The Fortress; Iaurdagnire

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  • PLAYER / CONTACT 08.03.20

    Jay's passing is still sore, I find myself thinking about him if I'm driving in the rain. He has brought to light that I've not really been living for a while; my hobbies were consumed by work, so I'm making an effort to get those back or at least find new ones.

    One of which is enjoying a certain fantasy deer characters again, at least low key now that I've brought my old pc back from the dead. Maybe Dag will see you in forest sometime?

    He'll be 11 years old on the 21st March (:


    Characters

    Uuo (OOC) False God (special use)
    Kusakage (inactive) Kyte (inactive)
    Sulfur (event demons)

    Contact Info

    Discord: Find me as 'Dag' in The Endless Forest Server, feel free to add me!





"His presence seemed to be the Forest itself, loving and wise and without grudges or harbored shadows." - silentlikethat

        
{ I a u r d a g n i r e THE FORTRESS

Respected - Wise - Humble - Good-humoured - Articulate - Righteous - Authoritative - Dutiful - Fearless - Fatherly
Timeworn - Intelligent - Diplomatic - Limitless - Reliable - Altruistic - Resolute - Gentle - Charismatic - Genuine


"He walks with a gawky elegance, breaking the top of the hill. His hill. Though he hardly guards it with the malice of a dog.
Instead, this is where they gather. To play, to sit...to know that not everyone will belittle them." - Mjrn


Today
     A sight-seeing tour of the forest with his lady love as if everything was brand new.

Calm.
Alive.

Yesterday
    






    Identity }
    Dag's full name is pronounced 'I-or-dag-nyre', and was given the title 'The Fortress' in recognition of the guardianship he gives to and inspires in others. He is a symbol of unyielding strength of will and exhibits an impenetrable, one-pointed focus to rise above any situation. The emblem of victory - the Peregrine Falcon - still remains with him from his first and very old title of 'Wings of Peregrine'.
21st March 2009 | Pictogram
Stomping Grounds | Fireside | Valley View | Dandelion Hill | Sanctuary

    The Fortress }
    Voice - Deep bass; an equal balance of gentility and authoritative power associated with a voice of moral substance and leadership. Feral vocalizations are rare from him, though he is known to produce brontidal rumbles and has an extraordinarily low, growling bellow.
    Scent - His scent is very gustatory - likened to the smoulder of a warm, damp bonfire in the middle of open fields; burnt soil of old forests long gone.
    Build - Based on an old-world ice giant Eucladoceros species; the first species of deer genus to have highly evolved antlers yet is a primitive mass of strong bone and muscle. His body type is a visually solid domination with a dense muscular structure most noticeable around his barrel-chest and shoulders, reinforcing the relatively short, strong neck that bares the weight of a heavy square skull - resembling more bull than deer - and its gargantuan artillery; both of which being the most prominent indication of his skeletal bulk. Being top-heavy, his posture is almost restricted to one position when still. A long body means legs are stationed far apart to accommodate and spread the weight, and his head is always held high in balance giving him a kingly air, which is also reflected in his fluid and powerful gait. At full speed, there is very little that can stop his bulldozer momentum.
    Antlers - Fortress by design. Supernumerary, elongated branched-antlers where the beam has grown outward behind him, tines growing upward; his outer primary tines are the largest and grow into long forward-facing pincers. There are 12 tines per pedical and are split into four sets, all of which together are specifically designed to interlock with any antler type. Central clusters suited to single beam pronged deer, outer and brow tines designed for the larger supernumerary or palmated antlers such as Irish Elk. They are incredibly thick, astonishingly heavy, and an impenetrable defense that cannot be breached.
    Visual - His coat is made up of dense, varying shades of grey that give him an overall arsenic colouration, but his mane and face are the most striking; dirty white for the most part with a carnelian-red pattern draped around the contours of his beady-eyed, frill-cheeked face. The white of his mane continues only half-way under his stomach, and ends in a point with a very thin separating line of charcoal.
There is also an enormous patch-scar that tears through the left side of his neck which is coupled with the nick in his ear on the same side. This was given to him by the Spring Wolf in 2010*.
    Conqueror - Being the placid giant he is, Dag never lowers his antlers without reason; rarely has his combat been seen within the peaceful confines of the forest. However, heed the warning of his scar. Events leading up to his present existence shed further light on this war-hardened battler. There is something prehistoric and almost predatory about his combat - the misfortune of colliding with such a monolith is simply an all-sensory deluge.

