UGGHH this is the second time I’m writing this up because I suck.
ANYWAY hi I’m back. There was way too much hilarity at Disney. Because my parents are kind of lame, we didn’t go to Magic Kingdom or Busch Gardens so none of that fun and no Jack Sparrow-related goodness. 8C I tried to perform all the tasks I was given but it was hard that’swhatshesaid so eeuughhnnn I DID MY BEST.
HERE WE GO.

Day 1:

We stayed in a creepy shady motel before flying to FL. Scored a room next to Santa.



Day 2:

Nothing much to do except trounce around Florida today. Most time was spent in this random kitschy place off the highway full of ancient carousal rides and hippy shops.


BAD ASS COFFEE is what that says. I wanted to go.


I don’t even.


Jack Daniel’s boxorz please. WHY COULDN’T I BUY THESE, MOM.


FOR U SARIE.


FOR U DANNII god this was creepy.


Only the best moment of my life ever, no big deal.



CARS CARS CARS there were sexy cars everywhere. Do want. Also when we got our rental car it was parked next to a black Camaro and I was like "FFFFFDHDHDHD" and instead we crawl into the dinky little Malibu next to it while I cried. This couple we knew who went also rented a Charger.

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It was difficult not to notice the amount of sheer dismay that coated her face, of which each glance that he stole sent a pang through his heart while he waited in the doorway. Slinging a white backpack over her shoulder, she approached the other man and wrapped her arms around his waist, holding on as if this was a final goodbye. His large hand touched the top of her head, stroking the ropes of hair reassuringly before urging her to go along with what was still essentially a stranger to her. Begrudgingly, she obeyed; gaze cast to the floor and feet shuffling in its wake. In the same moment, the two men locked eyes; one mainly unapologetic (bring her back in one piece), the other thwarted (wonder what you’ve been telling her about me).

The door shut behind them, sealing the faint animosity in its frame as the pair left silently. The bus ride was more or less a stage for forced chatting with long periods of her uninterested silence in-between. The dull and grimy window was all that seemed to hold her attention for the entire trip, even as she murmured answers for his questions painted with a layer of sincerity. Her fingers fidgeted with her woven bracelets the whole time; when he noticed, he eased off the small talk and wordlessly entertained the obvious.

She didn’t like him.

The vehicle’s hiss signaled their stop finally- and she wouldn’t have known it if the man hadn’t stood up, indicating she should follow suit. The frigid February air greeted them again on the outside, inciting a sniffle from the girl as a leftover favor of her earlier illness as she followed behind him toward the building.

The air inside was stale, but warm. Her disenchanted grassy green eyes flickered around as the elevator made its slow approach. She could tell that he wasn’t well off, monetarily speaking.

THIS THING IS SO COOL. o3o
Doe, you're the best. I lovelovelovelovelove it. <333333

(beep) …T? …You there?

I guess you’re out…hell you c-could be at work. I uh…I don’t know what day it is…pathetic, huh? Mhm, I found your l-letter. Lucky, I guess. Haven’t- …(silence)…god, sorry. Haven’t left this goddamn room in I guess a d-day…longer, maybe, I don’t know. Haven’t eaten, haven’t s-slept, haven’t moved.

Yeah I’ve been keeping to m-myself. Not doing great…I guess I didn’t want to scare you. I hate seeing you worried. Thought I’d just…give you break. You need it. (silence)

Yeah, you need it.

(muffled sigh) Sorry, T. I’m no good at this. You know, dying. You think you’re tough and…(forced chuckle)…then you r-realize it’s the worst fucking thing imaginable. I guess that’s what this is. And I’m n-not tough. Turns out this is way harder when y-you’re alone. S-so I was wrong. I need you. There’s no way I can…(silence, muffled sounds)… no way I can do this alone.

