Love is... Well, uh... Love is hard to describe. Some may find it easily, for others, it takes much time. My love had come easily, but took time to grow. She was once my friend, but now she is much more. Our playful romps in the flowers have become cherished beyond any earthly material. My love had come so easily, but for others, it is different. It may take years for them to find their other half. Some may never find it. I say that there is someone for everyone, and nobody was meant to be alone. Love is a powerful thing, and it can bring light to many darkened souls. I am truly in love, I know what it's like. I don't ever want to lose her.

Love is indeed a powerful thing. It can strengthen hearts, or it can shatter them. I have experienced both. My heart was taken by one, but torn apart soon after. But then, in all darkness and hopelessness, another came to lift my spirits. Love is not something to be taken lightly. You must cherish it, and protect it, like a bird protects her eggs. If something is thrown at you, you must come through it together. If it's too big for you to handle, then you will lose the love you gained. Love can change you forever. It can change your entire outlook on life, whether for better or for worse. There is still a hole in my heart, because I changed one's outlook for worse. Love, no matter how healing it can be, can still leave you maimed.

Slight to the solar atomic
Dance me with your ways
Sway me to your liking when
And wherever you crave
For I am but you stringèd
Wingless, crowing dove
Shy to form and quick to be
Your loyal slave, enough

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If you can understand my scatterbrained poem, you'll know how I feel right now, and how things have gone x3 Whee.

*runs off*

-Sighs- I didn't want to talk with you so openly, but really what other way is there?

I don't even know what to say...there's just so much silence between us. I feel that I have beared quite a bit of my soul and yet I know nothing of yours. How can I possibly get to know you this way?

If anything the distance seems to grow...

Please say something. I know you are sad...and I while I assume it's because of me, I want to know why... or...just something! I want to know what you're thinking,, about me...about...us. About anything! I lack tact in asking but I don't know what to do anymore...

Server's dead for me. :C What about you guys?

my games being stupid again. first, i could load any deer, so i restarted the computer. then, i opened the Forest twice, so one had to die and it took forever to log into the other one. now, its fricking slow again.

back down to 0 to 1 fps...

isnt this fun? the day after i get back, and i cant even play. im just so happy that this computer is such a retard! isnt this just the most wonderful day on earth?

gah... im gonna restart the computer again. my mom will yell at me AGAIN, but i dont care, i want my game to work. ill edit and tell you what happens.

*EDIT* okay, i restarted and it works again XD sorry for disrupting!

..

On Hawaii Maui. (I'm planning on diving a lot. I hope a shark doesn't eat me XD )

I'll be gone from the 18th (leaving at 4am...at night) to the 25th (home at 10pm).
Plus I'll have the first day of school on the 26th. (And the first class of my college class in the evening)
So no one expect me to reply to anything till the evening of the 27th(hopefully I'll be on then.)

I'm gonna miss the forest.

BTW. I'm planning on taking lots of pics. And might post em later.

Ehm, hii! Long promised but.. I finally came to scanning and uploading the drawings XD Still got some persons on my list though, like Draak and Skokey, but Never just came on top of it so XD...
I've also got 12 drawings to colour for my own calendar.. Mheh. So these will stay uncoloured..
(I guess they're a bit unclear too D":...)

I'll just go by which one was drawn first XD TALIENEEE YAAAY I guess she's quite the attraction to a lot of stags, but she's not really realizing it is she? ¦|.. XD I drew Gehirn's shadow in the background because they had just met, and she's a fan!


TABI AND QUAMMYYY XD They weren't mates by that time, but I knew they'd become so eventually. So I drew them.. Well something small D:... But it's.. cute allright? <.<.. I guess...


Ew.. Sorry Emiva.. I screwed up D:.. I'll make something better eventually..


Rutilus and Auge! Since they are quite the couple... A bit scary lol. I guess Rutilus pissed Auge off, or she's just messing around with him XD Playfight! (But I guess by his face..)


Well she just went on a holiday.. But she'll see it eventually.. I had major problems with the face, I guess it's still not great but.. Nyeh...


Yaaay Seele and Saaan XD They both had to flee for some devoted fawns once.. And since Seele is very horrible at hiding with his antlers XD I guess this could've actually happend >O....


Buutch! I never see much people draw something for you, and you're always so nice, so I wanted to include you, I like this one actually...

Alright. I'm a bad Anzel. I hath fluffed-out to the max. Basically, I read NaruHina fluff fan fics for the last hour, screaming at the idiots with unrealistic plots, and finally being satisfied by a fluffy fic that I gave a 9/10.

Anzel shall reflect Anzel's fluff luff. x3

Watch out. If you don't like this kind of stuff, stay away. It's all cutesie wootsie and kinda sad. But that's my mood.

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[=#A07DFF]I lie, daydreaming, under the heavy aroma of the amethyst florals. I imagine that his scent stilllies here, but I feel a fool, I know that I cannot fully recall where he sat. I only knew it was here...in my favorite patch of florals...overlooking the pond.

I suddenly appear to him, and I don't hear him. He slowly walks towards me, as I stare hopelessly out at the glistening pond. I look down at the ground, noticing that I could capture the scents of nearby deer, but I didn't want to move. The ritual has grown old, and the flowers steal my will.

I hear a form sit near me. I imagine it is solely another trick, as it has been for the few months I have had of life.

Then I notice his scent.

A shiver runs down my spine, my every hair standing on end. I feel my cheeks, my eyes, my entire face, do the opposite. And I know my heart has caused all of this. I bite my lip, cringe, and turn my head away from the scent.

My breath softly speaks into the air, "What's the use...w...why can't I make my heart stop this...it...h..hurts..."

I feel the dampness from slowly forming tears, leaking through my thick pelt. I breath outwardly in an oh-so-familiar shiver. I hold back the sob as long as I can...

"I d..d..don't want to be alone anym...more..." and I felt my tears pouring from my lungs, from my chest and heart, from every vein and artery within me...

And then...

Then he nuzzled the back of my cheek as best he could from his position...and he rested his head against me...

"I'm here...don't cry..."