"I only live to see them live..." ~Emdeaur's Biography~ //OLD BIO NOT UPDATED

June 12, 2010 - 12:42am — august-jay

E•M•D•E•A•U•R

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So this is an old biography. New one IS HERE. This one's not updated anymore, but I can't bear to destroy it. So. There's that. ♥

E•M•D•E•A•U•R

is;

-non gender-specific: predominantly male, assumed either
-a romantic
-a terrible grudge-holder
-hazel-eyed
-hermapherodidic (functional male/female contents)
-pansexual
-finds males more physically attractive and females more mentally/emotionally interesting
-adapts well to situations
-can be vengeful
-craves affection and touch
-cannot handle stress well; runs off when overwhelmed
-rarely dominant, but hardly over-submissive
-antlers grow at a constant rate; they do not shed
-antlers are light, do not hold up well in combat
-slightly taller than a 'TEF deer'
-short, fine fur, longer, straight hair over hackles and neck
-viciously protective over anyone he considers 'friend'
-easily jealous
-a poet
-more intelligent than he looks
-claims twin intertwinned birch trees as 'his'
-posessive over the top of the cage in the ruins
-variable, playful, stoic, a watcher, calculating, kind
-combat strategy is mostly will and movement over power
-obsessive nuzzler
-has no defined 'set'
-sometimes a stalker
-claims and makes 'pets' and 'posessions' out of others sometimes

beliefs;

-wordless apologies
-simplistic beauty
-the meaning of names
-loyalty unto death
-fighting for others, not self
-twin gods
-love: all powers of and the strength of those that have

adores;

-does, stags
-colors
-night-time, snow, fog, sunshine
-family, friends, those he loves
-orange
-playful spars
-watching, observing
-snuggling
-the world
-the beauty of the unknown

abhors;

-unnecessary fights
-company when not wanted
-letting others down
-helplessness
-rain
-large crowds
-'sides' in a fight

fears;

-attacks
-being lost
-defenselessness
-losing sight
-forgetting
-stand-offs
-being rushed at
-large crowds

origin;

brought into this world, i was.

given life by my mother, who was not of this forest.
i do not remember her much, but my father, who is called Basil, is of this forest.
my father and i came upon this land by an unknown event.

did we die? is this our heaven?

have we failed at our tasks? is this our prison?

...i will never know.

my father and i are not close; we do not share internal dreams or tell each other stories. we are two different breathing things, alike by only chromosomes. we share blood, not mind.

i set out to build myself my own family. and so i did.

my mother, then, by another unknown event, arrived into this forest. and who am i, her only son, to not welcome her 'home'?

i didn't know what to think.

it was as if everyone was back together again. everyone is back where they belong.

everyone has their place, now.

and nothing makes sense anymore.

i would follow you to battle and die for your cause;

~~Evania - beloved/"Never."~~ (deceased)
Evelys - biological daughter/adores
Capulet - biological son/adores
Basil - biological father/alike in blood, not mind
Miarza - biological mother/honors/respects/loves/unsure
Exit - sister/loves/raised her from fawnhood/extremely protective of
Jorogumo - sister/respects/adores
Ji - niece/loves/playmate
Bénézet - nephew/adores/protective of/playmate
Flail - sister/loves/protective of
Demon - brother/loves/bit of a boycrush
Aleumdaun Misang - sister/adores/protective of
Jax - brother/loves/~~secret lover~~
Caden - nephew/protective of/loves
Kasmir - niece/loves
Hexane - nephew/loves
Aamori - niece/loves
Euriea - niece/loves
Dajhi - loves/doesn't get to see often because of Lucian/good friend
Gustiro - unquestioned love/indebted to/a posession of
Misaki - adores/posession/his
~~Darlene~~ ~~- pet/posession/loves and trusts/good friend~~ (deceased)

i would hear your cry and be at your side;

