ive somehow decided that when i wrote Dream Watcher, i would listen to the Donnie Darko soundtrack. when i wrote Hanging Flowers, i would listen to Legend of Zelda music. and now i think ive decided that when im writing Fluttering Feathers, i will listen to the KPAX soundtrack... funny how you can group things up isnt it? XD

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Stab.

Jayla's eyes snapped open as the sudden pain awoke her. She let out a soft cry in reaction. It seemed to be time. She didn't have time to move to a better place, apparently this had been going on in her sleep. She was already close to giving birth.

Jayla managed to move a little ways away from the Ruins, so the flies wouldn't bother her or the fawn. She managed to move herself to a patch of poppies before the pain became stronger.

She grunted and breathed heavily. It's just about time... she thought. It's just about to come... Instinct told her to push with all her might, but she already knew what to do. She knew of this pain, but she was thankful that she was spared the painful preparation this time.

It was already morning when she woke up. Not at all like last time, she thought. She was recalling these exact moments from her first birth. The only differences were that she was in a patch of purple flowers instead of poppies, and that fireflies surrounded her in the dark. She wasn't used to putting sunlight with giving birth.

The sun rose higher and higher as Jayla lay there for hours. One of her friends managed to find her, and called some others over to help. Jayla refused the help of her friends. She already knew what she was doing. The last hour or so had to be the worst. She lay there, heaving and crying out. But soon, it was all over and done.

i wanna go in the forest, but none of Fulu's friends are there :<

gah, im so tapped today... my hip hurts, i didnt get enough sleep, im having kramp attacks, and whats more, i cant stop singing Sweeney Todd songs! XD

rawr, and all my family members are bugging me because i dont work out. YES I KNOW IM OUT OF SHAPE, I DONT NEED MY FAMILY TO TELL ME THAT. its bad enough when other people say it to you, much less your family >:[

anyway, enough complaining... i wanna write more Fluttering Feathers reeeeaaaaaallly bad, but unfortunately my muse only comes out at night... oh well. you might have noticed i got Fulu's ref sheet done... im not as impressed with it as much as i am with Skokey's.

by the by, Dan told me last night that i spelled Skokey wrong. its supposed to be spelled "Skokee". i dont see it...

im gonna get on the forest in a little bit. ill be a dove. ill be waiting, because im freakin bored XD

IM SORRY IM JUST IN SUCH A PRODUCTIVE MOOD

hope you can keep up. please people, read chapter 24 of Hanging Flowers first. it turned out really good <3

and now... i present, Fluttering Feathers.

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"What did you say?"

"I.. I said, I'm... pregnant..."

"Again?! I thought this wasn't going to happen!"

"I'm sorry, I.. I didn't know..."

"That's it, Jayla, I can't take this. We could leave the last one, but we can't do it again. Others will start wondering."

"I know... What will we do?"

"We? Hmph, this one is your problem. I can't take care of a fawn. I'm sorry, Jayla. We're through."

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The doe opened her eyes, her face still wet with tears. Her heart was broken, her strength withered away. She couldn't help but cry after that night, so many weeks ago.

She was starting to show. She felt so ashamed. It was bad enough for it to happen once, but how could she make the same mistake twice? The little fawn growing in her body was created only by carelessness.

Jayla's eyes started to water again, thinking of the last time this happened. Her mate told her to give birth to him, and then leave him. It broke her heart in two when she just left the poor thing. She never wanted to do it, but she was under too much pressure. Her father was sick, and she didn't have time to take care of a fawn.

Now her father was gone. She had all the time in the world. But with no father? How could a fawn grow up without a father? She dwelled on the thought, but was interupted by a little thump in her belly.

The fawn had just started to kick, only occasionally. At least Jayla knew it would be healthy. She sighed. "Well..." she thought out loud, "I guess I'll keep you. At least now I have time to be a mother..."

