05.05.24
I have come to the realization that having a stroke at 19 and not being allowed to go to the hospital or to a doctor has had more long lasting effects than I originally thought.
We believe it was a right hemisphere cerebrum stroke.
I never fully regained left side mobility. My ability to hold items will never be the same. I can barely draw, but I still try. The memory fog only just now is starting to lift, four and a half years later. One of my eyes is now even more colorblind, and my depth perception fluctuates. I can't always recognize my own hands (jump scare). So much damage left untreated because they wouldn't let me get help.
When I almost died of covid, a year later, I was also not allowed to seek help. My oxygen levels hit 72, my fever 105 F. I couldn't stay awake, and I couldn't breathe. I thought my roommates, the mice, would probably find me first. I was told I'd be "a waste of a hospital bed" by my mother.
I have long covid, lupus induced by covid, my fibromyalgia worsened, my already underdeveloped lungs were damaged, i developed asthma, and i have on and off vertigo.
I have realized a lot of things. But to the forest, thank you for helping me survive so much. I only survived 2017-2019 because of this community. I will always be able to breathe here, to feel like myself here.
To the reader, you are resilient. I love you. I see and hear you.
Stay safe.
04.26.24
It's funny because the rheumatologists still refuse to diagnose me after four years because I'm young. I'm sorry, is it the positive blood results or is it the having every possible symptom that's somehow not enough for you? "You're just too young!" Clearly I am not
03.29.23
still kicking, damn tired. missing the forest. lungs have been fighting me, so have my legs and my skin and my muscles. dear reader, you're still resilient even when you feel beat down. keep on going.
11.25.22
Think I got misdiagnosed, I have high blood markers for auto immune and oddly specific symptoms but rheumatologist doesn't think I have it. "Too young". My body hasn't fought off illness at all recently, concerned but still kicking! To the reader, you're more resilient than you think. I love you, and you got this!
10.06.22
Medical procedure this past week, chronic illness kicking my ass. Not doing great but still trying.
I keep finding myself here on the forums, despite the chaos and business of life. Something will always draw me back, a part of me was born here and I can't keep away.
7.12.22
I hurt all the time
Heilong, Damisona, and Jolos are current mains. Open to interaction for Jolos and Damisona, but Heilong is currently out of the forest.
1.18.21
Survived covid, permanent lung damage in my already literally undeveloped lungs. (And possible autoimmune. And fibromyalgia, unbeknownst to past me.)
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7.16.22
Notes for self: You want to write for Vatroslava and Iunia, and consider turning that purple design into an actual character. But your current goals are writing for Heilong, Jolos & Damisona, Iunia, and Vatroslava!
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Heilong ~ Picto ~ Bio
*My main child, a starry stag who has a lot to learn
♥ your cat's a beauty, thoSE EYES AA also I know what it's like to suffer from an eating disorder, if you ever need a listening ear please don't hesitate to send me a message. ♥
My dog has nightmares every night too. I'm not sure why, but she is a rescue and stressed often (very afraid of strangers). She already has gray hairs at age five. I call out her name and tell her she's a good girl and then she's fine. Maybe your kitty has had bad experiences before you got him?
Tink did have a lot of stress when she was separated from her mother, she's our only non-rescue pet however. My two dogs were horribly abused before we recused them, but my baby kitty hasn't faced anything so terrible. But maybe that could be it, her mother?
Could be! I think animals are just like us, and some people just tend to be more sensitive to these things. Another cat might've been fine but she could still miss her mother. Although, regular nightmares for that does seem a bit extreme... maybe see if anything else bothers her? Sometimes I play soothing music for my dog while she sleeps and it seems to help, btw.
Are you able to take some time for yourself? I've found that engaging in more self-care during times where I feel like that helps immensely.
No matter what, I believe in you. Always remember that, ok?
u guys told me to keep you updated on nana,
here is nana's updates.
Her cancer surgery went really well today, we are all overjoyed and relieved.
Thankyou guys for your prayers!!
thank you, it's not fun and has been a major adjustment, but i'm alive and that's good!
thank you for your kindness and for the strength, I hope you're doing well <3
As someone with disabling life-long chronic illness (including but not limited to! fibro, IBS and neuropathic dysautonomia), fuck that doctor. "Too young" in medical-speak translates to "I have no idea what I'm talking about and am not qualified to help you, but have too grand an ego to admit it". Don't give up. You are the only true advocate you have in the world.
Hey, tossercook! Sending you health vibes and forest nuzzles <3
Also, I've just come across your art of Damisona and Jolos and OMG it's so beautiful, can't believe I missed it when it was added!
<3 thank you guys
I'm fighting my best fight, and I'll try and keep myself hopeful enough to advocate for myself.
Thank you for the love and wishes
Ursch! Thank you:) I think I might keep that as my art style, I love how it looks like craft paper textured! I'm glad you enjoy it <3 many forest hugs
The texture (or rather the color) made me think of marble at first, but when I look closer at those parts where legs meet the body, yeah, it definitely looks more like paper.
In any case, the style is lovely and I think it's worth keeping it!
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screeches on in here
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♥ your cat's a beauty,
also I know what it's like to suffer from an eating disorder, if you ever need a listening ear please don't hesitate to send me a message. ♥
By Draak ♥
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Track! ❤ And a virtual
Oi, i will take a sit
took some pillows with me too!
My dog has nightmares every
Tink did have a lot of stress
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Could be! I think animals are
-Screams from heaven-
Oh I do hope all goes well
I really wish all the best
And i've been meaning to say I hope you enjoy your trip too, you're so lucky ♥
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Best of luck and lots of love
Thankyou guys
I think she'll be okay but I will keep this updated
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Are you able to take some
No matter what, I believe in you. Always remember that, ok?
You are not alone in this,
u guys told me to keep you
here is nana's updates.
Her cancer surgery went really well today, we are all overjoyed and relieved.
Thankyou guys for your prayers!!
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I'm rather late to finishing
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it's beautiful, thank you so
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[this feels weird but boost
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I really wish the best for
Sending strength to your way!
thank you, it's not fun and
thank you for your kindness and for the strength, I hope you're doing well <3
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As someone with disabling
Hey, tossercook! Sending you
Also, I've just come across your art of Damisona and Jolos and OMG it's so beautiful, can't believe I missed it when it was added!
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I'm fighting my best fight, and I'll try and keep myself hopeful enough to advocate for myself.
Thank you for the love and wishes
Ursch! Thank you:) I think I might keep that as my art style, I love how it looks like craft paper textured! I'm glad you enjoy it <3 many forest hugs
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The texture (or rather the
In any case, the style is lovely and I think it's worth keeping it!
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