{:: SMOLDERING BONES ::}

Tuhka's picture








12.11.2017
Long time no see, huh?
I'm completely taken over by an urge to start RPing again. I have this guy who's been floating in my mindworld for a long while. I also reread Marrok's old starting RP's and kind of feel like bringing him back as well - though I have no idea how that would work out. I forgot about him in such an early state, he had only just arrived and made a couple of acquaintances and now there are years of not touching him. I'd like to continue somewhat where he was left but lkxsdhfsd.

And the whole RP thing anyways. I tend to be super tired every day from work etc. Now I was sick so had couple of days to regain my strength (hey, I even picked up a pen and scribbled things) but I don't know how will things work out when returning back to the usual.

Aaaagh I want things, I want pretty things and I want them scarred beautifully. Off to work I go. =_=

~Quamar





ABOUT ME





Nicks:
Quamar, Smolderbone, Routalanka

Real name:
Tiia

Age:
29 [21.05.1989]

Country:
Finland

Orientation:
Straight

Status::
Taken

Aspirations:
Go around the world and see and experience as much as I can.
Meet awesome people and force them into a beautiful friendship with myself.
Getting better at various of things and somehow finding a way to prosperity.

Traits:
Shy, adventurous, creative, deep, gross, worrywart, laid-back, easily excited, stubborn, childish, playful, lazy, obsessive, awkward, ambitious, proud, curious/nosey, caring, sensitive,

CONTACT:
Skype: Routalanka
email: tinzuli89(at)hotmail.com
(Don't mind this horrible old email address)
DA: smolderbone.deviantart.com














CHARACTERS


















Calinka's picture

I wish your dad a fast and

I wish your dad a fast and well recovery. I'm sorry I don't know what more I could say, even when words are the only thing I can offer here. But I know you're strong, and everything will be ok again.
Stay safe. <3

Yes.

Yes.
Tuhka's picture

You have no idea how I worked

You have no idea how I worked my ass off for this so it better be yes D;<
*tackleglomps*
Starling's picture

Your layouts are always so

Your layouts are always so unique and awesome looking o_O

This layout is fucking

This layout is fucking awesome.
Tuhka's picture

Puhh, glad to hear it was

Puhh, glad to hear it was worth the work then ♥
Was about to scrap the whole thing when got pissed enough, sdjfhsd
Keepiru's picture

I agree this layout is

I agree this layout is stunning!

Quammyyyy that layoutttt.

Quammyyyy that layoutttt. Quammy. Quaaammmyyyy.
It is so gorgeous. I love the pose of the deer, and the setup, and yes.
/flops around in
Tuhka's picture

You guys make me blush soon

You guys make me blush soon 8[ no seriously, happy to hear <3
Pandaaaaa pandapanda pa pa -panda pa pampa pandaaa!

Lolol.... Poor you x'D -hands

Lolol.... Poor you x'D -hands tissue to whipe hands-

Feel better.

Feel better.

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL
XXXXXDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Keepiru's picture

^_^


^_^
Tuhka's picture

NO! NO! Don't you start! DB<

NO! NO!
Don't you start! DB<

IT'S ALREADY STARTED

IT'S ALREADY STARTED WOMAN.
IT'S ALREADY STARTEDDDDD LOLOLOLLL
Tuhka's picture

YOU AIN'T FRIENDS OF MINE,

YOU AIN'T FRIENDS OF MINE, TRAITORRRRRS! DDB< *tosses LOLs at fiercely*

HATERS GONNA HATE. DON'T NEED

HATERS GONNA HATE.
DON'T NEED YOU.
B|
/keeps the LOLs
Keepiru's picture

(No subject)

...LLOLOOLLOL XDDDDDD

...LLOLOOLLOL XDDDDDD 8DDD!!?!!1
Tuhka's picture

MAKE IT STOP....

MAKE IT STOP.... P-Please....

No really, feels even horrible reading your lol comments... 8D JIN THAT'S SO SURREAL COMING FROM YOU.

Bahaha Jin

Bahaha Jin

This time of year is

This time of year is reminiscing time for myself as well.

