okay, lets just say that... well, disregard this post. most of the problems mentioned in here have been answered, and i guess i was just incredibl angry when i posted it. please dont worry about me, im quite fine now <3

the Forest is okay now, most of you know that i can play again...

and as for everything else... i blame hormones >_<

ive given hope a second chance <3

so my attitude has slowly decreased in happiness over the past few weeks. and heres why:

1. My cat got put down for peeing on the carpet several times, and I didn't know until later in the day.

2. My room was taken because my Aunt came over for the week, so I had absolutely NO privacy.

3. TEF stopped working for me, so now I can't even seek solace in the one place where I can't be judged.

4. My other cat ran away a few days ago and hasn't come back...

so thats how it is.... i really cant be that cheery anymore, so i apologize in advance to anyone i bring down with slightly depressing comments. im not feeling my greatest at the moment.

...WITHOUT MY TEF BABY

yes, im currently suffering from TEF withdrawl.... symptoms include: whining, irratability, lack of motivation, dry mouth, and nothing better to do with your free time. XD

im really sad. i know this VMWare wont work, even though Dad says it might. might doesnt cut it for me. so i might as well just pack it in and try to save up for a new computer.

oh well.... it was fun while it lasted. maybe some day ill finally be back on the forest

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ON A HAPPIER NOTE:

it might not be that bad. itll lessen the blow when i go down to South Carolina to visit my grandparents :3 and besides, if i ever get a job, ill be making quite a bit. if i do anywhere near as well as my brother did when he worked at Walmart, ill be getting $100 a week. after a few weeks, NEW COMPUTAH BABEH. (i already tried TEF on my current computer. its too old -_- )

but i really doubt ill get a job. Sears turned me down because i wasnt 16 *shakes fist* and i havent heard anything from Walmart, so its likely i wont get anything there. half of my summer is already gone, so i dunno how well this will work unless i work on weekends during school DX

so there are my thoughts. you dont have to comment, i just needed to say a few things that have been on my mind :3

im trying to find new antlers for Skokey! natural antlers are much too hard to draw, and im not going to improve much since i dont draw Skokey often... so i need to decide on new (possibly easier to draw) antlers. i realize my last piece with Skokey had him with the Golden Buttefly antlers. well, they were certainly easy, but the mask is enough. the pattern is hard to draw. so i decided not to have those.

so here are my options:

Kirin antlers
Key antlers

only two, but i cant decide! the Kirin antlers are awesomely easy, but the Key antlers look kick-awesome! hurr why must life be so difficult??? *being way too dramatic* XD any insight peoples? Skokey's grown tired of his flowers. hes learned to respect them so much that he doesnt want to kill them by sticking them to his antlers. (besides, i dont count flowers as an actual item)

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in other news, this is gonna be TIGHT. rumor has it that there will be an Abio on the 15th at 4 PM my time (US Central). i REALLY hope Dad will get VMWare to work on his computer by then, i REALLY dont wanna miss this! it would absolutely SUCK if i missed my first Abio... anyway, just being silly i guess. im just anxious.

*EDIT* *sigh* okay, im pretty sure i wont be able to make it to the next Abio... so if anyone would be kind enough to make a video, id be extremely grateful...

"It seems that a large group has been protesting about the way we are approaching this new species. While most think that these deer are violent creatures, others think that we should give them a chance to calmy introduce themselves. We have heard rumors about a Peace Group going into the forest and try to communicate with the deer rationally."

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Skokey awoke some time after Fulu and Fenqua. He had spoken with Fenqua for a while about her mysterious trip back home, but he still didn't know much about it. But that day had tired him out, and he was ready for sleep.

Fulu managed to tickle his nose with her now fully grown-in feathers, making him sneeze himself awake. He rudely greeted her and soon got up. While going out to a large patch of grass, he spotted Fenqua again and decided to join her.

Fenqua cheerfully greeted him, "Did you have a nice sleep?"

Skokey yawned for several moments, then said, "Yeah, I guess. You kept me up for a while though. I was hoping I'd get more sleep."

"Maybe around your sister, but not while I'm around." They both chuckled and started to munch away at the grass. "So I remember you saying something about meeting deer?"

Skokey nodded, "Yeah, I met... Nine new deer yesterday. Probably why I was so tired last night."

"Nine, huh? Well, I hope you meet them again and actually become friends with them."

"Oh yeah, no doubt about that. There were a lot of really nice deer." He rememebered what Vessel told him about that fawn. It troubled him a little, he was anxious to hear how she was connected with Fenqua. He considered asking her, but decided to leave it to Vessel. He doubted if that was the right decision, though.

Fenqua raised her head, and looked at Skokey, "Hey... Don't you remember Raku?"

Skokey's head shot up, "Oh man, I haven't seen her in..." He recalled the last conversation he had with her, "Oh no..."

