This is what I wrote as my MySpace bulletin, so I just copied and pasted it x3

Jadine, no questions about appearance, lol. Though I do admit...*looks around*...he's very handsome. In my opinion. x3 *runs*

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Wheee...what a fiasco that was, lol. Ended up having to drive 45 minutes out to Binghamton, but I met him.

And we ended up holding hands the entire way back home...

Unfortunately, though, I had gotten a mood swing before I met him, so I smiled a few times, but otherwise, it was really difficult to smile. x.x Fortunately, I told him later, and he said he kinda guessed, lol.

Got back home...introduced him to the kitties, lol. Then we watched the first episode of Dexter with my dad. Whee. I love that series.

We took a walk outside, and sat down at the bench. It was pretty dark, so we just held hands for a while, and after...I dunno...15 minutes of overwhelming shyness...I finally got up the courage to lean my head on his shoulder. Man...that's nice to do, heh...never knew what that was like before. Her put his arm around me and stroked my hair, and...what worse could have happened?

I got a mood swing. As well as a very peculiar form of warm fuzzies. They kinda hurt, and I got slightly nauseous...I told him, and he was alright with it. We went back to the house, got on the computer for a little, then watched some football with my dad. No idea what my dad thinks of him yet, lol.

Then my dad went to bed, and...yeah. We spent...umm...*thinks* two or three hours just cuddling...

Unfortunately, and PLEASE COMMENT IF YOU'VE EVER EXPERIENCED THIS...but I got nauseous alot, and I got more of the kind-of sufficating warm fuzzies x.o Not fun. But he understood.

After hours of That 70's Show and Dodgeball (the movie)...we kissed.

Let me tell you...

...I had my hopes too high.

BABY DON'T HURT ME
DON'T HURT ME
NO'MO

Dun dun dundun dun dun dundun dun dun dundun doodoo

~teehee~

-scurries off to work while dodging bullets-

I might actually post some of my deer's thoughts on this...But I dunnoooooooo. :/

Well today I go back to college, so I won't be able to play as much as I used to.

I got invited to join a society at my college that is supposed to take up part of my time, but it's called the Society of Leadership and Success. It's supposed to help me with my study habits and help me get done with school.

I'll still be around here, but just not as much as I used to. Don't worry, I still plan to finish Divine Abandonment and write the third story in the trilogy, Divine Protection, and I should still be in the iScribble room as well.

So anyway...I gotta go -_-

Razzle`s diary




Today...i saw someone i didnt know..not very much of a suprize but he/she seemed.....sad...I felt i had to somehow cheer them up a slight bit and went over to give them some shy nuzzles. They ran off a while after but i was still with some other deer. I couldnt get them out of my head. So i went to look for them and they sat under a tree. Maybe they were lonely..So i sat next to them for a while untill they disappeared.
I went back to my favorite spot to hang out, under the rock in the playground, and went away too, since the other three deer were a lil weird. Two of them i thought were siblings or something since they never left eachothers side, and the other stag ran around a lot. So i just lied down to sleep.

Ghost watched the sun go down behind the hills. The stars settled into their places in the sky.
Ghost green eyes scanned the vast area around his little nest spot by the Ruins.
A creature darted past him so fast he barely saw it. Ghost, curious, looked right and left trying to see where the animal had gone. The shadow of the creature blurred by a bit father away.
Ghost jumped to his feet and attempted to follow the creature...


Note: I have gotten the crying blood mask! (Thank you to the deer with the clone!)

tears in the forest come to find my soul.

Jadine has simply lost her happines. so gather friends and fellow deer and let jadine tell you a story.

Jadine has lost her first mate do to personal reasons, they were faunhood friends and grew to like eachother.

For the longest time Jadine wandered alone in the forest just looking for friends and having no attention of ever finding a new mate.

Until one day she awoke to meet a Zombie under a small tree by the pond, she helped this stranger gain his new pelt as a living gazzell.

As her newest friend she found that she had a specail feeling about this Stag this... Perplex. They flerted often for a few days. waiting for one of them to finaly admit they liked eachother.

Then it happend ^^ Jadine and Perplex a new pair of mates to wander the forest.

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But it isn't so. Perplex is not aloud in the forest. and Jadine wanders alone and can be found watching her friends from a distance sitting next to a tree or in tall grass, waiting for her mate. She knows deep down that a miracle can happen. but she still has tears and sadness deep withen.

