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Updates september 27th, 2022;

Fixing a lot of stuff around on bios while I try to get back into things <3
Tried to get back into TEF last year as well, but then my dog's health declined and in the beginning of december last year she had to be put down, my best friend for close to 15 years.

This took such a heavy toll on me and I think was a major reason for why I was unable to get back into TEF. But yeah, new attempt! So if you ever spot any of my characters in the forest, pls don't be afraid to say hello to them or poke me on discord or something <3







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"And why did you go after

"And why did you go after Sianna? Of course he would come after you if you did so!" Illrose snarled. She just couldn't believe this was happening. Not only with Jade, but with so many of them she cared about - Umay, Leviathann...Illrose cut her bonds to Gustiro to prevent this from happening, and then they - her friends and family - somehow ended up fighting Gustiro still. The physical and mental pain she had felt when they finally 'broke up'...it was all in vain, and that made her incredible sad. And angry.
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Jade attempted to keep her

Jade attempted to keep her voice quiet and calm.
"Because her and Gehrin were going after Leviathan. I believe Levi was going after Gustrio because of what he did to Umay, I can't say I blame her for that either... But I went after Gehrin and Sianna so they wouldn't end up killing her in her rage after Gustrio... I had no wish to touch Gustrio, but after the fight was done and I was walking away, Sianna kept coming back after me alone. So we fought alone until Gustrio ran in..." she said, telling Illrose the story of the day. Jade herself found no fault in protecting her friends, even if it meant stepping on uncomfortable ties..
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Omg.. I never thought I'd see

Omg.. I never thought I'd see Cru go against Illy. ;;
I think he's as upset about that as I am. Sorry Illy! ;u; ♥
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uwharrie; Illrose stayed

uwharrie;
Illrose stayed silent for a while, trying to understand what had really happened.
"Then this is Leviathann's fault." Her voice was empty now, just as her facial expression. Why couldn't they all just leave Gustiro alone, and stay the hell away from him, just as she was forced to do now? Anger rose in her body again, and she had to shake her head violently not to take it out on her dear daughter.
"I suggest you leave. I'm in no mood to talk anymore right now."

Xemi;
Lol, I think it surprised Illrose as well. xD Although she is too lost to tell the difference between friend and foe right now.
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Jade stood up and made a

Jade stood up and made a sound that sounded like something very close to a growl, turning to face her angered mother, frustrated
"No, it's not Levi's fault! And if it was, it might as well be mine too, because I would have gone after Gustrio myself if I saw him attack her... When did defending friends become the wrong choice? I know you pullled yourself away from Gustrio to prevent all this, but I won't turn my head if he, or anyone else, continues to attack us. If you'd like to watch him kill us all off then fine by me..." she said, feed up with the nonesense. She turned to leave, there was no use talking to someone who refuse to listen to any sense.

Poor Illrose. =/

Poor Illrose. =/

She would sit near the other,

She would sit near the other, bruised and beaten alike. "When does the time and wind carry away sorrow filled hearts and minds?". She knew Illrose did not like her, she probably wouldn't give her the time of day to even give a reasonable response to her question, but being here today was not about that anyway.

"We linger, we continue to linger in hopes we'll let go but in the end we are weak and never can. We hurt ourselves, you know? Our bodies slowly deteriorate from head to hoof. We can not last forever... can we?".

It may have been unclear to unperceptive deer... or perhaps she was only talking nonsense.

"Our world is a puzzle and we are self moving pieces. Likely to always be incomplete with empty spaces".