    Antediluvian }
     Iaurdagnire's story has become that of Endless Forest legend, starting in 2009 and ending in 2013. His story involves the Forest, the Gods, and the spiritual embodiment of the Seasons whom he served with perpetual lives as a God-given duty. Dag wanted to escape, and continually fought for a life and death that was his to dictate; to cease to be a higher power's fuel for intellectual evolution. But in learning about his place in the world and a way to put an end to his duties, he became even more lost. Ultimately, Dag's story is an exploration of purpose and morality in all forms, and almost entirely community driven. The community has been involved in each section in some way, and these are referred to as "Season Events" by those who have participated; the events were designed for everyone to enjoy, regardless of the story.
Winter '09
Crackéd Smile
"I am here as a friend."
Autumn '09
I: Collapse the Light
II: Numb the Infection
III: I'd choose right now
Spring '10
I: Brontide
II: Thunderclap*
III: Colossus
IV: Oblivion
Summer '10
I: Fissure
II: Ignite
III: Mountain Masquerade
Autumn '10
I: Duty
II: Ender
III: Nothing Gold can Stay
Winter '11
I: Splinter
II: Restrain
Spring '11
I: Hesitance
II: Acrid Lullaby
III: Amalgamate | †
IV: Play the Hand
you are Dealt | †

Catalyst '11
Incubus | Reprise
I: Jack to the King
II: Overthrow
III: Start Your Descent
War Drum '12
I: Long Live the King
II: Dandelion Hill
III: Warrior Hysteria
IV: Wasteland Soldier
V: Your Supremacy
Elysium '13
The Fortress and The Raven | Epilogue
 
 
 

Background art by J!n

    Core }
    Ravenflight - The Queen His love and greatest treasure; indescribably bound to her like no other. Their history had long ran parallel, and although their paths crossed only rarely in bygone years, they were connected by a deep empathy for their respective trials and desire for freedom. Behind closed doors they each played a part in helping each other fulfill a purpose in order to escape, and then found themselves lost without it. When Dag returned to the forest, Ravenflight tried to help him re-adjust through her understanding of what it is like to feel truly detached from the world around you. As they spent more time together, Dag increasingly began to dote on her and fell very deeply in love. Captivated by her in every way. Ravenflight has given him a new purpose, and Dag is utterly devoted to her continued happiness. Adores and is enchanted by everything she is.
    Cry - The Ace Guardian; a source of security; life indebted to. Dag has known Cry for a long time, and upon his return was healed by him (see 'War Drum' Act V). Displays an affectionate "big brother" attitude towards the small white stag when around him.
    Ephiré - The Jack An unspoken natural affinity; indebted to. The two giants have much in common with the way they cope with the world around them, and it is this understanding that lead Ephiré to become the catalyst in Dag's journey (see 'Catalyst' story arc Act I-III). Has a profound trust in him and admires him greatly. He is also the only deer within the forest to have witnessed the full brunt of Dag's combat.
    Virgil/The Red - Part of the Fortress' strong foundations. One of his oldest friends of a different world to his own, wild and unrestricted. At the time of his trials, Dag thought of Virgil's existence as "real", moreso than his own and one he wanted to achieve. Events between then and now strongly effected Dag, but their friendship remains strong and has been rebuilt. [to be re-written]





  • Bonus Material

    Autumn '09 Act III: I'd choose right now, was the first song 'read along' blog to appear on TEFC (to my knowledge!).
    War Drum '12 Act V: Your Supremacy was my most successful community-wide event, where 68 TEF players participated.


