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December 19, 2010 - 11:38am — Phaios
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Feel free to interact*Both text and visual roleplay are welcome. If you have been given my Skype/Discord address, you are welcome to interact there as well. with Phaios and Endriaga here.
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I decided I really didn't like the back-end of that journal code :I So here we are

Biography:
A Ray of Dusk; The Red of Dawn

Plot Blogs:
Death is the Road to Awe
An Unfinished Life
A Glimmer of Hope
Remember Us
We Meet in Dreams


Note: Endriaga can generally be assumed to be resting with Phaios or hanging around in a tree nearby [but likely will not be logged in]. Not a deer as she was before, but instead a miniature dragon.


12-18-2022

Physical
Denotes physical fitness - wounds, illness, etc.
: Healthy. [100/100]
Mental
Mental health determines the stability of emotional health, rationality and decision-making skills, and emotional recovery time.
: Well [90/100]
Emotional
Emotional health is an indication of the state of self-perceived well-being. It is not necessarily bound by "happy" and "unhappy."
: Content [90/100]
Demeanor
Current behavior and posture/body language.
: Quiet, thoughtful

How many years has it been?


Has spent the last few months with little in the way of drama. Content to be bored most of the time, although she does at times feel quite lonely. As such, she has been happily reconnecting with Illrose and Carmine when she comes across them. In particular, surprised and incredibly grateful when first Illrose and then Carmine sought her out in the deep fog of October and stayed with her for a number of days until it passed; the mist bound her senses uncomfortably and left her on edge and feeling blind, but having a steady presence greatly eased that stress.

A little more melancholy now that the snow has arrived, often lost in thought. Not really a fan of the cold. Spending a little more time around Eraline's grave when she's on her own.


Previous Entries

September 12, 2012 - 8:35am — Waning-Sun
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The stag nodded

The stag nodded sympathetically, uncertain as to what he could say. "It does help having someone else around..." he agreed gently. He kept his scars hidden though, at least, when he could. Zash had managed to weasel some of the stories out of him, as far as scars went, but it was different with the stag. His whole body was a scar, he frankly didn't care who knew anything about why he didn't have an eye, or a foreleg. Then again, he only had one story to share. Akhenaton had many, and most of them he didn't want others to know.
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September 12, 2012 - 8:54am — Phaios
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"Yes... Ari seems to enjoy

"Yes... Ari seems to enjoy your company. She speaks well of you. Says you fly well." Phai tactfully opts to leave out her daughter's apparent giddiness over the matter, though, and simply smiles to herself.
September 12, 2012 - 9:30pm — Waning-Sun
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Akhenaton chuckled, thinking

Akhenaton chuckled, thinking about how happy she had been when he took her flying, "She did enjoy that, flying I mean. I don't think I've seen anyone happier."
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September 13, 2012 - 4:42am — Phaios
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"She went on about it for a

"She went on about it for a good while," the doe smiles. "I'm sure it will be a favorite story to tell to her little one." Maybe not so tactful this time.
September 13, 2012 - 6:33am — Waning-Sun
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"I suppose it would, wouldn't

"I suppose it would, wouldn't it?" He chuckled weakly, trying to hide the uncomfortable path this conversation was heading down, "She loves flying so much, it's too bad she didn't have wings herself. Then again she'd probably never come down, huh?"
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September 13, 2012 - 6:42am — Phaios
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"Ah... No, she probably

"Ah... No, she probably wouldn't come down until she dropped." A hint of amusement shows in her voice. "And it's hard enough to keep track of her and her sister without their scent trails suddenly vanishing into the sky."
September 13, 2012 - 6:48am — Waning-Sun
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He laughed at that, "I feel

He laughed at that, "I feel bad for you, having to fight to keep an eye on them."
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September 13, 2012 - 6:53am — Phaios
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"Endri helps sometimes. And

"Endri helps sometimes. And part of it is realizing I can't be everywhere all the time," she replies softly, "try though I may."
September 13, 2012 - 7:07am — Waning-Sun
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The stag nodded, feeling an

The stag nodded, feeling an underlying meaning to her words. "Sometimes, that is the hardest thing to accept." he agreed softly.
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September 13, 2012 - 7:20am — Phaios
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Phai sighs quietly, letting

Phai sighs quietly, letting the air make a hushed 'fff' as it passes between pursed lips. "Yes, well... I get plenty of practice." She tilts her head slightly, eyeing Akhenaton. "But at least Ari seems to have found a few friends to be there when I can't."
September 13, 2012 - 7:28am — Waning-Sun
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The stag held her gaze for a

