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Feel free to interact*Both text and visual roleplay are welcome. If you have been given my Skype/Discord address, you are welcome to interact there as well. with Phaios and Endriaga here.
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I decided I really didn't like the back-end of that journal code :I So here we are



Note: Endriaga can generally be assumed to be resting with Phaios or hanging around in a tree nearby [but likely will not be logged in]. Not a deer as she was before, but instead a miniature dragon.


12-18-2022

Physical
Denotes physical fitness - wounds, illness, etc.
: Healthy. [100/100]
Mental
Mental health determines the stability of emotional health, rationality and decision-making skills, and emotional recovery time.
: Well [90/100]
Emotional
Emotional health is an indication of the state of self-perceived well-being. It is not necessarily bound by "happy" and "unhappy."
: Content [90/100]
Demeanor
Current behavior and posture/body language.
: Quiet, thoughtful

How many years has it been?


Has spent the last few months with little in the way of drama. Content to be bored most of the time, although she does at times feel quite lonely. As such, she has been happily reconnecting with Illrose and Carmine when she comes across them. In particular, surprised and incredibly grateful when first Illrose and then Carmine sought her out in the deep fog of October and stayed with her for a number of days until it passed; the mist bound her senses uncomfortably and left her on edge and feeling blind, but having a steady presence greatly eased that stress.

A little more melancholy now that the snow has arrived, often lost in thought. Not really a fan of the cold. Spending a little more time around Eraline's grave when she's on her own.


Previous Entries

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"Ah... I'm sorry," she

"Ah... I'm sorry," she murmurs. "It's a terrible thing, not knowing." The doe doesn't press any further.
Her gaze follows his to the ruins, only to snap back at his final statement. A child... But surely there were many children, even though she only knew of one. Her brow furrows as she takes sudden interest in the nearest blossom. "Such things - such pain - is difficult to forget."
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"As I am aware.. It has been

"As I am aware.. It has been some time since the death and still I am disregarded. I've accepted this fate." Walter speaks only before the pair of them relocate, Walter picking his way through the trees until eventually leading the brown doe to his resting place. Here he drops to the ground against a small, yet sturdy tree. He looks to Phaios, then nods to the tree opposing his, surrounded by the red poppies. "Ephra slept there. Now others claim the spot. I still sleep here though.. Perhaps one day I might wake to see her sitting there as she has done before." The rumbling of his heavy voice gives way to a yawn and the stag slowly begins to lower his head, awkward with the positioning of his heavy horns. "It is time for me to sleep, my beautiful dear. Perhaps we can meet again." The grin makes another slight appearance before the stag tucks his head away and finally allows himself to fall into a slumber.

(( This was fun! ;3 I hope these two get to meet again sometime! ))
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Phaios peers up again, eyes

Phaios peers up again, eyes filled with a dull sadness she quickly pushes away when Walter rises. Words dance at the tip of her tongue, but don't dare to venture beyond its ledge.
As their trek takes the pair alongside the ruins, her attention diverts to the two markers with meaning to her - one at each end - but she makes no remark about the stones.
In fact, it seems the only words she can manage to untangle from the new knot in her throat come when Walter announces his desire to sleep.
"Rest well. I do hope we meet again... And that time is easier for you between now and then." The doe lingers for a moment, then leaves him to the peace of the woods.

[Yes, it was~ o3o I've seen Walter's name around for as long as I can remember, and somehow in four years none of my deer have managed to meet him. Imagine my surprise to see him standing in front of Phai!]
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Walter: "Herla is lonely, go

Walter: "Herla is lonely, go play with her?"

Phaios: "???"

Walter: *Bangs head off tree*


Oh the confusion! xD
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lmao! Is THAT what he wanted?

lmao! Is THAT what he wanted? xD
I can't see Herla. She's way away :<


Edit: And I think we're about to get dinner, so I will not be offended if Walter wanders away if Phai stops responding.
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'Tis fine, it's 5:15am here

'Tis fine, it's 5:15am here so I should be asleep!