You don't need to respond to

You don't need to respond to this, as it was really just something that popped into my head during the fight. (:
Actually it would be best if you didn't because I have no muse. |D;



"You are foolish, Illrose. You think one life is more than two, more than five? How
wrong you are. Gustiro is an animal; he is a beast. He acts, thinks, looks and even smells like one. He
cannot love you, for his animalistic ancestors did not know the meaning of love. Look at him, he surrounds
himself with deer whom he has staked a claim on. He doesn't love them, he just wants them. He feels
comfortable around them. It isn't love, Illrose. It's anything but. It's childish affection, maybe, but never,
ever love. Stop fooling yourself. You loved him once upon a time, so what? Suddenly, because you loved
him, your love for us is so much weaker? Umay and I are your sisters, Illrose. I have defended you
against Evania, against Gustiro, against the world and you repay me with this. Umay has been by your
side through thick and thin. Look at what you've done to her.

Sure, let this be known now that I attacked Gustiro in his weakened state. I'll scream to the world
that I seek his blood and I wish to see his entrails scattered over the entire forest. But you should know
that he came near me first, he knew I was there, and still walked over. He brought
it upon himself. The bastard even had the gall to taunt first, so, you know, I figured I'd teach him some
manners. You don't greet with a taunt.

He's almost killed Umay numerous times, and guess what? You still defend him. You wish to know why
we won't leave him be? Because he fucked you over too many times to count. He used you. We're doing
this for you. And now, it's even more personal. What was once for you is now for Kody and Umay. And to
get back at you. You attacked your own siblings because of some stag. You are despicable. Lowest of the
low. The worst 'friend' I've ever had. You're lucky I didn't kill you on the spot for your insolence.

Look at you, you stupid girl. So lost in your own fantasies... Wake up, Illrose. Get over yourself.
He's not worth it. Never has been, never will be.

I hope this eats you alive until you regret ever double crossing me."
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^ Kheiron would love Lev if

^ Kheiron would love Lev if he heard that. (or at least what she says about Gus, but probably not what she says about Illrose. xD)

I feel sorry for Illrose though, awh. It's not easy being her.

Awwh, I feel sorry for her

Awwh, I feel sorry for her too. Poor thing ;;

XD Levi insulted everything

XD
Levi insulted everything about Gustiro that she possibly could. She even called him stinky. :'D


Yeah, it's been hard on everyone. :C
Poor Illrose, Umay, Kody, Gust.. Lev... ;___;
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Poor everyone ;_; WHAI CAN'T


Poor everyone ;_;
WHAI CAN'T THEY ALL BE HAPPEH AND LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER~
D'8
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uwharrie; There was things

uwharrie;
There was things she still wished to say to her daughter, but she had to try and calm down, and that was better left alone. Without a word, she turned her body the other way, slowly walking away from Jade, still with this empty gaze.

Lung;
Pfft, she brings it upon herself, stupid girl. x)

Sianna;
She could hear the rustle in the grass as someone sat down next to her. The scent filled her with great anger, but she lay still, unmoving. As Sianna began to spoke, Illrose listened silently, although pretending to be asleep. But, no matter how much she despised the other doe, she had to admit she was right.
"You are right." She whispered. Opened her eyes and sat up.
"You are right, and you are wrong. We can get strong, and we can let go if we just want it enough." Obviously, she was too weak. Illrose sat there, staring with empty eyes at nothing. Didn't even look at the other doe.

Sel;
( I see what you say, but that just can't go unanswered. xD )

Illrose stared at her sister hatefully, she could look like she wanted to jump forward and rip her throat out at any moment. But, strangely enough, Levi's harsh words seemed to calm her down, and in the end it was as if she was smiling.
"Have you ever been in love, sister?" She asked, with an empty voice.
"What I and Gustiro had is something that noone of you can understand, because you haven't shared all the things I've shared with him. I admit that I in the beginning believed the same as you; That he only used me, and didn't really care about me. That he couldn't love someone. But we were wrong. And I didn't love him once, I still love him! I gave up on him because of all that fighting! I gave up on him because I hated to see him fighting you and Umay, and because I hated to have to go between those I really cared about. So I sacrificed my love for your sake, for you and Umay, and all my friends and family that didn't get along with Gustiro! I was naive enough to believe that would put an end to the fighting, but of course it doesn't when you and Umay don't just walk away from him, even if he is the one taunting first. " She had to pause for a moment, anger had arisen inside her again as she spoke, but when she stopped, the anger was immediately replaced by sadness.
"I know he have hurt you and Umay, and I know you two have been there for me during all the ups and downs...but in the end I still came to love him, and you have no idea how much it hurt to let him go. But I made that decision because I believed it would get better after a while, that the company of family and friends could help me ease the pain. But the pain isn't eased when I again and again find my friends and family in his company - either fighting him or sitting with him. And the sight of him rip open the wound I have inside me and makes it bleed all again, while I again must step between him and my friends - the very thing I believed would be avoided once I let him go. You can call me many things, Leviathann, but you don't know what this is doing to me. What you, my friends and family, are doing to me."