The stag held her gaze for a moment, before respectfully glancing away, nodding as he did so, "I'm doing my best to watch out for her." well..trying to...
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September 13, 2012 - 7:38am — Phaios
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The doe laughs inwardly, the

The doe laughs inwardly, the only giveaway a slight crinkling at the corners of her eyes. Poor kid. She hadn't meant to put him on the spot. "More than I could ask." She pauses for a moment before adding, simply, "Thank you."
September 13, 2012 - 7:44am — Waning-Sun
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"No need to thank me, she's

"No need to thank me, she's an enjoyable little doe. A wonderful friend to have," the orange stag replied.
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September 13, 2012 - 8:16am — Phaios
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"Yes, she's a good deer...

"Yes, she's a good deer... But all the same," answers the doe. "I'm glad for her friends." She shifts her weight, easing a foot that had fallen asleep some time ago. "And thank you for telling me of Egypt and the humans. I might like to hear more, some time, if you'll tolerate an old rambler. The world seems a more curious place the more I learn of it." Her eyes wander across the birch's grasses, focused somewhere far off. "But for now I'm sure I've bothered you enough, and a good drink is calling me," she says as she climbs to her feet. After giving a silent nod towards the grave, as is her custom before she leaves her lost friend behind, Phai turns back to the buck with a smile. "It's been lovely meeting you, Akhen."
September 13, 2012 - 8:34am — Waning-Sun
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"It's been nice meeting you

"It's been nice meeting you as well," Akhenaton bowed low, "I wouldn't mind a talk or two, whenever you feel like it. I'm always up for a conversation of the past. I'd love to hear more of your world too, some day," he answered with a weak smile.
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September 14, 2012 - 2:52am — Phaios
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The doe returns the bow,

The doe returns the bow, though she doesn't dip quite so low. "I'd be glad to share it with you," she smiles. Calling a soft "Have a good evening," over her shoulder as she turns, Phai makes for the pond, musing to herself.
September 21, 2012 - 8:25am — Sham

Completely baffled and a bit

Completely baffled and a bit amazed by the does resistance, couldn't stay quiet any longer. "Well, if you're the type who wants flowers you can forget it".
September 21, 2012 - 8:29am — Phaios
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"F...Flowers?" Phai's more

"F...Flowers?" Phai's more than a bit baffled, herself. "What's that have t..." Oh. Oh.
"...I like my tail left alone, please. I don't swing that way." She sounds more than a little flustered, too.
September 21, 2012 - 8:34am — Sham

'Please', among other things.

'Please', among other things. Could only roll her eyes, take a step closer. "But you have such a nice tail", she informed, however... "What's a bit of affection between friends? Not asking you to swing in any direction", a snort is given. Felt rather insinuative of them, she thought. "Just messing around, you. Could loosen up, not asking for anything other than some nuzzles", and was quite irritated that she had to basically beg for them at one point. Although... was probably just backpedaling for whatever reason. Another time, perhaps. She was rather persistent.
September 21, 2012 - 8:39am — Phaios
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The doe flicks her 'nice'

The doe flicks her 'nice' tail and starts to wonder what she's gotten herself into. For a few moments she's not even sure how to respond.
"...I still don't like deer behind me." Surely Sianna's been into the red flowers or something. And she hadn't forgotten the phoenix's tale of woe. Sighing, she relents a bit. "Why don't you sit down, then, and I'll go over your fur?" Phai offers, hoping for some level of compromise.
September 21, 2012 - 8:46am — Sham

Watches this 'nice' tail get

Watches this 'nice' tail get flicked. Really was nice, she thought so. Pulled her gaze back to the doe when they mentioned not liking deer behind there... but, Sianna did not believe this. Beneath the dark sockets of her mask resided an expression of suspicion, though it did not go beyond there. Listened to them try to come to some sort of compromise, but didn't really want that, not like that anyways. "We could sit and then simultaneously go over each others fur", she suggested. Believed this would work out.
September 21, 2012 - 8:49am — Phaios
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Phai's ears flick briefly

Phai's ears flick briefly with uncertainty, but she concedes. "Sure," she answers, stepping towards the familiar comfort of a tree she can brace her shoulder against while she sits. Not like her fur couldn't stand to be slicked down, anyhow.
September 21, 2012 - 8:56am — Sham

