Diary Entry

We look like we could be related!

(I'm not on my normal computer at the moment and have a dodgy mouse, you can be 99% sure that Ayal is not rearing or attacking you i've just failed in pressing the right emotion button. I think he scared some fauns today by accident.)

I woke up in the playground, the rocks stealing the warmth from my body now they had cooled down. They had been warmed by the sun when I had nodded off there yesterday afternoon. I stayed where i was trying to clear the fuzziness from my head, antlers feeling far too heavy as they tend to do when i wake up. Finally making it to my feet I stand and stretch out the kinks shaking my head to dislodge the morning dew from my antlers and taking slow steps as i make my way down the rocky terrain and off the playground.

I bellow into the still air and wait for a reply as I sniff the air trying to pick up a familiar scent, finally catching one and trotting off towards it slowing as I hear the sound of water. I find the little red deer Vala resting by a sleeping deer and after only a moment of introductions she has cast a spell on me turning me green and scaly. It does feel rather odd no longer having fur and as the new scales of the kirrin pelt begin to itch I sneeze it away and bowing to Vala trot off back away from the water only to stumble upon Stella with another deer.

I stop amazed wondering just who this stranger is, i've never seen the white doe with a friend before having always found her on her own. Its not long however before we are introduced and both of us trying to tempt the timid doe into some games. She rises to the challenge magnificently and soon we are all hopping around like spring rabbits and laughing so hard we roll over. I grew hesitant though as the prancing about took us closer and closer to the pond, the thought of going near such a large body of water terrifies me to the my core.

But c'mon...

Lately I've been feeling... Dunno, mostly forgotten, or invisible. There's a select few that still talk to me and stay close, but most people seem to be generally not-there. I mean, I've tried a few things to stay part of the community - Drawing people's deer as aliens, trying to hold a contest (Which only one person participated in! *dies*), interracting in forest (and mostly not recognising others anymore), and trying to RP when I have time, among those things. Even including others in stories, which I've mostly stopped writing since poeple don't seem to read them anymore or care to interract with my characters or keep them around. I don't know what people want anymore.
Now, my B-day just passed, and I did flag a statement that it was coming ahead of time, but the only response to that was people just saying 'happy b-day' on that one thread, and leaving it at that...

Yet other people with days in the same week get fanart and in forest parties.
I hate to complain or sound jealous, but I've been here a few years and wonder why I don't get nearly the same response. It kind of hurts, and I do feel a bit left out.

Seriously, I'm starting to wonder if I'm even still wanted around, of if anyone beside a very select few would notice if I dissappeared.

I'm sorry, I just don't know if I stand anywhere anymore. Its a bit selfish I guess, but it's been a long time that this feeling of abandonment has been over my head and I've been silent about it until now.

Hehe, Hiya People Of earth and Space

, Im Shiranui_Wolf, First Time Player, First Time Blogger XD, Anyway, Im Enjoying the Game so far, It would be nice to make new Friend's on here

. It's a Well done game, and i enjoy being on it

My Deer is called Jagara, She is in fact Female xP.

If some of you play WolfQuest you'll know me by
Mystic_Wolf
+ Shiranui +
xP, I've recently moved to the Shiranui Account, So you might not find me on mystic wolf But it's worth a look dont ya think xD...

This story is the continuation of Age. Fac ut gaudeam

If you have not been following this series then feel free to get caught up at the Story Hub.
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I can't be seen.... if I'm seen by someone, they'll hurt me, and if they hurt me, I'll hurt them... I have to hide.... I'm not normal... I was hurt because I'm not normal... he hurt me.... Everything hurts.... it hurts to think about it.... the memories.... the memories are terrible.... I want them gone, I need them out of my head.... I need them blown out of my head.... they all hurt, all of them, I need my brain shredded to bits, I want the pain gone, nobody would care..... but my Mother. My mother needs me.... my mother cares about me..... I think... I think that she cares about me.... I don't know.... but she needs me.... but I wish she didn't..... then I could make the memories leave..... forever....

Good, evil, nothing in the middle.
Love, hate, a never ending riddle.
Fact, fiction, nothing what it seems.
Awake, Sleep, never ending dreams.

How I so long for my purpose in life
Spreading its dubiousness, rampantly rife.
I can see my end, there clinging the knife...
Marching my soul to the sound of drum and fife.

Break the Glass, Break My Fall
Break my Heart, ...when in gall.
Break the Past, Break Your Thrall
Break the thought of we had it all...

Darkness in my hindsight, light ahead.
To shatter this curse and make amend.
Now struggling with the hate I had led.
Stopping the source of sorrow I had bred....

I’m so Alone...
Yet we are all that
Here, there, crying at home
Now, Then, tears to foam
Can you admit it?
Or do you cling to ignorance?
That makes you so “bold”
Every man faces death...
...Alone

This is just a tale of great passion
not one of great trend or fashion
Its my life of life I have lived alive
Now in continues forever in the mind

Make It Fast, Make Me Awe
Break my ignorance, ...when you start to call.
Make me gasp, Make me fawn
Make it start, so the love can dawn...

I have no excuses for the span of time.
But on the bright side! Some of it has no screenshots due to time being eaten by senior thesis. That said, there's still ~40 images ahead.

"I belong to a family now... I-I can hardly believe it. I haven't met my brother, Wish, yet, but I can't wait till I do. I know that he gets a bit scared sometimes, but I hope he isn't a wimp, I want to play with him! I met my Daddy today, it took a while to make him realise who I was, I think, he went to sleep for a bit then woke up, then he recognised me!"

"We went to the water fountain, where we changed into different animals. Daddy and I turned into two doves once! It was really fun. But then Daddy had to go, I was a bit sad, but I was glad I had found him."