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January 3, 2010 - 10:42pm — Fledermaus

(beep) …T? …You there?

I guess you’re out…hell you c-could be at work. I uh…I don’t know what day it is…pathetic, huh? Mhm, I found your l-letter. Lucky, I guess. Haven’t- …(silence)…god, sorry. Haven’t left this goddamn room in I guess a d-day…longer, maybe, I don’t know. Haven’t eaten, haven’t s-slept, haven’t moved.

Yeah I’ve been keeping to m-myself. Not doing great…I guess I didn’t want to scare you. I hate seeing you worried. Thought I’d just…give you break. You need it. (silence)

Yeah, you need it.

(muffled sigh) Sorry, T. I’m no good at this. You know, dying. You think you’re tough and…(forced chuckle)…then you r-realize it’s the worst fucking thing imaginable. I guess that’s what this is. And I’m n-not tough. Turns out this is way harder when y-you’re alone. S-so I was wrong. I need you. There’s no way I can…(silence, muffled sounds)… no way I can do this alone.

You’ve been great to me this far. Best thing that’s ever happened to m-me. Maybe it’s selfish…begging you to come make me happy…well I’m a selfish person.
I love you too. I don’t want to be alone anymo- (beep)

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