Being played right now: No
Form: Mom
Mood: Pleased
Location: Laying with Laruna
Currently: Enjoying the rain
Theme Song: Miracle - Vertical Horizon
Thinking: "This is..pretty good.."
Useful Info: If she starts to walk (and by walk, I mean walk) away, stop, call, and walk again, she wants you to follow. She loves leading little herds around.
*Charlie*
Being played right now: No
Form: Fawn
Mood: Rawr! D<
Location: Wherever Minion is
Currently: Contemplating
Theme Song: Getting Away With Murder - Papa Roach
Thinking: "Minion needs to get me a fawn to eat."
Useful Info: He's a mean sucker, so just ignore him.
*Sassafrass*
Being played right now: No
Form: Fawn
Mood: Silly
Location: Wherever Shindig is
Currently: Mimicking Shindig
Theme Song: Extaordinary - Liz Phair
Thinking: " c: "
Useful Info: If you see her, Shindig isn't usually far away. Or vice versa.
*Carousel*
Being played right now: No
Form: Fawn
Mood: Contemplative
Location: Wherever
Currently: Wandering
Theme Song: I Don't Care - Apocalyptica
Thinking: "Is this it..?"
Useful info: She's not real fond of other deer, and she's very skittish, so if you see her run away from you, generally leave her alone.
Things have been on my mind. To understand; I seek it. But often I am too young. I am but a fawn; I say those words so frequently. There are so many things I wish to understand. Perhaps only age will bring it forth. *sigh* It is hard to wait. There are so many mysteries I wish to solve. To understand... What is knowledge?
The Lady Paint, the Painted Lady, whose taint is hidden to me...
How the Forest was before... How us deer came to be, did we start as smaller things...
Why the wrongful trees ever had to grow...
So many questions...
*shakes head* But I cannot enter the Forest, and the way to understand lies hidden. My human tells me that she needs a new 'computer', whatever that may be, and until then my sister and I shall not run in the Forest. And my mind-Forest contains no deer, only the dreamy Forest itself, but even it is fainter and unreal than the proper Forest. We live on the pictures, and we hope...
I must admit... I am so lonely... The way to making friends is so very blocked. My sister is company, and the trees and flowers and creatures in my mind-Forest speak to me, and Anzel too, but still... At least I am able to speak here. I am grateful for that.
Do I thirst too much for knowledge? Is it truly knowledge that I seek? Again I question. Hmm.
Hey guys, I finally made a necklace to wear the pendant CelticMystress made for me!
The two beads in the middle are wooden, but they're black and white with a wood-like pattern on them. The black and white beads are made of bone (unsure from what animal though, it didn't say) and have different designs on them (I tried to match them up according to size and *kinda* by design). Finally, I chose deerskin leather to hold it all together.
Im starting to get a little worried... I havent seen Emiva for a while...I know Im overreacting, but shes usually on every day... EMIVA?!?!?! *searches*
How I crave its luring scent. The way it strokes my heart strings and tempts my lips to smile. Knowledge of the feeling of love makes me forget about reality.
But I know that love is something I will never be allowed to have. My curse brings with it the fear of being a burden. I cannot allow myself to be loved. It will only bring them suffering.
So why does my heart still flutter at the sound of his name, and the sight of his set...?
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How I loathe its putrid scent. The way it slices my heart strings and takes away my smile. Knowledge of reality makes me forget about the feeling of love.
And I know that love is something I can never allow myself to have. My taint brings with it the fear of losing myself. I cannot allow myself to love another. It will only bring me ignorance.
So why does my heart still beat despite my truest of taint, is it because of the flower fae...?
There me and my sister sat by the lake
staring at it's wonderous glow. We were chatting about the
wonderous of the world when we lived in a different forest then this one.
One that had a beach and warm and comforting, one I will never forget.
" Ah, yes Blackhoof, I remember the beach,"She lifted
her head high feeling the cool air of the forest.
"And do you remeber the things that inhabited it in there," I
stared at her with a smile.
"Oh Blackhoof it was so many years ago," She laughed.
"No! No, you do nor recall the beauty of those creatures? I
remember barely what they where called?...Whales! That's it, and my favorite ones
always where the Beluga," I lifted my head to her. She grew silent and I stood
to my knees walking closer to the deep end of the pond. "I remeber them the most...
That's why I've always tooken a fancy to the Beluga mask. I always liked
wearing it but never cared for it after a while...now look at me...no mask
on my dead face."
"But you do wear a mask...Others wear the eyeless mask also."
"Ahhh, they wear mask, they can see shades of where
to go unlike me...I fallow senses. How did you think I knew where the deep end
is? Or wear to feel the breeze?" She grew silent once more. "Whales...are beautiful creatures
they almost have something in commen with me...and some others...They bring out what we
want to see about our selves, they show us unity, and more than that. But love for one another?
Can it be possible that we are more like the creatures of the deep? That we may act
like sharks...but our blood runs warm as long as there
is the sun to warm us?
"I know I once was a shark, but...what if I could become like that whale...
become even more beautiful than other whales and hide in a warmth of
its clean skin."
She walked into the forest, just wanting to play with some friends. When she saw what she wished never to be seen. Sad and Brokenhearted she ran. She knows that they are just playing, but the scene brought memories to her mind, making her cry tears from her heart. She knows that she may never love again. The love may never be returned to her, she knows that, but Love has already stolen her heart, and may never be redeemed... Whats done is done...
//A poeam by Isis\\ You make me love
Give me wings of the dove
Yet I cry every Night
Filled with tears I dream
Dream of the days we would frolick and Play
The days that you didnt know
Yet im mocked with thoughts of the sight
Of my love with his own mighty love
You may not see the other side
The one I dont show in face
But it makes me wonder every day
Will my heart ever be returned
No... My mind is set
With a lock and no key
I love you Rutti
Please Forgive me...
Not sure who gave this to me but it was one of a friendly group of deers at the ruin (I'm not good at recognizing pictograms especially with a lot of movement around me).