Edit; Wow, super ninja'd while I was writing long reply. xD
WELL ILLROSE TRIED TO MAKE EVERYONE HAPPY WHEN SHE 'BROKE UP' WITH GUST BUT IT OBVIOUSLY DIDN'T WORK. 8D

She was right, then right and

She was right, then right and also wrong? She took a moment to process the dragon does words, eyes peering towards the warm ground.

"How can we become strong? This is me, my soul, a sea of love yet nothing, an ocean which never looks back and wonders despite countless efforts to conform and give".

Sianna would sigh, eyes lazily drifted over Illrose's weakened body. "I want to change, but perhaps that is an impossible feat. Things happen and I go mad. I am trying to become something better, but cutting away those loose ties is harder by the day. Always so sad, have always been sad, will always be sad. I can not see the road ahead of me, only endless and aimless wondering. There is too much change, it happens so fast, and I am left in the dust to mindlessly rot".

"I have loved and lost more

"I have loved and lost more times than you, Illrose. I have lost a few lovers,
many friends, and most of my family. Don't tell me that I do not know your pain, because I very well
do. I know exactly what its like. Don't speak of of things you think you know. You are not
the only one who has had to make sacrifices for 'love'.
Don't jump to conclusions; your puppy love is
nothing in this world. It'll end quickly, in the blink of an eye. Nobody will remember it. I've seen such
things forgotten many more times than I care to recall. Such is the pain of being immortal.

...

You want us to walk away, but tell me, would your pride allow you to do the same? We are proud creatures,
Illrose. Nothing will change that.

I'd say I'm sorry things ended this way, but I'm not. We cannot coexist with someone who sees no reason,
someone who is selfish and childish. It's us or him, for good, this time. Choose wisely."

The massive doe turned and left, her wounds still dripping with blood.
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Sianna; How could they become

Sianna;
How could they become stronger? That was indeed a good question. And despite what Illrose had just said, she had no idea what to answer. She didn't know how to become stronger, especially not now, in this state.
"I don't know." She therefore whispered, short and simple.

Sel;
Leviathann's words made her narrow her eyes. How could her 'sister' talk about her feelings like this? Like they meant nothing at all. Leviathann had no idea.
"If I had been in your place, then yes, I would have been able to walk away! If I had known my own sister had let go of her love for me, for peace, then yes, I would have avoided fighting that stag, no matter how much I hated him." She was then silent for a moment.
"I will - and cannot - choose him again, but I will not choose you either. You are no longer my sister. What goes for Umay and the rest of my friends and family...I do not know." She couldn't believe Leviathann could be this arrogant and selfish. Cruel. No, she would never call such deer family, let alone sister.

The orange stag bumped his

The orange stag bumped his head into the side of the bigger doe. He wasn't quite sure what had happened to her, but he could almost smell that something was wrong from a far distance.
He decided not to ask right now, only be there for her. He had learned that it was usually conflicts between others that seemed to bother her, though.
"You know.... I just..." He swallowed, blinked a few times.
"I just... wanted to tell you...that I don't care who you're with. I really don't. As long as... as long as I can be there with you."


pff had to get Kheiron in there :') I think I'll be more on now that I have vacation and such, btw. And since you already have some rp's going on this will be really, really short, haha.

