So, this is a little oneshot for my friend Orinoco. I hope you like it
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Mother.
Today I saw two fawns playing by the pond. I was going to go over and play with them, but then their parents called them back. I smiled at them, playfully mauing a good-bye and prancing away.
Inside, though, my heart broke.
It does that a lot. Whenever I see familes. My heart breaks a little bit. Sometimes I can ignore it. I can stay in denial for a little bit.
Though it always catches up to me eventually.
Other times, it happens right away. I have to run, have to go somewhere that the other fawns dont`t go. So that they don`t see me.
But I try not to do this a lot. I know that you don`t want to see me cry.
I mean, you are watching me.
Right?
Mother... where have you gone? Why can`t I find you?
Why did you leave?
Did you mean to leave? Did you want me? Did you love me?
I know you did. I just know. So...
Those questions float around in my head all the time. It gets worse and worse, until... Until I just... break?
I`ve searched for you day after day after day, and nothing. Except that one time.
That time I scented you.
That scent. The sweet breeze of sunbathed lilacs and fresh linen. A ball of excitment began to grow in my stomach. I ran, faster then the wind, to find you. Then I stopped, looking around and mawing eagerly.
Sure, the sunlit patch I had arrived in was full of lilacs. Besides that, though? There was nothing. Not a single deer in sight.
And that was when I broke down for the first time. When I cried. I fell to the ground and cried.
Didn`t you hear me? Didn`t you see the look in my eyes, sweeping around the forest, begging you to come back? With every fiber of my being.