Watchfully her eyes followed,

Watchfully her eyes followed, would move towards them once braced against the tree and gently place herself beside them. Moved her head to the opposite side, bracing her mask between upper legs to pull it free. Would get to slicking back the fur about the others exposed shoulder... but then stopped. Seemingly bored with it already or just too lazy to give attention, who knew. Probably did just want to receive attention rather than give it. "I don't believe you", she'd finally say, but what she was referring to was uncertain. Head would idly rest elsewhere, not even touching the doe. Pouting? Something like that.
September 21, 2012 - 9:02am — Phaios
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She eyes the mask as it's

She eyes the mask as it's removed; they were always curious objects to her, much like the faces beneath. Trying to relax and glad to have something to occupy her mouth enough to dispel the awkward conversation for a while, Phai takes to grooming Sianna's fur in return. She pauses only briefly when the other ceases and has about enough time to wonder what the problem is now before Sianna speaks. "About what?" she inquires between licks.
September 21, 2012 - 9:12am — Sham

Gave a sigh, being so

Gave a sigh, being so pathetic because she was simply that way. Enjoyed the others grooming at least, didn't intend to up and leave yet. "You expect me to believe you're straight?", she said, a bit of bitterness in her tone. "It's not that, we both know that", because she was good at making assumptions and believing whatever she wanted to, "You're scared, I bet", for it was the story of her life. She would finish off with a 'pfft', and grow silent.
September 21, 2012 - 9:14am — Phaios
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Phaios responds with a

Phaios responds with a 'pffft' of her own as she tries not to laugh. Was she serious?
"Yes, I'm scared - and I'm also a giant squirrel, didn't you know?" Her eyes roll before she speaks more seriously. "No... I quite prefer males. I just don't prefer deer. I've taken a mate where I came from. I don't intend to be unfaithful while I'm here." Peering backwards so she can see the other's face, she adds, "Especially with a girl."
September 21, 2012 - 9:23am — Sham

The resistance here was just

The resistance here was just too overwhelming. Had Sianna ever so badly misjudged before? There was Illrose... and maybe some others. The phoenix had a hard time recalling, couldn't really count what failures there were. Shot down, hung her head. Didn't take long for what appeared to be sadness to transform into irritation. Would go about slipping her mask back on before scooting back, standing, and moving away... far away. "You're just trying to blow smoke up my ass, but either way, fuck you bitch", she'd holler at them before turning and trotting off, making a dramatic exit.

(Pointless RP was rather pointless, lol... It's late but, got some giggles out of it anyway).
September 21, 2012 - 9:27am — OrinocoFlow
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This was by far one of the

This was by far one of the most entertaining rps I have read yet XD
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September 21, 2012 - 9:28am — Phaios
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Phai watches her go, torn

Phai watches her go, torn between being amused and exasperated. Her brows lift at the insult, but all she shouts back is "Good night, Sianna," before she turns and heads her own way, wondering what the hell just happened.

[Hehe. I am amused. Worth staying up for, even if I'm a zombie at work x3]
October 3, 2012 - 6:18am — wake
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Thought I had this tracked.

Thought I had this tracked. WELP -tracks-
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October 3, 2012 - 6:41am — Sham

Poor Phaios, sounds like she

Poor Phaios, sounds like she had an awful evening, lol.
October 3, 2012 - 6:43am — Phaios
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Wake - Better Nate than

Wake - Better Nate than lever!

Sham - Yes ;_; She hasn't been so stressed out in a long time, lol.
October 3, 2012 - 7:20am — OrinocoFlow
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awwwww poor phai :C

awwwww poor phai :C
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October 6, 2012 - 6:33am — Waning-Sun
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We are bio hopping.

We are bio hopping. Whoo.


Akhenaton left Aria in Bear's care, picking up his pace to trot through the dark forest in search of Phaios. The search part was just seeing how good of a memory he had when it came to retracing his steps. It wasn't so good. The stag got turned around more times than not, mostly for misjudging what certain trees actually were.
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October 6, 2012 - 6:52am — Phaios
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*hoppityhop* The doe had

*hoppityhop*

The doe had watched the pair depart to find moths through carefully slit eyes and smiled to herself, and sleep had come not long after. With her back against the trunk of a tree and a fair amount of reasonably high grass surrounding the rest of her, Phai felt comfortable enough to sleep with relative soundness. Somewhere through the mist of her dreams, though, there was a pitter-pattering of hooves. The doe's lids flutter apart, groggy eyes searching for the sound that had woken her as her head pops above the level of the grass.
October 6, 2012 - 6:57am — Waning-Sun
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The stag stumbled, shying