    Antediluvian - There are two reasons why I chose to use this word for Dag and his story. The first is that it was originally a biblical word meaning the time between the creation of earth and the great flood/deluge myth; a narrative in which a great flood is sent by a deity to destroy in an act of divine retribution (the Spring Wolf). A parallel of this is a metaphor of rebirth, which was the premise of Dag's rebellion against his original purpose. Secondly, the modern meaning for this word is simply to be old fashioned/ancient in the most possible way (as if they lived before the great flood).

    Playing card references - A great metaphor for life in general, where one must simply play the hand they are dealt, good or bad. One of my favourite card games is Whist, where the object of the game is to simply score the most "tricks" by having the highest card in the suit that is being played. Therefore the cards you would like to see in your hand are the highest: Ace, King, Queen and Jack. The Jack is a good card to have, because it will generally weed out the other players higher cards in their desire to win the hand, so it is more common for you to lose that round but win others as you have exhausted the other players good cards. The Jack was the role of Ephiré, in Jack to the King. He killed Dag - referenced as the King - and although the hand appeared to be lost, the game was not over. The card that trumped Velocity's hand was the Ace, Cry, in Your Supremacy.

    As a character, Dag was originally inspired by naturally powerful characters like Mufasa from The Lion King and Riki from Ginga Nagareboshi Gin - characters the hero-type protagonists typically look up to for guidance and leadership.



 
 
 
 
 
 
ocean's picture

Claimed your page. :j God I

Claimed your page. :j

God I love all of these. ♥
Iaurdagnire's picture

Munk - Nice call on the

Munk - Nice call on the colour (;
Hrae - I have to admit that the clean-ness is mostly down to my epic Canon scanner hehe. Hope you like Noe!
Dinamo - Aw you always miss these rare opportunities! One day you'll get one. If you wish upon a staaaar~
But seriously, thank you. (:
Ocean - How dare you. <3
Hraeth's picture

Hhnnngbuh. ;A; She's amazing.

Hhnnngbuh. ;A;
She's amazing. You've drawn her just right and yes, that's how the feathers are. Sorry about the reference. Or lack there of. I never actually got around to making one for her. She's perfect, though. I'm in love with how you drew her face and everything else. :'D
Starling's picture

THESE ARE ALL SO AWESOME T_T

THESE ARE ALL SO AWESOME T_T Lol, it doesn't look like a chicken.
And Noelle's is lovely too *-*

aksjdkj ._. Dag, she's

aksjdkj ._. Dag, she's beautiful. ♥ Thank you for doing this~
Iaurdagnire's picture

Hrea - Thanks, I quite like

Hrea - Thanks, I quite like her face too. "My ass-kicking sense is tingling..."
Starling - Haha thank you! I think I'll be able to fix it up a bit when I'm able to cut it out.
Morbid - (: Well, thank you for requesting her!
Hart's picture

So I just got your voicemail,

So I just got your voicemail, and don't have any credit left to send you a message that otherwise would have consisted with a simple FUUUUCKKKK YOUUUU
ROFL you ass XD <3
Iaurdagnire's picture

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Corell's picture

Thats bad, really bad. Dag,

Thats bad, really bad.
Dag, please stay strong, we know you can! I Love you more than everything. ♥
eyestrain's picture

By email, too...

By email, too... wow.


That's the kind of behavior that could go down in history or legend (in ways not to treat your partner).

I don't strive to be the best, but instead I strive to do my best, and always give it my all every time.
-faunet
Ourania's picture

Wow, how considerate of them

Wow, how considerate of them /sarcasm >:{


Good to see you Eyestrain <3
Iaurdagnire's picture

Corell - Awh thanks dear, I'm

Corell - Awh thanks dear, I'm fine though. It's just one of those... can't help but laugh and fall into a hole type of things.
Eyestrain - Very happy to see you around again, by the way. Was wondering about you.
Haha yes, yes indeed. Though to be honest I pretty much knew there was someone else anyway. Doing the math I think we'd been broken up for just over a month - does she move on quick after a 4-year relationship or am I just slow? 8|

Oh my god... that's horrible.

