Hope is the thing with feathers; Talla



Talla
Tal'. 'Alla.
x

"I don’t have qualities, only fragilities.
But sometimes… sometimes I have hope."

- Clarice Lispector.

Female. #12. 8 years.
Roe deer influences*.Outwardly typical. Possesses a few mental and physical differences.

Speaks in #6C90A8.

Melancholic.
Anxious, hopeful.
Drawn to morbidity.
Takes space, craves contact.
Mistrusting, but easily grows attached.

Tumblr. Toyhouse.

"There is magic in decay.
A dance to be done
For the rotting."

- Dan Chelotti, from "Compost".

mental.Heartsick, withdrawn, appreciative.
physical.Healthy.
notes.<3
"..."
"..."

17th February, 2021
Coming to terms with a personal loss, though not without the comfort and support of those close to her.

23rd of July, 2020
Oh yikes x2, just noticed the last update was over a year ago.

Enjoying some snuggles.

8th of July, 2019
Oh yikes, just noticed last update was over a year ago.

Keeping to herself and a few close friends, for the most part.
Reunited with a nightmare from her past; Renoir. Tried to face him without showing her fear, but crumbled almost immediately under his gaze. Pursued by the wolf leisurely for the most part, until very suddenly he was on her heels. Lost any courage she'd gathered then. Slunk away after he lost interest to calm down in private. Ashamed over the whole thing, that even after all this time, he could still terrify her just as he had years ago.

Found hours later by Fenrir. Conversed with the wolf about a sensitive topic. Initially wary, but by the end found herself tentatively believing him. By no means believes the path ahead will be easy, but given reason to hope.



"Yet - never - in Extremity,
It asked a crumb - of me."

- Emily Dickinson

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Oh, he knew that he was just

Oh, he knew that he was just being a whiny bitch at this point. Still, he couldn't help how jealous he felt, that awful pit of backstabbed feelings that brewed deep down. Of course, he'd keep his anxiety welled up towards his loved ones, like always, and then let them all out of deer like Talla.

In a way, it was debatable whether or not his jealousy was justified, considering how he had once lost everything dear to him in the past... Faith... Irene...

The feather...

He stiffened at the thought, shaking his head a little in frustration. Maybe one could call him possesive out of paranoia, the intense fear of losing everything as he had before. It was still no excuse, and he knew that. Selfish? He knew that too. He had always been a clingy, greedy bastard, despite how independant he made himself out to be.

It was a long time before he replied, what with all the stressful thoughts bubbling about his head. "She's a baby, Tallerz, how she make ya feel safe when she dosen't even know what 'safe' means?" he asked, voice more exhausted and hurt rather than angry or annoyed.

The stuttering was making him inwardly grit his teeth out of contempt. To him, it sounded fake, like she was mocking him.

Still, he forced himself to keep a neutral mien.

"I'm... I'm glad she's making friends, though..." he finally mumbled. He meant those words, too. Peony had always been a bit bashful. Granted, not as shy as he other father, but a little shy all the same. He loved the fact that his daughter was making her own friends...

Just not with Talla.

((YOUR WRITING IS SO MUCH BETTER THAN MINE STFU xD You win maaaaaor~))

Silence. Talla shifted on the

Silence. Talla shifted on the spot nervously, she did not trust him enough and would go no closer.
What he was thinking was unkown to Talla, she merely saw the way he stiffened, the head shake. What it meant? Not a clue, but she assumed he was very agitated. That didn't help her own lack of security around him one bit.

Butterfly gliding about, settling and being an overall comfort, Talla muttered, "Thank you, Atvana" for she believed in the entity as much as she believed in the Twin Gods.

Talla looked at him after words finally spilt from his maw, and wanted to point out many a thing. She could list them in her head. Firstly, she would know what safety was. Peony was old enough to understand the difference between being hurt and feeling safe. Also, what did it matter if she did or did not know what it meant? Talla had felt that Peony would not hurt her, that didn't require Peony knowing what safe was.

