Shi's Deer Updates

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BEING PLAYED NOW: ...
UPDATED: July 1st, 2010
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Color: #C76114
Mood: - Hollow
Set: Monarch pelt, Fan Antlers, and Real Mask
Happenings: ...
Thinking/Saying:
Rowan...I miss you but...I am so glad you weren't here.

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Bio







Color: #919D9E
Mood: Lost it.
Set: Real Deer Pelt, Key antlers and Hands mask
Happenings:Slowly losing her mind; Trying to get herself killed
Thinking/Saying: Please...Please! WHY WONTYOU JUST KILL ME!?

Bio


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Shi's Updates

Mood: ...
Happenings:
...
Thinking: I'm drifting far from this place. I wish I wasn't, because I don't plan on going anywhere really, but...I feel like so much damage has been done I can't turn back from it now. I KNOW it's all in my head...well...maybe not all of it, but my insecurity around everyone here is bringing me down, and it's bringing Darcy down. I want to get involved but...I just can't. I'm not sure I know how to crawl out of this hole. I want to ask for help but that feels so pathetic XD' I miss our old friends, and I wonder if they miss us, too, or if we really have been forgotten. I wish you all would come back.

If you want to contact me about my deer or...would like to attempt a conversation with me -chuckle-here are my contacts!
MSN:
AIM: AResidualHaunt

so in the end your just

so in the end your just acting out of jealousy?
Shiori's picture

Lolohyes. I am so jealous!

Lolohyes. I am so jealous! Damn you caught me. Oh, for so long I've wanted to treat my friends like shit and act better than everyone else. Wow one day I really, truly hope I can be just like her. Someday... -dreamy sigh-

Hate to butt in, but,

Hate to butt in, but, um...Since when does Kaoori treat anyone like that? I've never seen her be anything but kind.

Thereisstillhope: I wasnt

Thereisstillhope:

I wasnt really going to bother logging in and replying on this but.... I guess it just needs to be done and explained in I hope a logical way for you to understand as it seems you arent gettign the point.


Hn....how should I place this:
You obiously stated that you would like to post this...ah should I say complaint here to either get more people in this or clear something up. I understand that you'd like this "harrasment" as you say to stop or "putting down", why not use the contact information? It would really make it easier for both me, and the rest of the community as we (tough really Im rarely here anymore) would appreciate it if youd take this elsewhere: This community has already gone trough enough shit it would be really nice if you stopped here and if not I'll be glad to continue my discussion on this as much to my dislike of how much this argument will ruin a biography. I respect Kimi in every way as well as her character, tough I disagree here. And for someone who's not even aware of what the situation is or what happened today , you're very eager to corner a player. If you've got a problem with Shi, take it up in private. And if you just have to do it in public, do it on a more respectful manner. Either stand up for your accusations because you belive you are correct , or don't say anything at all: Im shure Kimi can stand up for herself and log on this site just like I did now.

(Im sorry if I did/have offended you Kimi, but Id really like this issue to be discussed elswhere.)

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Its 2 am. and I'm sure there are over 100 typos, deal with it.
Ephra's picture

I agree this should be taken

I agree this should be taken elsewhere. It not only reflects poorly on you but on Kaoori too that you're choosing to represent her like this.
Shiori's picture

Heh, Thanks Mikuru, Ephra.

Heh, Thanks Mikuru, Ephra. Really I don't mind being contacted XD If I they had been trying to contact me and I'd been ignoring them that would be a different story...-shruggle-

ANYWAYS!

Hmm...I am thinking about re-posting these updates as a new blog. And lol it has nothing to do with what just happened up there ^^^^ I've been thinking about it all week, actually. Mainly because there's some people's bios and updates in the track list I don't watch anymore and it can get annoying and I know there's quite a few people tracking mine who probably don't want to see this anymore so...XD CLEAN SLATE IT? I dunno, still thinking about it, but just a heads up a new blog might show up soon (soon as in a few days or a week or so if I decide XD) if you'd like to retrack...
POOH2004's picture

??? I wish I can help... Just

??? I wish I can help... Just make a wish...
Aegle's picture

I hope you are able to

I hope you are able to resolve this Shi. Feel free to MSN me, dear. <3

(No subject)

Smiling
Shiori's picture

POOH: =o I thought you

POOH: =o I thought you left?!

Aegle: Thank you, Aegle…I hope we can as well.

