* Flyleaf * Bio ! Wip ( After all this time ) ..Update on the 3th of july ...

Flyleaf's picture
This will be a Wip ( Very slow )

In hospital again ....
My stomath is blocked ....
Don't know if i will survive this time ...we will see .
So ....goodbey to all of you ...still i'm able to .
Got even suicide ideas .....
It was good to know this place and you all .
















Scan result was absolutely positive news ....no active cancercells there ....for now .
Further treatment could be chirurgical ....we will see .


Currently listening to :

. LACEY STURM ( Formerly Flyleaf lead singer !! ) Yess , she performs again and even is touring right now !)
Her album ( Life Screams ) is AWESOME , her voice ....I am in love !!!
FLYLEAF is Reborn !!

. Evanescence
. A Perfect Circle
. Ghost
. Paramore
. Bullet For My Valentine





















Have to revamp this dusty Bio , especially my Friendslist ...so many have disappeared Sad
And there are many new ones Smiling

Name : Flyleaf
Gender : Male
Age : He wants to be young forever
Appearance : ( For Now )



There is a fire within her eyes
Blinding my senses
(Now I am searching)
For what's beyond the flames


Skype ( Not all time in use and new to it ) :
Flyleaftef
Drop me a note here if you add me !

Currently listening to
.Lacuna Coil
.Asking Alexandria
.AperfectCircle
.Killswitch Engage
.Escape the Fate
.Evanescence
.Paramore


Made By Assiraya

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Gift by Pegasicorn !


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Gift from Vanilliana !







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Art made by Kaori !

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Art by Huskylove !

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Made by Tamabird !

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SnowDay By StarFox ! ( Feeaturing Vala , Cu and Fly )
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Gift from Curusant !
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Awesome friends draw by Jennie !
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Jennie and Fly , by Jennie !
Gift from Jennie

Chibi by Starling ( Cu,Vala,Fly)
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Valentine Chibi Jennie and Fly made by Kaori !

Made by Silensia !
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Gift2 from Silensia ! Aren't we adorable !
Made by Kikinkacze !
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Jennie , Vala and Fly derping around , made by Jennie !
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Art by Mismatched !

Art by Brownlupine !

Art by Niriya !

Art by Narina !
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Art by BlueOrchid !

Art by Jennipher !

Rumen and Fly by sweet Amazegenalo !

Dampir and Fly ...Brothers !! Art By Dampir !

Bu,Ru and Fly by Butterbrot !

Art by Wildpferd555

Art By Butterbrot !!
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Art by Unplugged !
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Vala and Fly made by Fairyclock !
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Good Buddies by Asirraya !
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Art by Sannosuke !

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Lem and Fly !
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Art by Uitleger !



It's so cold down here ..alone !
I'll meet you at the Bottom
The waves can wash away all the scars you bear
See you at the Bottom !

I want something Good to Die for , to make it Beautiful to Live !

You are Born alone , you Die alone ....The Rest is yours to fill the Gap !

Thoughts : Good rest with very good friends !!

Diary


Likes

His Friends ( Could die for them )
Fawns ( He really likes all this foolish little ones )
Dancing and sillyness ( But he likes to rest with his friends too )
Making new Friends
Nuzzling
Keeping lonely deer company
Likes when someone is sitting with him and watching the forest


Dislikes

Fighting ( He will defend his friends !! )
Deer who are attacking fawns !
Deer who are ignoring other deer on purpose

Little Family Prancing together



Art by Dampir ...Thanks Bro !

