Hey just wondering if anyone here has commissions open? If possible I'd like to keep it to one artist so it would be great if you can do both deer and human faced characters but I don't mind splitting it up either. :3 you can leave all your info and links here or you can poke me over on discord too if that's easier.

Discord: Calix#0183

I explored more of the forest but it feels like a lot of days have passed since I was awake before but everyone is still here,
even more deer are here! more than I've ever seen!

I found a giant tree somewhere in the forest but I do not like it.
The air around it changes and I feel as if something may happen if I were to stay,
The song the wind carries changed here and it sounded like a dangerous melody when I was near this tree and it scared me...

I will not go near this tree anymore.

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I saw myself in the water, and a symbol was there over my head.
I could not shake it off no matter how dizzy I got, I fell into the pond but it did not wash away like my flowers.
I watched it a lot, and it looks like me! Is it what explains me? Is it me? It's glow is warm and if I close my eyes I can feel this forest's life through it.

Everyone has a symbol above their heads and it fits them,
every symbol feels like an explanation, a meaning, a purpose. A soundless word that describes them and the shape of them.
It's interesting but strange, everything here is so strange but I don't know why I think so.

I met someone like myself! His symbol is similar to mine but different!
He carries a different feel from me but we played chase and jump and it was fun!
He calls himself Kozan or at least I think that was it, but I don't remember him saying anything like it...
maybe, his symbol spoke that word to me? how strange..


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A number of days have passed as a terrible tiredness overcame me but when I woke up in the forest again today I encountered a small gathering of deer.
Two of them broke off from the group and approached me with a greeting.
One had hooves like me whose symbol was warm like a fire, it whispered the name Tristan to me but I don't know if that is his name..

The other, was strange. So different from the deers and those with hooves,
he was long and lanky and had no hooves at all! But he was very friendly!

October 7

7 October, 2017[=georgia][=#70564a]

TW -- infant death.

I lost him.

I lost him.

No. It can't happen like this.

No, no, no...

The light in my womb has gone out. There is no more warmth. There is only cold silence. No heartbeat. The baby boy that had been growing there has been still for three days.

Three days.

I'm in a panic, my mind is racing. What did I do wrong? Did I eat the wrong thing? Was I not careful enough? Did I not love him enough? Have the gods punished me for allowing this child to be conceived in the first place? Please, gods, answer me! Tell me what I did wrong! Face me and tell me what I did to deserve this!

I... can't...

How will I tell Walter? How will I tell Nishi?

Oh my god. I've failed the one thing in the world I wanted most of all. I've failed you, little one. I don't know how, but I have. I had such dreams of you and I. I had hopes of seeing you in this world, showing you the beauty of it all. I had wanted to hear your voice, feel the warm press of your skin, knowing that you would be mine.

And now that will never happen.

I'm leaving for the human world. I can't deal with this here. I need doctors, I need to hear the cold truth of it out loud. I need to lay in my bed and wrap my arms around myself and cry. I need to leave this place where everything reminds me of him and of what will not be.

I should have known it would end like this. I should have known I was never destined for motherhood. I should have known.

Goodbye, little one. Before I even knew you, I loved you. I will always love you.

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