RaQu : Well hai therr :3

OokamiAzura's picture

That was...awkward 8D The

That was...awkward 8D

The Mini with the Antelope Pelt/Skull Mask/Noh Antlers hanging around Reed was me; Lacie's Thylacine half, Alkina lD

Sorry for just being really awkward today, my mind was...all over the place ;;
Shiori's picture

Little bit! XD The whole day

Little bit! XD The whole day has kind of been that way, though...last few days really. All over the place. Not sure how to act around anyone at the moment ><
Seele's picture

Hello! We're sorry about

Hello! We're sorry about being such followers/sometimes distracted figures today ._. I don't feel too well, for no particulair reason. I really dislike that, since it's hard to solve something if you don't know what bothers you XD Ahwell females and their hormones.
I hope you feel better soon though! I really can't say I've been keeping up with the drama lately, it confuses me. Oh, and, Gehirn and I are happy to play with Shyla again <3
Shiori's picture

Oh noes! Yeah I hate days

Oh noes! Yeah I hate days like that...though I can ususally find more than enough to blame bad moods on these days -giggle- I know Gehirn doesn't seem to have had the pest time of it lately... I hope you both feel better soon as well.
We certainly don't mind the company, distracted or otherwise ^^ Shyla is a bit awkward being followed around though. She's definately more of a follower herself.
Seele's picture

Oh, we will! Yeah, I knew she

Oh, we will! Yeah, I knew she was more of a follower XDD She's a great girl though. I had to go to bed myself now, which is why we've dissapeared. Hope you got your shoppings! XD
Aegle's picture

"Uh, hello. I-I uh, well.

"Uh, hello. I-I uh, well. H-How are you? I've been concerned about you honestly... I-I just want to let you know that... Well, I-I care." -headnod-
c: Just thought Aegle needed to say hey to Shyla... its been awhile since their last encounter.
toboe's picture

YOU CAN'T ESCAPE MY LOVE SO


YOU CAN'T ESCAPE MY LOVE

SO GET OVER IT

OKAY

Fincayra's picture

I'm sorry you're feeling this

I'm sorry you're feeling this way, Shi... ;_;
*hugs*
Hraeth's picture

"It was lovely to meet you

"It was lovely to meet you today, Darcy" The little doe dips her head, a smile visible on her maw through the tooth-tips of the skull on her face. "I've seen you around so often that the meeting seems overdue, but that is no fault but my own. I am glad to have that remedied. I hope we meet again soon."

What Noe said. 83 I should've been tracking this a long time ago. |D Fixed nao.

I don't really know you, but I can completely empathize with those feelings you're having. I know I'm kind of a stranger, but if you need to rant or want to goof around or anything, I'm totally open for that. My contact info's on Noelle's page. I'd add you, but I don't want to impede; silly as that sounds. :B I hope you feel better soon. <3
Her's picture

pshh I tried adding you on

pshh I tried adding you on MSN to help you . . but my offline messages won't send for you to read when you get back on. So I'll try here.
I know we absolutely never talk and you probably barely know/remember me, but I've been especially gray lately, too, and I was going to try and give my arms for you to embrace like you said you needed. ;; But since you're not around I'm hoping that this comment offering my aid will cheer you up at least a little, anyway. I'm sorry.
Fledermaus's picture

-squeezyhugs- The only thing

-squeezyhugs-

The only thing I can do for cheering up is drawing...maybe I can fit in some Darcyart this weekend. <3
Shiori's picture

Aegle: Yes, it has…^^’ Shyla

Aegle: Yes, it has…^^’ Shyla doesn’t say much anymore, and I’m not sure what she would say here. I hesitate to try with the mood I’m in XD’ Perhaps they could meet in forest again, sometime…

Everyone else:
Thank you … I wish I had words more meaningful. I would love nothing more than to pour my heart out to someone right now - I always was the kind of person who did that ^^’ Foolishly too, I suppose. Unfortunately I’ve grown…terrified of talking to people I don’t know and don’t know if I could. I think if I offended and scared away one more person…well, I certainly don’t need that extra stress right now >< In fact it’s one of the reasons I feel this way…I’m just sort of trapped right now, I guess. But, the thought is appreciated…

I wish Darcy could have met Noelle under better circumstances. And Flef, that's ok...^^' Darcy has a lot of art, already...
Fincayra's picture

Shi, I'm pretty much the same

Shi, I'm pretty much the same way. The way I dealt with my pain was by pouring my heart out to anyone who would listen. It really helped me, but lately I haven't felt like I could do that anymore. I'm scared of telling anyone anything now, so I know how you feel.

I don't really offer this to a lot of people, as it makes me kind of nervous, but if you need me, I'm here. If you want to talk, just tell me so. I don't sign into MSN much, but the contact information is in my updates and if you ever need me to unload/rant/whatever, I'll be there to listen. ♥
Shiori's picture

-Whimper- That's a great

-Whimper- That's a great offer, Fin. I want so badly to take you up on it, too...-heavysigh-
Fincayra's picture

...I'll try to catch you on

...I'll try to catch you on MSN sometime. ♥
POOH2004's picture

I have no wish my bloody

I have no wish my bloody tears drips onto the Shore Of Faith and poisons it's sacred purity. I wish I can stop crying with these bloody tears at all... The "wish", one of the basic element of this World. Make a wish and you will stop the war. Make a wish and all will fade into emptiness. Only Time will tale it's tale. The freedom of will. Please be strong. Please be selfish. If you wish, I will find you when I can reach The Forest. You received my "endless attention" long ago. You know this moment. And you know my reasons. I have no wish to "hunting"... hmph... I even haven't got the msn to support you when you need it so much...
phantomhelsing's picture

