well, a lot of stuff has happened all at once, first and foremost being that school started today.

wewt.


But the freaking school system messed up my schedule real bad. And after a few hours that made me get sooooooooooooooo pissed off at the fact that someone could mess up so horribly and I had no idea, we got something. It actually turned out alright. I get to drop AP Bio (yeah!) and replace it with Photo 1 , and for my A4 class I get to do independent study to supplement my AP Drawing/Painting Portfolio class. Which Basically means, I get to does awesome fun projects in photoshop that I would normally do with my free time anyway. So that turned out awesome.

And also..........................MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW!!! D8...................it came up so fast..............I'M GOING TO BE FREAKING 17!!! GAH I FEEL SO OLD. Oh well............now I'm allowed into R rated movies.........I didn't know that but someone felt the need to tell me that.

And also.............Atiq is leaving the Forest. Not for long mind you, don't panic. He just needs a little vacation, see some old friends that he has not seen in a long time. He might pop in every once in a while to say hi, but he's gone for a little bit. He would have said bye himself but he was going to miss his flight and I had school so...................But he told me that he'd miss you and that he'd see you soon.

And that he wanted you to meet his adopted little brother.

Introducing: Cavalier! ...................who is actually based off of one of my personal characters. I just liked him enough that I wanted to bring him over here XD So welcome the little fawn and be kind to him C:

I'll update with his picto later, but he's entering the forest soon, so look for him!


EDIT:

Cavalier's picto is here: http://www.endlessforest.org/community/cavalier look for him please! <3

this will DEFINATLY be the last topic I make on this... its getting kind of old huh?
But After all this confusion I just wanted to say, if you even maybe have the slightest crush on anyone, mainly speaking about Isis. Dont hold it in for a long time... i figured that out a few times already... but if you possibly do have a crush on anyone, you should tell them. It makes them feel better about them selves, and it takes away all of their stress of holding it in. Isis really needs some uplift at this time, she is feeling quiet insecure a the moment for many reason, shes tired (i fell asleep in class today XD), lonely, and doesnt know about herself. So maybe if you like her... she would like to know. She just doesnt feel like her silly self right now. (expects no comments )

I just moved back to school yesterday, and TEF won't work anymore (I just realized, it didn't work last fall when I downloaded it either, it only worked while I was at home for the summer).

I can no longer connect to the network. =( I never solved this problem last year when it happened either. I know it has to do with the internet network I'm using, because whenever I'm connected to my school's network, TEF can no longer connect.

Halp?

This is what I wrote as my MySpace bulletin, so I just copied and pasted it x3

Jadine, no questions about appearance, lol. Though I do admit...*looks around*...he's very handsome. In my opinion. x3 *runs*

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Wheee...what a fiasco that was, lol. Ended up having to drive 45 minutes out to Binghamton, but I met him.

And we ended up holding hands the entire way back home...

Unfortunately, though, I had gotten a mood swing before I met him, so I smiled a few times, but otherwise, it was really difficult to smile. x.x Fortunately, I told him later, and he said he kinda guessed, lol.

Got back home...introduced him to the kitties, lol. Then we watched the first episode of Dexter with my dad. Whee. I love that series.

We took a walk outside, and sat down at the bench. It was pretty dark, so we just held hands for a while, and after...I dunno...15 minutes of overwhelming shyness...I finally got up the courage to lean my head on his shoulder. Man...that's nice to do, heh...never knew what that was like before. Her put his arm around me and stroked my hair, and...what worse could have happened?

I got a mood swing. As well as a very peculiar form of warm fuzzies. They kinda hurt, and I got slightly nauseous...I told him, and he was alright with it. We went back to the house, got on the computer for a little, then watched some football with my dad. No idea what my dad thinks of him yet, lol.

Then my dad went to bed, and...yeah. We spent...umm...*thinks* two or three hours just cuddling...

Unfortunately, and PLEASE COMMENT IF YOU'VE EVER EXPERIENCED THIS...but I got nauseous alot, and I got more of the kind-of sufficating warm fuzzies x.o Not fun. But he understood.