"As usual, thankyou my dear. Your company is truly something I can appreciate, along with the rest of your.. Wonderful features.."
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trying to get a mini spell

trying to get a mini spell and tef is not cooperating :|
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Ohnoes :<

Ohnoes :<
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I'm not getting any spells at

I'm not getting any spells at this point. I may try one more time and call it a night. ;_;
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I've got one. Who're you

I've got one. Who're you spelling? Gray deer?

Try sitting a little farther away and letting the deer sleep for 5-10 seconds before you get up.
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yes, gray deer. one more

yes, gray deer. Smiling

one more time, I'm gonna try, and me and my deer are gonna hit the sack. So tired. ;_;
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I think for some reason it

I think for some reason it wasn't seeing me as inside the ring for a while there. Maybe stay away from the edges.
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what's she excited about ?

what's she excited about ? Shocked
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lol, it was an amused remark

lol, it was an amused remark about Prussia jumping around like a little kid 'cause he got his antlers.
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Hai. :]

Hai. :]
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ohai dere o:

ohai dere o:
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"I didn't mean to drive your

"I didn't mean to drive your friends off. Are you hurt?"
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"I'm sorry, Walter. I'm not

"I'm sorry, Walter. I'm not myself tonight... No, I'm fine. It's just... a lot of problems with some friends." She glances in the direction the white doe and red stag had gone. "Not those," she clarifies. "I had asked Idelle to leave so I could speak to the others... I suppose I should find her now that they've gone."
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"If they harm you, I will

"If they harm you, I will kill them."
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The doe blinks, taken aback

The doe blinks, taken aback yet again today. "I... appreciate the thought, but I don't think it's necessary," she replies, confounded.
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Who knows what will be

Who knows what will be necessary?

It's why he never gave specifics. x)

But nice to see Phaios again, as always. She's one of the few deer that doesn't purposely avoid/confront Walter when he comes over these days. =P
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rofl Ah, she's pretty

rofl

Ah, she's pretty pacifistic most of the time, and Walter's generally been good to her x3
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Fffff. Never even saw Phai

Fffff. Never even saw Phai when she went to intervene. ;;
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I was wondering. I think I

I was wondering. I think I was glitching pretty badly when I first connected, even though it said I was at green. >/ Crazy TEF.
I kept that window up while I was trying to get a second one to connect, and the second window couldn't see the first for some reason, though the first could see the second - so I'm not entirely surprised.
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<3 *track*

"Your efforts are insignificant! I carry you to your deaths!"
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Hello~ :3

Hello~ :3
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Aria nuzzled up to her mother

Aria nuzzled up to her mother and frowned as she was a little worried,"Are you ok mother? you didn't want to dance with us?" she craned her neck to the side, worry building in her.
You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
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"Mm? I'm fine, little one,"

"Mm? I'm fine, little one," she reassures the younger deer gently. "Ravus and I had a bit of a spar earlier and I've worn myself out." The doe chuckles softly. "She's a little larger than I am."
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long overdue track. :}

long overdue track. :}
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&hearts;

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Pfft, I always miss

Pfft, I always miss things.

Alcinda - Thanks :3
Kaoori - ♥!! Glad we finally managed to catch you today.

I lol'd at Phaios's update.

I lol'd at Phaios's update.

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"Oh Phaios, it has been far too long", she would draw nearer, close to a single ear if given the chance. "Beautiful as ever".
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I lol'd at Sianna x3 "It

I lol'd at Sianna x3


"It has been a while, hasn't it?" she agrees, though her ear flicks back when tickled by Sianna's nearness. Ahm. Bubble? Where'd you go? "Ah... I don't know about 'beautiful,' but thank you. How have you been?"

"Too long, we should see each

"Too long, we should see each other more", she coo'd insistently. "You are beautiful!", the phoenix exclaimed, and Sianna would grow more snugly into the doe, for Sianna knew nothing of bubbles and personal space. "Hard times, hard times", her tone grew heavy with sadness, "But you're making it all better, my dear Phaios, how precious you are". Had that not sent the doe throwing Sianna off would go on to say, "But I should be asking, how have you been? Your woes are far more important than my own".
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Phaios brushes off Sianna's

Phaios brushes off Sianna's insistance at her beauty with a mild "P'shaw." She never was very good with compliments, much less when they were so unexpected. The doe did find it quite odd that the phoenix-deer would come on so... friendly, but then, they'd never really chit-chatted, either. Maybe she'd just missed it before. Personal space might have been an issue with most deer, but as she holds no qualms with Sianna, it goes unaddressed.
"Hard times?" She tsks. "That's a shame. Why so?" Tilting her head to one side, she continues, "I haven't many woes of my own today; it's been rather quiet, of late, with so many of those I know gone."