Oh my god... that's horrible. I know how you feel, my best friend actually sent me an Email quite like that.

But never forget, we all love you! ^^
eyestrain's picture

I live. And I'm glad that you

I live. And I'm glad that you are a strong person. Sometimes we fall into these pits, but it is truly admirable to climb up and out again.

I don't strive to be the best, but instead I strive to do my best, and always give it my all every time.
-faunet
Iaurdagnire's picture

Hm, pits seem to get bigger

Hm, pits seem to get bigger every time though.
The way I see it... I'm not going to allow myself to get sad about it. I was over her, and this just seals the deal. Best thing to do is to laugh at the ridiculousness; having this place to do so is quite nifty.

Pretty much the only sadness I have is over my best friend, and I don't think I'll ever give anyone the satisfaction of making me feel worse for their sake. He was my 1 achievement, and the rest of my world is collateral damage. -airpunch-
Sighthoundlady's picture

That email @_@ Whoa. It’s

That email @_@ Whoa.

It’s important to realize though that it’s reflection of their own inadequacies and not you. Which I think you get.
FaunGrae's picture

And why did they ever think

And why did they ever think to inform you anyway? Dumbass.

ForTwoLifetimes, Moonsoverwater, PandaXiongMao, MissButterflyCaught, FaunGrae, All the same, a friend with many names.
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What a dick move D:

What a dick move D:<
I think it'll be wise to close any ties with her if you got a friendship with her :B

Seriously, what the fuck? I'm

Seriously, what the fuck?
I'm sorry, Dag. People are just fucking jerks. You're better off without, you awesome critter. ♥
BluedeerLegend18's picture

I just saw that episode, now

I just saw that episode, now every time I see that one clip I'm going to be reminded of how many people in this world are jerks.

It's okay. Their jerks and you shouldn't care about them.
I have a Master's degree in Wumbology.
Aivilo's picture

"Doing the math I think we'd

"Doing the math I think we'd been broken up for just over a month - does she move on quick after a 4-year relationship or am I just slow? 8|"

Having been in that exact situation just a few months ago, I can say that sometimes shit just happens that way and you find a good friend who helps you move on, and at some point you both realize there's something there worth trying. Granted, reality may not always be the more benign option, but what I mean to say is that it isn't necessarily that you were unloved and "easy" to get over. The days I don't still think about my ex are few and far between, even though I've been dating someone else for months now.

Emailing you about it, however, and with such crass wording on top of that, was a dick move she should be slapped for. What the hell, man? I know I don't know you well at all, but I'm more than comfortable saying that you deserve way better than that.
Flyleaf's picture

Damn ...i hate when this

Damn ...i hate when this happens ....why does love not lasts forever ? And breaking up with a mail ...coward !!!
I hope you feel better soon !!!
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Silverpaw15's picture

Oh wow. I can't say that I

Oh wow. I can't say that I have any particular experiences of this, but man. That's a really shitty way to say something like that. =/

You're an amazing person and I can say that with 100% certainty. Hang in there and do feel free to talk if you ever feel like it.

*hug*
Kaoori's picture

I think it says something

I think it says something when you feel like your animal companion trusted you more than the one you loved

I learned that a long time ago.

Animals are amazing.
Silverpaw15's picture

Amen. Seriously. I agree with

Amen. Seriously. I agree with this post on so many accounts.
I've never really been in a relationship so doing the type of self-analysis like you did is a bit hard, but the main points are definitely there.
I've always thought that love is caring. It doesn't really have much room for selfish thoughts. It's about accepting someone as they are, and cherishing it. Sure, people disagree over things, but that's to be expected. What's left even after those disagreements is what counts.

