well, here it is. I read this is to become a "first generation" picto. Fascinating.

I'm not sure why I can't seem to connect. I've noticed a lot of people seem to have this problem, but I'm not sure how to fix it. Many people are advised to check out their firewall, but my firewall is definitely not the issue. And the game runs, but it crashes upon closing, and it gives me an Error when I try to connect to the network. I don't even get the option to log in. D:

What could be the problem? Playing around on my own is nice and all, but I want to see others!

Lots of fun times and deer lately


Skull mask party? lol

Hey guys, I think I mentioned to a few of you before that my Dad was going through some tough times with cancer. If I haven't told you what was going on, here's basically what has happened:

Dad developed cancer last year. They tried chemotherapy and it helped but didn't get rid of it, so they operated on him. The operation was successful, and he had two colostomies put in.

We thought everything was fine, and then he developed liver cancer. They originally said that it was the kind where they could remove that part of his liver and it would regenerate, but instead they decided to do more chemotherapy.

Well, weeks went by, and the chemo didn't help. Didn't hurt, but it didn't do anything to the cancer.

Today, they said that his cancer has spread to pretty much everywhere in his lower stomach area, and that there's nothing more they can do. Operating on him would be useless since it's spread so much. They will continue to do chemotherapy to try to help him out, but as far as fixing it, it's not going to happen.

So all the grief and trouble we've gone through trying to make my dad better has gone to waste. The doctor didn't give him a life expectancy, but now we can pretty much say that it's only a matter of time. What I understand is that if the liver fails, his brain could shut down.

It's really hard to think about, especially since this month I'll be in the western US for four weeks. This could be my last week to spend with him if...well...it happens during my trip. I'm praying not, I'm hoping that I'll be able to come home in June and he'll still be here watching sports and telling me game show trivia. I'm really hoping so.

Please, if you get the time, keep my dad and my family in your prayers. It'll really help, no matter what happens.

Please read the updates in the comments, but Dad passed away on 7/24/10 at about 5:30 AM.

I know he's at peace and am glad he isn't suffering anymore.

Maybe I'm just blind to drama, but...
What the heck? People leaving left and right... or threatening/hinting to leave.
This is not just on TEF either. People I know on Deviantart are resigning as well! Heck, even the person in charge of the "Blood Sport" competition I'm in just retired.
C'mon, what's with this? Is it just the season for leaving or something?

Personally, I've been dealing with way too much IRL crap and find the internet and communitys to be my main if not only source of peace. I swear I'm about to quit my job, or explode on someone IRL. I actually had a pretty bad fight with my mother today after she basically got too... well, let's say rude... pushy... ect. Frankly, I'm under too much stress.

But this isn't about me.

It's... saddening to see the people I look foreward to seeing dissappear so suddenly.
Not just on TEF.

I mean, heck, I don't get 4 messages a week on DA anymore it seems.

I don't know what's going on... and I don't like to be ignorant to these things...
Someone just... CLUE ME IN. Geez. :/

When I was around eight years old, Layla died. She was a bouncy but gentle, black labrador, who was my best friend I had and have had. She was only five when it happened, and we had known each other since I was three. I took her for walks every moment I could, and I loved her incredibly, although she belonged to my neighbor. As I got older, school took over, and my parents only allowed me to take her for walks on the weekends, if at all. The last time I saw her was when she escaped from her house, and I saw her romping around in the back garder, out of my bedroom window. We hurried her back home, not realising we would never see her again.

I'm not sure if she knew, somehow, what was going to happen, whether it was a goodbye. Whatever it was, I took no notice then. I didn't even say 'bye' or 'love you'. I walked away. Still, after so many years, I am still mourning. I dont think I ever got over her death. I never let it sink in. I'm always hoping, that it was all a bad dream. That Layla, the bouncy black labrador, will appear in my back garden again.

You dont have to read it, I just needed to tell someone about her, how much I miss her.