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Last night started out...oddly. I was sitting alone for a while when Saosin showed up. He bowed, and I bowed back. Then he sniffed me and gave me a nuzzle, and offered to sit next to me by the riverbank. I have never much cared for Saosin -- he and I have, in the past, had less-than-pleasant encounters before. But, given that he is close to Nevilly, and that I have no serious grudge against him, I've always made it a point to be civil, and I've always felt he probably felt the same way. Other than a brief greeting the other day, this is really the first not group-motivated gesture of friendship he's offered me, or I him. As odd as it was, it also felt very nice. I've been feeling rather lonely since I got back; I haven't really seen anyone. I had been hoping Scape would arrive, or someone, but was actively planning on just sitting there, and was probably just going to end up feeling sorry for myself. If I had sat there on my own, I likely would have starting thinking very foolish, self-indulgent things. Things I know enough of the shape of to take a stab, but I'd feel awful saying and knowing that anyone, even people who would have no understanding of what I was saying, would read it. It was very nice, having him sit beside me. I think I see a bit more of what many of my friends see in him, which is nice on its own. I think that if things continue this way, we can be friends.

Then Scape arrived, waking up a little quicker than he usually does. I asked Saosin to excuse me as I went to greet my friend. While he had gotten up quickly, we were both feeling very calm today. Rather than our usual ruckus, we elected to have a slow walk through the forest, moving slow enough that the forest seemed full of the minutest things – where each tree or sunbeam had several faces to show us as we moved by.

(Below I've posted the first of a video diary type thing that I'm going to start for Tsudo. It's a test on quality/sound/ and other things. I will be videoing most of my days in the forest from here on out, and many deer will be in these future videos. This meant to show the things he sees, and how he sees them. He's a care free kind of guy and shrugs things off easily. He's optimistic and loves the ladies. If you're shown in this video or in future videos, please don't take offense to whats in them. I'm going to try to make these pretty humorous, because thats the kind of character I want Tsudo to be. A comic relief, because thats what he is to me. I need humor in my life, and I try to bring that out in Tsudo as much as I can. Now... after all thats been said xD Enjoy the short video.)

Dear diary,

Today was my first day as a deer. I really looked forward to this moment, but it wasn't what I aspected. I felt alone and strange and also very big. I'm a little affraid that my friends won't regonize me anymore. I hope I will get used to this new life as a deer.