She looked down at the grass, individual blades that had many a time been trodden upon. This doe was not fake, but he was not to know that.

Friends, yes! Positive words! Still... the manner in which he said them made Talla sigh to herself. It was as if he hated the fact she'd made friends with Peony. "Y-yes. S-she des-deserves to h-have many friends, fr-friend that care f-for her" talking about the kindness Peony showed her, Talla felt slightly braver.

Talla could not understand why he was jealous. She tried, but all the doe could come up with as how much more they loved Jergens. He wouldn't be jealous over that.


{ You win moar than I can even dream to win. BAMF. Gah, this post failed hard. x_X}

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Late track~ 8D

Late track~ 8D

Ohai you! Lol,

Ohai you!
Lol, <3 Danke 8D
The amount of biographies I have forgotten to track ;D
It's pathetic, actually. 8D Every 10 biographies, I remember to track!

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FFF I'm always late on

FFF I'm always late on tracking things, my brain decides it doesn't want to remember anything D8<
There's probably loaaaads more things I've think I've tracked but actually haven't. Me and my brain fails (8

XD. My brain has a mind of

XD. My brain has a mind of its own... if that even makes any sense at all. Lol.
Oh gosh, yes.
I sometimes completely forget that I CAN track something. >>''
Yep.

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LOL YES. I'm sometimes just

LOL YES.
I'm sometimes just too lazy to track things. I'm a seriously lazy person, writing a comment takes effort /shot
I hate it since people wonder why you don't track their stuff then you need to make up an excuse )8<



8D Know that feeling, too! I

8D Know that feeling, too!
I can never decide what to put in a comment, and so often ditch that idea.
LOL. That's so awkward, because telling them you're very forgetful and lazy sometimes sounds like you didn't care, but you did. You're just more like 'In a minuttteee *forgets in two seconds*'

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Yes LOL, it takes me ages to

Yes LOL, it takes me ages to work out what I'm going to write in it. Sometimes the simple word 'track' doesn't seem enough. Even replying to comments are hard, mainly unexpected RP posts. My brain is juat like "DSKJFDLJGFLAFL" when it comes to thinking up a random reply.
It's hard for me to make up excuses since I remember all the wrong things/less important things so it makes me look like I have a good memory. MY BRAIN FUNCTIONS IN A STRANGE WAY.
LOL

Yeyes

Yeyes <3!
Roleplay posts I find easier than comments. I find replying easier than making the first comment.
Like, every time I try to comment on art I end up listing that I love everything, but then it sounds fake. D|

xDDDD Your brain is funny. I like it ^^; I can't make up excuses, because they'll never believe that I just have a terrible memory or I was unsure of what to say. They'll just think I'm so lazy that they were not worth the effort - My mind functions in a way that makes me worry about everything! 8c

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"Little one, perhaps we

"Little one, perhaps we may... see each other once more? I find that I would very much miss you..."

((In case you were wondering who in the heck that frosted stag was xD Oh yessss rp in unmomento x3))

Edit: ((Hereeee you are~))

Of course the little doe got it all mixed up. At this point, Jergens wasn't really angry so much so that he was mildly annoyed by her. Shy deer (and people) had always had a way with pissing him off a bit. Ironic considering the personality traits of his own significant other, but that was more of a fluke than anything else. He tilted his head at the small doe's mutterings, wondering who in the Hell 'Atvana' was, but decided not to venture further with any questions about who or what she was talking about.

Yes, friends. He was honestly glad that his daughter was actually befriending others on her own. He really was. He just felt so... unnaturally jealous over it all.

"Yeah... That's really what I just said..." he mumbled in reply to her ramblings, cocking an eyebrow, whether out of annoyance or indifference was hard to say.