After hours of That 70's Show and Dodgeball (the movie)...we kissed.

Let me tell you...

...I had my hopes too high.

BABY DON'T HURT ME
DON'T HURT ME
NO'MO

Dun dun dundun dun dun dundun dun dun dundun doodoo

~teehee~

-scurries off to work while dodging bullets-

I might actually post some of my deer's thoughts on this...But I dunnoooooooo. :/

Well today I go back to college, so I won't be able to play as much as I used to.

I got invited to join a society at my college that is supposed to take up part of my time, but it's called the Society of Leadership and Success. It's supposed to help me with my study habits and help me get done with school.

I'll still be around here, but just not as much as I used to. Don't worry, I still plan to finish Divine Abandonment and write the third story in the trilogy, Divine Protection, and I should still be in the iScribble room as well.

So anyway...I gotta go -_-

Razzle`s diary




Today...i saw someone i didnt know..not very much of a suprize but he/she seemed.....sad...I felt i had to somehow cheer them up a slight bit and went over to give them some shy nuzzles. They ran off a while after but i was still with some other deer. I couldnt get them out of my head. So i went to look for them and they sat under a tree. Maybe they were lonely..So i sat next to them for a while untill they disappeared.
I went back to my favorite spot to hang out, under the rock in the playground, and went away too, since the other three deer were a lil weird. Two of them i thought were siblings or something since they never left eachothers side, and the other stag ran around a lot. So i just lied down to sleep.

Ghost watched the sun go down behind the hills. The stars settled into their places in the sky.
Ghost green eyes scanned the vast area around his little nest spot by the Ruins.
A creature darted past him so fast he barely saw it. Ghost, curious, looked right and left trying to see where the animal had gone. The shadow of the creature blurred by a bit father away.
Ghost jumped to his feet and attempted to follow the creature...


Note: I have gotten the crying blood mask! (Thank you to the deer with the clone!)

tears in the forest come to find my soul.

Jadine has simply lost her happines. so gather friends and fellow deer and let jadine tell you a story.

Jadine has lost her first mate do to personal reasons, they were faunhood friends and grew to like eachother.

For the longest time Jadine wandered alone in the forest just looking for friends and having no attention of ever finding a new mate.

Until one day she awoke to meet a Zombie under a small tree by the pond, she helped this stranger gain his new pelt as a living gazzell.

As her newest friend she found that she had a specail feeling about this Stag this... Perplex. They flerted often for a few days. waiting for one of them to finaly admit they liked eachother.

Then it happend ^^ Jadine and Perplex a new pair of mates to wander the forest.

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But it isn't so. Perplex is not aloud in the forest. and Jadine wanders alone and can be found watching her friends from a distance sitting next to a tree or in tall grass, waiting for her mate. She knows deep down that a miracle can happen. but she still has tears and sadness deep withen.

Will Jadine and Perplex ever spend there first day as mates? She feels like Perp has given up hope, and She feels like no one will truely help.
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This is why I don't play in the forest, and also why i show the sad emote constantly.

It is late in the Summer yet feels like Spring. There is so much talk of love being in the air...I have watched as deer gained and lost mates. I have seen hearts breaking and torn as well come together once again. I only observed from afar, however, for I never came to this place in search of love. I had once had love but it vanished amongst everything else I once knew, but that was sometime ago...I am sure that the fawn I once knew has long grown and forgotten me.

My human knows of it well. She and her human mate have been together for quite sometime. She tells me about 'love', saying it is the most beautiful- and at times painful - thing in the world. She tries to describe to me the deep devotion to each other that she and her mate share, but I do not fully understand. As I gaze at her in confusion, she gentle smiles while giving me a pat on the head saying, "Maybe one day you will."

But why would I? This Forest is full of such elegant and beautiful does who dance in the sunlight. Their fur glistens as the rays all upon them; their eyes sparkle in the light. 'Tis no wonder why I, such a dark, dull doe, remains in the shadows. I am not like them though for it has never bothered me to be forgotten by the stags. I only feel out of place whenever I stand next to a pair...but the loneliness subsided whenever a friend's call said my name.