The stag stumbled, shying away as the doe's head suddenly came above the grasses. He hadn't been expecting that. He stopped short though, taking a few steps closer to where he could see her. "Sorry, to disturb your sleep, Phaios, but Aria...she's...she said she thinks her fawns are coming...soon. She wants your company." he stated, holding back his nervousness.
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October 6, 2012 - 7:07am — Phaios
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Her head whips around to face

Her head whips around to face the buck, startled by the sounds of stumbling. Her ears press forward with interest to catch his words; her eyes widen slightly at the news. "No... Not at all, Akhen." Getting to her feet, Phaios glances about to get her bearings before nodding in the direction of De Drinkplaats. Man, she hated that place - but she'd tolerate it for one night. "Come on, then. She's at the tree, yes?"
October 6, 2012 - 7:10am — Waning-Sun
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The stag nodded, "Yes at the

The stag nodded, "Yes at the tree, waiting. A friend of ours is with her." (Out of game) He stepped back, watching the doe.
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October 6, 2012 - 7:14am — Phaios
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Her head tilts to one side,

Her head tilts to one side, curious about who the friend might be, but she only nods and sets off at an easy lope, forcing herself not to sprint. Although her heart said she needed to be there rightnownownow, she knew there was no point in wearing herself out when there might be a long night ahead.
October 14, 2012 - 10:50pm — CydaLuva83
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Phai, Momma Bear. Your turn

Phai, Momma Bear.
Your turn to post. =D
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October 14, 2012 - 11:02pm — Phaios
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lol, sorry, we were at lunch

lol, sorry, we were at lunch before and then had to walk up here to the school lab and get the internet to work.
October 20, 2012 - 2:44am — Kaoori
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ROFLMAO YOUR UPDATE

ROFLMAO YOUR UPDATE
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October 20, 2012 - 2:47am — Phaios
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Me: FOG YESSSS Phai: SO MUCH

Me: FOG YESSSS

Phai: SO MUCH UNHAPPY ;_______;
October 23, 2012 - 8:23am — Sham

After a long chase, the small

After a long chase, the small phoenix fawn finally tuckered out and went to bed.

Btw, I was curious if my emails have ever gotten to you?
October 23, 2012 - 8:31am — Phaios
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Oh, no! They had not! I have

Oh, no! They had not! I have that one set up on my phone, so I keep a pretty good eye on it.
I just checked the spam folder for it, and I see one E-mail from the 14th, but that's all. Hotmail likes to kick things out of there after 5 days (actually, it's been more than 5 days for that one... Guess I need to look and see what their new policy is), I think. Sorry about that, Sham!
October 23, 2012 - 8:29am — Sham

I usually try to give it a

I usually try to give it a while before asking. I do seem to have some trouble with getting emails to go through these days. Glad at least one made it? Had only sent two, assuming the first never made it. No need to apologize.
October 29, 2012 - 12:20am — JackStrauss

The white... or...

The white... or... at-the-moment-not-so-white.... stared at her for a few moments... before it burst out of him. "Where the hell is her mama eh?"
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October 29, 2012 - 12:25am — Phaios
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"I hope my granddaughter

"I hope my granddaughter hasn't been bothering you," Phai says with a nod to indicate little Irie. She'd found the rambunctious fawn with Jack twice, now. And this time he was looking rather... flamboyant, in contrast to his usual white fur.
At Jack's question she gives him an odd look. "Irie likes to slip away while her mother is resting. If I had to guess, her mother's in her nest with Irie's brother, where Irie ought to be." The little fawn would find a stern look fixed on her if she looked up.
October 29, 2012 - 12:37am — JackStrauss

He let out a snort... he

He let out a snort... he didn't bother to get rid of the colors and feathers yet... it hadn't been a great disturbance yet... besides the caused burst of laughter of the dragon doe. "So?" he said, is intentional anger about a fawn beeng left alone blown out again. "Happens often yes?" he grunted. "Little girl looks starved... " he fell silent again, shakeing his head slightly, like always when he was nervous. "Shouldn't ... eh... be with me so long again... a whole day..."
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October 29, 2012 - 12:48am — Phaios
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"More often than I'd like.

"More often than I'd like. They're Aria's first fawns, so she's still learning." Phaios snuffs lightly. "I track her down any time I notice she's missing. If I could tie her down, I would." The doe contains it fairly well, but her frustration is still evident. "She isn't starved, and you are welcome to bring her to me any time she's bothering you. Or her mother - she's usually in the birch forest, near that circle of mushrooms. A little white feathery doe."