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{ till we close our eyes for good } // Shaku's Updates (update 1/22)

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November 30, 2010 - 2:50am — shaku





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I am...
♥ 24 yrs
♥ female
♥ wanna-be author
♥ wanna-be artiste

Sketch Blogs
♣ Have We Met?
♣ Roughing It

Owner of...
♠ Phylux
♠ Vodun / Vasska
♠ Dublin
♠ Tzipporah
♠ SKA
♠ Bishop
Lol, so my hiatus kind of became an extended hiatus, which then became a "why exactly am I coming back again?"

I'm not leaving, but I'm not ever going to be as active as I once was. I understand that for those of you with more active characters, this might mean that you need to change their relationships with mine, and that's okay. I'm fine with that....... except in one case, and I'd be SO EMO if you ever changed it (Gustibuns), but I'd understand.

I haven't been active on msn, either, and I haven't drawn like... anything. I dunno. This might just be a phase. I know the lack of art is a phase. But I feel like moving forward or some such, and I think TEF is too much of a time sinkhole for me to devote as much of my energy to it anymore.

So yeah, not technically leaving, but I felt I needed something a bit more concrete than "hiatus!" if I knew I was drifting off.

- shaku 1/22

January 3, 2011 - 3:14am — shamiya
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Definitely this one Why I

Definitely this one

Why I love it? Well, The Blue Stag is this really reserved character, being invaded and taunted by mini's is just lol.
January 3, 2011 - 1:59pm — shaku
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Lmfaoooo~ Omg, I remember

Lmfaoooo~ Omg, I remember that!! XD That was so freaking hilarious!
Poor Eli, haha.

Thanks so much, Shaminya! TuT
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January 5, 2011 - 5:11pm — Gustiro
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Ah! Idid not say happy

Ah! Idid not say happy birthday yesterday! Well... Happy birthday! I will have to dig through some screenshots. >>;
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January 5, 2011 - 5:28pm — shaku
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In my family, the birthday

In my family, the birthday isn't over until the cake is gone! So you still had a good two or three days, at least ;D

Thanks so much, love! I can't wait to see what you pull out~!
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January 5, 2011 - 8:20pm — Gustiro
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>;

<3

Well, a few I really like. Sticking out tongue And I think those with Vodun in it is better then just a random screenie. :3 Of course I do need to go through my piles of screenshots and share more often. >>;
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January 5, 2011 - 10:19pm — shaku
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Don't even get me started on

Don't even get me started on screenshot piles... XD;; I knew I was asking for quite a chore when I requested pictures as birthday presents, haha~ But daaaamn, you just like... totally blew me away XD I wish I weren't so tired so that how happy I am translated better to text, haha ♥
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January 9, 2011 - 6:51pm — Pegasicorn
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I wonder if Ravus knew how

I wonder if Ravus knew how many people (and characters) she glued together..
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January 9, 2011 - 6:56pm — Darling
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I'm so sorry for this

I'm so sorry for this happening to you.. I hope things look brighter, soon. <3
I'm here for you.
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January 9, 2011 - 6:59pm — Sleepything
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i hope you get on soon. ;__;

i hope you get on soon. ;__; <3
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adorable art by Tuoho! ♥
January 9, 2011 - 7:11pm — Gustiro
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(No subject)

<3 <3 <3
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January 12, 2011 - 5:06am — Aivilo
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&hearts;

♥
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January 12, 2011 - 5:09am — eyestrain
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There's nothing stupid about

There's nothing stupid about it.
I hope you feel better soon.
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January 12, 2011 - 5:44am — Ysrael
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We will wait for you.

We will wait for you. ♥
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January 12, 2011 - 9:24am — Serenai
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I love you.

I love you.
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January 12, 2011 - 9:27am — Tuhka
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Get better soon, Shaku.

Get better soon, Shaku. ):
And it's not stupid at all, many get affected by such things and really, if it ever meant something to you, the good times you had together, you should.
I just hope things will be better for you again, cheer up dear. <3
January 12, 2011 - 6:04pm — shaku
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TuT Thanks so much, you guys.

TuT Thanks so much, you guys. I feel overwhelmingly gifted to be surrounded by such sweet people.

Pega; I don't know... but I wonder if it was that knowledge that was so stressful? Having so many people leaning on you can be quite a burden, I'd imagine D:

Darling; I know you are.. and that's what kills me. I feel really foolish to have kept you waiting ;; *snugs*

JD; I'm sooo, soo sorry ;A; I think my guilt for leaving you for a bit almost overcame my depression over Ravus. ..Almost.