Lilly - likes/friend
Moonrose - likes/friend
Phoenix - likes/friend
Mikhail - loves/fears it isn't mutual
Spirituelle - adores/good friend
Angel - likes/friend
Mikaela - likes/friend/doesn't see often
Spirit - likes/friend
Buttons - adores/protects/good friend
Oriole - likes/protects/friend
Shineri - likes/good friend
Copolymer - likes/friend
Vitality - likes/friend
Vodun - likes/friend
Lucy - likes/friend
Umay - likes/friend
Vala - likes/friend
Domingo - curious of/unsure of motives/likes regardless
Mr. Zombie - cuddlebuddy/another posession/adores
Kody - likes/friend
Crucio - ?

i cower in your presence, tremble at your words;

Lucian - fears/hates/will run from
Cadaver - unreasonably terrified of/avoids at all cost

forgiveness doesn't always exist;

Jade - dislikes/ignores
Visil - hates/fears
Leviathann - dislikes

there aren't always words for what i worry for;

Daikon - unsure
Illrose - unsure/dislikes
Dinah Moon - unsure/likes
Gehirn - acquaintance/likes
Saosin - respects/likes
Bae - unsure/likes/curious of
Sianna - unsure

•first loves•

my strength • my love • my life • my strength • my hope • my love • my life • my strength • my hope • my love

my life • my strength • my hope • my love • my life • SkyAngel • my strength • my hope • my love • my life

...someone told me once
that true love only happens twice.

the first once is forever...
the second is to fill the empty space.

i will never find a second.
i will never stop willing her home.

because i love you more
than i ever should.

•second chances•

...i thought i had everything figured out
i knew it, i knew it-
i thought i was cursed.
i thought i was never allowed to have what i wanted

but then there was you.
unassuming, unannounced...
you walked into my life,
and played it like a song

that's when i realized;
it's not that i'm cursed,
but that instead of getting what i thought i wanted
i got the only thing i'll ever need:

...

...you.

Emdeaur • Evania

"Forever and for always.
...forevermore."

•acceptance•

...

...i was wrong all along, wasn't i?

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June 12, 2010 - 1:00am — Flyleaf

Wonderful bio , you seem to

Wonderful bio , you seem to be very gentle , especially with does

Btw ; How is your new relationship with Lilly going , tell me more

Hope that you will never feeling alone anymore

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June 12, 2010 - 1:39am — august-jay

Awwsh. Thanks. He can be a

Awwsh. Thanks. He can be a real sweetheart sometimes. :3
I can't find Lilly. xD That picto is so alike most of the new pictos. I think I've found the deer, but it was a 'natural' and didn't seem to know Rain. So...yeah.
Thanks. ^^

June 12, 2010 - 2:04am — Flyleaf

I see her everyday ingame and

I see her everyday ingame and she plays a lot , also she likes fawns a lot i think

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June 12, 2010 - 4:01am — Pretzil

HurrHurr Track! ^^

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June 28, 2010 - 7:05pm — Verycrazygirl

Mmm~

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June 28, 2010 - 8:01pm — Dajhi

tracking ;D

June 29, 2010 - 1:59am — august-jay

Awwsh! Thanks VCG and Dajhi.

Awwsh! Thanks VCG and Dajhi. <3

June 30, 2010 - 4:08am — Spirituelle

I think he met Spirituelle

I think he met Spirituelle this morning?
Excuse her ignorance, she's not very sociable. (:

June 30, 2010 - 4:52pm — AliceV

"Hhmm.. you again.. he he...

"Hhmm.. you again.. he he... saw you quite often these days, yes...yes... I.. I am sorry.. hehe I wiuld gladly... mhhh... play with you but.. see... i feel not that well at the moment, yes? hehe... maybe.. in a few days..."

June 30, 2010 - 6:16pm — august-jay

@Spirituelle: Ah, yes. I was

@Spirituelle: Ah, yes. I was hoping the poor doe wasn't too angry at Emmy for persistantly bothering her. xD See, when a doe ignores his greeting and doesn't want him around, that just makes him want to bother them even more. xD I'm sorry.

@Alicev: "Ah....Jack. So you DO remember me, I take it. I was hoping my presence hadn't slipped your mind too quickly now. Haha..."

