Diary Entry

[=#006400]The wheel of fate is turning, as another revolution spins its way around and around. Last year was up, and before that it was down: it's the swirling pattern of summer, the season where fate decides its course, where the wheel stops and see what's engraved on it.

She asked me if we still had a future. Today she told me that I hurt her, never seeing her enough. Today she said a lot of things, starlight tears clouding the skies of her eyes, blue and jewel-like as the pond, and just as wet. And just as likely to make me feel like an absolute toad, for giving her reason to say those things. I love her, and I'll fight for whatever it takes to make her happy -- so what did that make my defense of us? Because I had to.
I still love her, too much to go gently into farewell. I'm too selfish for that, and... And because I didn't know if she wanted my permission to go, or my permission to say. I know what she says, but what she meant?
We both ended up going off to think, in tears. I pulled myself together enough to sit by Saosin. I'll have my answer tommorow.
It's my fault. I've been away too much. I haven't done right by her...

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Oh, fortuna, spin me to a place where no one will be hurt by me! By my sloth and my wanderlust and my selfish heart...Spin me somewhere where I'll be safe, too, and never have to imagine her saying farewell, forever, with a heart full of love.
Please. I can't stop thinking of it.
...And, of course, the moment I see Terrant coming towards me -- probably looking for an amusing evening -- I go and pull him into this. Poor Terrant. He seemed so surprised. In the end, my heart couldn't keep going, and the moment I saw the warmth of his face, the old nostalgic carefree feel of that strange and quiet birch-dweller, my heart folded like a house of cards, and I was overcome by tears. He let me sit next to him and cry into his fur, until Scape showed up.

Im a "NEW COMER" and I did play a little with my friends' and my cousin's deer but still its NEW for me to get my OWN and my OWN profile...
(Hopefully everyone understand this)
But I want my own deer and my own profile so I sign up and I think its called "Name Deer?"
I did everything like "Name Deer" and "Downloading" it.
Now its time for me to play it!

Umm I hope I see you all in the FOREST!!!

CYA LATER!

Trees are green, the sun is shinning, water flows smoothly
Everythings nice and peaceful.
Birds are singing, you hear the wind.
At night of course it will be dark but it will be more peaceful cause it will be very quiet and maybe frogs chirping.
Around lunch time it will be kinda "quick" like because everyone is having fun and fooling around and all of a sudden its lunch time...
I had that feeling (mostly all the time)
The point is The Endless Forest is really peaceful:)
Dont you all agree?

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"Oh my god I don't remember what I have done recently...those mushrooms!They weren't for spells....Ugh I think...I need to throw up!Ew that was disgusting.I just hope I didn't do anything bad while I was on shrooms.Oh well looks like I was running a lot my legs feel tired..I need some sleep."Natali thought and she closed her eyes and drifted into a deep sleep...

"Hi!" Natali woke with a jolt."What is going on..?"She thought and she looked around her.She saw the forest but no other deer execpt her and her biological father."Hello..?"She said."Finally you wake up!Well anyways I need to tell you something...Your mother,sadly died."He said."But she was immortal..I don't understand explain it to me please.."She said confused."Well when she gave birth to you her immortality went with you.Well when we just met,we were young adults.We were stupid.So we teased a wizard one day about his beard.Well he didn't like it at all.He sent us here as punishment and gave us immortality as a curse.The curse for immortality is simple.You just need a potion made of I don't know what,and force it to the person you want to curse.Then they are immortal.Well let me explain...the potion doesn't go into your stomach...it finds it way through your flesh and bones and organs into your soul.Then it changes the way you age and gives you a force field that protect you as long as you live.So you never age or die,ever.So yea that's all to explain...Oh and if you give birth,you can either give half of the immortality to your fawn or all of it.If you give half the fawn can still die when it's a fawn,but it stores up energy and when finally it grows up it will be immortal.Well anyways look at the time!I'm going to go.Oh and in case your wondering why you never see me in the forest it's just because I found a small white ball one day and it was a portal from Earth to here..Well anyways bye!"And with that he disapeared and everything was black.

Natali opened her eyes.So her mother had given her all h

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I woke up and ran into Dag, who then ran off to find another: Lacy, I think? The trees can only tell me that 'not having CSS is not an excuse for not having basic identification' and grumbled about it. I have no idea what they mean. I don't take it when they grumble like that very seriously: no, they're the angriest when they aren't rustling, whispering, dropping leaves and pinecones with the weight of thought... We had a bit of play, where we all tried out our silly walks. It's been a while since I moonwalked as competitively as I did back there, head high and footsteps exact as I curved, not daring to look behind me for fear of breaking the effect. There's something marvelous to it -- going back by making the motions of going forward. Haa. Dag seemed quite amused, and as rarely as I see many of my friends -- and as often as I worry if they care for me still, because of that, and how more often I wish I knew how to resummon older, denser times the way you cast a spell, or I pull words loose from my mind and linger my tongue over the ideas like they were pulled teeth -- I was delighted to please him.

Then we all settled to the side and rested in a sunbeam: unlike yesterday, it wasn't an unusual sunbeam. I can't think that the sunbeam itself meant something -- but perhaps it did, and perhaps by sitting in it we blasphemed it. How would we know the difference?
...I guess I am still thinking of yesterday. For all our petty worries and squabbles, there's a nobility to this place, sometimes. And a sadness.

I ADMIT that I wasnt new here.
Sorry guys for that little lie but I have to because my REAL WORLD LIFE SUCKS!
Even in the game...
Im trying to be a gangster but everyone making fun of me and they hardly knew me...
SAME in the endless forest game, I say hi to alot of deer and they just ignore me and just starting to make a fight and they hardly know me...
Thats why I created a NEW account and a NEW deer and hopefully they can be friends with me....
Well it kinda works...
Its harsh in real world though...
More worst than you ever think...
So
SORRY
Im not coming here again if everyone hates me know...

But I do know I was wrong to do such a thing to lie...

It was raining,hard.Natali strolled over to The Pond to take a sip and admire the rain hitting the water.It was somehow peaceful to her.Then she went over to the Old Oak.She was wet and cold and needed some rest.Inside she went to the farthest corner where it was most dry and warm and sat down looking at the rain hitting everything else but not her.She curled up in a little ball and fell fast asleep.

"Good morning Natali."Natali opened her eyes.It was morning and there was no more rain.Yet there wasn't anything else either.It was all black but her and the two deer standing in front of her."Hello...um what do you guys want?"She asked her parents.She no longer thought of them as her parents,they were only her biological ones not ones that cared about her or anything about her."Well we were wondering if you were a adult yet.Looks like your still just a fawn.Hmm well goodbye then see you once you grow up!"Her biological mom said then Natali opened her eyes for real this time.

It wasn't morning yet,and it was still raining and still very cold."I wonder what they want from me...and why they want me to be an adult?It's not like they care about my birthday or anything.."She thought as she watched the dark grey clouds outside from the nice dry warmness inside the Old Oak.

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