I made a photo/art blog-thing earlier today, in hopes it would help me improve my skills and get me back into hobbies I used to enjoy. I put up a picture I drew... and then deleted the post less than 20 minutes later. I really don't know why. But, that was a coward move, so screw that- its back! xD just as a photo log now. I'm gonna put something in this damn thing every day, no matter how its recieved or how good/bad the content is. WOOHOO BLAZING SELF-CONFIDENCE! xD I'll post at least one new picture in the comments every day, and probably change the post-title to match it, because I'm insane.
Today: Driving around, I saw a cemetary I'd never seen before... it was a cemetary for an old Russian Orthodox church that changed location a long time ago. Some of the stones weren't even readable they were so old... many were dated in the 18-19th century. It was oddly calming walking around there, and I actually had my camera with me, so I decided to take a few pictures as I walked around, the song posted below looping in my head... very fitting x) Photos under cut:
IS going to be the day where I'll send my application to the art akademi. Things always got in the way, like the missing picture, drawings and so on, and now I don't have a envelope big enough. But tomorrow I'm taking to the post office to get the envelope, the stamp and finally to send it in a proper way! And just before the easter holidays, like I promised myself. One day before, haha!
And pizza is the only thing I've eaten today. Except my oat breakfast, some melon, carrots and some cucumber. Thats a funny word. Cucumber. Actually I was still so hungry, that I almost ate a slice of pizza that fell on the floor. If it wasn't for all the people that would have seen it. Then I would probably have been called raccon girl, or dustbin, or something else the rest of my school time.
But now, I'll release Mufazzal into the forest and let him play with everyone he meets!
Mufazzal had great fun today. Actually that happends every day. Happyness all over and sugar sweet pretty pie. He was playing, dancing and relaxing with a grown up deer at the pond. It had the Mexican dead festival pelt on. I found the user via the map, but couldn't write to her/him because there was no blog.
It's raining, its pouring... it's very, very boring.
Don't get me wrong, I love rain, but after soooooooo much of it, you start craving a little sunshine, or at least partly cloudy weather. So, I've been sitting inside for days, watching Monty Python's Flying Circus and eating low fat junkfood (hey, it may not taste great when you're too lazy to exercise its better than nothing). My roommate is actually being productive with her time and making stuff out of paper to decorate our room. I, on the other hand, have been too lazy to try and fix my scanner so I can upload pictures.
I just looked up and noticed theres a wreathe from Christmas still hanging on the wall. Blah.
Been listening to a bunch of bands from the last post I put up (love Sirenia).
I'm trying to think of something actually worth reading to say...
Oh, for future reference, my roommate looks like Anora from Firefly (even if she doesn't think so).
So, signing off for now, and remember, if the world didn't suck we'd fall off of it (just kidding! I am not that much of a pessimist... I'm a cynical optimist!)
It's starting to come to my understanding that you really can't say anything without hurting someone's feelings or making someone angry. We're all set in our own ways, and while we have different opinions, it's my hope that despite the words and drama, we can still be friends. I thought that voicing my observations and thoughts would help TEF in the long run, but instead I came off as judgemental, hurtful, and prejudicial toward people who like skulls.
I never meant to be judge, hurt, or prejudice anyone, and after rereading my posts, I did.
So for that I am sorry, and for now this will be my goodbye. I'm letting this community steer the reigns of my life, so I need to take control of it. I'll be back one day.
I suppose it would help us all if we remembered this sentence: "It's just a game."
I really do love you all, and I wish that despite my wrongful doings that you'll forgive me.
If you need me for Rock Hounds or if I owe you poetry or a story, you can get in touch with me through e-mail (lapras316@hotmail.com) or MSN (quadzilla7@live.com)
Dear lord, it has been over year since I last have been to the forest...
It feels so long that I decided to give it another try, no idea for what reason and what reminded me of it, just sudden need to hop around as deer?
It has truly been long and difficult to learn things again, but I am getting there, hehe~
As soon as I got online, there was this funny lil fellow hopping around and was quite a magnificent company, too - reminded me about why I loved the game so much in the first place.
Will certainly spend some more time, hopping around.
My boyfriend is out filming a big scene to the short film/music video he is making for a band. And it's taking a very long time. Haven't seen him since this morning.
Well, when I came home from school I knew he was out, he's been very nervous about this great scene. I sat down doing thing that I am doing, for example the drawing of Mufazzal, which took most of the day!
But.. When the clock said 20:00 (I don't know the english time for that) something inside my head said *click* and I turned on all the light in the appartment and grapped my big cane to defend myself. I can't endure to be alone for a long time, and especially no at the night. I am too paranoid. But I did eat. A banana. No dinner.
Just now I got a sms from my boyfriend. his filming is going to take about another two hours.
Poor poor him being out working so long, poor poor me for sitting here alone, being more and more anxious for non-existing attackers or enemies, and poor poor our sleep.
Back to school, I felt sick this morning and couldn't eat anything. Now, I can eat a horse! If it wasn't because of the fact that I forbid myself to eat certain animals.
You can have my list of "Animals I don't eat" here:
Horses
Cats
Dogs
Hare
Rabbits
Birds (Except chicken and Pheasant)
Clams
Snakes
Lizards
Humans
Polecats
Seals
And other wild animals, I can't mention all of them. Deer is not on my list because I once had a piece of young doe meat, and it tasted so good! But I'll try to avoid it out of respect of Mufazzal and all the other deer in the world.
By the way, my project went well! I was a bit nervous and messed around with the words, but it was cool. Now I can relax.
Tomorrow we have this project where we have to pick a job and tell about it. I chosed to tell about a fortune teller, so I am going to dress up as one myself, just for fun. And I'll add some music by Dead Can Dance to my powerpoint. My project is going to kick butt! And it is going to be fun too after school, because I am going to the center for some oat for my breakfast - All dressed up as a fortune teller with markings in the head, earring, fancy cloth and everything!
And now, I'll check what Mufazzal is up to. He likes to dress up too!
