The mind is like an endless forest, the trees are the main thoughts and the branches smaller thoughts relating to the main thought. You swing from tree to tree, glancing at its bark until you find one you like and the you climb to the highest point, the thinnest twig, the slippiest branch until you fall down and have to start searching again. Sometimes you fall into a hole and sink out of your thoughts into reality. For me maths thoughts are the black, shriveled trees and literacy are huge, gnarled oaks standing firm with beutiful green leaves but the dream part is best. All sorts of animals live in those trees, each one containing a different world. Maybe that is how endless forest started out as, a dream, a thought, a idea and then something real... while writing this I was absorbed in thoughts but I didn't need to think. My hands knew what to do and all my thoughts did was read it out to me. If life was a single thought, a tree or a forest wouldn't life be better...

The world, is such a peacful place...but I may get everything...every thing i need, and want...but theres one thing that I dont get...love...

Why wont Gazru, and Fherri notice that I can help them? and that all I want..is for Fherri to see that, even if I'm a kid...and that hes a teen...but that i love him? Can he atleast notice that?
He stays with the pretty girl, he puts up with her drama every day...I know that in the future he wont pay attention to me at all...I'm just...A red pelt fawn...and hes the son of the leader...Shes all perfect
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Beutiful light cream pelt. White antlers, and the prettiest one in the herd. "I'm just his friend, and hes the only friend Ive got." I looked back at Zensu, the dark brown, black leged doe that adopted me when I was younge .
Zensu chuckled "now! we all know that you want to be more!" I walked over to the pond and took a drink "please dont say it out loud mother...they will hear you" I said unpatiently. I just wanted to run away and find love. And leave this hell hole and never come back.

Fherri was now at the second stage of life, and that was a young adult. Barely starting, though..he was still quite juvenile. Three fawns jumped in to the water and splashed big droplings all over my my pumpkin color pelt, with brown dots on my back, and I had 4 black legs "Sorry Gelina!" I smiled aqnd shook my head "No worries little one" and walked back to the herd. followed by my pestred mother, I you see was a teen, a teenage doe. and Maya Fherries gilfriend was about to get out of stage one, that included teen years.

Fherri and Gazru the best friends, were with couple other stags jummping around, fighting, chanting, and running. I looked at them for a while and when Fherri turned around I turned away. I dug in to the ground for fresh roots, and ate. Feeling uncomfortable just being couple feet away from the guys. I was being whatched by them.

Kita made her way slowly through the forest. The warm sun lit up between the trees, the sounds of spring all around her. Fawns braying, birds twittering through the trees and the rustle of newly formed leaves.

She paused once to look back to her own son Alston as he pranced along through the flowers behind her. Now over a month old he was growing fast, more than able to support himself though he was still quite immature at times.

She shook her head with a soft chuckle and looked ahead, continuing on her way.

On these long walks she often would think back on her life, remembering the good and the bad times. The friends she had made. The loves she had and lost.

She remembered meeting Virgil, the kind stag who helped to pull her out of the shy isolation she had made for herself. She looked to him much like an older brother, and quickly began to gain confidence to play with other deer.

She remembered meeting Baal. This stag, while frightening, always seemed to be willing to put up with her silly childish play and would often go fo runs with her in the forest. She sighed heavily and shook he head, she still missed Baal, and had hoped to see him one more time.

She remembered Howl and Reed, the two stags she made friends with, just to have the two fight one another. She wondered whatever happened to them. It had been so long since she had heard from either deer, but she did hope that they were well wherever they were.

A warm sadness filled her as she thought of Fran. The doe she loved and kept close to her heart. She had not seen her in so long she wondered if Fran had gotten herself killed. They always got into such trouble together, but it was some of the best times she could have had. She had fought to protect Fran, but she had no hope of seeing her now. She could only hope that whereve Fran had gone, she was healthy and happy.

She remembered Furfur, Seshi when alive.

I can't find the blogpost about dreams so I guess I'm gonna create one that people can post on if they want, and talk about em cause I think they're pretty interesting.

I had to share and I've been meaning to because I have really messed up dreams sometimes and I feel like this one is worth sharing (and I may paint it sometime before I lose it.) But to preface, I tend to hit snooze a lot and in those 5-15 min I have the weirdest things go on.

I guess, kind of gore warning? Extremely mild.


This one starts out of nowhere like they usually do, in the headlights of car along a pretty deserted road. It's really too dark to see past where the headlights shine but vegetation appears scarce. Against a car two men are arguing in hushed tones, one appears to have the upper hand and his thoughts are your thoughts but as you/he turn your head there is a coyote standing next to one of the cars. It's eyes reflect and grow so bright for a moment all you know is a voice saying "It's not worth it."
That plea goes unheaded as the argument continues, hands are raised and adrenaline escalates. You/he look back and this time a stag stands, eyes reflecting that same light and this time a more powerful voice demands that you keep things secret and leave well be.
You are no longer connected to his mind as the light dissappears and you watch as he stabs the horns of a stag's skull through the lesser man's head.

So yeah please feel free to share dreams and theories and what have you.