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Jade nodded as well and looked away. She had a bad, foreboding feeling though.
A feeling that this was far from over...

Uwharrie;
Don't have much to respond to that. xD But thanks for the rp. ^^

Mick;
Lately she had listened carefully when someone spoke to her, hoping that a certain word or name would trigger her memory. She did that now as well, but no part of her memory came rushing back to her while the doe, Kahlan talked. Illrose was, however, rather shocked at how she was described. She swallowed.
"I...I attacked someone injured?" That was horrible! The way Kahlan described her made her sound like someone really horrible, and Illrose felt ashamed. She tried not to show it though.
"Yeah, I've heard I and this Gustiro were in love or something, but I have apparently sworn to stay away from him now. And which creatures are you talking about? Was it those...those black deer?" Perhaps she had fought those black deer, and then been infected.

Hm, skeletal wolves. A faint smile appeared on her lips.
"I guess we won that battle, since I can't see any skeletal wolves around now." Illrose then said, with a laugh. She then listened as Kahlan continued to speak. Suddenly images began to flash before her eyes; the sight of two stags, both wounded and bloodied. One red, and one white. The white limping away, only to fall dead, and the red surrounded by friends, also badly hurt. She remembered the deep sorrow and rage, and she remembered the attack on the red stag, Jergens. Not only had she wounded him, she had killed him. Or had she? But also he had returned later.
"Jergens." She whispered, then she saw an image of the white stag again.
"Jack! I remember!" Yes, that was his name. Jack. He had been one of her best friends once. Or was he still? And why did she remember this exact moment? Perhaps because it was an event that had left a painful scar in her heart, mourning over Jack the time he was gone. Dead. She then realized Kahlan was talking again, and she looked up at her.
"I did?" She asked, still clinging to the one memory she had at the moment.
"I don't feel content about it now, just...confused."

She knew only what she had heard, but she could give Illrose a guess as to why she had sworn to stay away from him.
"I think that," Kahlan replied, "that you swore to stay away from him, because loving Gustiro is not like loving someone else. Gustiro...loves all, and I think part of you wanted him to yourself, and I think that you knew that couldn't happen, so the times that you were with your friends were hard because he can be so possessive over the deer he considered 'his'...and, I think you were tired of that. I think you wanted to be either his only or not his at all so you could be with your friends...at least, that's my guess. I don't know what happened, or I would tell you for definite...so perhaps, you are close with Jack still..." She was guessing and it would be obvious, but she wanted to ease Illrose's anguish if she could.

By the by, the Kirin skull stag from earlier that nuzzled Illrose before wandering to Dag's group was one of my deer. He doesn't like seeing others injured, hence his reaction. He's an awkward dude. 8x

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The smile was faint, but her eyes reflected it well. She nudged the side of Illrose's face with the nose of her helm; her typical gesture of friendship.

I'm glad you're back, Illrose.

I'm tempted to start an RP based on when Toukan was sitting with her last night. I would've then, but I was distracted. |D

Toukan hadn't seen the moose-like deer in some time, when she'd suddenly looked strange - a black shade all over - and acted even stranger. Taunting at others approaching, telling them to back off. It had perturbed him so much that he hadn't been sure about going near her. He'd figured that maybe she'd wanted some space.

But now that he saw her again, amongst a crowd that had gathered, he figured approaching her now was ok. She was a little hard to recognize at first, but it was definitely Illrose. Did she break her antlers again? Toukan thought to himself as he approached. He'd also noticed she was now a dark gray, which was something of a relief compared to the black, even if her markings were gone. But she looked...pretty horrible, actually. Like someone had beat her up. He wondered what happened to her the past few days.

He tilted his head a bit when he stopped near her. "Illrose..?" The tone he asked her name in inquired if she was ok and if she was alright with having company.

[[I haven't done any writing in awhile, so this feels choppy and off. Hopefully that will improve.]]

Pega;
Illrose was leaning toward a tree as she watched the event in front of her. The green doe laying in the flower spot was heavily pregnant, and with the crowd that had gathered, Illrose expected she soon would give birth. In the corner of her eye she saw a glimpse of gray, and she turned her head toward the stranger just as he spoke her name. A caribou, unfamiliar to her, but obviously someone she should know since he knew her name.
"Hello." Illrose got up and greeted him, then tilted her head.
"Who...who are you?" She then asked, as always on her search for something that could trigger her memory, either a name or a word - anything.

Lung;
( Awh, he sound really sweet. :') )

"Me too." Illrose nodded, even though she really wasn't so sure. She looked at Lacie.
"Why don't you tell me a bit about yourself? Your friends and family? Perhaps it can help me remember." She suggested.

Illrose shook her head.
"I'm afraid I don't." She replied.
"I don't remember what have happened, but I was told I was infected by something called 'black deer'. Then I was killed, apparently, and...here I am. Don't remember anything." She shrugged, but tried to smile.