Oh, and I'm glad you're okay. Don't go having too many of those close-calls or you're going to cause long distance heart attacks to some of us here. o_o
Iaurdagnire's picture

Kimi (: Also just want to

Kimi (:

Also just want to say thanks for all the people who commented with various what-the-fuckeries to that email as well. It was comforting to know I wasn't being... stupid. Aivilo, thank you too (:
Flyleaf's picture

We all are giving you a BIG

We all are giving you a BIG "HUG" !!!
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Iaurdagnire's picture

Awh silver, thanks. Though

Awh silver, thanks. Though it'll take a lot more than a dumb tree to take me out I'm sure. I'm a ninja in my car. Ask Vee, she's terrified of my driving, haha.
I think love is probably one of the most difficult things to grasp. Because when you're in it, you're completely blind of anything wrong to begin with. You're up in the clouds, but then what comes up must come down and if you get it right you might just land on your feet together.

Or faceplant the ground by yourself, like I did. -jazzhands-

Eeep! -hug attacked by Flyleaf-
Hraeth's picture

You're friggin'

You're friggin' awesome.
S'all I can say.
Apparanza's picture

/ginormous hug from Ranza

/ginormous hug from Ranza ♥ B|

By Leuvr
Munkel's picture

I'm allergic to animals too

I'm allergic to animals too haha, but I loved our first cat so so much, she was one of my best friends too. And same goes to our young cat. I know what you mean with them being a better friend than some people ♥
I was depressed for months after our first cat died. All this time without a loving animal at home... I think they're really important.

Keep your chin up ♥!

It's really really good to

It's really really good to read you more like your old self again, your sense of humor is back! :'D
This year better treat you better, or I might have to break some hypothetical year-knees.
Corell's picture

I don't know what words I'm

I don't know what words I'm going to use, I just know how it feels to lose a animal that means alot to you. ♥♥♥
Hart's picture

That was a nice read... I've

That was a nice read...

I've never had a long relationship, just never felt the right feelings when I tried, and when the feelings did exist they were unable to be returned. lol


There are things I do look for in a partner, but at the same time maybe it's best not to start with romance until I become more sure of myself and who I am, and get a job at least. But I'd like someone who can teach me things, social skills, show me their world, tolerate my insecure nature but not too much that they make silly sacrifices for me (of course family comes first!), but enough to reassure and try to understand my feelings however hard it might be.
Unfortunately appearance is a factor to me, I have a thing for flat chested women actually haha (big boobs terrify me!). I think... I try to make myself look like what I find attractive actually. So short spikey hair, glasses, awesome clothes. Must be an animal lover. I'd like someone who's eager to travel and see my world! (I CAN SHOW YOU THE WORRRLLLD~)

I guess I'm not ready for a real relationship yet... Oh man, 20 and still never had my first kiss? FML ROFL

(btw sent your xmas gift, should arrive in a couple of days!)
Amazon's picture

&hearts;

ocean's picture

"I didn't want to be loved. I

"I didn't want to be loved. I just wanted to love her, that was all. See, that's it! All I want to do is love someone, and have someone accept me and allow me to do that. That's what I think love is; to want to care unselfishly. To not... demand or expect certain things "because I am the most important thing in your life, if you love me." No-no, that isn't correct at all. That is like... some game that young teenage lovers play. Toying with what jealousy can drive the other to do, threatening the other if they are not treated a certain way above all others. "

Respect for you: +9000 (and it was already high, lol)

You're a good person Dag and you'll find her, whoever she is.

"I fucking love the piano

"I fucking love the piano (hey shimmy ;D LOL I'm kidding don't panic!)."

-RUNS-
Ahaha
But seriously though I envy you for being able to conjure up such a deep self analysis.
Can't really think of anything cool to say, so I'll just mention you're amazing and hop on out.

Also Rip-butt hair. Brilliant. xD
FaunGrae's picture

Took a ton of courage to put

Took a ton of courage to put this here, Dag, and admit to your mistakes to actual people. Way more courage than I have.

I am very happy for you.

ForTwoLifetimes, Moonsoverwater, PandaXiongMao, MissButterflyCaught, FaunGrae, All the same, a friend with many names.
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Mis's picture

Thank you for sharing this

Thank you for sharing this ♥..
Innisen's picture

I am sorry about your rabbit,

I am sorry about your rabbit, losing a pet that you have spend so much time with must be hard. My only pets are outdoor pets so I don't necessarily even see them daily. I don't get attached to them like you do to such a critter who needs everyday care like Smudge.

