I was looking over my old blog posts, and I did not like what I saw.

I deleted over 2 pages of stupid blog entries I made that just accelerated the drama that I claimed that I hated.

Granted, it was a long time ago, but it still made me cringe so bad I didn't read most of them, just deleted them. Because nowadays, that's not what I'm about.

For those who knew me back then, please understand that at the time I was living in an household that was not nurturing, or kind, or promoting good mental health, and that's putting it very, very mildly.

To put it bluntly, I was abused for over sixteen years. Even though I went online to try to escape my reality, unfortunately I was not strong enough to keep it from haunting me and it caused my mental and physical health to deteriorate and I became a bitter, angry, vengeful person. I realized that after I finally escaped from the hell I lived in, a little over six years ago. Anyone who wants to know more can inquire, time is mostly healing those wounds and it doesn't really upset me to talk about it.

Otherwise, the slate is wiped clean. I'm done with that life. I'm onto bigger and better things.

I'm planning on a revival of both GoldenWinged and HelioSphere. They're going to look a little different than how they used to. And yes, there is some art in the pipeline

Stay tuned, and again, I'm so glad to be back, I can't wait to meet new friends!

Hello all!

I would really like to experience The Endless Forest, however I keep error messages when trying to start the game.

"ForestViewer.exe has stopped working" - When trying to run from the shortcut on my desktop (as administrator).

and

"It seems that Quest3D is not correctly installed, or this viewer is run from the wrong directory" - When attempting to run it through the troubleshoot compatibility menu.

Virtual machine running Windows 7

I haven't been able to find a solution on the forums, though I may have missed something.

Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated!

When it comes to Theodor-Phillip, it's important to separate what he *thinks* he is and what is actually going on.

He sees himself as this "Forest Merry Spirit", an eternal entity that possesses body after body and needs physical form as a vessel.
This is only a response to traumatic events he witnessed as a fawn. Many fawns lose their mothers at a young age, and Theo wasn't an exception. The picture of a dead doe he beloved shocked the guy, but he was still too little to proceed those feelings.
He just kinda... moved on. Surviving was his top priority, and slowly but surely the grief was supressed. That's when the whole Forest Spirit thing started.
Instead of considering himself an orphan on his own, Theo decided to be optimistic and say he's a child of the Forest. That is also the reason why he sees Forest as a female. Being her ambassador gives Brother Theo a meaning in life, which he otherwise would've lost long time ago. "What do you do if you *don't* make everyone happy all the time", right?
Of course he does not possess multiple bodies: it's just a dissosiation from fatigue he gets from time to time (it's not easy dancing that much!). He might even realize that. But what harm does that little play pretend make? So what if it's not real -- it sooths him and then he does good deeds to others.

In the end does ot really matter if you're a Forest Spirit or just some random deer?

Whoa! So... I'm not sure how I got here, and by *here* I mean this body, but I know it... carries some heavy burdens.
Me? Oh I'm just a humble Forest spirit. You know: the one deers feel when they dance, or have fun conjuring, or just lay next to each other. I consume those emotions. And I am so happy they exist. I'm sure the Forest herself is at peace as long as her residents are cheerful and carefree, for she could not have been created so magical and protected from the outer world otherwise. I know she wants her children to be happy, and I'm here to make her will come true. Oh, and yes, to me the Forest feels like a female, as... we were all born in it, don't you think? Anyway it's something on the spiritual level, I don't know how to explain it, and honestly? don't even think it needs to be explained!
So, whatever happened to this body I've been summoned to, must've been horrible. Its original owner must've lost any faith in the Forest. 'Don't want to think what they did to themselves, but... I'm its new master now. I will make sure the balance is restored: for each drop of sadness and despair spilled by this body I will make a whole pond worth of happiness, I swear. I love the Forest and I want her to be at her best.

...

Twin-Gods, I almost forgot! 'Don't know what the old master of this body called it, but you can adress me as Brother Phillip-Theodor the Fey. Or just Brother Phillip. Or Brother Theodor. Or the Fey Brother... Basically just however you want!

I don't remember how I woke up in this Forest, but I know for sure that before being a... pathetic fawn I was once the Mighty Chaos Harbinger! I remember residents screaming, running from me, from my antics. And I. Loved. It. I was The God (or... Goat?) they were afraid of - as they should.
Again, don't know what happened, but I'm not planning on becoming some ordinary deer with a face. Even if it has magic - back in my realm I had powers way more impressive than that! So get ready, The Endless Forest, Pilgor is on their way to destroy you!

Hey to everyone, or... no one. I don't know! I looked into TEF again and am just so happy it's still online.

Looks like there's some new pelts too.

...Is there still a community? I was wandering around in game and unfortunately lost my pelts and masks... I've been trying to get someone to help but they sneeze it off and keep to themselves.


I've also gotten a lot of requests for my picto. I assume it is rare now, I guess? So to all the folks out there asking, I am still attached to it and it is not for sale. <3


As for me, long story short, I'm doing better than I ever was. Here's to some more years of the same.

--Blackfeathr

NOTE:I saw some others making bios for their deer, so I decided to hop in! Pls bear in mind that this is largely a WIP, and may be messy or inaccurate at times ^^;

ARTEMISIA - The Cherub

Young Artemisia - Art by me / @corvusrattus

Toyhouse • Picto

"Something on the other side / Something we will never find"

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After troubleshooting TEF on Windows 11...for like six hours (whoops)...the only set up that works at all was manually adding the app into the graphics settings and changing the preference to High Performance, combined with changing the Compatibility to run the game on Windows 7 and deselecting the screen resolution setting (though, I'm not sure if this affected much other than the doubling window display that kept occurring for me).

Windows Search System > Display > Graphics > [browse and add application] > select "ForestViewer" > Options: High Performance

Right-click Application Properties > Compatibility tab > 1) Compatibility Mode: Windows 7; and 2) Settings: deselect "Run in 640 x 480 screen resolution"

Worked smooth as long as I didn't disconnect to the network while in-game, otherwise it would crash and refuse to open again. Had to uninstall and reinstall to fix this. Running older games on Windows 11 seemed to be a known issue within the forums so I added the instructions in case it helps anyone!

The only problem I have now is logging in to my old old old account— waiting fifteen minutes of "logging in" without any results! Guess that's my punishment for having a 12yo inactive account lol. In the meantime, exploring as a guest deer ain't so bad (I do still miss my og stags)