Okay, so I found this game/screen saver today and I fell in love... today I've been running around with my fawn, and I really find this game relaxing... it's lovely to not being able to talk, and the graphic makes you so happy!

It seemed as though my life were normal for a girl of sixteen. School was steady and the ballet dancing was a joy to endure. It was not until that night on June 2,2009 that my life had changed for ever. Mom and I had just moved into a house by the sea. So naturally we were going through the chaos of finding and organizing our stuff between bites of pizza.Even our tabby cat Zozen seemed to enjoy the house. While organizing cds the phone rang, naturally I thought it was my grandmother checking up on us.However I sensed a change in the atmosphere and one look at my mother I knew some thing was terribly wrong.I asked whats wrong but she would not respond. I stood by her side loyaly
not knowing what was going on. It was not until I heard her say they did not take him out, that I knew something terrible had happened.After she hung up the phone she said " Marrissa your brothers dead he was in a car acci........" that was all she could manage to say before we both burst out crying. Neither one of us slept that and the next few days are to painful to talk about. It was a harsh reallity to realize my brother was gone and not at all pleasant to dwell on.

Chapter1
A Beginning with bittersweet memories


August 29,2009


My alarm clock screeched 5:30 as I rolled sluggishly to shut it off."Dabburnet" I mumbled as I hoisted myself out of the comfort of the blankets.Looking out the window the sun was still hiding behind the clouds.I yawned absent mindedly as I went to the bathroom to turn on the water for the shower.I took my shower slowly as if somehow trying to slow down time. After all the first day was today. After I dressed in capris and a T-shirt I stumbled out onto the deck to view the oceon.My brother had once said that the oceon is the earth's heatbeat. This memory put a smile on my face but was short lived. Smiles never really stayed on my face these days.

Anyone Bored?
If so, I've added a new board for the time being- The Endless Doodling.

I'll invite if you ask here.

So this time I took my aunt with me to Bellingrath Gardens, which is a huge area that was turned into a really cool garden. In addition to going to the gardens, we also went on a boat ride along the Fowl River. Hope you guys enjoy these pics!

The flowers are a lot different in March than they were when I went in October. That's because the people who work there change out the flowers yearround! Must be a heck of a job!

And you will see a couple of pics of my Aunt and myself in there.

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Hello, there! Im new here... My name is fireflie. I am a litle doe ^^ I did lost my parents.. or I don't know who they are.. =(.. Do someone want to be my mommy? =)
And I did draw my picto like you see it <3

-Fireflie-


Yes haha its me Nopje 8D UGH.. I hope you can see the picto |D

Just leave me in peace
I did you no wrong
I confessed all my sins
But eventually I will be punished
I know the truth of this matter
And that is certain
But for now
I feel content to hide in the shadows
And wallow in my conscience
No yet admitting defeat
But how much longer will I last
Till all at once I become a ghost
Diseased by my sins
After this point of of no return
I shall walk forever in this shadow land
Always feeling hollow
And empty inside
That is the day I have gone
And can not return
How many days or hours are left
Till that time
That I am no more
Than a mere ghost in your prescence.



Please give your opinions.!!

..ghosts finding their way back..



Clouds.. rain .. dust.. a voice calling me back home. Still i can't find you, my restless life seems so endless with out you. Why i can't find you? Every night is so cold.. where are you? I'm waiting for you.. for so long now. you can hear me right? You're just hiding and smiling what a fool i am. Am I right? Please stop.. please come back to me.Just answer me..
Again i'm sitting here.. till it's becoming dark and cold.. so i fall asleep..but there will never be da dream.. of hope and love.. where are you..?



occ: just some short text.. sry x.x my english still isn't that good and it's time to get ready for work. just got my TeF working again <3