"You do not know? You are the

"You do not know? You are the most strong willed deer I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. Well, my mistake".

Sianna would scoot closer... by just a little. "Can we start over, Illrose?".

The doe turned her head,

The doe turned her head, amber eyes flashing.
"I know that look, Illrose. Don't mistake my rationality for cruelness. Would you rather me give
into my emotions like you did? You could have killed Umay because of your emotions. If I gave into my own
emotions right now, Gustiro would be dead. I'm sparing you the pain of knowing your former sister
killed your little lover and possibly his entire herd. I can't help what I am, and my instinct is telling me to think
before letting loose like you did. I'm not dumb enough to let a monster like the real me loose in the forest.

This is an act of kindness, not cruelty."
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I'm just gonna.. place a

I'm just gonna.. place a track here. /slaps sticker on, slinks away.
Please call me Lyssa or Kir. n.n

Art by Anjali. ♥
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mini; The sight of her best

mini;
The sight of her best friend made all anger flee from Illrose's body, and for a moment she felt like smiling - or crying. Or perhaps both. But she did neither, only buried her skull deep into his orange fur. She tried to laugh, but it was only a strangled noise that came from her throat.
"Right now I don't know who I want to be with, but of course I'll let you be there! I'm so glad to see you!"

( Seeing Kheiron was the best thing that could have happened to her right now. ♥ )

Sianna;
"I am?" She asked, puzzled. She didn't exactly feel strong willed right now, but had to admit the words made her feel a tiny bit better. Sianna's request did surprise her though.
"I guess we can try." She slowly replied, a small smile forming her lips. She then casted a hurried glance over at Sianna.
"But I warn you, don't try your games on me." Oh, she had seen Sianna 'playing' her games on other deer, fooling and blinding them. Perhaps that was what she was doing at this very moment...but for some reason, Illrose didn't think so.

Sel;
Illrose shook her head slowly.
"I can't spot the kindness. Not in your words, nor your actions. Why do you hate him so much? What have he ever done to you that makes you hate him so much you are willing to take innocent lives to pay back at him - and at me?" Illrose had never seen this side of Levi before, but she was glad she finally could see it. She felt almost embarrassed by the thought of once calling this...this creature...a sister.
"And I would never kill Umay. I may be upset, and I wanted her to feel hurt like I felt, but I wouldn't have taken her life. Unlike you, she is still a sister to me." And with those words, she turned around, beginning to walk away. She had nothing more to say to this despicable doe.

Edit; Hey Kirness, and thanks. :') ♥

Leviathann's skull twisted

Leviathann's skull twisted into what could have been seen as a sneer.
"You're so fucked up its not even funny. You'd wish pain upon your sister? Haha, don't be stupid.
Do you even hear yourself? 'I want her to feel my pain.' Really now, Illrose? I expected so much better.
She's no sister to you. She'll never accept you after this. You can't honestly believe she'll still trust you. I
fought for her, Illrose. You attacked her. She couldn't even fight back, hell, she can barely stay awake because
of you. You don't wish pain upon your family, naive girl. Grow up."
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She stopped only for a moment

She stopped only for a moment to look back over her shoulder.
"Don't come here and say you haven't felt the same way. Betrayed by family and friends, so blinded by rage you can't think clear, and your only wish is that others can feel what you feel, see what you're going through. I admit what I did to Umay was wrong, and I will apologize - whether she choose to accept it or not. But you and me, we have nothing more to talk about. Goodbye"

"Rot in hell, princess."

"Rot in hell, princess."
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A snort escaped her

A snort escaped her skull.
"He, and you tell me to grow up." With a shake of her head she decided to be over with this nonsense, and finally broke out in trot, leaving her former sister to rather go find her best friend.