What you want sounds reasonable enough. I hope you have better luck next time. Though I haven't met you I'm sure that you're a nice person once one gets to know you.

These kind of unpleasant experiences exist so that we can learn from them, rite? And you're doing excatly that.

Ugh, I'm awful with relationship tips, I'm heavily introverted and keep myself shielded so I'm bound to have plenty of what you're currently going through. I wanted to sound supportive, not just write some inane blabbering. :/ Still, instead of erasing this I'm going to post it, hoping that you get some comfort in it.
If you can't confuse people with your intelligence, amaze them with your bull****.
Reyy's picture

I would just like to say

I would just like to say that:

First, a relationship between two people, no matter what kind, should be effortless.
Not that it's always going to be, but I mean, the chemistry and the feelings between two people should be.

Also, you can love a person, and that person can love you just as much, but sometimes people just aren't compatible. You can bend over backwards for them, do anything and everything for them, but it comes down to the simple chemistry and nature that should be effortless to begin with. If it's not, then there is going to be problems. And it's not anyone's fault, it's just that's how a person is and that's how it's going to be. I hope this made sense and will offer you guidance for future reference.

I don't want you to regret a single thing about Smudge. This may be blunt, but what is done is done and what has happened has happened. If you loved Smudge with every single bit of yourself and you know you gave him love, you shouldn't regret a single thing. If you put 100% of yourself in being with Smudge, the times you were with him, then you have done enough. I know Smudge must have been so spoiled and loved and if he had a voice I bet he wouldn't have a single negative thing to say about you because I know he loves you too.

Quote:
Because I felt I had to, because I thought that was what love is about. You make little sacrifices... but you know what I've realized? No, you don't.


You should do something because you want to and you feel 100% about it, not because you feel like you have to. You will also get better results that way. And whether your reason is logical or not, if you don't feel 100% and you don't put 100% of yourself in it, you shouldn't do it. And you know what else? Emotion isn't logical anyway. Logic is logic and trying to make sense out of anything you feel will just end up in two conflicting things within yourself.
Btw, sacrifices come with everything... But when you find something worth sacrificing for, you don't even mind sacrificing in the first place. It's because you'll want to...
She was not worth sacrificing apparently. But you can't regret the sacrifices you already made for her, the time and the money you put in to her. All of it is gone and that's okay. It really is. Because there is so much more in the future for you, and so much more to give, and to receive. There is someone out there who you're going to love unconditionally and it will be mutual.
So don't regret anything.
Not a single thing.

I hope this comment has offered you some light.
Iaurdagnire's picture

Hrae - B| Ranza -

Hrae - B|
Ranza - ♥
Munkel - They are really important... ♥
Tera - Haha, thanks Tera. Other people have said that to me too! I hope you have a good year too, or we'll both be out breaking year-knees.
Corell - ♥ x 3 (:
Vee - Calm down Aladdin (ff!). The part about big boobs made me laugh... Godzilla boob, Y/N? Haha.
Ama - ♥
ocean - +9000 LEVEL UP!
I can't believe I've never asked you before, but do you have msn?
Shimmy - GET BACK HERE. Haha thanks, I think maybe it could be a hidden ability when you find yourself rolling about in a hypothetical gutter.
FaunGrae - I figure if you can be honest with yourself, you've got nothing to hide from other people. Whoever "they" may be to happen upon reading it.
Mis - You're welcome. I think? ♥
Innisen - Buddy! Haven't seen you in a while, and you are exactly right. In fact, you just summed up my wall of text in one sentence. (:
ravyn - Thanks Ravyn, I like what you said. It's hard not to regret not spending more time with Smudge, but I know deep down that I did more for him that anyone could have possibly done. You're right, I shouldn't regret a thing, but it's early days.
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First, a relationship between two people, no matter what kind, should be effortless.
Not that it's always going to be, but I mean, the chemistry and the feelings between two people should be.