June 30, 2010 - 6:19pm — Spirituelle

Haha, it's no problem on my

Haha, it's no problem on my part. :b
I think it's quite funny.

June 30, 2010 - 6:27pm — august-jay

Lol. I'm still laughing about

Lol. I'm still laughing about how I got Emmy to air-sit RIGHT in front of Spirtuelle. xD I was like, "Oh snap that was awesome!" Then he had to get down cause she was mad at him. Dx

Haha. See you around.

June 30, 2010 - 10:48pm — AliceV

"Mhh, mhmh... you ..you

"Mhh, mhmh... you ..you probably won't believe it.. but aah.. sometimes, somtimes i really pay attention to the faces around me... yey, yes..."

June 30, 2010 - 11:09pm — august-jay

"Good, then. Because next

"Good, then. Because next time I see you and run up to nuzzle you, you can't put your antlers in my face like you don't know me. Haha..."

July 1, 2010 - 1:11am — Spirituelle

`Look, now you're just

`Look, now you're just getting yourself in to trouble. Be grateful I just saved your butt.`

July 1, 2010 - 2:30am — august-jay

"What, you mean that other

"What, you mean that other butterfly pelted stag? Yeah...well..........oh fine. Thank you."

July 1, 2010 - 9:29pm — Dajhi

Aww how sweet of you! Dajhi

Aww how sweet of you! Dajhi enjoys his company!
and about the zombie pelted stag I am afraid that is Reed

July 1, 2010 - 11:17pm — august-jay

Haha. Em enjoys Dajhi's

Haha. Em enjoys Dajhi's company as well.
I found out who the deer was: Lucian. I hope Em didn't offend Dajhi by being afraid of Lucian because I know those two are friends. Em generally fears deer that have any of the zombie set on, but especially Lucian because he attacked Emmy the other day for nuzzling Dajhi. That's all worked out now; I know why he attacked Em (Talked to Seele about it), but he gets to be added to the list of deer Emmy is afraid of. Dx

July 1, 2010 - 11:57pm — Dajhi

Oh, sorry, I forgot he had

Oh, sorry, I forgot he had the Zombie pelt at that day *feels silly*
So sorry, Dajhi tried to make things more easily for both, she knew Lucian was a little instable at that day, but I am glad that at least Em know why that happened ^^"

July 2, 2010 - 12:16am — august-jay

Lol. It's okay. Em is

Lol. It's okay. Em is forgiving and doesn't hold grudges, but he holds fear sometimes. Maybe if the next encounter goes better, they could even be friends. xD

July 2, 2010 - 1:47am — FishBiscuit

I wonder what would happen if

I wonder what would happen if Emiva, my Emm and your Emmy all met at the same time..

The pine cones would turn into gumdrops and all of the deer would slip into a sugar induced coma!

lolanyways hai.

July 2, 2010 - 2:23am — Pretzil

"Hmm... You are one of

"Hmm... You are one of multiple personalities." Copolymer tilts his head and smirks. "Tsk, how unstable you are. Have you tried music to soothe your mind?"

"MOO!!!" xD

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July 2, 2010 - 2:24pm — august-jay

@Pretzil "Unstable? Really?"

@Pretzil
"Unstable? Really?" He glances quickly at the skull-faced deer. "You're the one who attacked my sister yesterday." He shakes his head slowly in a manner of disapproval.

July 2, 2010 - 2:24pm — august-jay

@Fish Omg. xD Ahahaha. Hi as

@Fish
Omg. xD Ahahaha. Hi as well! ^^

July 3, 2010 - 3:49pm — Pretzil

"Glad to... Finally see y-you

"Glad to... Finally see y-you again." She smiles.

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July 3, 2010 - 5:50pm — august-jay

"The pleasure was all mine. I

"The pleasure was all mine. I saw you sleeping out in the open by yourself and thought you could use a little company." He bows and looks back up at her.
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What's with Copolymer, by the way? He's just sitting there, picto-less, and hasn't moved in like....ever. o.O

July 3, 2010 - 6:33pm — Pretzil

Oh, on my comp, if you switch

Oh, on my comp, if you switch users or log out or whatever, TEF crashes xD I'm on my moms user at the moment cuz she left it open hehehe >D *shhhh notellsplz*

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July 4, 2010 - 12:52am — august-jay

xDD Haha. Okay.

