some of the reasons why I ended up leaving.

Oddly enough, I miss all of that. I miss hanging out with other people, even if it's just online. I miss creating and playing characters, fleshing them out as they interact with other people's characters. I miss the Forest. But... I don't know. Maybe things will go in a different direction. Maybe I'll come back to TEF. Or just get back to roleplaying in general. Maybe I'll come back sooner than I expected. Only time will tell.

Thank you for reading all of this. Feel free to reach out to me if you want. I may not reply for a long while, or not reply at all. But know that I appreciate every kind message I receive.

I wish you all the best. Take care of yourselves. ♥


My Characters

1st Wave
Kamaya
Amika & Tokiri
Shikatori
Feïr

2nd Wave
Nutai
Iko
Cherry Moon
Nothing
"N"

3rd Wave
Kalvin
Floralys
Poxxi Polkka
F7-B100

4th Wave
Arkœrova
Otkuda
Panoptès
Gabriel

5th Wave
Iggy
Moonriver
Dégoût
Zlata

6th Wave
Chloë
Roshan
Alpha
Beri
Kara

Special
Cilanti
Zak


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About Me
An introvert with social anxiety. I'm super shy and uncomfortable with people I don't know well. But once I get close to someone, I can be a little ball full of energy who loves goofing around but sometimes tend to speak before thinking her words first.


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yo

yo
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Hello, you two! ♥

Hello, you two!
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c:

c:
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Track! (:

Track! (:
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Thank you!

Thank you!
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>:0 !!! hiii

>:0 !!! hiii
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Hiii!!!

Hiii!!! Laughing out loud
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Good to see you back!

Good to see you back!
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Thanks! Long time I haven't

Thanks! Long time I haven't seen you! Smiling
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Same to you! Hopefully we

Same to you!
Hopefully we could meet up in the forest Laughing out loud
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Yes! Would be happy to!

Yes! Would be happy to! Laughing out loud
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Good good! ^^

Good good! ^^
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a late track oof

a late track oof

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Pls bring her c:

Pls bring her c:

Happy holidays!

Happy holidays!
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#exposed

#exposed
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There's nowhere you can hide

There's nowhere you can hide now. >:3
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Heartclock, how are you

Heartclock, how are you doing? Smiling
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Oh, hey Vessan! Sorry for the

Oh, hey Vessan!
Sorry for the late response. I've been pretty good, thank you!
Got a new job as an English teacher so I've been busy lately.

How about you?
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Jeeze what a

Jeeze what a coincidence!
Just got told I could teach english in prague...

Good to hear you're doing fine. I'm doing just dandy, bit overworked but dandy.
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Yeah, lol, what an odd

Yeah, lol, what an odd coincidence!

Well, good to hear! Wish you good luck~
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