I've been inspired by a lot of the kindness I've seen as of late around here.
I've never really felt like I fit in in anywhere, most of my life. Even with friends I've always been an outsider, sharing many different interests than they. This place is the closest I've ever really been a part of a place. Most everyone has been accepting, welcoming and kind to me, even when I've had horrible emo days. I really try to hide those, because I try to not put my personal business out there when I can.
I'm flattered by the responses I get from my characters and my art. I've always been so self-conscious when it came to my art; some days I see such amazing art and I'll erase mine before i even finish. But the compliments I get here really have filled my heart and pushed me to keep going and practice.
I will admit that some days, the drama and hate that comes forth from this place upsets me, makes me angry. Perhaps we're not perfect, but I"d love more than anything for us all to be peaceable, and it hurts my heart to see some of the things said here. We're all from different countries, backgrounds, different ages.. we're one of the best mixing pots out there, and we should all be proud of ourselves in this wonderful community we're in. No community is perfect, but we can eliminate the tension and hate quite easily.
I met my best friend here and some of my closest friends, and I'm meeting new, wonderful people every day. I'm grateful I stumbled upon this humble screensaver one day while looking for animal games to play online.

This is mostly gibberish, and I'll probably delete it later, but.. yeah. Just felt the need to pour this out.

I missed my 1 year TEF birthday on the 6th D: I've been so darn busy lately. I created Ourania on the 6th and joined the community much later. The people that told me about TEF are not here and do not play right now but I'm so glad they did. I've met so many awesome people and had a lot of fun wih you guys in the forest. Thanks everyone! <3 <3 <3 <3

Don't you hate it when....
you do stuff. But you don't think of the consequence.

And its something you regret later.



And you can fix it, you can fix the problem. You can make it go back to the way it was.
But you are worried that no one will ever take you seriously again, or you worry that you will hurt others even more than the mistake you did in the first place.










That really sounded like I was pregnant then. Rest assured Im not.

I speak of more...strange(?) matters.
I wish I never did what I did. I want Ravenflight back. I miss her. She's like. A part of me. A part of me that isn't officially dead. A part that is lost.
I miss playing her in forest. With my own clever tongue and hand I can easily write her back. Play her back. Draw her back.
With plots I can bring her back to the endless forest. Theres no denying that. And I have many clever plans to do so. But in doing so, it would seem unoriginal. It would be like.
"Killing her
OH WAIT GUYS SHES BACK
Oh she's dead/left the forest
LOLJKS HERE SHE IS"

Basically. I would fear that I wouldn't be taken seriously. The whole thing wouldn't be taken seriously and Id probably confuse and upset many of the deer in the forest that knew her.

I just don't know what to do.

Well. I do know what to do. And I want to do it.
But I don't know if its the right thing.


Isn't it funny how characters can affect us like that?
We may not see it. And maybe some characters aren't like that.
But so many of them are reflections of ourselves. Little parts of us.
Personalities. Mannerisms.

And when you let them go. You cant help but feel the pang.

What a strange little world.

Something happened,, I clicked log in again, when i was already logged in, i don't know why, but all my stuff are gone?? i had alot of masks and such, but now everythings poofed??? i also cant see other players.
what do i do? o.o