I had a dream about this game a couple days ago so I went looking for it again—my accounts still exist!!

This is a crazy nostalgia trip; I've even gone through my old sketchbooks and found little doodles of my deer from middle school/early high school <3 I'm glad this gem of a game is still around, especially since quite a few of old mmorpgs I used to play are gone now!

This really is The Endless Forest.

Hi again everyone. Thanks for clicking on this post.

It's been awhile since I left the discord server and by proxy essentially retired from the endless forest community. I'm just checking in to update you all on some recent developments in my health.

I've had some issues with my back and a tense time around MRI scans to ensure it wasn't anything sinister. Turns out it was just two compressed and slightly herniated lumbar disks which are angering the nerve there. Not too sure what that entails. But that's not really the reason I'm writing this post.

About a week ago I found a strange, disproportionate hardening under my armpit on the side that I had previously had breast cancer in 2022. Of course, I panicked. It made me think that my biggest nightmare was coming to fruition and I would have to fight this horrible disease once again. Despite knowing that I shouldn't get ahead of myself, I just couldn't help but lose sleep. Some of the facts of this change are worrying. They say one of the first (if not THE first) places breast cancer spreads is to the lymph nodes under the armpit. One could argue "but maybe its scar tissue or fluid" which I have though about too but they never actually operated on my armpit. They removed the sentinel lymph node which is in the chest. The only other benign explanation would be something like an after effect from radiotherapy. However, I'm extra worried because I have only noticed this in the last week and its actually itchy too. I'm hoping that the reason I've only noticed this lately is because I've lost 10 pounds but with these things you can never be too sure. It is also my dominant arm so maybe its a muscular discrepancy.

So, having been told to air on the side of caution for pretty much the rest of my life, I tried to contact my team in hospital and, after some voicemails and missed calls I finally got in touch. They are going to see me in the hospital tomorrow morning to check it out i.e.

I have had an EF account for more than 6 years, and haven't logged into the community until now. I didn't follow updates as for some reason I thought Endless Forest game was abandoned and the only game that existed was the old original one.

I was recently going through old pictures and screenshots of my deer and was feeling a painful nostalgia. My heart hurts.

I don't play games as much anymore but when I did, this was one of my favorites. I played it a lot when I was stressed out of my mind in highschool.
It wasn't perfect, but it was peaceful, unlike the world today.

Then some things happened in my life and I temporarily forgot about the game, and then thought it was abandoned for some reason.

It's nice to know that I think it's still being worked on, just based off what what I've read from recent posts? Even with all it's issues and possibility that it might not continue. The world is changing and going downhill at a very disturbing pace, so I can understand everything can/will be affected, even this game.

I want to say thank you for keeping the game alive for as long as it has been. I haven't tried to newest version because I'm missing something from my laptop and it is prompting me to download it. I'm a bit suspicious about downloads these days so I'll wait. Also I realized I will download this game, but knowing that life will whisk me away again due to life stuff priorities- I shouldn't be playing it. At least not right now unfortunately.

Perhaps in the future if the game still persists, I would love to try it again.

But to the founders of this game who worked so hard on it... it's okay to let it go if you need to. I love this game dearly, but reading some of the comments breaks my heart. I haven't played it and I haven't followed the developments and such so I feel that I can't really have a true opinion about the matters.

I am just one person but if it helps to hear it, it's okay to let go of the game.

Lately I've been finding it really difficult with staying on top of my studies. As a result I completely botched two exams last trimester and I've found myself having to do resits, which I've never had to do before. The pass mark was already insanely low initially, but I couldn't even do that and the pass percentage has increased as a result. Anything that distracts me will have me on another tangent for an hour until I can sit myself down, only to focus for a grand total of half an hour until I get distracted again. It didn't really help that I was just sort of constantly talking with my friends on voice calls-- I found it hard to focus on them and on my content at the same time. I've tried stopping that altogether for a bit as I get ready for my last re-sit, but the issue still glares at me with things not making sense and not being able to get my act together. It makes me feel really directionless and "lazy" like what some people might call it.

I just don't really know what to do, especially with my parents. I tried to argue that I would like to take a lower load (so that I can have more time to improve my grades and not feel like a total failure), but my mum just said that I had no excuse because I didn't have a job or any other commitments outside of school. Which is, while true, really sad for my GPA; I was doing really well when I had a lower course load, which is to be expected, but feeling like I was winning at something really did help with doing things. I understand they just want me to "finish on time", but now I'm just barely scraping by for other courses again (and failed some others) and it feels really horrid. That sense of failure is really... something. Looming over you.

I don't really want to have to chase up the courses I failed, but with the way things are going and my mindset, I might have to. My last re-sit still felt really uncertain and I didn't manage to answer all the questions properly.