I am strange.
But why do you care?
I have all I need
without you standing there.

I've been called crazy
and I do need the laughs.
I've been labeled a freak
in this play that's been cast.

I do like these games
in which I'm the wild card.
Lock me up, if you wish,
but I'll hit you quite hard.

You see that I've had you
in my clutch all the while.
But why be so serious?
It's time for a smile!

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Man, I cranked these out at my aunt's! I had limited computer access, lol. Just a little something for myself.

OH LOLOL. I had to.
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I see my own reflection, and I think I'm rather odd,
but who am I to say that I'm unique?
I've seen madmen, ghouls, and dancers, and I think I'll start with this-
Princess is what I am, not a freak!

Now you've come to the conclusion that I 've not got a lot to say -
and maybe for a time, you were quite right.
But I've pulled myself together, and I'm sure that you can see,
I'm shouting to the heavens, "I'M ALRIGHT!"

And I've reached out to these strangers, come to lend a helping hand...
some took it, some rejected my good grace.
Now, I'm very proud to say that I've accepted my own self,
with help from those who've slowly gone to waste!

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I imagined this in a very singsong voice, actually. Kind of funny too. XD There you go, Sarie!

It says I'm in the forest, but my ping's in the 800's, so...am I actually in the forest, in any way, shape, or form?

*wishes it was dawn in the forest, because she wants to hide in the birch forest grasses, but they look boring by day*

Her bounced around Quad, cackling evilly. "Can't tag me, mate!" The two-colored stag chuckled softly, his eyes upon her, his back against a pillar on the side of the Ruins. "I won't bother trying." He paused and sniffed the air. "But...I smell somebody coming who can."

Before the chocolate doe could react, the blur that was Pandemonium sent her tumbling to the ground. "Oi, you again?!", Her grunted. She disentangled her neck and stared into the eyeholes on Pan's mask. "Honestly, I think Tuna's gonna have to come out of hiding one day to rescue the rest of us from you!" She smiled good-naturedly. Pan grinned back. "What would you lumps do without me, eh? Sit around on your butts all day, collecting dust?" Scrambling upright, she crashed into the wall of the Ruins. "Finally found you guys, anyways. I wanted to ask Her something. Morning, Quaddypants."

"Got another crazy business scheme?"

"Course not. It's Thursday. I-"

A tremendous roar cut her off mid-sentence. The wiry doe glanced around, while Quad and Her exchanged looks. A huge doe, her body decaying and a skull atop her head, was bashing against the bars of the Cage. Ammy and Taiko were off some distance in front of her, chatting and ignoring her furious attempts to escape. Pan's expression changed to one of interest. She'd heard of the fabled Hunter, but had never seen her in person. Slowly, she stepped towards the cage. "Hun? You feeling a little off?"

A growl in response. The doe frowned. She didn't expect the doomed deer to understand her, but still, she was fascinated. A few paces off, Ammy noticed her approach, stood, and led Taiko over. "I wouldn't get too close," she murmured. "Poor thing. She's been stuck like that for years." Pan glanced over at them before her gaze returned to the ravaged creature. Taiko shivered. "She's not safe. Cursed to stay in there forever. If you let her out..."

The 23 of August. Antlerdoe.



There she was again. Painting.
Her little bowls of wood sat still as death in the candlelight.
The vivid paint glistining like wax just on the surface,
inside of them.
The rough, rough cave walls, where she had painted
so many times before... it was grey, as before.
She picked up the black ink like paint in one hoof,
then placed her other one the stone.
There she was again. Painting.
Only painting this time wat she hopes to become.
What she will become.


This is my little fawn Selkie! (Not the one in my icon picture)

I don't know many people on the community site, so I don't really wanna post there...but if I seem kind-of depressed or anything for a while, this is why...it's a long story, so if you don't want to read, you don't have to.

I'm not asking for any pity. I'm just asking you not to anger at my mood. I'm feeling disappointment, resentment, and a questioning of why I still trusted her this one last time after everything...and knowing she's lost my trust completely. She doesn't deserve the benefit of the doubt.