Gustiro and Ivi: ♥ ♥

eyestrain; I do.. I admire the frank sincerity of your comment ;; ♥ Thank you.

Ysrael; I'm sorry I kept you waiting ;; *loves on*

Serenai; TuT I love you too ♥

Tuhka; Thank you so much, darling. I know that you're right... but I hate it when I can't control myself. I feel like, regardless of what has happened in the past, negative feelings should be cast aside, since they don't serve a purpose. I'm just not very good at it ;;
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January 13, 2011 - 1:04am — Tuhka
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I'm sure it will be good over

I'm sure it will be good over time, eventually we all feel better and get over things. Just take your time and feel upset if you need to but just not for too long. <3
It is nasty for not being able to control yourself, I know. But we can't do much for our emotions I'm afraid, we just need to, uh, try not to do anything stupid because of them and try to move on I guess. : D
January 17, 2011 - 4:46am — shaku
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Very, very true. It's so easy

Very, very true. It's so easy to do stupid things when you're hurt D: I know a bunch of shit passes through my mind, and even just a little while later I'm like, "Wtf, brain... How would that have possibly helped the situation?"

*jealous of Vulcans* =3=
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January 17, 2011 - 6:14am — Aivilo
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"Wtf, brain... How would that

"Wtf, brain... How would that have possibly helped the situation?"
lmao. That was totally me all day today.
Also, YAY NO MORE CRASHING!
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February 14, 2011 - 11:44pm — shaku
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LATE RESPONSE IS LATE. But

LATE RESPONSE IS LATE. But I've been doing the same wtf stuff lately, so response is still valid XD I can't seem to get away from my dumbass side, haha.
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February 15, 2011 - 2:17am — Pegasicorn
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I only have fun if people I

I only have fun if people I know are around. Otherwise, I run around Fluorite Plains climbing things...until I get bored of that. |D Try using the right alt key when you alt-tab. I find that doesn't do anything to your character's head position. Use it when you go back into FH too, so you don't move your character.
IT had more actions, so I'm hoping they put those in FH. I miss the headtilt, roar, and faint. ...and non-pervy-looking dances. |D
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February 15, 2011 - 2:19am — shaku
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Pega, you are amazing. Maybe

Pega, you are amazing. Maybe I can actually enjoy the game now, lmfaooo.

AND I LIKE THOSE DANCES. Especially the butt-wag one. I keep waiting to find a way to use it IC. Maybe I should make a Vasska wolf/lion...
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February 15, 2011 - 2:36am — Pegasicorn
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I discovered that out of

I discovered that out of curiosity. Both of the Ctrl keys doing different things made me wonder if both Alt keys did too, so I pressed the other one. 8D; Yay experimenting?

Those dances look like...something else other dancing. D8 MOONWALK NEEDS TO RETURN.
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February 15, 2011 - 3:54am — shaku
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I didn't even know the Ctrl

I didn't even know the Ctrl keys did anything @u@;; *has much to learn*

Whattt why would they remove that? DDD:
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February 15, 2011 - 4:12am — Pegasicorn
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Left-Ctrl lets you crouch and

Left-Ctrl lets you crouch and look sneaky. =B Right-Ctrl lets you switch between having the camera "steer" your character or not. (Like Ctrl-F in TEF.)

No, I mean they had them in the old game Impressive Title. Feral Hearts is its remake. |D
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February 15, 2011 - 4:31am — shaku
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LKDSJFSL WHATT. Ctrl+F...

LKDSJFSL WHATT. Ctrl+F... Omggg, I never knew about thisss. Not that I'll use it, but shittt that's awesomeee XD And that's fantastic with the right-ctrl. I'll need to try that out. I don't mind having the camera steer my character... I was actually more comfortable with it until TEF came along and messed up my muscle memory. It's become increasingly difficult to play other games on the computer, haha XD

Ooooh, I didn't know about Impressive Title. Wow... the remake? XD I'd love to see screencaps from the original, haha.
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February 15, 2011 - 5:39am — Pegasicorn
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I've taught you something new

I've taught you something new on more than one game then? 8D;

Feral Hearts has similar graphics to Impressive Title, but it's a bit better-looking (fur texture being an improvement and wolf models added in). It's also impossible for people to hack it now, which happened a lot in IT.
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February 15, 2011 - 5:57am — shaku
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Yesss, you did XD That's