July 10, 2010 - 11:35pm — Seele

Could Emdeaur perhaps please

Could Emdeaur perhaps please leave Lucian alone? He does not like him and most likely won't like him either if he keeps pushing like this. I think he made his point clear. Thank you!

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July 11, 2010 - 3:28am — august-jay

I don't really understand

I don't really understand what Emmy did that was so wrong...but I will try to leave Lucian alone. Every time Em goes up to him, it's in a scared kind of manner and he's never trying to pick a fight. He's trying to apologize for whatever it is he did wrong, but I suppose I'm not quite making that clear. I'm sorry if I really bothered him. I hate it when people are mad at me. I really do apologize.

July 22, 2010 - 2:39am — Dajhi

I hope Emdeaur don't mind the

I hope Emdeaur don't mind the way Dajhi was acting towards him and the other deer. She was taking care of the shy doe and the shy fawn together and deer were chasing them.. She only acts like that in those circunstances. He behavior towards Emmy still the same

I hope you understand ^^

July 22, 2010 - 2:53am — august-jay

Oh, I know. It's okay. I know

Oh, I know. It's okay. I know that doe is afraid of most everyone, and I was trying to come slowly and unobtrusively so not to frighten her away. xD I didn't do that great of a job though. Lol.

July 30, 2010 - 9:28pm — Snowsauria

Track.

Track. <3

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September 9, 2010 - 5:07am — Siellby

track

September 9, 2010 - 5:34am — rice

Tracking! :3

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September 9, 2010 - 12:34pm — august-jay

Awwsh! Thanks you guys!

Awwsh! Thanks you guys! <3

September 23, 2010 - 1:50am — janet

Omy im im, speachless about

Omy im im, speachless about this its layied out beautifully im sure gonna track this <3

September 23, 2010 - 1:56am — Pretzil

I am tracking this

I am tracking this awesomeness again. Cuz I can. ♥

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September 23, 2010 - 1:57am — Pretzil

-Pretzil uses Doubble

-Pretzil uses Doubble Post!

It's super effective!- XD

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September 23, 2010 - 5:16pm — august-jay

Janet - Thankies!

Janet - Thankies! <3

Pretzil - Haha. xD Thanks thanks.

September 23, 2010 - 5:28pm — Iskalo

WHAT? How am i not tracking

WHAT? How am i not tracking this?!
This looks amazingggrrrghhgghg ♥♥

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September 23, 2010 - 5:35pm — august-jay

xD Thanks. ^^

September 30, 2010 - 12:44am — Pretzil

D'aaaawwww~ I love how you

D'aaaawwww~

I love how you did the family thingie! ;A;

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September 30, 2010 - 11:55am — august-jay

Oi, that took me forever. xD

Oi, that took me forever. xD I thought I could put it in the same table as the 'best friends' thing, but it took up too much spaceeeee and it didn't look right, so I had to add it somewhere else. xD But I'm glad you like it!!!
<3

September 30, 2010 - 11:34pm — Dajhi

how could your bio look even

how could your bio look even better than before? :3
ps.: I loved that pic of Dajhi and Em together, and the one before last pic with that tiny butterfly ^^ (its like he is scared of it D:)

September 30, 2010 - 11:49pm — august-jay

Awww you're so sweet!

Awww you're so sweet! *nuzzle-spams*

Isn't that the cutest thing? It was the best picture I could find of her.
And yes, I liked the picture and then after I realized there was a butterfly in it. xD

Also, I think Dajhi and Em have that tower-dancing down good, now. xDD Haha.

October 1, 2010 - 12:07am — Dajhi

October 2, 2010 - 5:29am — august-jay

xDD Thanks CL.

xDD Thanks CL. <3

The Endless Forest

"I only live to see them live..." ~Emdeaur's Biography~ //OLD BIO NOT UPDATED