:3 teheeeee

:3 teheeeee ♥



October 1, 2012 - 7:55pm — J!n
...LLOLOOLLOL XDDDDDD 8DDD!!?!!1


^ OMFG XDD

Yeah... It's usually subtext,

Yeah... It's usually subtext, muahah.

Steampunk deerarrrrghhhhh yes

Steampunk deerarrrrghhhhh yes please B)
I won't be able to buy anything, but I can't wait to see all the spaztastic designs you and Naruborg come up with.
/flips table
Keepiru's picture

Ffft your dreams are so

Ffft your dreams are so fullofdetails. For me it's been years... oh sweet fanciful dreams <D
Tuhka's picture

SO MANY UNREPLIED COMMENTS

SO MANY UNREPLIED COMMENTS I'M A BAD HUMAN.
Love ya all still ♥

Hopefully we'll be able to show our first products soon, I'm sure of that though. 8>
And keepy, you may have some detailed dreams from me then, it's not always very nice.. when nightmaring. ,___,

Sent you an email about sum'n

Sent you an email about sum'n sum'n. GO CHECK.

And no, it's not about the commish. x)
Starling's picture

I would fucking murder to be

I would fucking murder to be able to draw like you. ó_o
and I know a bunch of others would say the same...
Rouda's picture

^ Gotta agree with Starling.

^ Gotta agree with Starling.
Tuhka's picture

neeh, feel free to murder me,

neeh, feel free to murder me, right now wouldn't even mind. <D
I'm just struggling, all the stuff I do looks utter shit in my eyes. Other peeps stuffs looks always so much better. *crawls on the floor pathetically*
Keepiru's picture

^ this is exactly how I feel

^ this is exactly how I feel these days, just hate myself and can't post
*crawls with you*
Rouda's picture

-slaps both- 8(

-slaps both- 8(

Quam, I'd amputate my right

Quam, I'd amputate my right arm to be able to draw like you, and I'm being serious.

Appreciate what you got. You're gonna go far, kiddo. I promise you. :c
<3
Starling's picture

(e) I'm gonna cry why are all

(e) I'm gonna cry why are all you people- WHY..

Narina's picture

-prpp

-prpp

I'd not only kill, I'd sell

I'd not only kill, I'd sell my soul to be able to draw like you.
Pegasicorn's picture

*licks* B|

*licks* B|
Mjrn's picture

Could be because the people

Could be because the people buy designs that were created by someone else, so essentially, it's not that person's creativity who created the character, it's someone else's.

That was a mind set of mine a long time ago - I honestly wanted nothing to do with adoptables, because they weren't my designs, they were someone else's, and I basically felt like my designs weren't good enough, and I felt absolutely insulted. That's changed of course - I really like seeing what people have put out, and what people do with the ones they've bought. I've already seen a few being used, and I like what I've seen so far. It's nice to see. And it helps the artists out too.

There was so much more I wanted to put here in general, but I'll stop here. Not focused enough, etc.
Account previously Mjrn, returned to Veedeer.
din's picture

i feel you. 110% about the

i feel you. 110%
about the adoptables too. they like yours so much because theyre in your sexy creative art style and theyre from -you-
i love you for donating. i still do the montly stuff too.

i read all of it so....do i get a cookie? /want
sleep tight you crazy person! <3
Kaoori's picture

i agree with you on

i agree with you on everything.
Xemi's picture

Amen to that! -sits butt

Amen to that!

-sits butt down here- (8 <3

There's always been a lot of

There's always been a lot of judging going on here, at least that's how I see it. A lot of drama and stuff like that. I got tired of it at some point.
I see no problem about the adoptables, coming up with new designs is a great way to train one's creativity.
Mis's picture

I think a lot of people

I think a lot of people forget there are a lot of different ages on this website! In many ways really, but in character creation too. I'm well aware how annoying it can be when someone is ~godmodding away~ but I'm sure we all did that when we were what, 12..? I guess I was lucky I didn't care about the internet at that age :")
It's understandable people laugh about it of course. Is that juging though? I mean, I laugh at my own stuff too. "Oh what kind plot shall we do now? Have a little sing-along going on or some creepy autoplay music?" It's always an idea to take jokes as.. Well jokes. If something is big and happening irl you see spin offs and the likes too. This place is a miniature real-life. It's gonna have people who see something a lot and joke about it. Take it easy! A joke is all it is.
Ah on the ages though again though. Where it ends with a joke there are also people who will constantly go after these children to bully them. -That's- where some here go a little too far. If you can't get along with someone for whatever reason, stop harassing them 8( it makes me sads.