Yesss, you did XD

That's definitely good to hear D: Hacking = suckage. I'm glad TEF never seemed to have any problems with that (that I know of). How recently did they come out with FH? Is it reasonable to assume that they're adding new stuff on a fairly regular basis, then? >>
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February 15, 2011 - 5:59am — Pegasicorn
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The server been up since

The server been up since about the beginning of the month. I think they will add more stuff. I hope they do; I liked the headtilt that IT had. |D And rofl, roar, faint...more dances. I hope they add those.
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February 15, 2011 - 6:08am — shaku
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Is that all? Wow, I would've

Is that all? Wow, I would've thought it had been up longer XD

A roar would be awesome... and what's faint? It sounds logical that they'd put all of that stuff back in.
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February 15, 2011 - 6:34am — Pegasicorn
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Fainting? 8D;

Fainting? 8D;
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February 15, 2011 - 7:00am — shaku
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Lmaoo, so they actually

Lmaoo, so they actually fainted? XD;; I was thinking maybe you meant they just kinda... wobbled or something, haha. That sounds awesome.
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February 15, 2011 - 7:01am — Pegasicorn
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Yep, just toppled over onto

Yep, just toppled over onto their side. XD It'd be funny if they put that in.
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February 15, 2011 - 4:23pm — OkamiLugia
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tracking~

tracking~
February 16, 2011 - 12:22am — shaku
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Pega; I certainly hope they

Pega; I certainly hope they do XD

Okami; Thank you!
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February 16, 2011 - 2:45am — Pegasicorn
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*points at pictos in

*points at pictos in signature* |D; The last 2 aren't really characters, but the rest are.
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February 16, 2011 - 2:53am — Matthieu's Deer...

IIII have waaaaayyy tooooo

IIII have waaaaayyy tooooo many deer
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February 16, 2011 - 3:33am — shaku
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Pega; I think... the only one

Pega; I think... the only one I really know of yours is Toukan XD

Vandettta; Lol, you guys are making me feel better XD Do you find that you have one main deer out of those, or do you play them evenly?
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February 16, 2011 - 3:46am — Pegasicorn
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You know who my favorite is

You know who my favorite is then. 8D;;
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February 16, 2011 - 3:54am — shaku
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And you know who mine is...

And you know who mine is... although I guess that isn't fair, since I don't really know your others XD I love how there always seems to be a general leap of joy (even if it's only a small lurch to their feet) when Toukan arrives.
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February 16, 2011 - 4:09am — Pegasicorn
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My others need more

My others need more attention. |D I still don't know how Toukan became the easiest and most appealing for me to play.
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February 16, 2011 - 4:38am — shaku
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I'm finding that I'm

I'm finding that I'm increasingly drawn to my calmer, more level-headed deer XD So I think I understand.
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February 18, 2011 - 4:29am — shamiya
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Just 1 main deer right now...

Just 1 main deer right now... I have a really hard time creating new ones for some reason. I think it has to do with starting all over; personality, relationships, art, a blog. It can be very frustrating.
February 18, 2011 - 4:34am — shaku
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Shaminya; I think that part

Shaminya; I think that part is very thrilling to me, which is why I've created so many. I really respect people who can create one and stick with it, or have one main deer that they're satisfied with playing regularly. If I had it to do over again, I might stick with one. As it is, I love my babies too much, and since I already have so many, it's becoming less of a battle to create more XD;;
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February 18, 2011 - 4:40am — shamiya
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As long as it is thrilling. I

As long as it is thrilling. I think it would be for me if I could come up with some really cool, unique ideas, and not feel like I'm exhausting myself trying to build a new character, for all of the reasons I mentioned above. I find it all exhausting! I think your 'thrill' for creating new characters really shows though, they're all very inspiring and different, and you play each of them as they should be so well. I admire that.
February 28, 2011 - 4:52am — Gustiro
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:3

:3 <3
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February 28, 2011 - 5:19am — shaku
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shaminya; You flatter me too

shaminya; You flatter me too much ;; *snugs* I think the thought you put into everything really shows through, as well. I love your chars so much T__T

Gust: >u> ♥ ♥ I saw what you did there~ *loves on*
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February 28, 2011 - 5:56am — Gustiro
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You saw NOTHING! XD

You saw NOTHING! XD
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March 5, 2011 - 11:03pm — Makime

&hearts; Track, and the flu

♥
Track, and the flu sucks! Hope you get better :')
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March 26, 2011 - 6:59pm — 010

Track.... --(edit) Get well

Track....

--(edit) Get well soon!