Aah nicee! And hahhh, I don't mind boring, I just like to stalk everyone. Because I'm bor-ed. |B

Omgggg that's awesome! <3 Somehow this makes me think that at some point "mother nature" got real mad with the elk and cursed him with the horrible shroomdisease. There's your story for Fantasia 2016. 8'|

youtube vids won't show up in the previews, but they're fine in the actual post. i had this issue when doing the same for music embeds on bios lmao.

LMAO no problem
don't worry i had the same line of thought when i was doing it myself :'^)

*sneaks in*

Bump for the thing. :|

Sometimes it literally takes days for the new avatar to show for me whenever I change it, it's awful. :I
This is the avatar I see you have right now.

That's what I see, too.
Sometimes I find that if it doesn't change when I upload a new avatar, reloading my userpage fixes it. But yea, sounds like a cache issue.

Leaving a mark so I can keep track of all this awesomeness and inspiration.
I love looking through your artwork.

silentlikethat - It's nice to hear you've found my art enjoyable. <3
Dampir - Yes, it's a part of something I'm currently working on and I hope to publish it as soon as possible. I've just got plenty of other work to do before I can finish it. But soon...

Lyeekhakha - Ohhh? There has been peeps spelling around him time to times, just figured someone had a spellparty again. : D
But no damage done! Sets are easy to load back with this new system. They would indeed save if I quit the game properly, but before that I would make sure to load my original set back. You'll get a hang on the new system soon, I promise!
If you've got any questions about it, feel free to ask! :>

Hahh, were you around when there was a long time ago a big craze to peacock (=to give the full peacock set) some unsuspecting sleeping deer? That was quite fun back in the days, though I don't think that would work these days anymore - might get some angry players/deer after you. : D
Naked deer can't stay naked though, something must be done indeed!

And Q was the most delicious fishsoup there is.

I love this black/gold layout.

My hand is cramping just from looking at that pic. ALL THOSE FEATHERS...
I'm so twitchy with a mouse, that must have taken a veeeeery long time.

>forever follows this

ye olde cave painting LOL

I miss it too, I don't think any current IM chat thingies have it 8(. It was so much fun until...yeah that happened and you'd have to screenshot it, upload it to photobucket or something and then link it waaaaaaaay back when things like gyazo didn't exist.

Have a msn relic you did of Draak that I kept:


Also oh god you know what I still have lying around in my TEF folders, that old old old TEF manga thing you did, with Mitra and the instant noodles.

Retrack.

Gahhh I feel kind of relieved to hear someone else is feeling the same. With this topic it's easy to get comments like "grow up, life isn't always fun." And this I do understand, work is work and sometimes we all have trouble motivating ourselves. But when it's like that every single day, I don't see it worth the money. I'd rather eat cheap macaroni every day than waste nearly all my time and happiness.
And I do love and value money but I value my happiness even more.

It's nice to hear you don't have to stress yourself with bills yet, you still have time to think and try your wings in different things without any risks. I can't really pull myself off from this thing without losing my money supports, though I am willing to still give this job a proper chance anyway. It's been only a week afterall, as long as it felt like. Maybe I'll get used to the place, though the pay is really putting me off. I have been eyeing other job opportunities in case I'd find something else. I do know there are a lot worse jobs than this and I feel bad for whining about it. But if I can't stop thinking and stressing about it even during a weekend, I think it's just not a job for me...

"Literally so many hours of your days are gone just at work."

This is definitely a thing I loathe most and then makes me feel guilty about it. I don't want to live for work. I do want to work but I don't want to sell all my time and energy for it and be left only little for myself. But since no company needs a worker that comes to work only every other day, at least the work should be something one can also enjoy. Finding such a work is hard if you don't naturally have any calling for anything. (I envy people who know right from the start what they want to do and then work towards it! I've never had a true dream job in mind. Except veterinarian but that dream is out of my reach.)

Out of curiosity, what was your last job? It's okay if you don't want to reveal it though!

And yes, my last internship was in a small advertising agency when I was still going to school and studying the line of work. And my thoughts were "this isn't the work for me", it was hard coming up with good artistic ideas every day and that work is full of deadlines every day. I must say, though, that after doing this current work for a week, I'm totally ready to return to it. I don't feel like I'm good enough at graphic design, but if I'd get a chance for that line of work again, I'd go for it. (it's very hard to get work in that business)
The good thing is, that nothing needs to be set to stone. You can do all sorta work for a while I guess. And when you find a good place then, if possible, stay there.

Yeah, same here.