Personally I love adoptables. They bring out that greedy girl in me shopping for fancy stuff. I really don't think anyone has any problem with people making adoptables.(Unless I'm wrong rofl, speaking for the world) What is noticeable though is that it seems to happen in waves a lot of the time, and then there's suddenly a lot of bios with an adoptable at the top and some sort of standard personality. Nothing wrong with that of course, but I have to feel like some people don't make what they bought their own. They tend to dissapear so quickly too! It's sad. I've seen some people do a really awesome job though. And in the end it doesn't really matter. But I always wonder if there would've been more potentional if people did some work of their own besides simply spending money? I can't say too much of course rofl. I'm a greedy thing myself. Hoard the cool designs~!
But again I think they're great. It can be super helpful for people who don't like to draw much too. I'm not the best designer. Having a good base to start with is helpful.
Woop rambling. But I sort of had to say something. I can't help but always feel like, the people who have been around a long time easily get judged for making a joke or saying something. It's like, people are judging others by being jugingly themselves! I'm pretty sure people think a lot of stuff about me without talking to me. That's key really. Talk! Don't just sit and be offended! It likely doesn't mean what you think it does. Hope that's not offending. Can't tell anymore these days. People seem angry so easily..
Dampir's picture

For me the reason is simple -

For me the reason is simple - people are talking about what is popular. If they see a lot of things of one category, they notice it and say about it, making jokes etc. It happens everywhere. The best example are sing stars like Bieber or like now well known Harlem Shake. It's everywhere so it's hard to sit quiet, and people have different point of view of it.
Reading part about "fawn-eater-rawr" chars I felt like you were talking about my last post under Sight's art dump. Was it about my words or am I wrong? I only continued someone's joking, someone who seems has sense of humor just like me. I felt like at least half of that your words were about what I said and that we were laughing of it. Maybe Im wrong, and please, dont take it as an attemp to make quarrel or something, cause it isnt what I write for. Im not against adoptables and to be honest I enjoy seeing your and others. A lot of them are amazing, and if I could I probably would like to even buy one. But now I felt like person who was typed as that "bad one", who dont understand the idea of adoptables.
Sorry if my comment seemed in some ways attacking, I dont have nothing bad in my thought. I write how I felt, what think and would like to know what you think about it (:
I can't write too much about part with different characters. There was actually a discussion about it as I remember. I've never noticed any problems with it. I saw a lot of different chars, but never felt like "I have to make it so and so cause of others", but if someone was persecuted by it then there is something wrong and it's sad. Here I can agree that people have different tastes. The best resolution is to make anything we want to and dont look at what others will say.
Haru's picture

I told myself I wasn't going

I told myself I wasn't going to bump this up and just let it slide but I couldn't let these thoughts fester anymore.

First off; I agree entirely with you, Quamar.
I have seen too many posts taking digs at certain characters/character types and even players themselves and honestly I am sick of seeing it. I am tired of seeing people I know being affected and these things going unchecked. It has got to stop, especially when some things get aimed toward the younger members.
It is unacceptable.

Secondly; Mis, playing it all off as a joke does not suddenly make it all okay. That doesn't change the fact that people have been hurt by things that have been said on this site. Not everyone can just laugh things off and telling them to "relax" because it was "just a joke"? That's just adding salt to the wounds and frankly, it makes people feel like crap. Take it from someone who has been picked on most their life and told to just "get over it" because it was "just a joke." Being picked at and laughed at? It doesn't feel good. At all.
Furthermore, talking to someone about something they've said is not so simple when some people are legitimately frightened and anxious about approaching others. Especially on a matter like this. Personally, I am that way. I don't talk to people or speak up even though I know I should, I let stuff linger and fester. It took me literally a day and a half before I finally got the guts to even write this!
Besides that, when they see someone saying things like "it was just a joke get over it", what do you think they expect to hear when they do confront someone about something they felt was aimed toward them?