Yep. And that is my point, in a way; she/some people need more than that feeling to feel the way they want in a relationship. She needed constant validation, which manifested as atrociously selfish behaviour in the end that has made me resent her. There was a time we were perfect for each other. So many years maintaining a loving relationship while being so far a part was an achievement, and it was never a problem until I had to shift my priorities not because I loved her any less, but because my best friend needed my care to physically live. Somehow even though time and time again she said she understood, she didn't and made me doubt everything I was doing.
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You should do something because you want to and you feel 100% about it, not because you feel like you have to. You will also get better results that way. And whether your reason is logical or not, if you don't feel 100% and you don't put 100% of yourself in it, you shouldn't do it.

I wish life were this simple! But it doesn't entirely stand up by itself, and I don't mean that in a horrible way (you know I value everything you say). Any kind of relationship - especially one that involves love and permanent partnership - does involve doing things you don't 100% not-a-chance-in-hell want to do at more than one point. But you will do these things because you love them, and you'll probably end up wanting to scream at them in the process. That is the frustration when it comes to love - emotion and logic do unfortunately tend to team up sometimes in the most shitty ways that make you want to bury yourself in a hole somewhere. But then there's the times when you do sacrifice things willingly and visa versa, and that is when you both know things are right in spite of all the other things. That is what I believe from experience, anyway.

ocean's picture

DAG is evolving! Dag has

DAG is evolving!

Dag has evolved into Dagosaurus! [I wonder what that looks like. I'm picturing a T-Rex with Dagdeer's markings.]

I DO.



But adding me seems to be troublesome, as the requests seem to be stupid in not coming through. Q_Q Maybe if I accept on Meebo...D:
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Daaaaamn Dag. I think someone

Daaaaamn Dag. I think someone just beat me in the thinking department. Haha.

Like Tera said, it's good to see you sounding more like yourself. I liked reading what you wrote; it takes a lot of guts to put those kinds of thoughts down. Can't really do any of the "think of what you want in a person" bit though.

I really hope this year treats you better. <3

Dag. All of my respect and

Dag.
All of my respect and admiration, you have it.
Reyy's picture

Quote:I shouldn't regret a

Quote:
I shouldn't regret a thing, but it's early days.

By all means, take your time. <3

And for the very last paragraph, I agree with it all.
I think I meant like, it's just a matter of finding the person you want to put 100% of yourself in (comes with the bad and the good) to make those sacrifices and do things you don't want to do.
Sorry I'm horrible at clarification / explaining lol.

Ahh Dag you're awesome. Keep your chin up. <3
Hart's picture

You guys are admirable with

You guys are admirable with your advice, just saying.
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Is it strange that although

Is it strange that although my situation is quite different, I understand where you are coming from on a personal level?

Though I think rather than just wanting someone to love, the men I fall in love with are likely surrogates for the father I never had, and their acceptance and pride in me drives me harder than anything else in the world... Though I hold them under harsh scrutiny and if they are no longer worthy of my admiration, their thoughts do not matter at all.

Thinking about what kind of person I am attracted to is difficult. A couple days ago, I was thunderstruck, almost to tears when my mother (who has always praised me for not getting involved with boys, and has had three fairly terrible marriages) told me, "You should get a boyfriend". She said this not in hopes of grandchildren or for some antiquated idea of propriety, but because, "You should have someone to do things with. So you aren't so lonely."
I was choked by that. Because even the thought of deciding what I would like in a partner is somewhat alien. A ritual that others do, but I do not.

And yes, it is terrible to fall in love with someone who is not interested in you, especially for one like me whose attraction is so rare it seems almost to not exist at all. It is very painful to pour out love and the object of one's affections turn away without understanding or acknowledging it.

I'm not sure why I'm telling you this. Maybe because honesty deserves honesty, and I think although what you have been through is a bad experience, there is wisdom and truth in what you have learned.

I don't strive to be the best, but instead I strive to do my best, and always give it my all every time.
-faunet