Brother

Dampir

Sister

Foxbrow , Vala

Uncle of
Lycan
Tiani

Love
____

Adopted Daughter

Cedrelÿa
__________


They are in my Heart ( Alphabethical order )
Adolf,. ( Ayra )
Acer
AlisianRose ( Alisa )
Amazegenalo ( Rumen )
Angelwings ( Gruffen , Godess )
Anogelia ( Anlez ; Anogelia )
Anjali
Apoida ( Moss )
Aquilo ( Cassiopeia )
Arthemissa ( Alkyone )
AutumnPhoenix ( Autumn )
Axessa ( Mora )
Bellaz
Brawnie045 ( Nireda )
Butterbrot ( Bu )
Chudamani ( Jewel )
Dampir ( Brother )
Dragon 919 ( Astrale )
Deeruniverse ( Spartak )
Emslee007 ( Josephine )
Eledhwen22 (Cedrelÿa )
Eternalwanderer ( Lilly ) ( Missing ! )
Garin ( The " Moon over X deer or Mysterious deer" )
Gurgelin ( Bloo ) (Was here today 10.05 ) ( Missing ! )
Halfbaket ( Botan )
Holymaria ( Kio )
Honeyfur
Jackstrauss ( Heinrich )
Jennie ( Jennie , Calder )
Kasiawar98
KeepsPeeps ( Su-mi )
Kenryoku ( Xylon )
Krystal
Kikistar2 ( Angel , Circe , Veil )
KitsuneSakura ( Mina )
Kitty08 ( Sokonei ..Missing)
3linmaya ( Donut ) ( Missing ! )
Laruna
Lonhro ( Missing )
Melajnah ( Unik )
Moon_Blaggy ( Rachel )
Natille.koks ( Domino...like a Brother, Drop )
Nayu
Nimariel ( Miszka )
Nirwana ( Yuj )
Nopje ( Waarhijd )
ObafO ( Nemesis )
Okamilugia ( Riza )
Ourania ( Ourania )
Pink ( Cu )
PLK217 ( Foxbrow , Silun )
Rice ( Missing )
Rikkachan ( Aniu )
Samael ( Kian )
Seed ( Rene )
Selene38 ( Sira ) ( Missing )
Schutzgeist ( Lucy )
Silensia ( Aranyani )
Smiley 66 ( Big Bunny)
Sobeknofru ( Honigmund Habasi )
Solaya ( Missing ! )
SS
Starfox ( Kettu )
Kamino ( Federweber )
Kodiana
Tiani
TmA ( Moon )
Fang 1014 ( Aris , Ethan , Garth )
Tikwid ( Missing )
Tullow ( Tullow , Alone )
Lady "Vala" ( Sister )
Venus
Vinttage
Wildpferd555 ( Sirius )
Wingeddeer ( Phobos , Donnovan )
Wiana ( Ozzie )
Wocio ( Fangorn )
Wotsits
Xemi ( Crucio ) ; ( Flammel ; the guardian )
Ya-Lera ( Ral'F )
Zeke ( Missing ! )
Zeeki ( Nerri ) ( Missing )
Zikos ( Siryah ) ( Missing ! )
z.m123

Forgive me if i forgot someone ( Tell me if i did )

Missed Friends ( But not forgotten )

Annefleur87 ( Amy )
She was my first friend here
Kenryoku ( Xylon )
Kiraki
Tawnigirl


Made by Amazegenalo ...Rumen resting with Herz !! Little Familly by Amazegenalo !

Made by Meadow !

Art by AliceV !
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Cu , Vala and Fly by Kamaya !
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Art by Mozdog !
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Art by Tigerart27 !
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Flyleaf's picture

Sadly it was not possible to

Sadly it was not possible to do it today ...the
anestesist docs had too much work ...
All the poeple in hospital had to wait till they have time again ....
If this continues i will have more problems due to weakness .
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WonderfullySarcastic's picture

8c no. you're the strongest

8c no. you're the strongest person ever.
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Starling's picture

Oh my gosh Fly, well that's

Oh my gosh Fly, well that's rubbish ):
Just stay strong. We are all here for you. <3
Unplugged's picture

sending good vibes &hearts;

sending good vibes ♥
Ebony3's picture

Hey Fly, we haven't really

Hey Fly, we haven't really talked but some of my deer have danced with you before - and it's always great seeing you around. I'm really sorry you're going through so much right now, we're all here if you need us. You are definitely one of the sweetest, nicest people on here <3
Oh, I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world.
cloudandis's picture

Stay strong.