((Lawl... brainded xD))

"Sir, I would be delighted to

"Sir, I would be delighted to meet you again. I enjoyed your company very much...you've helped me, even if you do not realise it."
{ GINGEEYY! I was wondering who it was <3!
Thank you! He is so sweet <3
Their first meeting, she was spooked halfway through xD hence the head tossing in every direction. The second time she calmed down. :3
Hurr, yes. <3 }
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{Also;}
If Talla had been looking upon herself, she would have realised that she appeared slightly insane, speaking to a butterfly as if they were friends. Her hooves shifted on the earth, the soil beneath her hooves was comforting. It reminded her she could run, that there was something solid for her to cling to.

Confusion, it was a terrible thing for a deer, especially one like Talla. For the life of her, she could not understand Jergens. Talla closed her eyes for a moment, but her ears were fixed on the red stag. In this moment, she remembered things that comforted her and so upon reopening her eyes, there was less fear. "I w-was just..." Talla began, however the sentence ended there, for she had no idea what words should come next. "I am j-just gl-glad..." Yes, that's what she had meant to say, but for some reason it had not properly formed in her mind. It was definitely awkward speaking with him when Jergens appeared to dislike her so much, especially because she felt as if every time she spoke he wished for her stuttering to stop - and she did too! That was nigh impossible with the lack of trust for this stag.

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IfailsomuchthatIforgottoreply

IfailsomuchthatIforgottoreplytoyourcommentearlier...
^ That is called spacebar neglect LOL

Yess same c:
I need to make the other person type first since I'm really bad at roleplay, if I do it then they'd probably be there all day. It's just those random rp's that suddenly pop up that I fail at replying to XD
Yeah, it's like, you don't want to just write a few words since it looks quite sloppy but if you write alot, and list the stuff you like about it then it does look fake. IT'S ALOT HARDER TO COMMENT THAN PEOPLE THINK.

Noooo my brain fails D:
Awwww, our minds can suffer together (8



That'sreallyquitefineIdothata

That'sreallyquitefineIdothatallofthetimedonotworry.
Spacebar neglect LOL.
You killed me with that.

I feel like I must reply to every roleplay 8D; I can never end them. I enjoy roleplay though, so it's all good.
YEAH. PEOPLE, SOME OF US HAVE WOCKKEIRYER MINDS THAT FAIL TO COMMENT.

Your brain is like slime <3 I love slime 8D
Ohyes, they shall 8D. I shall think about simple mathematics and confuse mine 83

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((Bawthanks 8'D He's mah very

((Bawthanks 8'D He's mah very special fan character~ huhu~))

"Just? Just what?" he raised his eyebrow, shaking his head to and fro in increasing annoyance. "Look... girly. Why don't ya just get outta here? I know ya don't wanna be around me. Hell, I can really move all that much, so why don't ya take off? I can't chase ya." he offered, wondering whether or not she would take the bait.

"I'm sorry that I'm a jerk, okay?" he added, nodding a bit to strengthen his point. "Really."

((I'm sorry... my flu-infested brain kinda fizzed up ;; ))
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OH, you posted it on my

OH, you posted it on my birthday ! <3 WHY I DIDN'T TRACKED THAT.

Gn, Solaya miss you :c


[You have forgot her, I think, btw. Or maybe you don't want add her <3 You choose (: ]

See ya !

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GEE~!!! I FORGOT.

GEE~!!!
I FORGOT. SOLAYA.
SDFBNDFJKBNDF. *ADDS* I cannot believe I forgot Solaya *Slaps self*
Thank you so much<33!!!
On your birthday?! 8D
Happy birthday for when this was posted!

Oh, Talla misses Solaya. ;;
It's been too long.

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HEHE, thank you XDD It's ok,

HEHE, thank you XDD

It's ok, you can't memory ALL these names <3 I can't, me. XD
I hope that they will be in the forest ~

{The deer who helped you with Ammy's set is my Taegan, btw. OMG, I took loooong for knew that it was you. XD I understood when you had noh antlers 8D He have fun, actually ~}

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<333! Yah, growing into a big list, is it not?
There are more deer that need to be added, too 8D. For now, I'll be lazy and just add Sol.