Although his words did describe her situation quite well did they make Illrose giggle, almost like a little child. A proof that she wasn't 'all there' yet, mentally.
"Yes. Yes it sucks." She agreed, still giggling. But when Toukan spoke again she listened carefully.
"I hope we are friends still, when my memory comes back...if it comes back." She frowned for a moment, but then the smile was back on her lips.

Light energy coursed through her, it was a rush to feel the feeling of life as it channeled through her, causing a soft white glow that could be seen only were she in darkness, which she currently was not. So to Illrose, nothing would appear to be happening other than the doe had closed her eyes. A soft white spark drifted from her antler, followed by another and another, and the settled on the wounds, knitting cuts back together, healing the bruises. It would take a few moments, but Kahlan did not feel any injury that would be beyond a simple healing, so no need to summon her strength.

"That should begin to feel better," Kahlan said. "Assuming that none of the wounds have anything I cannot sense...but I doubt that." She would have felt infection, she was sure. At least she was sure she would feel normal infection, she didn't know about the darkness.

Toukan's brow furrowed in thought. "I don't know actually. I only saw you as a black deer once, and you just seemed to be keeping everyone away from you." She'd need to ask someone else about that; he hadn't spent as much time in the Forest for the past week as he usually would have.

I don't know how to continue now. |D

Pega;
Awh, I'm sorry, my muse just went completely poof. ._. Nice to rp with you though. :')

Mick;
"But still, thank you." She casted a new glance over her own body. The largest wounds were still there, but at least she felt much better. She took some steps to the side, almost surprised that the stinging she usually felt in her side was gone. Illrose smiled, and shook some of the black hair away from her pale eyes.
"There's nothing I can do for you to return the favor, is it?"

"Alright, if you say so." Illrose replied with a nod, although she really didn't like it. Now she would feel she owed this doe. Perhaps she got a chance to pay her back one day, even if Kahlan said it wasn't necessary.

"Is he now? Then perhaps he don't want to be bothered by his sister right at the moment!" Illrose snapped in return, stomping her hooves in a threatening manner. She had no idea who this doe was, but Illrose didn't like her. She didn't like anyone that completely ignored her, as if she wasn't there, when she was trying to get them to stay away.

Illrose snorted.
"You being his family doesn't automatically mean he always want you around? I'm not the one who send you away, I just happened to notice he didn't run away from me. But from you and that...freak, on the other hand..." She had no other word to describe the other creature that had chased after Crucio. She had never seen anything like that before. Not that it mattered either.

"Fine." Illrose said after a moment in silence. One word dripping with dislike. She then looked around at the group that eventually had gathered around Crucio - and he didn't seem to mind anymore. Her attempts to keep others away from Crucio and the doe she assumed was Levi had at least worked. They were standing together now.
"Fine. He don't need me anymore, now that he have all of you to protect him. His family." Despite the cold in her voice it was hard to keep the sadness away. She had felt useless ever since she woke up with a memory loss. Completely useless - until today, until there was someone that needed her, that needed her protection. But others had taken that away from her now, so she wasn't needed anymore. With no more glance at the little doe, she turned around and left the group alone.

Yeah, she have no clue what her purpose is now that she don't remember who she really is. Protecting Crucio gave her a purpose - at least for a moment. :')
And that's alright, Illrose don't blame Crucio for what happened. ♥

"Likewise, Kahlan." Illrose replied with a surprisingly warm smile on her lips. Not only had Kahlan healed her, she had also given her another view on the whole thing with Gustiro than others had given her, not to mention she had helped her remember something - the whole event with Jack and Jergens that had ended in a blood bath.
"Good bye, see you later." Illrose dipped her head in a bow as a farewell.

( Pfft. ♥ )

Illrose perked her ears and listened curiously as Lacie began to speak. So this wasn't Lacie's true form? She wasn't really a deer? Hm. And she had certainly never heard of a thylacine before. Illrose happened to notice that Lacie seemed uncomfortable when she shortly talked about her family.
"I'm sorry." She said, nudging her neck gently with her own cheek.
"Hm, I've met both Jorogumo and Reed, but I'm afraid this Iau...Dag, is unfamiliar."

She tilted her head slightly.
"I'm glad." She said, although she instinctively knew time didn't always matter when it came to that kind of pain.
"Hm, he was? That sound like a good idea. What does he look like?"

Illrose frowned as Lacie described the large stag.
"Oh!" She then exclaimed when she came to a sudden realization.
"I know who that is. I greeted him briefly the day we were watching that green doe giving birth. You remember that day?" Yes, Illrose remembered the stag now. Not taller than her, but with an really impressive crown of antlers that made him seem much larger than most others.

A smile appeared on Illrose's lips as she remembered the two great stags that had hopped around like fawns.
"Gehirn is the black one, I guess? With the large, red antlers?" Illrose froze in the same second she had uttered the words. Large, red antlers...She closed her eyes for a moment, thinking. Then they shut open again.
"I used to have large, red antlers too!" She exclaimed when she remembered. But she didn't have to look at her reflection in the water to know her antlers were gone now. The light weight upon her head told it all.