Memory's Diary

First entry- 13 October

Something, there's something there, in the back of my mind. Its lingering there... waiting.
How am I suppose to relax with it eating away at my thoughts? Even the butterflies hanging over my head, dancing in all their glory wont make it go away.

Everyday seems the same... I sit alone and watch the world go by, never feeling apart of it. Oh how I wish to be. Others pass me by usually without even a glance in my direction, I'm of no importance while they have their fun.

Strangers sit with me sometimes, we sit in complete silence, enjoying the fact we're not alone. Toughs are the best times, having someone to sit with, together both are lonelinesses gone. However they never stay long, maybe I'm boring? Oh how I long for a shadow, that will never wander from my side.

A trickle of wax is slipping its way down my forehead, a gift, a gift that made a smile grow on my face. The feeling was almost foreign, I couldn't remember the last time I had been happy. This was a gift of warmth and light, to keep me company. To comfort me while again I spend the night alone.




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Yes, I got bored. Its a bit too short but I've got a lot of writers block at the moment. Also maybe its a bit depressing... well maybe I'll make her really happy in the future.
<3

Okay, I'm an easy person to give a gift!

- drawings of my deer, Redd, and Raleigh.

- if you're a composer, serene music for an atmospheric game I'm making.

- anything you feel like~

And... that's pretty much it ^^' I don't accept snail mail because I live in friggin' Denmark, and sending stuff like that would be too expensive and time-consuming.

I hope my Secret Santa finds this helpful! >w<

This is a diary entry that became too long and too lame to put on the bio page. Warning of bad and completely uninteresting writing. Don't feel obliged to read, please.

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October 12:

Salli?? Where's...?

I finally pick up your scent after days without a word, and you just HAD to be in the direction of the ruins, hadn't you.

I rush towards that foul place. If the blue ones have you, I'll, I'll...! "Rip their hearts out"? Where did that thought come from? Okay, NO. No heart-ripping. Absolutely NOT. I'm just gonna get in there and get you out, quick as a flash.

I screech to a halt as I suddenly see blue shapes looming straight ahead on the hill. My heart is in my throat.. blue... the blue ones? My head is soaring. No, they look different, don't they? More vibrant, and there are others. They're resting? But it's too close, no, this is dangerous, I should...

One of them gets up, moves in my direction. Stares. I'm backing up. I sniff the air, I know Salli is here! My little pal... I can smell you. Are you among them? If my eyes didn't tell me otherwise, that would have been my guess. But there is no sight of your light tawn little body.

I throw myself into action, leaping in a circle around the hill. Maybe you're sleeping safely behind a tree on the other side? The staring deer follows my motion. Stop that! I'm looking for a fawn, not a fight! But suddenly. That face, isn't it...?

Oh. Goodness. Salli, oh wow, how you've grown! Hahaha. Oh, yeah, hey! Uhh yeah I was gonna come greet you in a minute, I was just checking out these logs back over here, for uhh... nevermind! You didn't have to just stand there and stare at me like that, you know! Howsabout coming up to say hi to your old friend, eh?? ...What are you talking about, I wasn't cringing and backing away! Why would I do that, you silly? That should be your name, "Silly", not Salli. Ahahaha.

Oh jeez, and what are you wearing? Let's get you fixed up, shall we?