( I have to say, this was a sad development of today's event. :c Stupid Illy messes things up, no matter what she do. xD )

Aww, yeah. ;n; If only she'd

Aww, yeah. ;n;
If only she'd listen to Leviathann's reasoning... :C
Ohwell. <3
It was a rather fun rp. (:
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"I'm glad to see you too..."

"I'm glad to see you too..." He brushed his neck against hers. But it felt weird, it wasn't often that their relationship was turned upside down and that she was the one that needed him.
He was sort of glad he could give something in return for all the times she had been there for him, though.
He looked at her with worrying eyes. "Will you be alright?"


Avo: *secretly stalking

Avo: *secretly stalking everything from the distance 8D*
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Sel; Well, from her point of

Sel;
Well, from her point of view that reasoning was all wrong. x)

mini;
Well, no matter how bad things went, she did at least have Kheiron. But her heart did still felt shattered. Or rather ripped out and stomped on. She was still in shock after the conversation with her former sister. How Levi had tossed her feelings aside and talked to her as if she had been a child. Illrose had to push the thoughts out of her head before she became irritated again. She sighed, snuggled closer to Kheiron.
"I hope so. Eventually." She whispered in return. She was so tired, both physical and mental. And the regret from what she had done to her sisters kept eating her up from the inside.

Estme;
Lol. xD

The orange stag didn't say

The orange stag didn't say more, just sat silent by her side. He couldn't help being worried when she was having a tough time. Well, at least they had each other, and maybe having that certainty in their lives was bit of a relief? And Kheiron didn't mind if he made a few enemies while supporting his best friend.

pff I still think their relationship is sweet. And uh-oh, maybe Kheiron will have to watch out for Lev from now on. xD
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It is sweet. &hearts; And

It is sweet. ♥ And yeah, it could seem like he will, lol. xD
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&hearts;

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Awh. &hearts;

Awh. ♥
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and there it is :]

and there it is :]
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Yep. (: I couldn't find out

Yep. (:
I couldn't find out where I had done something wrong though, so I did the whole code over again, but it worked. n__n
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Thoughts; 'Hm, is that your

Thoughts; 'Hm, is that your girlfriend, Mori?'

Giggity.
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xD

xD
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'I have never...peacock'd

'I have never...peacock'd anyone before...interesting. And I must say the colors look good on you, Mori.'[/i]

^ LMAO. MORI. <3
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Well, he does make a nice

Well, he does make a nice peacock. xD
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;________; *digs grave for

;________; *digs grave for fail italics tag end*
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that's Kauna

that's Kauna <3
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Ah, thank you. I wasn't sure

Ah, thank you. I wasn't sure if clicking the picto lead me to the right name, you see. :')
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^You were too fast, Schutz.

^You were too fast, Schutz. <3
Yeash, it's my Kauna who used to be Phoebe, totally different charachter. Phoebe was a secritdurr who I got rid off ages ago. (:

Blaerh. Too much fast people around here 8<
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Haha. :') Alright, good to

Haha. :')
Alright, good to know who it is, then. My deer was very glad to meet them all. ♥
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Baww.

Baww. <3
Didn't even know that picto didnt belong to snow anymore. I was a bit confused while playing Marcus and I saw this white little thing. Seems adorable, though. c:
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Ah, no. It's actually quite

Ah, no. It's actually quite some time since I got rid of Snow. It was killed by Lich King in the end. x)
I'm glad you think so. :')

I actually did a double take

I actually did a double take when I saw her picto in-game. I was playing Xiu at the time though, which is why I didn't visit.

If Lacie-bean sees her, she'll definitely be getting a visit. <3
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She would be happy to see

She would be happy to see Lacie. ♥
She is really inactive still though, this is just a tiny visit. xD
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I love Feathershade's set by

I love Feathershade's set by the way :D I saw you plop down beside the Statues, but I'll be afk for some time now.
Starling: *stretches with long arms and pulls her up*
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*sits besides you as a

*sits besides you as a squirrel*