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10 . 03 . 14
10 . 03 . 14
WILL THIS EVER BE UPDATED AGAIN?
Last update Rossamund was still dead ffs.
The first time.
Fuuuuck.
Little self-reminder/MOTIVATION to at least go and try to archive as many RPs as possible before Skype deletes them so I can actually remember what happened when I do get around to it.
STILL LOVE YOU, CRAZYBITCH. I'M SORRY.
least you get a bio tho
Doing everything in her power to keep her presence in the Forest lightly-felt and difficult to trace, but inevitably brought out of her seclusion on a few noteworthy occasions.
Reunited with Castallion when she first caught scent of the buck, glad to see he was in as great as shape as ever (and just as colorful in personality as appearance). Tended as much to Rossamund as she could, finding the boy needed counseling through an admittedly difficult chapter of his time in the forest. Tried to work with him on fighting in his ghost form and encountered a hostile June during one their sessions. Spoke with the Rabbit and attempted to diffuse a little of the ire she understandably felt for both of them, succeeding on a few small points she felt. Vowed to take advantage of what communication had been established to try to follow through on it in the future, and from that could only strongly advise Rossamund on how to handle interactions if he valued having a chance of a relationship with his "sister." (It seemed he had been stalking a few of her friends. No idea where he learned that kind of behavior...)
More than the "physical" however, being relegated to this form had the Myling contending with heavily emotional turmoil. Did her best to offer her support where she could through these dark times, not minding when he came to visit her and Indi although made it clear after an encounter with Rohit that he understood both children were to be protected at all costs. Didn't feel she had to say more than that, and Rossamund appeared uplifted by her mentioning that she considered him like family. Less enthused about received the title of Aunt, but it was neither the place nor time.
Speaking of confusing familial ties, had been making gradual progress in her relationship with Indi's son, still finding it imperative to get him on accepting terms with her before approaching Abhiri. Starting to consider it wise that Rohit learn to spar, as he's a quiet, serious little thing with a lot of pent-up energy, and she frankly thinks he could use the outlet. He'd (unfortunately) seen his first fight not too long ago, despite her and Indi's attempts to keep him out of it knows he saw far more than he should have. Attempted to egg him on a few times on a lazy evening at the Playground, under Indi's approval of course, and probably only succeeded in cementing her Weirdo image. Though was able to deadpan though her joy in causing him some adorable frustration in the process of trying to get him to wrestle.
Ended up laying off him finally, and he'd retreat back to his mother on the boulders glaring at her as if she was the single greatest source of evil on this planet. Joked with Indi a few times about how much he seemed to take after his mother and just kind of gets this look back that made her question if the Sangai also noticed a certain
other resemblance the children bore... maybe JM wasn't going crazy after all.
One of the most significant recent occurrences to memory was no doubt Rossamund's safe and eventual return to life, after a long and frustrating journey. Saw to it that he was fed and accompanied for the first few days of his recovery, incidentally using up each of the rabbits she had asked him to kill just days prior, when food hadn't been of interest to him but was to her for a project. Didn't find out how it had happened, not finding the timing right then and also not having seen much of the Myling since that week, though hearing whispers here and there of some of his exploits, for better or for worse.
Caught Rohit and Abhiri out running around one night without Indi's usual constant supervision and got just close enough to keep an eye on them without alerting them to her presence. Indi showed up in no time, so she relaxed and fell into her own thoughts as the family played. Completely caught off guard when the trio came and took Red Hill by storm in a confusing game of
Zombies, no doubt initiated by Rohit, and ended up getting involved in it whether she wanted to or not. Somehow had been promoted from "Evil Zombie" to "Zombie Hunter" in the little guy's eyes, which while it sounded like an improvement at the time, Jokerman quickly realized still made her the antagonist in the little game. Though she fought back, was quickly outnumbered, mobbed, and infected to his seeming delight before Abhiri tired out. Rohit still looked at her like she was nuts when she rubbed the trees afterward, in an attempt to get him to play a little more. Would have to try more drastic measures later, but for the time just took it in stride and settled near the group tentatively. Heart all but seized when the smallest of the trio wandered over and ended climbing onto her back and falling asleep there. A whole myriad of fears put to rest by seeming to get Abhiri's stamp of approval and Rohit's growing tolerance. Didn't say anything to Indi at the time but knows it meant as much to her, too.
