Mufazzal and I have always wondered about how to get the orange pelt. We knew that it is the only pelt you can give to yourself, but how? Mufazzal found out today. He ran into the crying statue at the pond by mistake, and came out with the pelt! Woah, he was chocked! But also delighted to have found out. He just loves to explore the endless forest!
I had a dream about me pulling a string out from down my throat. Then I puked up my own cerebellum that was stucked to the string, which now was made of the flesh from my palate. Something similar once happended with my heart, and I panicky tried to swallow it again. Hahaha, that was so strange and unpleasant! Luckily I can travel back in time and undo things.
About today. I am going to be all alone, because my boyfriend have to work all day. He is filming wrestling shows. But he'll be back around 6, I think. But then he'll be gone again to watch football with his father an brother. So maybe I'll be a lot in the endless forest - out of boredom - to seek out old and new friends. And do some doodles of Mufazzal and such things. And go down the mall to buy a china box for lunch. Oh oh.
Now the easter holidays has come! Joy and warm weather to everyone!
Actually I am extremely tired because we were dancing Zumba in school. Amazing fun, and you'll sweat like a pig. Of course only if you do join the dance. Some stupid girls didn't put their heart into it. Maybe they where shy, maybe they where just lazy. But it makes me a bit angry.
But enough of the negative!
I've send my application!!! FINally! I am so happy about it!.. Yay!.. Horray!.. zzz. Hahaha, I'm just so exhausted!! And I'm doing laundry. And to inform you, we live on third floor, so I have to run up and down the stairs with the laundry. And some of it may not be tumble dried. So. That makes me run up and down the stairs four time! First to order the machines, second to carry the laundry down to the machines, third to put some of it in the tumble dryer, and to carry the non-tumble drying back, and fourth time to get the tumble dried. But it's great exercise! And then there will be fresh cloth.
And now my boyfriend came home, so I'll go out and say hello!
I made a photo/art blog-thing earlier today, in hopes it would help me improve my skills and get me back into hobbies I used to enjoy. I put up a picture I drew... and then deleted the post less than 20 minutes later. I really don't know why. But, that was a coward move, so screw that- its back! xD just as a photo log now. I'm gonna put something in this damn thing every day, no matter how its recieved or how good/bad the content is. WOOHOO BLAZING SELF-CONFIDENCE! xD I'll post at least one new picture in the comments every day, and probably change the post-title to match it, because I'm insane.
Today: Driving around, I saw a cemetary I'd never seen before... it was a cemetary for an old Russian Orthodox church that changed location a long time ago. Some of the stones weren't even readable they were so old... many were dated in the 18-19th century. It was oddly calming walking around there, and I actually had my camera with me, so I decided to take a few pictures as I walked around, the song posted below looping in my head... very fitting x) Photos under cut:
IS going to be the day where I'll send my application to the art akademi. Things always got in the way, like the missing picture, drawings and so on, and now I don't have a envelope big enough. But tomorrow I'm taking to the post office to get the envelope, the stamp and finally to send it in a proper way! And just before the easter holidays, like I promised myself. One day before, haha!
And pizza is the only thing I've eaten today. Except my oat breakfast, some melon, carrots and some cucumber. Thats a funny word. Cucumber. Actually I was still so hungry, that I almost ate a slice of pizza that fell on the floor. If it wasn't for all the people that would have seen it. Then I would probably have been called raccon girl, or dustbin, or something else the rest of my school time.
But now, I'll release Mufazzal into the forest and let him play with everyone he meets!
Mufazzal had great fun today. Actually that happends every day. Happyness all over and sugar sweet pretty pie. He was playing, dancing and relaxing with a grown up deer at the pond. It had the Mexican dead festival pelt on. I found the user via the map, but couldn't write to her/him because there was no blog.
It's raining, its pouring... it's very, very boring.
Don't get me wrong, I love rain, but after soooooooo much of it, you start craving a little sunshine, or at least partly cloudy weather. So, I've been sitting inside for days, watching Monty Python's Flying Circus and eating low fat junkfood (hey, it may not taste great when you're too lazy to exercise its better than nothing). My roommate is actually being productive with her time and making stuff out of paper to decorate our room. I, on the other hand, have been too lazy to try and fix my scanner so I can upload pictures.
I just looked up and noticed theres a wreathe from Christmas still hanging on the wall. Blah.
Been listening to a bunch of bands from the last post I put up (love Sirenia).
I'm trying to think of something actually worth reading to say...
Oh, for future reference, my roommate looks like Anora from Firefly (even if she doesn't think so).
So, signing off for now, and remember, if the world didn't suck we'd fall off of it (just kidding! I am not that much of a pessimist... I'm a cynical optimist!)
It's starting to come to my understanding that you really can't say anything without hurting someone's feelings or making someone angry. We're all set in our own ways, and while we have different opinions, it's my hope that despite the words and drama, we can still be friends. I thought that voicing my observations and thoughts would help TEF in the long run, but instead I came off as judgemental, hurtful, and prejudicial toward people who like skulls.
I never meant to be judge, hurt, or prejudice anyone, and after rereading my posts, I did.
So for that I am sorry, and for now this will be my goodbye. I'm letting this community steer the reigns of my life, so I need to take control of it. I'll be back one day.
I suppose it would help us all if we remembered this sentence: "It's just a game."
I really do love you all, and I wish that despite my wrongful doings that you'll forgive me.
If you need me for Rock Hounds or if I owe you poetry or a story, you can get in touch with me through e-mail (lapras316@hotmail.com) or MSN (quadzilla7@live.com)