I would hate to rot away at a job that doesn't interest me and that requires all my time. Standing for eight hours a day "just because" is ridiculous and really bad for your body as well. I loved working at my parents' garden center, it was the dream, even if it was hard work. It was only intense for about 3-4 months a year though. Plus, if I had bad days there, my mother understood. I'm not sure what to do now that she and her husband separated. I'll hopefully get a job that only takes a few hours of my time even if it doesn't pay well. Time means more to me than money.

I hope you find something you're satisfied with eventually. :/

I may say I know how you are feeling...why? Because I also work in factory and reading first sentences it reminded me my job. Standing 8 hours per day.. I got used to it after month of more, but before it was such a pain for my body, that I even hated I have to take a shower (and standing again!) after work and I had no bathtub to sit lol In our company sitting is also seen as a mortal sin, though sometimes there are emplacements where you should and you CAN sit. When you are there you can feel like you won a lottery ticket.
It's only a bit different on the night shift when there is only one man above us, who IS HUMAN and s/he doesnt care if you sit unless you are doing your job.
I applied here cause I had to quickly get "normal" job and was curious about a manufacturing industry. Sadly we, who do the most are the least paying. I was going to stay to the end of the previous year when my agreement ended but they offered me higher position and better agreement, but in the end I didnt get much more and my responsibilities are bigger. I ONLY stayed because of people and I have to have a job for longer while I need to clean up other stuff. 90% of people I work with are great and it always pleasure to see them. The longer I work there, the more recognisable I became so it also nice. But I dont see myself in there for longer time: first it's too small payment for such a job - I almost live from one payment to another (especially I live in a big city) and second - it's chemistry factory and they don't care about us as much as they should and Im not gonna to poison myself for the sake of nothing to be honest.

In summer and early autumn I also worked physically even 12 hours per day but I was doing what I love - I worked with animals - mostly horses. Sometimes I was even more tired than here and less time for myself but I spent a lot of time in the middle of forest, far from big cities, surrounded by young and old horses and other animals and when I was there I forgot about all the world. I didnt have to care about my look either, cause animals dont care about it heh I was doing what I love.

Here I come to your second part of writing and need to admit I struggle with the same thing. I don't say it loud with the same reasons. By almost whole life I knew what I want to do, but had to resign from it when I realised I'm unable to handle it. From that moment I feel very lost and don't know where find my place - I feel like in the things I like and would like doing, instead of that one, I'm not good enough, that there are better people who will always be chosen. But I can't see myself in this regular job that doesn't interest me at all, but it is not easy to find something what would bring smile and motivate to get up from bed.
I think they just handle certain things better and enjoy different things, have different values than me. Well said, I agree and admire them. Sometimes I imagine that, as you said, being person with different interests and personality would be better.

I hope you go through this without a big headache, I wasn't using english for some time lol

Dampir -
Wow, your working place sounds exactly the same as mine, the only difference being that the manufactured product differs. I heard the night shifts indeed are better as there are barely no one keeping an eye on the workers so it's more relaxed.
The amount of pay is in 4 levels (or 5, can't remember). Nearly all of the workers are still in either level 1 or 2 despite working there for many many years, some even for decades. Only a few people out of over 200 employees have it higher. This is the reason I'm not going to stay, I see no future there if the pay is going to stay at the minimum forever.
We too have one or two emplacements where you can sit, the rest of the work is on your feet.

And I understand you completely for not wanting to work in all those fumes for such a small pay. I wouldn't either... it's just not worth ruining your health. :/ Do you even have a chance to protect yourself?
I regret so much that I applied to this thing but at least now I know working in a factory is something I certainly don't want to do. Curiosity drove me to apply as well.

And working with animals sounds so, so lovely. I can well believe it was a physically demanding job as well, but as long as one enjoys what they're doing, it feels less like a job.
I'm so sorry to hear about your dream job situation though... that sounds so horrible. D: Is it something you can train yourself more for? Or is it generally something that employs only a few?

And I understood everything you typed! My typing is probably pretty incoherent as well, I'm just so exhausted really...

I relate so hard with this. I've had a few different jobs so far, all of which were around minimum wage, working long hours, on your feet, 8+ hours a day, doing repetitive work... I hate it. My feet hurt and I'm so tired after I get home, I don't want to do anything - not even draw, go out to eat, or hang out with friends. Like Dampir said, I often put off taking a shower because it will be painful. The job I'm currently working isn't as bad as my previous ones, but I can't imagine doing it for very long.