Okay... I really need to write this so I can feel better. I've been wanting to write all day today. this is one of the most IMPORTANT chapters. a lot of emotion will go into this one. this is the chapter that calls back to all previous chapters! and this is the chapter that will make Skokey take a HUGE step in life!

NOTE: anything in italics are either memories or a dream.
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Skokey spent the next day getting used to his new antlers, but mostly he visited his parents. First, he stopped by the Blue Bowl and found the tree, and went over to the side facing east. He found that lottle grasses were growing, but no signs of blueberries. He smirked, knowing that his mother's grave won't be lost in a sea of blue now.

He sat down, facing away from the slowly rising sun. It was well into the morning, but it was still fairly early. Skokey stared at the grave for several minutes, thinking back on all he said to her. Memories flooded his mind, making tears come to his eyes.

"You couldn't let me know? Why didn't you let me know, back then I didn't know you left me!"

"Sorry? Sorry won't be enough, Mother. It's too late for sorry."

"Why did you leave me?"

"So what? You leave me but you decide to keep her? What made her so special?!"

"Shut up! I already understand! I understand perfectly well!...What I said before means nothing now. Now that I've seen what you think of me. My father, my caregiver, might have been a little more forgiving, but I'm different."

A few tears came down his face as he stared at the barren spot. He sighed, "I'm so sorry, Mother... I wish I could do something... I wish I could just take back everything I said... But you hurt me, Mother... You can't blame me for being angry..."

umm.. well, guys, in about two chapters and an epilogue, Hanging Flowers will be officially finished. ive finally figured out how im gonna go about it, and ive made the decision.

SO, my question IS...

should i write a lil story about Fulu? nobody really knows what happened before and after she saw Skokey for the first time. and since Skokey and Vessel got their own stories, why shouldnt she?

mainly, im asking this because school is once again drawing nigh. and sometimes ill be in a bad writing mood at the end of the week (how do you think i was so productive with Dream Watcher?)

so, if i start that story, school would start, and it would be much better writen. i must say, i noticed my writing get sloppier some time after chapter 17 of HF. AND ITS ALREADY AT CHAPTER 23, COME ON. i feel stupid for making so many chapters, everyone else has like 6, and ive got freaking 23 XD

anyway, Fulu's story would mainly consist of her life with her mother. it would also be a lovely opportunity to get some insight on how Skokey and Fulu's mother lived. and sometime later it would involve meeting Skokey after her mother's death, what she did when she was captured by the humans, and the whole drama situation that happened. i REALLY hope it isnt as long as Hanging Flowers XD

so, what do you think? should i do it, or is three stories too much?

Hello everyone... I realize that I have been silent lately. And so, I would like to share my thoughts with everyone I have encountered during this crisis. It seems to be nearly over. I will start with my friends, and then to myself.

Darcy. I... I honestly don't know what to think right now... The last I've heard from you is from your confession. And I'm afraid of what you will say after our argument. It seems we were not meant for each other, as all hopes of winning you back have faded. I realized this as we so stubbornly contradicted each other. You made me feel like a fool, and called me blind. At least... that is how I took it. You would not accept any apology from me and told me to blame it on you. In all honesty, I cannot. I can't blame any of this on anyone, not even myself. I don't know who to blame it on. But what I can do... is tell you that I will not be your enemy. I refuse to hate you no matter how much you plead for it. Did I hate Skokey for rejecting and hating my mother? Of course not... How can I hate you? Everyone makes mistakes, no matter how big or small they are. I hope you realize this someday... so we can be friends again...

Wyvern. I am happy to say that we have made peace with each other. This whole misunderstanding has made me terrified of you. I was afraid you would hate me for stealing the one you liked. But as I approached you, I became a little more eased, knowing that you felt the same as I. And when you turned to me, and treated me as a friend, my doubts were gone. It takes true strength to befriend the one who helped cause all this. I hope that some day we can meet, and play as if none of this ever happened. I hope some day, we will learn to get along, so that we may call each other... friends.

im so naughty *giggle* i love bandwagons

so, if you want, ask me three questions. it doesnt really have to be three, it can be more or less. ill be happy to answer any questions about me, my deer, my story, my art, anything i guess. i dont expect that many questions though XD

GO AHEAD FIRE AWAY *takes cover* not literally though...