Stay strong.
Sabel, Sam

Image © Alhnna
Vala 's picture

Hope they find time for you

Hope they find time for you today ...Stay strong , you are a rock in the forest ! The forest believs in you .
" ~ Lady in Red ~ "

♥ ♥

um I hope you get better but

um I hope you get better but I have a question how do people get there stomach blocked? and don't they have to pump it out with a tube or something like a vacuum cleaner thing?(I really don't know what stomach pumping is but I have only herd the word before) and don't you have to be awake for it or do you have to be under anesthesia for it? but I hope you don't have to get your stomach pumped it sounds like it hurts a lot when they do it. But I hope you get out of the hospital soon.
Flyleaf's picture

Thank you They will look

Thank you
They will look Friday in my stomach .
I hope ....
I have a sort of cancer or dead cells right after my stomach and all
The things i eat have problems to go through ...so everything can
Block my stomach and i can't eat no more .
And it can make me vomit all .
Pumping my stomach out can not make my problem go away
It will always come back until the thing it blocks it is removed or
overrid .
Hi sweet Vala ♥
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oh well I hope they get

oh well I hope they get whatever is in your stomach out so you can be back playing the endless forest
Flyleaf's picture

I hope too ....but it can be

I hope too ....but it can be difficult to remove ....
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Urschanabi's picture

Good luck to you on Friday

Good luck to you on Friday and much strength during all this time!
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I'm not sure we've ever met,

I'm not sure we've ever met, but know I send my prayers and wish you the best of luck <3
Kaoori's picture

sending strength.

sending strength.
Flyleaf's picture

Awesome Art you did .....god

Awesome Art you did .....god i love it so much !
I think we met sometimes ...
Hiiii Kao ♥
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Just wanted to say I've been

Just wanted to say I've been thinking about you a lot. ♥
Flyleaf's picture

Awwww.....&hearts;

Awwww.....♥
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olenanet's picture

we pray for you every day.

we pray for you every day.
Flyleaf's picture

Thank you a lot !!

Thank you a lot !!
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Flyleaf's picture

They looked into my stomach

They looked into my stomach today .
But i wasn't able to see a doc afterwards .
They are all hiding ......
A nurse said another doc who i know too will
come tomorrow .
This is all so strange ..... Puzzled

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Bouncing Fly by Mary13

ok im glad they got to look

ok im glad they got to look inside of your stomach but at least they didn't have to do a xray of your stomach but im sure they will tell you what they have found eventually (if its good or not that is) but did they have to use that scope thing that goes down your throat and they have a screen so you can look as well? cuz that would be cool to see( reminds me of a episode of untold stores of the er with a dog that swallowed something and they used a grapple to get it out but the dog was cute though so that might make you feel better at least.)
Flyleaf's picture

They used a long sort

They used a long sort foldable cable with a camera .
But it hurts too much for me , so they made me sleep before .
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keepspeeps's picture

Hey Flyleaf, I saw your music

Hey Flyleaf, I saw your music likes and thought you may enjoy the band ISIS, my favorite albums are In the Absence of Truth and Wavering Radiant. The full albums lyrics are on darklyrics.com
Keeps loves Fay.

im happy they have you

im happy they have you anesthesia for when they look in your stomach but I hope you feel better
Urschanabi's picture

Hope they will tell you the

Hope they will tell you the truth soon and wish with all my heart that the news is good.
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WonderfullySarcastic's picture

*hug* Fingers crossed for

*hug*
Fingers crossed for good news. Hang in there, dear. <3
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Flyleaf's picture

I don't think there will be

I don't think there will be good news ....
Thanks Guys !!
Got some news ....it is really blocked again and they will talk next week about what to do ....not really a lot of solutions .
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Vala 's picture

Sigh...Wish you all the best

Sigh...Wish you all the best !!
" ~ Lady in Red ~ "

♥ ♥

Flyleaf's picture

Yes ....thank you Vala !

Yes ....thank you Vala !
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Uitleger's picture

It could be the doctors'

It could be the doctors' "hiding" is due to the heavy patients' traffic in the hospital, and not for secrecy.
However, if having the information gives you confidence/peace of mind, then you should insist on having it.
Hope the hospital supports you well until the blockage is eliminated. What sort of solutions have they talked of?