The phoenix hardly cared if

The phoenix hardly cared if the other brushed off her compliment, no, she would keep trying. Determination would send her to crack that shell, or so she would assume and predict. In any case the other's mild 'p'shaw' was not taken as a sign of discomfort or total rejection, not that discomfort or rejection mattered to her. A foot in the door, that's how it would be viewed, therefor she would continue on, rubbing the side of her mask into the other. "Don't be embarrassed", for not everyone could be as stunning as she, at least in this state of mind, "You truly are gorgeous", and would leave it there for now, not wanting to push anything too quickly. There would be time to douse the other in compliments later.

Due to the others, what would be taken as receptiveness, unknowing to their lack of knowledge in her ways of speaking, would take full advantage of it... to the fullest. "It's hard to talk about", she would sigh painstakingly, "I took in a fawn, and she got killed. I loved that little fawn... and she was just... snatched away, in the blink of an eye", she played this out well enough, left no room for potentially lying, and these signs would not show through body language or tone. "I don't like many fawns, but this was...", and she stopped there to shed a tear, even if it were hidden beneath her mask. The choking back on certain parts would likely say enough.

Latched onto the other, or rather leeched onto her. "I am sorry Phaios", she would continue to sniffle well into addressing this. "I am here if you want to talk. Nice that today has not brought you a ton of trouble though".

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Don't feel like you have to match that.

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She wasn't quite certain how

She wasn't quite certain how to respond to the doe's further insistence, and so only smiled good-naturedly. "You are too kind." Little did she know...

Sianna's 'confession' is what truly catches her off-guard, however. Her brows knit together with concern and sympathy, eyes clouding with old sorrows. "Oh, Sianna... I'm so sorry. Truly, I am." No wonder the other was so clingy! Phai moves to touch the side of her muzzle to one of the phoenix's ears in a comforting guesture as she sniffles. Poor dear!
"I've sheltered and lost many... It's difficult. The burden gets a little lighter with time, though," she murmurs softly. And yet Sianna was still offering to be an ear to her? "Oh, no, dearest. I'm quite fine, truly, and you've plenty to worry over without others right now." It simply wouldn't do, laying weight on an already laden doe missing her child. Not at all! And she hadn't been feeling too weighty, lately, either... Nostalgic, perhaps, and sometimes lost in thought, but not so crushed as she had been in months past.

'You are too kind' would ring

'You are too kind' would ring through her ears. Indeed she was. Further compliments would remain unheard for now, as reeling the doe in via another method was top priority.

The phoenix would soak in in the others concern and sympathy, drinking it like a cool, crisp glass of water. When the other finished and even touched their muzzle to the side of an ear, felt she had done well. Surely the doe was clueless. "Oh... time heals all wounds", she assured the other of knowing, though the pain was still evident in her voice.

Sianna would tilt her head and remove that mask of hers, revealing by now glossy and red eyes, tears glistening and warm. She would hide this away though, burying her face into the other neck, slowly letting a sense of victory dry her eyes. Once sobbing had subsided would lift her head again, taking to gently and affectionately grooming the other wherever possible. "You are amazing", she said lowly. "Like I said, you make it better".
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A blink. She'd never seen

A blink. She'd never seen Sianna without her mask before; it seemed like part of the doe, and although masks in and of themselves no longer surprised her, the faces beneath sometimes did. The fleeting glimpse of tears is enough to seal the deal; her heart aches for the phoenix. "Mm... Yes, though I wish the wounds weren't there at all, sometimes."
Phaios allows the other to soak her fur in as many tears as she needs to, occasionally offering a gentle nudge of reassurance in the places she can reach. When Sianna lifts her head again, the brown-furred doe smiles faintly. "Ah... I told you... I've loved and lost many times. It's a hurt I'm unfortunately familiar with. If you ever need to talk about it, I'm willing to listen."
Clueless indeed.