As do I hope that they meet again soon<3

Really? Oh, Taegan is so sweet 8D!
Ammy felt quite horrid when the pelt refused to work with them. Taegan is great fun 8D!!!

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She don't had too

She don't had too <3 Tae' is a patient deer. And today, he's in a good mood c:

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I'm glad ^^;~ it was starting

I'm glad ^^;~ it was starting to annoy her, and she wasn't doing anything! XD
His company is enjoyable 8D!! I'm glad he is in a good mood, too.

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Gnh. Taegan is really bad for

Gnh. Taegan is really bad for understand eachother. He's gone because he thought that Ammy wanted be alone - she was sad and she was in provocation. Or she looked stressed, he don't know. xD

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<3 He's fine.
She was upset, she did not mind if he stayed or if he chose to leave. He can sit by her if he wants, she's fine with it. :3

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Why she was upset ? D:

Why she was upset ? D:

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Because of Ravey - she heard

Because of Ravey - she heard it on the wind. <33

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Oh...

Oh... <3 Taegan understand, so.

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XD I always end up ending

XD

I always end up ending the rp, I get easily bored. Or I just don't think the rp is going anywhere so ending it is the best thing :3

My brain is loved 8D<3
MATHS IS THE ULTIMATE DESTRUSTION FOR MY BRAIN. Seriously I have exams coming and I need to remember things I learned about 3 years ago plus the recent things we learned, however my brain disagrees and wants to remember other things >8(

Brain likes simple things.
Maths is full of hard things.
Brain doesn't like hard things.
StarBright doesn't like hard things.
Brain says no to maths and makes Star forget it.

dfkjdslkfs

{

{ <333! He's sweet.}
He was annoyed, and all it did was stress her, make the doe paw the grass in agitation. Get outta here? He wanted her to leave? Was she really that annoying...? Another thought crossed Talla's mind, one that made her reluctant to leave. He was hurt... but what if she left and he was injured further? Perhaps Jergen's could see the worry in her eyes because it was plain to see. Her worries increased. What of Rosine? Talla could not abandon someone Rosine adored so. The confusion was definitely all over her face.

Then again... what could she do by staying? Talla would merely flee as soon as something came by as a natural reaction, and Talla knew that she could never find the courage to even begin defending someone she did not trust.

A nod of the head, movement of confirmation of something. She lowered her head and blinked at him.
Then Talla had sprung away and was galloping at tremendous speed through the undergrowth, ripping up loose soil.

{ Sorry for the late reply D| Never even worth the wait }
Star;
xD Lol.

BRAIN LUFF.
Mhm, mine refuses to remember maths.

ROFL. <3!
EXACTLY WHAT MINE DOES.
AND SORRY FOR BEING SLOW.

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It was not Illrose,

It was not Illrose, yesterday. I asked on her bio C=

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&hearts;&hearts;&hearts;&hear

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

-Foams and loves on you, Talla, and anyone else in the remote vicinity.-
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8D!! :333333 So glad I

8D!!
:333333
So glad I decided to tell my assignment to get stuffed like a teddy for a while 8D!!
Talla lurves them both so much ♥
Bai? D:

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Vange just had to try Talla's

Vange just had to try Talla's little Tree-dance, it looked like so much fun |D
"The cruelest prison is one we make for ourselves out of fear and regret."

xD Lol! She finds it great

xD Lol!
She finds it great fun, not as fun as dancing to imaginary tunes, but still very fun indeed.
Sorry for my random inactivity, I'm trying to do an assignment, but Talla demands I let her play instead!
Vannngeeee <3!

=) You're awesome, Rain <33.

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We don't mind just sitting

We don't mind just sitting around, it's quite relaxing. As long as other deer don't come along, that is.

And you're amazing ♥
"The cruelest prison is one we make for ourselves out of fear and regret."

