The Fawn

"...can't you...
...hear us?"
"No...I don't. I don't! Leave me alone!"
The fever breaks then, for a moment. I see watery shapes swimming before my eyes that clear, becoming the forest. The forest? Was I here before?
I couldn't tell you.
"Your flowers are wilted...You should take better care of yourself..."
I see the little wilted purple flowers at my feet when I look down. Little dead things. I shiver and look away, shaking the rest from my antlers.
"Shut up. This is your fault."
I realize that I am standing in a patch of purple flowers, with little blue butterflies flitting around. One lands on my nose and I smile weakly, gathering up a few of the flowers for my own antlers.
The world starts swaying and I sit down, hard. My eyes close and I feel shaky again. Is the fever coming back?
I fight it off and stand again, listening. I want to know if there is somebody here, somebody that I remember. If I remember. I want to test myself.
Then I recognize her. I struggle towards her and she finds me as well. For a moment, I can't place why I know her.
Then I remember her. Tally, I've missed you so much...
You're so tiny now! That was really surprising. I know you'll still protect me though.
It was good to sit by you and feel so safe. I wish I could have held you up longer when you sat on my back, but I'm afraid I'm still too weak for that.
I suppose you still wonder why I'm afraid of fawns. I think I told you before, but there is more to it than that now. I wish I didn't have to see them...
At least those does with you were nice, and that one that came up later. For awhile, I was happy.
They wouldn't let it stay that way...
Their voices crept into my mind, one light gold, the other dark, dark red.

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[=gray] Name: Zuzanna, I prefer the nickname Z

Age: ...11...

Personality: I'm the 'dark' kind of human if you like.
My friends tell me that I'm the shadow of the day.
I'm not to kind and not to mean, maybe I'm more mean then kind though.
I usually prefer being alone... glaring... Somewhere.
I always wanted to be a wolf, they are so free... I always wanted to be free.

Health: 58% "Gtfo mosquietoes!"
Mental: 90% (will never reach 100)

Part Two of GingerNut's Diary~

I hate making cosplay accessories in general. I've just come back from my best friend's house after spending FIVE DANG HOURS trying to mold polymer clay into... yes... a mellennium ring from Yu-Gi-Oh.

*SHOT*

Yes, I'm going to Otakon this year and cosplaying as Bakura. I thought this would be easy. I thought this would be simple. I was wrong. Trying for two hours to fit six screweyes into baked polymer clay was pretty much my version of Hell. My friend and I basically spent quite a time cursing loud obsenities to noting in general while constantly repairing cracked clay.

They say that making your costume is half the fun, but is it really? If you are a fellow cosplayer, please share your frustrations as the anime con season rolls along. It'll make me feel better, that's for sure.

....Now I have to do english homework... Geh...

"When you close your eyes, Ice, what do you see? Tell me your feelings and wishes and dreams..."


"Touraga, my Daddy.. he's gone. For good..."

"I wish I had known him better in a way, I had only seen him once..."
"Mummy says that she had made the wrong choice between Touraga and Lorque. So now Lorque is my Daddy. I haven't seen him yet, but Mummy says he is gentle and kind. I hope she is right.."

"I heard of Rhapsody, another fawn, when I first entered the forest. I feel almost drawn towards him in a way, and I really want to meet him in-forest. I haven't got a friend at the moment, I think I move on too quickly before other fawns get to know me. I hear that when I'm older, and I have turned into a big deer, I might have a mate, a stag.. But I don't want to grow up.. I want to stay with Mummy and Daddy and be their little daughter, and Wish's sister.. But I know it will happen one day.. Even though I dont want it too.."

"What do you think, Voice of my dream?"

"Ice, just follow your heart and the path of your dreams. But I must go now.. I am tired..

"No, please Voice of my dream! Please stay.. Will I see you again?"

"Of course you will Ice.. Of course you will..."