I can do no more.

toboe's picture

Um. Ilu so...feel better :3



Um. Ilu so...feel better :3
Aegle's picture

No problem! I just wanted her

No problem! I just wanted her to know Aegle still cares c:
And dear, please feel better. We all care about you. <3
Your not selfish, so don't even go there. I've been feeling the same way lately, I just want someone to be there for me. Gah.
If you need someone to talk to, you know I'm here.
Shiori's picture

Awwww ;__; It'ssocute. Thank

Awwww ;__; It'ssocute. Thank you...
toboe's picture

-stares at your signature-

-stares at your signature-

You suck.
Fledermaus's picture

-trying to hammer "no"

-trying to hammer "no" button-
Shiori's picture

EEERNT, NO IS NOT AN OPTION.

EEERNT, NO IS NOT AN OPTION.
toboe's picture

-falconpunches "no"-

-falconpunches "no"-

I only wish I knew what to

I only wish I knew what to say.
Aegle's picture

shi. ilu.

shi.











ilu.
Hraeth's picture

:x

:x <3...
Fledermaus's picture

(No subject)

<3

;___; Wish I knew how to help.
POOH2004's picture

If you still feeling pain,

If you still feeling pain, it's mean you have kind heart. Or the selfish one. I like both. Please do not tell that you're lonely. You have great support. Tell then, what kind of pain do you fear?... Share it with... us... if you wish...
Shiori's picture

I’m…feeling a bit better


I’m…feeling a bit better today. I think taking a break yesterday helped >< Went out with my bio fam today too and had a good time. My mom has been supportive... Everything is not all well but at least I feel like I can breathe again.
I am sorry to have worried anyone…I guess I just needed to be heard. I hope I can avoid further sadness. If you see Darcy in forest…give him a nuzzle? ;.; He doesn’t really feel like he belongs anywhere right now…And maybe he doesn’t ^^’ But he needs more strength then I can offer him.

Persist. Some people don’t know what they need until its forced upon them.

Hey, how come D seems

Hey, how come D seems confused for some reason? xD; He keeps stomping at the ground and using the confused emote, hehe.
Shiori's picture

Oh...when he paws and tilts

Oh...when he paws and tilts his head he's usually asking "What do you want to do?"
Then when he pawed, listened, then tilted his head and listened again, he was looking for someone and asking if he'd seen her...

Oh.. If your talking about

Oh.. If your talking about who I think you are.. She was about to get in the forest, but something happened, and her mom made her get off the computer. :C
mitski's picture

Mister Darcy seemed really

Mister Darcy seemed really nice. My fawn Papilon liked hopping around with you, I hope That she was not a bother. it seemed like your big friend didn't like her all to much when she was wearing the DOTD set, i'm very sorry if it bothered him or Darcy that was not my intent. (i just for some reason enjoy seeing my fawn dressed like that it kind of has an eerie(sp?) cuteness to it lD)
Shiori's picture

Hmm...was Papilon the fawn

Hmm...was Papilon the fawn with a picto like ' : o ' that? The one that showed up in the dotd set didn't have a picto for me so I didn't know who it was.
mitski's picture

Yes that was Papilon

Yes that was Papilon <:
POOH2004's picture

I'm glad that you feeling

I'm glad that you feeling better, really. I wish you can deal with your fears... maybe with little help from aside. Just please love life. I think not only you feeling fear and wonder if that "eye of reason" means something. I hope someone who must hear something, heared it too... and D belongs to the forest family, I suppose )
Hraeth's picture

"I'm sorry. Thank you..."

"I'm sorry. Thank you..."
Shiori's picture

Mitski - Ah ^^ In THAT case,

Mitski - Ah ^^ In THAT case, Papilon is a very sweet fawn and was no both at all. We might have been a bit more playful but the ‘big friend’ we were with isn’t fond of fawns ^^’ Oh, and Darcy hates the DotD mask so that’s why he was hiding XD A bit silly.

POOH - -Snug- I don’t know if it’s ‘better’, or ever will be…but I found my will to tolerate it all again ^^’ Whatever that’s worth. I don’t know if they saw what I wrote, or hear what I’m saying. I guess I just have to wait around till she wants to talk to me again. It hurts that she doesn’t seem as bothered by our silence as I am…a lot. But I guess I’m not surprised… As for family…meh, I wont even go down that road.

Hreath - He tilts his head and frowns, “Whatever are you sorry for?”
J!n's picture

'Thank you, Darcy..' He gives

'Thank you, Darcy..' He gives the stag a lick on his cheek.