On the Inside
This is a work in progress.
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kind, calm, patient, respectful, accepting, protective, caring, supportive, rational
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distant, passive, detached, powerful, proud, awkward, naïve, conflicted
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an acute fear of rejection, indifferent, brooding, cynical, cold, hidden madness
There is a vast ocean of tranquility inside him, endless as the sky, seemingly bottomless. The surface is calm, mirror-like, still. Deeper down, the water becomes murky, moving. Currents dragging downwards, into the real depths, where there are only shadows and blackness and everything is utterly still; or so it seems. Sometimes you can sense large things moving down there, slowly and inorexably like time itself.
The raven stag has lived for a very long time. Not even his closest friends know exactly how old he is, and if you would ask him you would likely get a rather vague answer.
The years are a heavy burden; he has scars to show for it. The most obvious is the large scarred patch of skin directly over his throat, a reminder of a particularly nasty fall. This is one of the reasons he doesn't talk much — the other being embarassment over his voice. There is a long story behind the scar, but for now, the midnight stag has not yet revealed how it happened.
Other scars are not so visible. Most of them are in his mind, patches of black thoughts and openings into dark undercurrents. One of them, perhaps the most noticeable, is 'Mother' — a silent entity created unconsciously, likely as a coping mechanism, in a time of great need and desperation. Ephiré often talks to her, especially in the Forest, where she (in his mind) has taken the shape of the largest of the pagan statues beside the Ruins. Mother is a constant source of comfort and security but also shame and guilt.
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On the surface he is calm and collected, polite and patient. Sometimes he might come across as a bit cold and reserved; perhaps a bit distant, depending on the situation. He doesn't talk much with those he doesn't know.
Behind this calm and collected facade, there lies a deep and old fear: rejection. He is often lingering in the distance, seldom approaching others. Never would he dare disturb you and your friends peace - but he wants to, in his heart he longs for the company of others. Fate seems to have decided otherwise, as loneliness has always been his lot.
He is slow to anger, much like a slowly waking storm, gathering clouds and building up over time until thunder and heavy rain is unevitable. This is something that doesn't happen very often, though. Most of the time his anger will dissipate and flee before it breaks loose.
He tries not to judge others by appearances or deeds, but sometimes it is inevitable - unneccessary violence, rudeness, and very dominant behaviour are things he is not fond of. Those who atttack those who are unable to defend themselves are especially frowned upon.
He is protective of his friends and companions, but only if they need or craves protection.
While it sometimes may not show, he is very caring - often taking time to go check on wounded or sick deer he knows, even those he might not be on best terms with.
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Stalking this utterly
Meet Virgil
Meet The Crew
Apeldille's first is the
Anyway, this is a nice looking bio.
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Gorgeous o3o I love the way
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Wow, this is beautiful! <3
MoonlitStar and Hubalaboo:
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Heellooo Apel! *waves*
Good to see you 'round here! I love your deer and your bio for them. And your art is fascinating as always! <3
See you in the Forest! :3
Lightcreator
Thankyou Flyra! :} My deer:
My deer: X
No problem! ;D It was nice
It was nice dancing for a short while with Ephiré in the rain. <3
Lightcreator
ah, so Ephiré was the one
he's such a sweetheart <33
amazing pictures, by therrrr way @___@
Ephiré~ gotta loev~
Vir is developing a good
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The respect is mutual My
My deer: X
Love the art, it's gorgeous.
Ephiré sounds like someone Fledermaus would like to meet sometime- I think they would get along.
I've seen Ephire a few times
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Jeesus. xDDDDDDDDD I hope
I hope you didn't mind how serious that flirting got. xDDDDD;
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Of course I don't mind, it
My deer: X
I'm sure with the way things
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Perhaps That will be...
My deer: X
" Thank you Ephirée, for
Nice to meet you, and thanks for helping my doe Lady Gwenhwyfar (:
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He shakes his head and
Ephiré is happy he could be of assistance
My deer: X
Sorry about the stuff that
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He was just horribly
My deer Ephiré
I'll have Vir tell him
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Missing you already! Hope
Hope you're having fun where ever you are.
Virgil
Welcome back! 8D Sorry for
Sorry for poofing, got boot'd. 8D
Virgil
"Sir, how do you ever manage
Virgil
*shakes head*"Know not.
(Eph has trouble speaking xD What he is trying to say is that he has never thought about the antlers, since he is used to them, and he enjoyed Virgil's company very much this fine morning :] )
My deer Ephiré
<3Muchlove, muchlove~ Nine:
Nine: Eph, did you see it.. ? They came right from his belly! I didn't think anything like that could happen to a stag- I hope I don't ever have to endure anything like that, EVER.. !
I really enjoy hanging with you guys~ as either of my deer. c:
9 Wook nameless No Walkeri
Twitterpated! _____ The
The Noble Guardian
Twitterpated bwuh? I must
My deer Ephiré
It's a bambi word. xDDD Uh,
Uh, basically it describes hoppyhappylovestruckdeerinspring? xDDDD
The Noble Guardian
Ah x) My deer Ephiré
My deer Ephiré
Sorry if Hummingbird was
Sorry if Vir and I are being
The Noble Guardian
You too, VCG? Everyone's
Everyone's sick now o_o
"Are you avoiding me.. ? I
Did Eph even see Nine this(morning?)? Or was he being avoided.. ? o ^ o; If he was, that makes the second deer he knows that's rejected him in less than a day ffff.
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Nine(9) is my main deer.
Ahh sorry for disappearing
I had to put the pond file back in! ill be back soon...when I can get the pictograms to spread =3
Oh no, he wasn't avoiding
or wait, now I'm confused. Eph met Nine today? o.O And Nine wanted to change his pelt? ...right?
My deer Ephiré
Yep. Even I saw you both
Before you came back with
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Nine(9) is my main deer.
Ah! Then it was me being
Eph says sorry and hopes there will be more nuzzles later :B
My deer Ephiré
Bawr~ Forgiven, forgiven.
Forgiven, forgiven. c:
Ninekins sends his nuzzles, then!
By the by, do you have AIM or MSN?
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Nine(9) is my main deer.
Yesyes, I have msn (I'm not
My deer Ephiré
Okokok, luvs, I'll add you
Unless I'm REALLY busy or distracted, I'm always on.. so I'm sure I can pester you if I see you~ <3
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Nine(9) is my main deer.
pff... 45 fps... -is jealous
ajdhkalhdladhljadh! Giselle
Usually it isn't that high,
It's because I have nature details on low and there is few deer in-forest :3
My deer Ephiré
The other deer is Kayl,
The Noble Guardian
First of all, what a yummy
Dag has met him a few times in the forest now and finds him very pleasant =)
Edit: Mini Ephiré is adorable X3
[Dag]