Her time and visits with Indi had been occupying the majority of her mind in one way or another, either working during the day on small schemes and building contacts with deer relevant to those schemes, visiting the family in the evening or stealing moments alone with Indi during the night. Hadn't been sticking her nose into much else that was arguably not her business, at least not in any obvious way. And while things were definitely much improved from where they started, the last thing she wanted was to any way encroach on the Topaz's time with her recently reunited family, or to be perceived by an intruding force by either of them. Found Indi by the flower patch near the river alone tonight and gladly took the opportunity to spend some time with the mother.
It wasn't too long before they were being watched. Waited to see if the other (Indigo) would approach on his own, but aware that her own companion was a little less comfortable with the bird's approach (Player assumes Indi felt tacky being caught wearing the same name so embarrassing) and went to deal with it head-on, as was the Sangai's way. Watched this as well though eventually interfered just to make it clear to the newcomer they weren't going to be chasing him, giving him the chance to come closer if he wanted. Could remember every one of her run-ins with Morioch since returning to the Forest and they were intentionally few and far between, but had seen enough of his small bird companion to make a few conclusions about his presence. Knew it was likely that nothing more than simple curiosity that had spurred the visit, though there was a few other possibilities too.
With this thought, plopped herself on the ground, intending to see how the rest would play out. Laid her head on her forelegs and watched with half-lidded interest as she waited for him to either come closer or Morioch to show up, standing enthusiastically when the older male came by. Took the opportunity to observe his behavior and appearance, nothing more than a sniff to his small companion which caused a small stir of amusement in the Kudu as he took off again. Watched the littler one leave, regretting that she hadn't been able to exchange greetings but time enough for that later. Maybe. Whatever it was, it was still better than Xetkal, and she resumed her earlier stance that there was no need for her to get involved.
Aware as they settled back down that Indi was still tense. Assumed her own omniscient Jokerman way what it was about without even asking, leaned close and quietly launched into the best reassurances and promises she could give her friend. Was cut off with Indi's words of knowing, and complete trust in her, and that was enough. In a moment of intimacy responded with the only thing better than that that she could think of which brought the doe pressing closer, things instantly seeming a lot simpler and a lot more complicated in that action. Shut out the world and lingered in each other's companies for as long as possible before Indi had to return to the kids.
Left as well, figuring the twilight hours would be the best time to do this. Despite Rossamund having promised to replenish the rabbit supply, had taken it upon herself to kill, cure, and preserve a variety of small vermin carcasses over the weeks following his return. Gathered them now and went off to the Birch to speak to a contact she'd made there, wanting to pursue a little whim.
It's good to see you both.
...We'll have to do something about that maternally-instilled sense of virtue.
Keeping close at Indi's family's heels should the need for aid ever surface; apart from that, busying herself with other things.
Many visits from Rossamund, to her relief. The Myling was doing a good job of checking in and putting her mind at ease. Watching his appearance shift from avian to vulpine to, at times, something like his original form. Which is at once heart-rendingly gratifying and more than a little bit amusing when he couldn't seem to perfect the hue.
Helped him work on his coloration this afternoon, the process being long and consisting of much trial and error and doubtless lots of effort from the Ghost. Eventually he got it right and their efforts were rewarded. Definitely didn't fall into the pond at any point. Settled into a mood for a moment and took note of the little Ghost sneaking off. Equally curious of where he was going as she was what he would do off on his own, and opted to explore the latter today. Feigned slumber and waited. The thought process being "He can't get hurt... right?"
Wrong. The Myling came back a short while later and settled back next to her. Could sense something was off and kept her mouth shut, just eyed him thoughtfully. At last he started spilling. Questioned him on it a little bit about his participation in a fight, as much interested in his ability to be hurt as the source of his injury. It seemed to be another hallmark of him gaining aptitude in this form.
Joined by Ciel and Neela as well, greeted the pair somewhat briskly as Neela was being adorable and shy and what was Jo supposed to do with [i]that? Felt bad; she really needed to work on how she approach fawns, little girls in particular, but that thought was intermingled with the one that most kids start crying when she looks at them, and more lately have thought that she was going to eat their brains. Didn't want to do that to Ciel's family, and entertained other ideas, all of which consisted of staying seated for now.