"What? What did you say to her?"

so... i may be able to get TEF to work again for completely free! my Dad (the most computer-savvy man in the family) told me that his computer (the best computer in the house) could be able to support a program called VMware. currently, the creators of TEF are looking for results of experiments regarding playing the game on VMware (at least i think so...). for those who dont know what it is, its a program that lets you run Windows in a separate window, but it only works on Linux or even a Mac i think... so my Dad's computer (having one gigabyte of RAM and a really fast video card) might be able to support TEF!

however, being the negative person i am, i still believe theres a chance at this failing. he says theres something that might not be able to support VMware properly and he went into this whole thing of technobabble that i could understand, but im not so sure i remember it all XD

but this is a good thing! i might be able to play again after all! ill have my game, and Mom will have about 200 spare MBs back

but.... i have to wait. my Dad's really sick and i must wait for him to get well once again. no biggy, health before virtual reality. but im so excited! i may be able to see Vessel's and Fulu's day after all! and ill be able to see my buddies again i tell you, im gonna buttonmash like CAH-RAZEE.

Skokey's gonna spend a LOT of time in the forest if this works. and then im gonna be a fawn, because i feel like it XD

hope to see you soon!

WARNING: this is a GIGANTIC chapter!

okay, buttload of new deer in this chapter! i have all night to write it too >:3 so, enjoy it while you can, because most of you who wanted to be here are gonna be in this very chapter (and chapters to come). if your deer isnt in here though, i have plans for him/her, so dont feel like im ignoring you. then again, i have plans for everyone XD

i hope i dont mess anyone up! please tell me if i did something wrong (Reetno, i hope it was okay adding you to the story DX )

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"A good night's sleep will do you good. You've had a big day today, Butterfly."

Skokey smiled before opening his eyes, and raised his head, "Hello again, Vessel."

"Awfully cheery tonight. You must be proud of your sister."

"Yeah, well, what do you expect? She's my sister, you know?"

"Must be nice. Having a sister."

"You don't have a brother or sister?"

"Not that I know of, no. But I don't mind. More time to myself I guess."

Skokey chuckled, "If you like to be alone so much, then why do you bother me every night?"

"Oh, I don't know... I suppose I've grown tired of isolation. And since I can talk to you here, why not? Might get to know somebody new, and I have."

"Heh, well you're gonna need a lot more friends to be out of isolation. Don't you ever go to the Pond, or even the Graveyard?"

"Oh yes, many times. But mostly, it's when everyone else is asleep."

"You're a very shy deer, aren't you?"

Vessel smirked, "Yes, well... I was hoping you could do something about that."

i just finished watching Watership Down and it was FREAKING GREAT. so i formulated a little story about the beginning of the Endless Forest. no, i dont believe in it, so dont label it as a crazy religion. i just felt like writing it. its kinda stupid and you probably wont like it XD HERE WE GO

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Children of the Endless Forest, lend me your ear, and I shall tell you of a story that has been long forgotten. It is true that the origins of the world are yet unknown, but there is one story that has tested the intellect of many a mind.

In the beginning, there was a great god.

This god created the universe: the planets, the stars, the moons. And the god designed each planet to his liking. One planet he decided to put life on. He created trees, plants, waters, the sky. He created every form of life, from the simple animals to Man. But he also created five special creatures, giving each of them his face.

One was the Dog, who had a longer face and tail. Another, the Cat, with large fangs and sharp claws. The Bird, with great beating wings and beautiful feathers. The Rabbit, with powerful legs and great cunning. And the Deer, with great and mighty antlers. These five creatures were given their own territory and intelligence. They soon multiplied, and filled the earth, alongside the other creatures of the land.

"Officials report that a small group is going to venture into this forest to see what so many people have wondered about. They will be heavily armed, not only with weapons, but with cameras. There's very little chance they will be coming back alive, but if they do, they will hold so many answers. Our prayers go out to these brave people."

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It was a very dull morning. Light, dusty clouds floated overhead, making everyone expect rain but then denying them the pleasure. Everyone went about their business. Skokey, Fenqua, and Fulu did what they always did. But something didn't seem right. Skokey was on edge, something was hanging there, waiting to happen. Something very unusual.

Skokey went off by himself, wanting the two does to get to know each other. But he also wanted some time to think. Vessel had told him to be wary of something the night before. Something dangerous. What did he mean? He couldn't help but think this was a sick joke of his. He did say he liked to scare deer at times. Perhaps it was all in his head... In his head. That's what started this whole mess with Vessel.

Something russled not too far away. Skokey swivled his ears, it was like nothing he had ever heared. He raised his nose to the air and sniffed carefully. There was an unknown scent. It was musty and bitter. His blood ran faster, trying to take Vessel's words into great consideration. He stood where he was, unmoving. A figure appeared before him. It was nothing he had expected.

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places
Worn out faces

Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere
Going nowhere

The tears are filling up their glasses
No expression
No expression

Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow
No tomorrow

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had

I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very

Mad world...

i love this song, and it goes with how im feeling today. poor Skokey, everything around him is going so fast, and he cant keep up T_T this was a big vent picture... so, i guess that means it has better quality XD i worked pretty hard on this. oh yeah, ive decided to change Skokey's antlers, because normal ones are terribly hard to draw >_<