Shame shame.. tonight is the first round for the eurovision song contest and thursday the second and also the one where my country, Holland, will do a song. And oh my gosh.. that song is SO annoying!!

So if you want to laugh liked never before.. watch thursday night!

Shalalie shalala, shalalie shalala
Het gaat niet uit m’n kop
Shalalie shalala, shalalie shalala
Ik sta d’r ’s morgens mee op.

for my 2 amazing fawn Wish, and Ice.

They had met for the day only just then – but at the same time, each in their own world, they had chased after one another until that point – where at last, Nevilly realized he had been standing there all the while. They settled down next to one another.

Seed shook his head and chuckled. “Well, that was an interesting way to start the day. “

““Hnngh, sorry if I'm acting a bit weird. I'm just tired, that's all,” Nevilly said as she leaned against him.

“I've seen odder things happen. But...seeing you there, not noticing me, not responding to me...seeing a path you could take where I wasn't in it...Made me certain of something I've been thinking over.”

“I guess I've lately just become a bit numb to things around me. This will pass when I can finally relax and just do nothing.” She glanced up and saw the expression on his face – it was an omen difficult to read, like a cloud that could bring shade or rain. “Hmm? What have you been thinking, then?”

“Well, what I realized was...I don't ever want to go down that path. I couldn't bear to live in a world where I didn't see your eyes lighting up like the summer sky on a sunny day, a world where whatever meager offerings of pretty words I have wouldn't still manage to make you smile, a world where I could think of my life..and not have you in it.” Like always, when the words took control of his mouth, the trouble on his brow melted away, and his mouth shaped the words with a faint smile. “I don't think I can ever love anyone again, after you... and I want your life to be my life, your joy my joy, your pain my pain.” He paused and let the furrow return to its place on his forhead, let the weight of what he was saying – what he was about to say – take over for him.

Wanderers Silent Dream

goodnight tef (: x

"Wonder what's out there...."


I will be on a volunteer trip in Ecuador starting June 6 and won't be back until July 8 (savin' the whales and all that good stuff!). So, that means Riza will not be in the forest for a while. She will miss her fairly newfound friends very, very much. She will return a wiser doe. It'll beat the fawn outta me that's for sure! xD

She also hopes Ferin won't be too sad while she's gone. "You'll see me in your dreams." <3

I'll get on the website to say hi if I can!

The Fawn

"...can't you...
...hear us?"
"No...I don't. I don't! Leave me alone!"
The fever breaks then, for a moment. I see watery shapes swimming before my eyes that clear, becoming the forest. The forest? Was I here before?
I couldn't tell you.
"Your flowers are wilted...You should take better care of yourself..."
I see the little wilted purple flowers at my feet when I look down. Little dead things. I shiver and look away, shaking the rest from my antlers.
"Shut up. This is your fault."
I realize that I am standing in a patch of purple flowers, with little blue butterflies flitting around. One lands on my nose and I smile weakly, gathering up a few of the flowers for my own antlers.
The world starts swaying and I sit down, hard. My eyes close and I feel shaky again. Is the fever coming back?
I fight it off and stand again, listening. I want to know if there is somebody here, somebody that I remember. If I remember. I want to test myself.
Then I recognize her. I struggle towards her and she finds me as well. For a moment, I can't place why I know her.
Then I remember her. Tally, I've missed you so much...
You're so tiny now! That was really surprising. I know you'll still protect me though.
It was good to sit by you and feel so safe. I wish I could have held you up longer when you sat on my back, but I'm afraid I'm still too weak for that.
I suppose you still wonder why I'm afraid of fawns. I think I told you before, but there is more to it than that now. I wish I didn't have to see them...
At least those does with you were nice, and that one that came up later. For awhile, I was happy.
They wouldn't let it stay that way...
Their voices crept into my mind, one light gold, the other dark, dark red.

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