Resumed talking with Rossamund, though noted his change in behavior with the pair's arrival. Found out about... something. Unsure. Ushered him a bit closer to Neela, perplexed at both their behaviors when she found out they were supposed to be friends. Also barked out some orders for any future 'incidents' with protecting others. Trying to work with him as it was evident the buck's code of honor was a part of him, and there was no use trying to pretend it couldn't get him hurt anymore.[/i]
...He has my ears.
Visited the Sangai's homeworld in projected vessels and succeeded in establishing her children's souls' connections with the Forest. Concluded the long and arduous 'adventure' and returned to the Forest approximately a month ago, where they immediately set about trying to find the youths, both unsure and nervous that it hadn't worked out after all, or knowing if they would be able to recognize either fawn. Eventually mother and children were happily reunited, though it was clear it would take time and effort for things to settle down. Understanding of this, backed off immediately so as not to make the transition any rougher, even though falling back into old habits of withdrawing was the last thing she wanted right now.
Has busied herself with relearning the Forest. The first order of business being to touch bases with Henna. Accepted her sister's scolding for her lengthy absence (with no way of contacting) and insisted on learning of recent news. All worse fears seemingly came to light. Heartbroken to hear of Rossamund's passing, all the anger she felt directed purely at herself and even saddened that she had put Henna in this place. Made a sort of peace with it a few weeks later, however. Found a way to keep in touch with the boy's spirit and has not given up on finding a proper conclusion to these events. Treasures his attempts to make contact with her and does everything she can to increase the frequency of his visits.
A few other small visits here and there with others. Sat with Ciel at one point and was grateful as ever for his presence in her life, however little their paths may cross. But for the most part, drifted through the Forest like a ghost. Embracing the solitude and spending much time seemingly wrapped up in her thoughts near the riverbed, hardly moving to acknowledge the glances from certain passers-by; wisened up to a few less-friendly individuals in this way, though hasn't acted on it yet. Uncertain if she will. Also been crashing at the Topaz's home when she wasn't there, for a change of scenery. Sentimental like that. Found by Israel one afternoon in her favorite spot, and filled in on his recent travels. Unsure of how to receive the buck now that he's older, and treading carefully but firmly. Intends to learn more about him in light of Indi's relationship with her adopted son.
Rarely sees the Sangai after helping her to reunite with Rohit and Abhiri. Missing Indi like crazy after the events of the past months, which was expected and only natural. Using the time wisely, making preparations. Beginning to take small steps towards encountering the trio and familiarizing them with her presence, particularly Rohit, who already has a negative impression of her. Reassured by Indi that the boy has always been the cautious type. More endeared than anything with being able to see so much of his mother in the fawn. Happy to have them all here, and Indi so obviously happy.
Thoughts and perceptions challenged, even more than she thought they would be, by the two perplexing, spirited little creatures now in both their lives. Trying to do her best to give the newly-reunited family time to adjust, but acutely aware of certain aspects that are incredibly familiar. Keeping these thoughts to herself for the time being as she really isn't sure what it all means, though muses on it a lot in her spare time. Already charmed by and devoted to the fawns in mind, it seems.
...I thought I could
But I can't.
MINE. IT'S MINE.
Phaios's suddenly troubled
"If you don't want to think or talk about it, you don't have to... I definitely understand. But if you're going to stay here and keep thinking about it while we pretend to talk about something else, and from the looks of it, you're polite enough to do that, just know you could just as well say what's on your mind."
Definitely out of practice.
(goddamnit ivi and here i thought you were better than that.)
*sob* I WAS FOR A WHOLE TEN
I WAS FOR A WHOLE TEN MINUTES, BRIT ;_;
Edit: *waves the magical timelapse wand of MSN* LET THERE BE MERGEANCE poof
.....That awkward moment when you realize you closed the conversation before you looked at the last post again
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"I appreciate it... Though I'd have to say 'should' and 'don't' are different things," Phaios answers dryly. Jo's moving closer - and again, no less - was surprising, knowing her tendencies, but the brown and gray doe makes no comment towards it. "There will always be things I'll wish I had done differently... But I suppose it's where I find myself in the end that decides whether they're worth fretting over. I try not to dwell, either way."
I knew if anyone could do it,
(That awkward moment when you realize you haven't closed out of a conversation in three weeks...)
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The Kudu, visibly relaxed now (as much as she was capable these days, anyway) lets a compassionate smile soften what little can be seen of her features. She doesn't know Phaios's full situation and her respect for the female prevents her from pretending as though she does. Any advice Jokerman could offer would surely fall far below the level of self-efficiency and perspective that the brown doe already achieved for herself.