Mhm. I agree. I didn't notice

Mhm. I agree. I didn't notice some deer earlier, got absorbed in my assignment... or at least absorbed in insulting it.
Looks back and a deer was all 'Hai >8D'
and Vangelo was quite 'Lolnothnx'

♥ you are a cuddly kitteh, so there.

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That Nameless was relentless.

That Nameless was relentless. It finally got distracted by a deer and gave up 8D;
Vange didn't know what to think of Cut at first. Cut was confusing xD

You're an adorable fawn >8C ♥
"The cruelest prison is one we make for ourselves out of fear and regret."

Yes, but it probably didn't

Yes, but it probably didn't realise :3
"LOOK, A DISTRACTION *flee*"
Cut was, but then other deer gathered before anything made sense. xD


You're as awesome as a klipspringer ♥~! Look at those hooves and thank America for showing me these babies.


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Vange was considering copying

Vange was considering copying Cut, just to see if that'd help him understand. The closest he could think of was that Cut was sharpening his antlers xD

And those are indeed awesome hooves 8O
You're as interesting as a Gerenuk ♥♥!
"The cruelest prison is one we make for ourselves out of fear and regret."
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c: &hearts; I wanted to give

c:


I wanted to give proper nuzzles, but a fawn I'd spent some time with earlier decided to run over, and so if I went to Talla, so would it. I was actually short on time anyway, and was really coming over to love on you all/sit and play with you for a bit/say good bye and get offline, but it worked out interestingly. xD

Oh yessss I'm glad you did too though. I miss you.
I want my laptop back. \:
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Rain; Ah, Talla thought the

Rain; Ah, Talla thought the same.
She was cheering him on at one point "Yeah, you beat that rock up!"

Yes, veryeh.
Ohami 8D
You're as quick as a pronghorn ♥! <8D


Serenai; :3

Yes <3. Gave us a surprise when it fell asleep, but we luff ya.

I want your laptop back, too. ;; Miss you

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Fed Ex tried to deliver

Fed Ex tried to deliver something today. It needed a signature by me. I gave one. They'll see it and deliver the package tomorrow.

I have a feeling I know what is in that package.

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c:

c:
<3 Yessshhh.

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-Lovespam.- I am eager.

-Lovespam.-

I am eager.
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I love spam :3. I bet you

I love spam :3.

I bet you are, considering I'm bouncing up and down in happiness. 8D

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I fear it... > > 8DDD That

I fear it... > >

8DDD
That makes me happy. >u>
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Love spam, I mean. *Face

Love spam, I mean. *Face desks*
I love love spam... XD

Yey, happinessss<3

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This I can agree with. Most

This I can agree with.

Most certainly! I miss coming in forest, drawing digitally, not to mention IMs. o_o
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And now I have an image of

And now I have an image of Talla in a cheerleader costume in my head xD;
A deer came by earlier and started spell-spamming Vange. He got all rawry and started lowering his antlers at it when shaking his head didn't work. Now he's a Peacock >8C

You're as cute as a Pudu~ owo ♥
"The cruelest prison is one we make for ourselves out of fear and regret."

"Oh Talla, I was so worried

"Oh Talla, I was so worried ya... you hadn't recognized me!" the medium lavender doe breaths a sigh of relief. "I haven't seen you since I was a fawn, have I? Hm... I apologize fer.... for not seeing you sooner..."

Edit: ((Sorry for having her fall asleep on you ;; Getting ready for school and whatnot~))

Shoebox; I was wondering why

Shoebox; I was wondering why you feared lovespams XD

;; Mmh as do I, as do I. SOON YE SHALL HAVE BACK YOUR LAPTOP.

Bah, my face is bleeding... D|
Pimple scabbed... it was only small and I picked at it, then I brushed my face and it was bleeding. Eewww.

Rainy;
Yeah, I brb'd but came back and saw the result. Talla wanted to get Vange's pelt back, but it didn't work.
I must say, peacock looks good on him |D VERY ANGSTY, AREN'T WE, VANGELO?

You are as adorable as a white tailed fawn !~♥~!

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