Took in all that the other

Took in all that the other said, but would fall silent for some time. The others nudging would be returned. Focused in on the gentle, affectionate grooming. Never noticed how nice the doe smelled before, rather lovely and overpowering for a girl like Sianna. This would be drawn in nonchalantly, letting it soothe and take her mind elsewhere. "Shh, no", she hushed and whispered, audible only between the two, "I would banish all your worries and troubles if I could. Take them upon my very shoulders so you could endure life without its cruelty ", a pause, "I would not hurt you". She fell silent again, taking to grooming once more.
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Her head cocks to one side as

Her head cocks to one side as she studies Sianna. Woah now. Didn't think they were that close. Or Sianna was that sensitive. Must really be hurting, the poor girl... Muddled head, that's what it is. Just needs someone. Well, she could offer that much. "Such things are what shape us," the doe replies quietly. "We wouldn't know what joy was if we had never felt pain. It would all be the same. I may wish it weren't so, but I can't deny that truth."
'I would not hurt you.' Phaios can't help but smile dimly at that, her eyes fixed somewhere far off. She'd heard that one before - and the nature of the memory Sianna evoked with her very existence left a bittersweet taste of irony lingering on her tongue.
"Do you remember," she starts after a few moments, "that fight with Ravus? It was a long time ago, seems like." A brief pause. "I got my memory back, then. I suppose I should thank you for it, in an odd way."

"Suppose you're right", the

"Suppose you're right", the doe let loose a soft sigh, pulling free from that excessive grooming. Would draw back just a bit when the doe went on asking if she remembered some fight with Ravus. Well, she had remembered plenty of fights with Ravus, but not because of why, most of it was a blur anyways, faded memories, new ones to replace them. "Memory?", she questioned, clueless as to what her company was going on about there at the end. Against better judgement would go on to say, "Do tell".
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Phaios nods slightly. "Yes...

Phaios nods slightly. "Yes... When I first came to the Forest, as a fawn, I didn't remember much from before." Her shoulders roll in a light shrug. "I don't know how it worked, exactly, but that fight kicked everything back into place." Shaking her head, she muses, "Just... something you said reminded me, was all. A passing thought."
The doe's eyes wander skyward, trying to judge how time had gone by. Well, that would explain her growing drowsiness. "My mind tends to wander when I'm tired." She gives a light laugh, hardly more than a few bursts of passing air between her nostrils, in hopes of perhaps brightening the mood a tad.

[Oops, it's almost 3am xD Gonna have to go after the next post or two.]

Listened intently, though

Listened intently, though wasn't sure how to take it, still a bit clueless and wondering what the other was getting at. Decided to remain optimistic in her mission, encase the doe had meant something to try and hinder her plans. Would not look at it that way. "Hopefully not a bad thought", was all that would be said, showing a bit of care for the others words, even if it was not meant much at all.

Had it been allowed, Sianna would slide from the others back and curl into their side. "You should sleep", she would lull the other, "I will be here when you wake", she assured even if the other didn't care. The laughter the other had made had not went unnoticed, though the phoenix hardly felt like falling into that, so would remain as she were, cuddling into the other had they allowed it.

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Time did fly by there.
Sleep well. (:
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"No... Not a bad thought." A

"No... Not a bad thought."
A yawn escapes her at the thought of sleep. "Mm... It probably wouldn't be a bad idea." Her brows lift when the phoenix states she'll be staying, curious... but surely Sianna didn't want to be alone, and surely Phai could tolerate some company. The doe hadn't been unpleasant, after all - if a bit clingy. Well, alright then. "It probably wouldn't hurt you, either," she muses. That whole 'tough times' business. Laying her head down, she murmurs, "Good night, then."

[It did xD Thank you~ And you, too!]
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*tracks* I'm that tiny fawn

*tracks* I'm that tiny fawn with the unacceptable sitting habits by the way. :3
<3
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She's adorable

She's adorable <3
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she's not afraid of rabbits,

she's not afraid of rabbits, is she? ;_;
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Pffffft. No! Who would be

Pffffft. No! Who would be afraid of fluffy bunnies? Pfff.
Only the giant ones ;-;
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ffff x3

ffff x3