"You have many here who are invested in seeing that you find yourself happy, in the end. Which I would consider an accomplishment in itself, by the way," she says quietly. "Even before... she always mentioned you, and I suspect you've been doing good long before her time."
She. There could only be one
"I miss her often," the doe replies, a little off topic but feeling it none the less. "I miss a lot of folks... There are many I'd give the world for, but it seems the ones I most enjoy at my side have a tendency to vanish or to turn. I dread the day when Aria realizes she's too 'cool' to be around an old hind," she adds, the last bit an attempt to at least sound a little less heavy-hearted.
A vacant silence is Phaios's
"It won't happen." The skull helm shakes with conviction. She knew Phaios meant to bring the conversation into a lighter turn, but the worry was something she couldn't leave unaddressed. "You know you're more to her than just some hind she visits from time to time. You're her mother, she needs you now and she'll need you always."
Jo was sure Phaios knew this already, but still, it was a lesson the Kudu had learned for herself far too late.
"Mm, some days I'm not so
And if anyone thought she was off topic before... "I knew someone named 'Hind,' once. She called me 'Pie'... I never really knew why. She was very odd. But then, most were... Feuds do funny things to heads, especially the ones of the bulky sort." Phaios makes a small 'humh' sort of noise to herself.
Choosing to stay on the safe
"A challenge... yes. For the mother, and the mother's mother." Jo was a very focused individual anyway, and she's been out of the whole conversation game for a while now. Holding a conversation with Phaios was a bit like competing in a triatholon after being kept in solitary confinement: freeing for the soul, surely, but a little bit daunting.
"I doubt I need to remind you of this, but if there's ever any need either of you have for help... Henna loves fawns," JM nominates graciously. Although needless to say, both does were there for the new little family in any capacity that was helpful.
Phai does tend to ramble.
She chuckles softly. "Good to know." Poor Henna. "I don't tend to worry until they've snuck off from their mother while she's trying to get a little sleep - or whoever happens to be with them at the time. Irie likes to put her nose into anything she can find. Authieu is a little more timid, seems like, but I'm sure his sister could convince him otherwise if she wanted." A puff of air from her nose whisks a blade of grass off its feet, laying it flat on the ground for a second or two. "Nothing like her mother."
"Irie and Autheiu," Jo
"Aria was an obedient fawn, then?" She guesses, her gaze far off and composed as if not at all stopping to entertain the thought of where Irie might have acquired her differing traits from. Fawns had their own personalities, that was all there was to it--and Jokerman knew these fawns were better off with than most, with the group of deer that would be raising them.
The twins had magically
In love with the new layout!
you're amazing your layouts
your layouts are always so incredible and its such a treat to be able to watch you create them
css will forever be gibberish to me so i'm always so astounded AND IMPRESSED by your ability to understand it.
and this bio is gorgeouuss and definitely fitting for JM ♥
adorable art by Tuoho! ♥
RC - THE LAYOUT LOVES YOU
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JD - I know you're just saying that so I stop asking you what I should change this background to.
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But thank you. I know you're secretly a coding genius too though >>
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beautiful new bio! :0
Many thanks!!
loving dis layout ♥
Thanks Jinx
I HATE YOU AND YOUR FARKIN
Track for possible new
Sig: SoliloquyChryseis
Well damned if that's not the
Your girl is super cute though, thanks for posting and finding us. Was just about to search for her bio myself.
:)So pretty in here. -nest-
What a compliment coming from
:)(Thank you for the code forever btw!!)
Pff, flatterer. And forever
And forever welcome! Glad it's useful. :'D
'don't forget you taught me
/bricked, runs
Rofl Kimi. If JM at least
Evil
I should be tracking this.
God, this profile is gorgeous.
LMAO Shay. And thank you,
And thank you, Kali!! Honored that you'd say that.
I don't tell you this enough,
Jerm is also a really well done character. you and JD usually have like ridiculously well developed characters, but Jokerman is an all-time favorite. the things she goes through and how they shape her.. jesus. the time you must have put into her to achieve this kind of depth. this new mask incident is shedding a whole new light on her ( for me at least, or maybe I've been missing something this whole time /crey ). it's awesome to see/read and whatever.