You’ve been great to me this far. Best thing that’s ever happened to m-me. Maybe it’s selfish…begging you to come make me happy…well I’m a selfish person.
I love you too. I don’t want to be alone anymo- (beep)

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5:36 AM

Staggering to the hallway. Wooden slats creaking in protest as cold feet dragged him stiffly to its end. The overhead light bulb flickers on, washing over the living room area with a hazy yellow. Hands clutched to his sides in an effort to unsuccessfully suppress the crippling pain. Swimming through his conscious, devoid of much else, was the affirmation that this was the most painful experience he could clearly remember. The drywall had to hold him up now, as standing there alone was too much to ask. Skin hot to the touch and head searing with a fiery ache, a pair of shadowed eyes searched franticly for relief. There, against the far wall.

Movement was torture but in time, a warm hand grasped the iron lock and freed the window from its old, chipped frame. Frigid air swept in as morning dragged itself across the sky, and the traces of yesterday’s snowfall continued to float down in fleeting white specks. That rush of air felt like nothing less than a gift from the angled peaks of the soulless, gray city as it lay fixed in static points that broke the deep blue expanse. Eyes closed, he stood motionless in front of the gaping window as the icy wind whipped across his bare chest.

5:54 AM

Vision now blurry, the soft monotony of running water drowned out the imaginary pitch screaming in his head. Standing doubled over the aluminum kitchen sink, arms tightly wrapped across his stomach, he stared down lifelessly at the drain as it gathered the wasted water. Even the New York December chill that brushed across his shoulders still wasn’t enough to calm the feverish heat invading the core of his body. He coughed, covering it with a fist and quickly averted the sight after glancing down at the spatter of red on his fingers. The water took it away.

These are absurdly rushed and crappy, but hey, it's something. xD
There will be a few more for New Years because I ran out of time- so watch for another batch in a few days.

Enjoy, & happy holidays.




Cybil for Trinket


Kaoori for Kaoori


Olive for Hubalaboo


Squeegie for Squeegie


Quad for Quad


Gavin and Cheat for Scythe


Aspen for Sarie


Her for Her


Laruna for Laruna


Fulu for Raku


Aegle for Aegle (told you I'd color it some day |D)


Mystress for CelticMystress


Kinsha for Pega


Oz for Fayne (and you have a set of Zombieland avatars coming your way too xD)





Don't ask me why they're all different sizes. |D

| I'm going to need something to do while I'm barricaded inside my house with snow piling up outside. So feel free to humor me and join in, as long as you're willing to keep it "literate". And I can't guarantee the content here will be PG. 8D|

All three of my characters are available in human or deer form: Fledermaus, Masque, & Desanm.

I have a list of totally random and meaningless trivia about my deer/my TEF experience. None of it is particularily interesting, but I thought at least someone might get a kick out of it. Like those pop-up videos VH1 has sometimes, filled with useless facts. 8D

Here's a handfull of 'em:

- Fledermaus was originally the blond. WOAH. I even have a long-time ago sketch of this that will never see the light of day.

- Desanm's picto bears an identical piece to part of Masque's (the vertical line with the small box attatched to the top left)

- Fledermaus' original set had the orca mask instead of the magpie, he wore it for a god couple of months before changing.

- Masque's original set had the magpie antlers instead of the fan antlers, I changed them because they weren't intimidating enough.

- This is obvious, but Fledermaus and Masque have the inverse of each other's sets (Great Argus and fan).

- The color codes for both of them have a 'cb' in them, which I didn't realize until waaay later, I just picked them at random. Spooky.

- I downloaded TEF in Fall of 2007- but due to a bad wireless network I was never able to play and forgot about it, until I came home for the summer (2008) and tried it again, and I've been in lurve since then. :3

- I found out about TEF through a posting by on a forum I used to frequent for about 4 years (RWTW!) Also from that forum were Corgi, frith, Ghost, and Wuffers.

- I had a hard time choosing a name for Desanm. Some of my options were: Devanjou (meaning dawn), Livè (meaning winter), Lotus, & Jade. Like any of them better? ;D

- The surname Rineheart has about a billion variations. It was originally Rhinehart, an allusion to both the Rhine river in Germany and the term for a male deer, a hart. As a surname, it means "determined". The first variation is just more aesthetically pleasing to me. xD

- I had no intention of having more than 1 deer for the longest time.