I. JUST. NEED. TO. WRITE.

IMGOINGCRAZYWITHWRITERSBLOCK

so ill just start and see where it heads... dont worry guys, this story is nearing the end. i think thisll be mostly about Fulu, but im not sure...

Wyvern, tell me if its okay or not to put that little thing in. if its not, ill take it out.

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Skokey awoke, in the same place, in the same spot, in the same position. And in the same mood. He found that he was getting angerier every day. One reason, he couldn't move, which made him stir-crazy. Another, was that a lot of deer kept visiting him when he was trying to sleep. Another, Fenqua wouldn't stop asking if he was okay. These were all very minor. But there was one major thing that really made him mad.

Fulu had been going out by herself lately. She had known almost all of Skokey's friends and thought it would be fun to play with them while he was resting. But, one of them seemed to mean more than just a friend, and that was Darcy.

Skokey knew Darcy for a long time, but Fulu had only met him for a few days. But in those few days, they realized that they had feelings for each other. At first, Skokey was glad to hear that his sister had found love. But soon, an old friend came back, a friend that he hadn't seen in ages.

Skokey knew all too well that Wyvern would be arriving soon from her travels. He often wondered where she even went while she was gone. When she came back, he was grateful to get a personal visit from her, but soon he found out that she liked Darcy as well. And Darcy had liked her long before Fulu ever thought of going out on her own.

He became angry at Darcy, for forgetting about Wyvern, and also for falling for Fulu when she was so close to returning. The three of them realized what was going on, and then... Skokey's heart was torn in two.

i am.

im trying to gather Fulu's emo set (because she shouldnt be stealing Skokeys!) and when i sneezed the first time, the entire computer shuts down.

wtf?

okay, so it starts back up, i get back on the game. sneeze again, computer shuts down.

...WTF??

ive lost patience with this computer. but fortunately, my patience is easy to rebuild. of ALL the computers in the world, my mother just HAD to buy the retarded computer. i mean what i say, this computer is retarded. its not because its slow, its not because it doesnt have decent hardware, its. just. stupid.

it doesnt know how to do ANYTHING right. it finds a problem, it says, "Oh hang on, I think that person wants to do that, but I see something wrong with it, so I'm gonna restart."

there was NOTHING wrong with the game, and NOTHING wrong with the computer. its working fine now, so why did it shut down when i sneezed? gah... i hate this piece of crap. but its the only computer with Windows at my house, and all my programs are on it -_-

well, ill try again, and if it doesnt work, ill try again tomorrow. if anyone wants to help with Fulu's emo set, they most certainly can. ill be wearing Vessel's night set, but ill probably sneeze all the spells off (unless that was the problem in the first place >.>)

*EDIT* thanks Atiq for giving Fulu her emo set. i guess the game works now O_o

lol ive had some crazy times playing around with Skokey XD these are from the past few days.

well it all started on that rainy day, where i ended up taking a closeup of Reetno before he left



and thats about it for that day XDD then the next day, i met up with a bunch of deer. the only two i recognized were Atiq and Vipin.



which gave Vipin the idea to be my clone.



and that somehow became a small clone party. we tried to make it bigger, but others wouldnt cooperate.

which leads to today. i met up with Atiq again and we messed around at the Playground



which ended up in a buttdance. and then i finally firgured out how to get closeups at the Playground XD



even though there arent any cage bars in the way, i much prefer the Graveyard. its much easier to do. poor Atiq couldnt get it at the playground so we went over there and gave each other more closeups.







and then when we were done, we partied a little more.



.... i think we have a little too much fun XD