I know things must've felt like hell. Try not to go stressed, kick back, take it easy, think c'est la vie, you need to conserve energy instead of giving it up for fear.
You'll need it to go through with your treatment, so let the rest of us do the worrying. We all miss you alright. We wish all the best for you.
Flyleaf's picture

I think they can do 2 sort of

I think they can do 2 sort of big surgery ....not a great choice for me because i am so weak and the side effects too .
Or insert some plastic movable sort of thing ....they really don't know if that will do it too .
I can't unstress myself for now ...damn ...
I am trying to fight but.........
You are really all so supporting !!
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if they do the surgery they

if they do the surgery they can try to get whatever's blocking your stomach out and then they will stitch it up with dissolvable stiches( they have those for wisdom teeth surgery too) also I hope they give you something to give you energy again. but I hope you feel better and I don't go to church often but uh I will say this: I hope the lord gives you a lot of strength to recover.
Flyleaf's picture

The problem is have other

The problem is have other sorts of illness too ...and i am very weak
and to move out this thing are big operations .
They are afraid what to really do ....and i am too ....
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hey its ok I get nervous too

hey its ok I get nervous too when I have to do something but you will get though this we will support you and hope you can get out of the hospital soon. Also I just now noticed you don't speak English well but that is ok I can understand what your saying(im not trying to be mean by the way. also I am not good with grammar a lot so that's why you always see my posts with not so good grammar or spelling.) Also the reason they might be afraid is because they might be like "ok so this medicine might not work for you but we will keep trying different medications to see what one works for you and how you react to it. ok?") all doctors do that and its normal to be scared or afraid. Hope too see you in the forest again. Laughing out loud
Pink's picture

Hey Fly, no good news I see.

Hey Fly,
no good news I see. It is really horrible and I can feel with you a little bit. Not exactly knowing what the doctors could or should do is making you worry and scary and maybe a bit angry. And be hopefull is really hard to do too.
I wish I could take away a bit of you pain/illness and giving you some positive Vibes. Maybe you can´t do much but try to be hopeful and stong. Positive thougths can maybe do a lot of good things to you.
And at least I hope you have your family or friends around you which give you the strength and love you need in this time!!!!
and if not, you will get it from me and this great community.
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Sounds like the doctors are

Sounds like the doctors are concerned for you well-being, and that's a good thing. It means they care and will do what they can to work out the best possible solution for you. And I'm sure they will. You just have to trust them.
Flyleaf's picture

We will see what the docs

We will see what the docs will say next week !
You are all so sweet Smiling
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Starling's picture

Sending hugs.

Sending hugs. <3
Chromai's picture

sending you the best luck.

sending you the best luck.
Flyleaf's picture

Huggggggsss

Huggggggsss Smiling
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ShrinkingRose's picture

You're a true fighter, Fly.

You're a true fighter, Fly.
<3
Flyleaf's picture

&hearts; Sadly i becomes more


Sadly i becomes more and more difficult ....

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Starling's picture

Hang in there, buddy.

Hang in there, buddy. Sad
Flyleaf's picture

They will try to do a

They will try to do a dilatation again ....when ....i don't know .
I have my doubts ...because they tried it once before ...
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Uitleger's picture

They're aiming to recover

They're aiming to recover some function so you can have food again. It's a good sign. Things feeling tough as they do, but you are pulling through. Share your stress with us and keep going.
Sending power.
Flyleaf's picture

I really wish it would work

I really wish it would work .
But i don't know when they'll do it ....
Hugs !!
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In's picture

Knock-knock, i'm bringing you

Knock-knock, i'm bringing you a little piece of rus summer Smiling This mehndi picture of Fly will be with me for about two weeks.
And I'm with you always
Stay strong, hugs.
Flyleaf's picture

Oh god that's awesome ....you

Oh god that's awesome ....you are crazy lol
♥ Forever !
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Vala 's picture

Tama , ...This is a really

Tama , ...This is a really great surprice!! ♥
" ~ Lady in Red ~ "

♥ ♥

Starling's picture

Tama, that is such a

Tama, that is such a thoughtful idea!
and do not think that your shadow went unnoticed