Luckily, this new place allows me to work 2-4 days a week (except currently I am filling in for an injured coworker, so I've been scheduled for basically 7 days a week until further notice). Plus, I still live at home, so no bills to pay yet. I can't imagine having to support myself on work like that. I know some people do it, but I have no idea how. I'm sorry ):

I, too, am terrified by the idea of working 40+ hours a week at a job I can barely stand for the majority of my life. The thought of wasting years of my life stuck in a dead-end, minimum-wage job, doing soul-crushing work, only to barely earn enough to live, let alone pursue any passions or hobbies... it's my worst night mare. I think I'd rather make very little money, but have plenty of time. Honestly, I'd rather be dirt poor than do some of my previous jobs long-term (fast food service, for example). I don't think you should feel bad or guilty about it - many people who are stuck in those jobs don't like it, either. It's not a bad thing to hope for something better. At least, that's my two cents

Maybe it will help to think that this is temporary? That you can and will find a new/better job. And hopefully your next job will seem fantastic compared to the one you have now! At least for a while. Good luck with everything!

Aivilo -
It's reassuring hearing similar experiences. Because I've not been sure if I'm just a whiney ass for not coping with this work that isn't even that bad if you compare it to many other jobs. But I've been cleaning buses and and facilities of a large manufacturing company in my previous summer jobs of the past and though cleaning job is considered the worst/lowest paying job there is, it was all nice in comparison to this. Though I hope I'll just get used to this job so the rest of the 14 weeks would fly by faster...

And I've been thinking a lot about some part-time jobs that would indeed have a couple of work days per week. Sure, the pay is also much lower but I wouldn't mind as long as I'd have more time for myself. (and I could always get some extra money by drawing, hah..) So yeah, that job of yours sounds pretty good, I wish you strenght working without weekends for now! Luckily it's only temporary.

Oh, and I have immense respect for people doing fastfood service jobs. I know I wouldn't last a day. D:
And actually I respect all the people which are doing important jobs that don't get the reverence they deserve. Such as cleaning workers. I hate how most look down on those jobs/people...

Haha! Those have been my thoughts! I believe this experience gave me some perspective and many other jobs might feel much better after this one. Now I know better what kind of work certainly isn't for me.

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millipede -
Oh wow, doesn't sound like a fun job at all. :/ My experience is that even the worst kinda jobs are much more tolerable if you have some good working partners around yourself. It's easier to wake up in the morning knowing you'll be going to meet those people again. But doing crappy work alone sounds the worst.
Right now, during this internship I'll always be working with a mentor who teaches me how things work (my current mentor is a really chill dude and it's been fun talking with him. Luckily.). But in the future if I'll get hired, I'll be working alone just like everyone else. It just doesn't fit my nature, I need people around myself. So in that part I can understand you completely.

I'd have made the phone call already if only I could. If I quit this now, my money supports will be halted for a couple of months and I wouldn't be able to pay my rent and other bills. I doubt I'd be able to support myself just by doing commissions and adoptables. ;_;
On top of that, I don't want to seem like a quitter in the eyes of some people around myself. They've cheered on me for getting this job (there were like 300 people applying, only 20 got in. I dunno how the hell I got picked lol) and somehow I feel I'd "let them down" or something... I've been without a bob of any kind for two years now, I don't want to seem like a loser in their eyes. D':
I've got no other chance but to pull this through somehow. And eye for other opportunities I could switch to.

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Kaoori -
I'm getting the feeling many of us are sorta "drifters" in life who haven't found their place in the world yet. At least job-wise. And when nothing really interests you and all the available jobs seem horrible, it's very easy to get stuck in your place and do nothing. That's been my case for a long while. Only this experience kinda gave me a proper nudge forward in the pursue of finding a job I might even moderately enjoy.
I truly hope you too will find something you at least would like doing. Don't lose hope.

And thank you. ♥

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Evern -
It's amazing you happened to find your thing. I'm so happy for you! D:
That's something I've been kinda missing myself - a truly motivating thing to do. The graphic design school did feel better than any of the previous schools ever, but it still felt like something I'm not sure I'd like to do. Mostly it's the nature of the job that's kinda no no for me afterall. (the deadlines for example. I've never handled stress well. Not sure if I could teach myself to...)
I have started thinking about doing it again, tho. Honing my skills to maybe get a job. It's peculiar how in a pinch you'll suddenly start seeing many open doors you thought were closed. It would be better than this, that I know.
And I still find many graphic design works from pros very inspiring. So maybe...?

Travelling the world is my dream.

ugh yeah i totally get it. fortunately?? i was able to quit because im living with my mom (and honestly probably will always) so i did have some financial support. & i totally get that 'not wanting to be a quitter' feeling. family is never as supportive as you wish they were. 8(

i'm lucky to have very recently found a job that actually does pertain to my passion. my two cents is to hold on in there and keep looking for that opportunity that's gonna make you really happy. sometimes we gotta look really hard for it and sometimes it might just fall in your lap. keep truckin on.