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The world, to me, has no rain. So I hide beneathe the rain of tears to hide my own. Some can see me; some cannot. I am just a presence...and to drown...I so desire it.

No one ever looks at me. Notice this...

I am going to spend-the-night with my 3 of my friends so ill be back tomorow! By Luvs you allz! *blows kisses* XD

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I haven't said this in a while, but...back-up server please? ;-;

EDIT: Seems that Dannii couldn't see me, but Tabithaa could. Strange.

Okay, I finally had a worthwhile idea! Now, I know I'm not the only one when I say there are just some things in this world that peeve me to no end. Well, now I (and you) have a place to dump rants about things that make you steam.

Anyways, I'll start.

[rant] Now, one of the few things that makes me angry is not waiting your turn for something. This plagued me all through my early school years. I would go to lunch, and, like any good kid, wait at the back of the line. And then, of course, the seedy gang-wannabes (I kid you not; they looked like gang stereotypes) waltz up in front of the line and step in. Now, this made me absolutely furious. Why couldn't they have any patience! Now, looking back, I understand this isn't a "big deal," but seriously, can't people just have a little patience? [/rant]

Baw. I feel better.

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Let me be an altar.
Let me be an altar of light.
For those who are lost.
For those who are alone.
For those who are mourning.
Let me be an altar, of light.
Let me be an altar you can follow.

Let me be your leader.
Let me be your apostle.
Follow me into the light.
Let me be an altar for you.
Let me sit by you, bring you peace.
Let me be your altar, and let me be;
your light.
~Mystress


Ok, this is my last Dairy entry for awhile, for I wont be on regularly starting tomarrow. Thought I might leave you all with a little something comforting! =D

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Sorry am I.
As I cause you Pain.
With my Eye Did I see.
Happy as you Could Be.
I ruined it all.
I Made you Feel,
As though a Bullet.
Has Peirced through your soul.
I felt so Full of It.
Like it was All About Me.
I am such A fool.
I made you Change.
I made you Weep.
My Dear Rutilus
Pain I will Not cause you.
I think its time for you to see
What A fool I am.
I have Said this Many Times Before
I am Deeply Sorry...

I'll be taking requests for anybody that might want somethin' done by me. It might take a little bit to get it to you (I'm job hunting and should be moving here soon), but it'll get done in due time. ^^'' You'll just have to bear with me. I'm willing to take five! Gimme a good picture of you deer, a pose, and their name. And a location would be good too, if you're wanting a sort of background. If your deer has any sort of uniqueness (ie. tufts of hair, long fur, something like that), be sure to make a note of it for me.

EDIT - Finally getting on these after a few failed attempts lol I should be working on these all day tomorrow, so hopefully I'll have one done by tomorrow night.

1. Emiva and Isis for Emiva - Done! here
2. Taliene and Gehirn for Dannii - in progress
3. Rowan, Emrys, and Ark for Rowan
4. Jendeer for Jen
5. Quamar for Quamar

The Twin Gods shall rue the day they mocked me!!! RUE!!!

*shakes head* Zelical, it is but a weather change, and you cannot even see it. why do you act so foolish?

Because, dear Vein, my heart aches to be welcomed within the forests' depths once more, unalone, and so they cry for me, with full knowledge that they can grant my wish without a moment's hesitation.

*sigh* Sister...you cannot blame them. You can blame no one, for none of us, nor human creature, knows the exact reason for our ghostly curse. You know that as well as I do.

The Gods do not care about the single, worthless Ghost family that we are. Hush, sister. I shall wander in the rains soon, so you might rest in abyss.

*sighs*...I suppose you are right. But what kind of existence is this? Every day, eternally re-entering an empty forest where everyone thinks you hate them because you cannot see them. I truly wish the waters of the pond could drown me...

Zelly...Zelly, please don't say that...*bows head lowly*...

*blinks, feeling truly bad about saying anything* I'm sorry, sweet Nurra, please forgive me...I didn't mean to sadden you...I...

*glares at anzel menacingly* Come along, Nurra...*nuzzles her away*...

*tears form in her eyes and she walks away with taint*...

*shakes head*...Anzel, why do you strive to be normal? Is it not a blessing to be so unique, so beloved and well-known?

I...I would prefer death, brother Vein. I never wanted this, I never wanted fame or anything of the sort. I want normality...or a chance at it...not this...I can't take this anymore...

I try to find other deer but i dont know how to . If you can help me please do!

Its raining in the forest. Its raining out here in the real world too but its much colder...
I spent a bit of time hanging around the hollow tree, lots of other deer there.
Everything looks grey and murky...particulary the pond.
Oh well...A little rain is good...just have to be patient and wait for the sun to come out!