A teacher once gave my class some very good advice. If you wouldn't want a certain person or certain group of people around when you tell a joke, chances are it's offensive and/or prejudiced and maybe it shouldn't be put out there.
I realize all of this is a double edged sword because yes, we are all entitled to our own opinions and yes, maybe some people overreact. Responsibility has to be taken on both sides. I understand people are hypocritical, people make mistakes, and our emotions get away from us but I think we all need to start taking steps back and really looking at what we're saying or doing. And maybe we should start taking responsibility for the things we say instead of pinning it all on the person who got offended and telling them to just "relax" because it's all just a big old joke. Whether or not it was meant to be malicious, it doesn't change the fact that it hurt someone.

And that's just my two cents on the issue and probably all I have got to say on the matter.
Tuhka's picture

Honest I'm always getting a

Honest I'm always getting a bit terrified here afterwards when I make blog-entries like this, talking about the community, specially if it's something negative like this. So I've been kinda lurking here wishing no one's going to kill me too bad for things I've stated here. It's just something that's been bugging me. Feels like.. for example these bad guy characters are hardly taken seriously even when people keep going around and looking kinda down to them. It easily goes like: a "bad-guy" character = a ridiculous character. I'm already feeling uncomfortable even having my Cut around in fear people think he's utterly stupid and ridiculous mainstream-rawr character, despite him having been around for a long time as well and been in constant use.. idk, but this is just me. I'm over-sensitive too so that might be it.

And Dampir, noooo I wasn't talking about your comments or words or anything, ahh don't even remember what you said.. oh rofl. But also, I've been a bit concerned people might feel annoyed at me for starting this whole adoptable-fad again... so yeah, I'm thinking a lot.
But no harm done, Dampy.

And I appreciate all the input from you guys here. Good reading different views and feelings from people. Misako, appreciate your input as well despite I'm sort of disagreeing, but still. I admit, I am rather sensitive but it seems there are also others feeling the same way as I am. So maybe I'm not as alone with these thoughts as I thought I'd be..
Haru, I know all about that bullying thing and the fear of approaching people. Honest, got this fear momentarily when saw this bumped again <D I'm a bit insecure what comes to letting my opinions out these days. But it's good you did, I stopped lurking and delaying my replies.
Mis's picture

Haru: Ah, you bring up some

Haru:
Ah, you bring up some good points! And don't let thoughts that bother you fester, no need for that! I can see what you mean though, I guess the problem there is that not everyone has the same view on things, which is a problem with a lot of things of course. One person will find a subject acceptable, another won't, where's the middle? I never said for people to just get over it, I suggested it is sometimes not meant as anything more. It's difficult I think for the other person to suddenly realize hey, I hurt someone's feelings. They didn't talk to me about it, they assumed I meant it hurtful whilst I didn't. All too often there are those vague messages in statuses on msn or something, and doesn't matter who reads them, you'll likely feel like it was about you. Even if it wasn't. That's kind of what humans do I think? We assume a lot. And that's not always good for our own nerves. On the other hand it'd be a good idea for people to, like you said, not put it out there to begin with if it can cause confusion. But yeah, I guess for everyone that border is different. Which can and will likely create conflict.
I'm still all for talking though. It's hard to learn to understand eachother if we don't. And I mean talking by being mature and listening, of course, and perhaps not waving stuff off as a joke. I didn't mean to come across as that either, again, I hate the idea that I now hurt someone. I thought to simply explain my viewpoint, and I'm glad you brought up yours too. So, yeah, I think you brought up some valid stuff and I'll have to agree with you. Like you said though, there's two sides to it, and however I understand it can be intimidating to talk to people, a lot of the people on this website are just humans with the same worries as well. It's difficult, but sometimes it's okay to email someone saying hey, this and this worried/hurt/etc me, how did you mean that or stuff. But you know, I suppose everyone needs to breathe a few times before doing things. Think twice perhaps, both parties?

If you do feel like talking on or anything, I guess my emails on pretty much all of my pages. Again sorry I seemed hurtful though? Didn't mean to. But yeah, no need to spam your blog with lengthy posts either Tuhka. Sorry!