Will Jadine and Perplex ever spend there first day as mates? She feels like Perp has given up hope, and She feels like no one will truely help.
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This is why I don't play in the forest, and also why i show the sad emote constantly.

It is late in the Summer yet feels like Spring. There is so much talk of love being in the air...I have watched as deer gained and lost mates. I have seen hearts breaking and torn as well come together once again. I only observed from afar, however, for I never came to this place in search of love. I had once had love but it vanished amongst everything else I once knew, but that was sometime ago...I am sure that the fawn I once knew has long grown and forgotten me.

My human knows of it well. She and her human mate have been together for quite sometime. She tells me about 'love', saying it is the most beautiful- and at times painful - thing in the world. She tries to describe to me the deep devotion to each other that she and her mate share, but I do not fully understand. As I gaze at her in confusion, she gentle smiles while giving me a pat on the head saying, "Maybe one day you will."

But why would I? This Forest is full of such elegant and beautiful does who dance in the sunlight. Their fur glistens as the rays all upon them; their eyes sparkle in the light. 'Tis no wonder why I, such a dark, dull doe, remains in the shadows. I am not like them though for it has never bothered me to be forgotten by the stags. I only feel out of place whenever I stand next to a pair...but the loneliness subsided whenever a friend's call said my name.

Warning - has a little violence



The President of the General Assembly was calm. He replied to the stag, "Yes, well. We will allow you to speak your mind if you can do it in a civilized manner." Quad nodded, "Our represenatives are prepared to speak to yours in the languages they know." The President nodded, "Then you may speak."

A few months had passed, and Fulu was old enough to walk and speak. She asked many questions, and Jayla was patient enough to answer them. Word had spread about the few final victims of a mysterious disease that had been going around. She knew one of them was the one taking care of Skokey. She found herself more worried about him now that he had no one to look after him.

The day of Siki's funeral, Jayla and Fulu walked a little close to the Graveyard, where the funeral was held. She knew Skokey was there, and she didn't want to go over and meet him now. Now was not the time. She remembered what that stag had told her in her dreams. He had not visited since that one night, but his words still hung in her mind. Was it almost time? Was Skokey old enough to understand yet?... No, not yet, she thought. His wounds are fresh, I don't want to add any more to them.

They walked by a few trees, the ground becoming darker, and paler as they passed by the Ruins rather closely. Fulu pricked her ears and looked in the direction of the Ruins. "Mama, look, I see rain. But it's coming from the ground and going up!"

Jayla, obviously confused, looked over to the Ruins. She didn't see anything, nothing close to rain coming from the ground. She lowered her head, "Sweetie, there's nothing there. I don't see any rain."

"But it is there, Mama! But it's only in one spot." The two of them looked on, and Fulu said quietly, "I hear deer crying, Mama..."

Jayla lowered her ears. Is that what she meant? Fulu had said many strange things like that, often relating what she saw to what she heard. Jayla wondered what was wrong with her. She heard those deer crying, and she saw rain in reverse? Perhaps something did happen when she became a dove...

"Why are they crying? What's the matter?"" Fulu lifted her big black eyes up to her mother expectantly.

Jayla paused, and said quietly, "Because those deer had lost a friend. And they miss him. So much so, that they're crying."

Love is... Well, uh... Love is hard to describe. Some may find it easily, for others, it takes much time. My love had come easily, but took time to grow. She was once my friend, but now she is much more. Our playful romps in the flowers have become cherished beyond any earthly material. My love had come so easily, but for others, it is different. It may take years for them to find their other half. Some may never find it. I say that there is someone for everyone, and nobody was meant to be alone. Love is a powerful thing, and it can bring light to many darkened souls. I am truly in love, I know what it's like. I don't ever want to lose her.

Love is indeed a powerful thing. It can strengthen hearts, or it can shatter them. I have experienced both. My heart was taken by one, but torn apart soon after. But then, in all darkness and hopelessness, another came to lift my spirits. Love is not something to be taken lightly. You must cherish it, and protect it, like a bird protects her eggs. If something is thrown at you, you must come through it together. If it's too big for you to handle, then you will lose the love you gained. Love can change you forever. It can change your entire outlook on life, whether for better or for worse. There is still a hole in my heart, because I changed one's outlook for worse. Love, no matter how healing it can be, can still leave you maimed.