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My mom nearly died today...

She got drunk at work. I could hear it in her voice. But no, I gave her the benefit of the doubt. I simply asked her to pick up my allergy medicine from Wal-Mart, and said bye. She works somewhere that's about 8 or 9 minutes from here.

At 6:43 PM, 13 minutes after she was supposed to have gotten out of work, I heard this sound.

Kaplop, kaplop, kaplop. Over and over again, down the road. I couldn't see the road, because it's up on a hill that's beyond our creek and a bunch of trees, making it invisible to us during the summer.

I giggled, thinking it was someone with a junk car. I walked out of the den and saw my dad staring out the window.

I said, "Some junk car, huh?"

He said, "It's mom...she's the only person I know who would drive with flat tires."

I thought: Wait...that's what flat tires sound like? What a strange sound.

My dad walked down our driveway until he got to the little bridge over the creek, and...he suddenly put his hand to his head, shook his head, and started to walk back.

My hopes that it wasn't mom...yeah. They were smashed. I wondered why she didn't fill up the tires on her way home, why she didn't get the meds. Because if she had, she would have been at least 16 or 17 minutes late.

I saw her slowly drive in. My dad walked up and stared at her in the car. She just sat there. Then he came in, apparently helping her walk, as I heard.

Yes, it is me again. And today, I feel as if I have done something terrible, but I'm not so sure about it...

I awoke in my favorite spot in the Pond, and searched for a friend. I did happen to see someone. Ahh, yes, my friend Darcy! I ran to where he was, to find him sitting with others. I didn't think much of it, and decided to join them. Soon enough, he stood and greeted me, and I him.

All of us played for a little while, but for some reason, the fawns were starting to pester Darcy. So he hid, and I tried to fend them off. Pretty soon we were both running away from where we were. After moving a little ways, he asked me what I wanted to do. Well, I wanted to dance on the bridge, so I told him to follow me, and went for the Pond again.

And what happened on that bridge...

We stood, and stared. I couldn't read what was going through his mind, but my heart beat harder than it ever had before. And he came up to me, and nuzzled me. My heart skipped a beat! He lowered his head and scratched the ground. We both seemed to be nervous, but I overcame it and nuzzled back.

I can't believe what happened today! I feel so joyous! Have I found love at last?... Or am I taking this the wrong way?... Because, something else happened today...

What a clumsy little thing I was, I managed to fall into the water. I came out naked, and Darcy promtply helped me get my set back. Soon enough, Reetno came around. Ah, Reetno! I thought, I'm sure to have more fun with him around! And so he helped me as well, giving me my antlers and mask. I thanked both of them, and we soon began to play.

Bleh, it's finally there, I've got to leave now.
I feel so sorry, I'm horrible at saying goodbye, but I had two awesome "last days". A lot of fawnness too, Blackhoof lost his set and I jumped in the pond for him, just to find Saan later on, suprised by my fawn-ness XD..
Both days were big fun, and I'm glad to spend them with Saan most of the time too. Saan and Seele aren't going to see eachother for a while, yeck.
I'm also glad that Horizon and Gehirn made a good introduction. Horizon is glad for being able to say Echo goodbye, and Gehirn allready has admireres if I'm not mistaken. (But he's an awesome elegant.. Genderless.. Why do I call him a.. Him..)

So no, Auge didn't get to see Solace. Boother. But it's fine, I got to say goodbye to him.
We're leaving to Greece. It's 2 AM here now. I didn't sleep, I didn't care. I wanted to say goodbye to my friends, so there I go.
Be good to Akio, if not, I'll go on a killing spree.
YesYes I will <3

No lovely pictures this time. I got them saved but.. I didn't have time to upload them.
I'm coming back in two weeks from now.. Untill then, I hope you all have fun without my deer.
Byes! For now ^^.

We is stump buddies! XD!



Ima keel ju stump!!

This is my other Deer Campbell, he's a friskey lil thing....

Has anyone else's connection been a bit 'on-and-off' today?' TEF wouldn't load, and I couldnt even get onto THIS SITE.


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