JUST THOUGHT YOU SHOULD KNOW I'M SITTING OVER HERE BEING ENVIOUS
and we love JM so yeah
ignore this wall of text
/useless
♥
(Rofl when did JM's nickname
Arghhh Raven I love you and love how when you get back into something like TEF, you come in full-throttle. That's why all that is such a huge compliment coming from you... I hope you know there's a group of players out there that without them on this site, I wouldn't want to put effort to developing my own characters, and you're one of the primary people in that group. Your characters start out being well-developed and they just get better from there.
I feel like, when I created Jokerman, it was because I knew I'd need a character like her and would really enjoy playing her, some day. xD No matter what path she went down... and even though it'd turn out to be the most depressing path possible, it's allowing me to understand who she is better. I guess all anyone can ask for as a roleplayer is for STUFF to happen to their characters, right??
And re the mask thing--figured if anyone would catch what JM's deal is about it, it'd be you.
;)Thanks also for compliments on the CSS... Been really struggling with it, if that's not evident by the VISUAL ASSAULT ON YOUR EYES whenever you load the page.
On that note, and I know I say this all time, but I feel like I've learned a lot since I've last done anything for you and let me know if you ever want me to update any CSS I've given you, I'd be just about helpless to say no now. ♥
Skylar: u forgot me teh
Jo: /adds 2 relationships now
skylar: thx u *ptuy* also,
also, what you wrote about her could be really interesting to act out. xD
God you're fast. :I And yeah
And yeah it could be, huh >>
thats' what she said /bricked
eek
After making sure she wasn't
"Yes," she says softly,
Although Jokerman harbored resentment at the others--for caring about her, for doubting her, for trying to block her off from a fight she was only trying to diffuse herself, if Phaios could overlook every one of Jo's mistakes this evening, and Castallion could bounce around looking none the worst for wear for the chaos she'd nearly put him through, it was the least she could do to be 'alright.' She knew her anger wasn't for them. It never was.
As far as Jo was concerned, it was another by-product of the Hellhound's attack.
Phai snuffs quietly. "Not
"I have similar priorities,
The doe tilts her head back
"There was a time when all my company - and I - had fangs, but I'm not at all keen on them here." She certainly wasn't about to play buddy-buddy with a shady character like Loki. A wry smile catches at the corners of her lips. "And though it's never been intentional, if you pay attention you'll notice the company I keep tends to be on the larger side." She still wasn't certain how she'd managed such a thing, but it had definitely paid off in the past, as an unfortunate few had discovered.
Jokerman nods stiffly,
"Then may he try to hunt you, some day, when you are protected by your friends. May they be able to do what I was not able, and stop him. And may I be there to witness that. But until then, do be safe, Phaios."
(meanwhile, in the
plzdon'tshootme
(Sleepything: "Henna
LMFAO you could have written that in a RP format and joined in and that would have been legit.
Sky: nevermind Loki I'LL EAT
Curious, Phai's head cocks to
[lmao, you guys xD]
( Alright, you asked for
Despite the serious tone of their conversation, or rather because of it, Castallion suddenly woke up after crashing to sleep. Turning away from Phaios, he shot off into the open space beside them, turning in circles with the added sound effects- "BRRRRRR PTPTPTPT BRRRRRRR PSSHHHHH BRRRRRRRRRRRRR" - before tripping over a rock and falling flat on his face with a loud, surprised honk.
(LMAO Kimi. And Jo's just
Ivay -
A more genuine smile replaces JM's earlier one with Phaios's reply. She recalls that feeling, for a moment, a comforting ache in her heart that lulls her and puts her on a dangerous mindset at the same time. Jokerman thinks better than to mention this, though. "Many deer here have those who're dependent on them, but you may be one of the first to realize it. I'm glad to hear it. I know you'll be careful." The red hued deer lowers her head to the ground with a mild proclamation, really more of an afterthought--" I can only say that any thing that tries to attack you--deserves what's coming to it."
Yes, she'll do her damnedest to see that she doesn't have those responsibilities ever again--so that she can help those like Phaios, who still have something worth protecting.
(edit: FBGJBFGJ Freyja. LMFAO ughh ♥)
Phaios blinks as Castallion
Her gaze softens as it returns to Jokerman, though she's quick to look away again. "Ah... I've seen too many die in front of me when I could have done something to save them. No more. I promised my Mother and myself that I could do better, this time. That I'd earn the name 'Hondo' back, even if it means nothing here." The doe's eyes are laden with the weight of memory, but there's a note of determination in her voice.