*edit*
Ah Tuhka! It’s okay, I’m honestly the same. I used to be interested in replying to people their rants or their worries but too often did that just get me really angry people on my back. I try to explain as non-offensively as I can but I guess even then I can also still say stuff that offends people. But it is good I think to see different viewpoints. How else do we learn to step in another’s shoes?
I think any character can be awesomely done. I guess badguys more often struggle with that prejudice problem though yeah, which is a shame! (maybe also a challenge?) Though all the same I sometimes feel like the “normal”(Don’t even know what’s considered normal really. Neutral? Nice?) characters in turn get overlooked. But I think if you have a character in a certain ‘category’ yourself you see things like that quicker. In my mind, after I brought Verve around suddenly every deer was a crafting deer. But likely that’s just in my head too. I hope it is at least <_<” Guess that’s the same type of worry as you have with the adoptables. ‘Everyone must be getting annoyed by it now’
Again it’s a super fun fad though so I wouldn’t worry. There’s no harm in it.
And it’s okay to disagree! And likely there are other people who feel the same, especially people who are doing adoptables too or have a not-so-nice character. Because I guess, they see that quicker too. Not saying that makes it not true btw, but makes you more sensitive perhaps.

Hahah ah I know that feeling too :”) I was pretty scared after I said something. And I really hope my posts are understandable because dang I think I’m being quite chaotic o_o
Tuhka's picture

Don't be sorry, Mis! I like

Don't be sorry, Mis! I like the fact there's some constructive conversation around the subject here. I like hearing different sides. That's what I'm kind of hoping every time when making posts of this nature... even if feeling a bit terrified afterwards. Afraid of people's hate ;;
But I do agree on some things you said as well, not everything around the internets should be taken to heart or instantly taken in the bad way.. but like said, some people are also more sensitive than others. The golden middle-way is hard to find and we all also say a lot of things we shouldn't. I do as well, and I will in the future as well as we are in fact human, and don't always indeed realize how different people from ourselves might take it.

Just don't feel comfy over this character stuff around. I guess I've got nothing more to add to this, many good things already said and I could only repeat things from now on :P

*editsyedits for more stuff*
Ah yeah, kind of noticed the more neutral and generally nice ones indeed being overlooked unless the player is some awesomely great artist making the normal actually... not normal. o_O
But yeah, that's also actually kind of shame... prolly someone as neutrally happy character as my Quamar wouldn't succeed around here anymore, back then just by being nice you got far I suppose. <D
Hmm..? I haven't spotted other craftydeer around... but then again I'm not the most observant person around here so might have missed them as well oh pfff! But nothing that would at least pop from the crowd. When I'm thinking about 'a deer' and 'crafting', I instantly get Verve into my mind so I think she is still shining brightly as one of the most original charries around. Worry not, good characters tends to get those as well... I remember multiple Jorogumo look-a-likes back then as well because she stood out of the crowd.. :B
Also, I didn't see your comment as attacking or offending, it only carries a different message. That doesn't make it a bad one. It's good to talk about these stuffs and maybe learn something from each others. Every input is highly welcome, no matter what's the opinion.
I admit my blog writing is a bit rageyranty, I was tired and it was like.. 4am? And I was pissed over many things, do forgive me, people. <D
Haru's picture

Quamar; Oh yes, I know that

Quamar; Oh yes, I know that fear all too well, I freak out a little myself seeing my stuff bumped! I do apologize for causing any heart attacks :'D ♥

Mis: You have some good points as well and I do agree a bit with what you've said.
It is very hard to find a middle ground, there's so many people with so many views and tastes that conflict is, quite honestly, unavoidable. Sometimes there's just some things and some people we simply can't agree with but that doesn't give us reason to be nasty to each other. Simply agree to disagree and move along.
I do agree, though, there really needs to be more communication as well as more thought put into our words and actions, particularly those that could be harmful and particularly on this site as well. Sometimes it is very hard to remember that we are all just a bunch of humans with much the same feelings and thoughts, especially where there is a screen separating us all.
Also, I do apologize for misinterpreting your words a bit there. I may have been just a bit ruffled when I wrote all of that and that might have clouded my judgement but, as I said, I'm only human~ No harm done though, I understand where you're coming from now.
I'm glad we were able to have this little discussion and reach a bit of an understanding~