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Feel free to interact*Both text and visual roleplay are welcome. If you have been given my Skype/Discord address, you are welcome to interact there as well. with Phaios and Endriaga here.
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I decided I really didn't like the back-end of that journal code :I So here we are



Note: Endriaga can generally be assumed to be resting with Phaios or hanging around in a tree nearby [but likely will not be logged in]. Not a deer as she was before, but instead a miniature dragon.


12-18-2022

Physical
Denotes physical fitness - wounds, illness, etc.
: Healthy. [100/100]
Mental
Mental health determines the stability of emotional health, rationality and decision-making skills, and emotional recovery time.
: Well [90/100]
Emotional
Emotional health is an indication of the state of self-perceived well-being. It is not necessarily bound by "happy" and "unhappy."
: Content [90/100]
Demeanor
Current behavior and posture/body language.
: Quiet, thoughtful

How many years has it been?


Has spent the last few months with little in the way of drama. Content to be bored most of the time, although she does at times feel quite lonely. As such, she has been happily reconnecting with Illrose and Carmine when she comes across them. In particular, surprised and incredibly grateful when first Illrose and then Carmine sought her out in the deep fog of October and stayed with her for a number of days until it passed; the mist bound her senses uncomfortably and left her on edge and feeling blind, but having a steady presence greatly eased that stress.

A little more melancholy now that the snow has arrived, often lost in thought. Not really a fan of the cold. Spending a little more time around Eraline's grave when she's on her own.


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"So do I," the doe replies in

"So do I," the doe replies in a hushed tone weighted with exhaustion. She could only hope Irie was well. Brows furrowed, she studies the ground in front of her intently until she's pulled back to the present by something brushing against her shoulder. Phai traces the wingtip up to Akhen's face and holds his gaze for a moment before her attention drops back to the earth.
"I'm glad you've come back," she murmurs after a little while. "Aria needs all the reassurance she can get... and I've been a little overwhelmed." More than a little.
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"You look like hell,

"You look like hell, Phaios..." says Dinah in her quietest voice as to not awaken the sleeping crimson beast on his throne in the not too far distance. Failing, she watches him jump down and retreat to the ever loathed side of the birch, and adjusts a bit closer to Phai, continuing "who's work is this?" Concerned eyes skimming those lacerations.

(I keep losing my connection, sorry if Dinah keeps disappearing, idk what's going on with my interwebs.)
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Dinah ♥ Ah, I wondered

Dinah ♥ Ah, I wondered if you were having internet troubles :/
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The doe gives a half-hearted chuckle that ends in a hacking cough. "I feel like hell," she manages after she's recovered. "I don't know names... I assume the family a fawn was stolen from some time ago... They went after Morioch - Thane's..." here she pauses briefly, wondering if Dinah knew him by another name. "Xetkal's," she amends, "son. I got in the way, is all. Not enough, though.. He was killed." Phai sighs softly. "At least, that's what started it. There's been a lot going on lately, seems like, and I just keep managing to open everything again."
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A little overwhelmed... he

A little overwhelmed... he scoffed lightly at that, "Anyone would be overwhelmed, even the best of them, in this type of situation, Phaios." Though he glanced away when she said she was glad he was back. He had been expecting her to kill him or something of the sort, but given everything that had happened...maybe not. "I'm glad to be back as well. To be honest I was worried I wouldn't find my way home again."
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Waning- "Mm." He's right, of

Waning-

"Mm." He's right, of course, but what she doesn't voice is that she can't afford to let herself flounder. Not with Aria as she is, and a mess of fawns now without their best hope of a semi-sane role model and peace-maker, and Irie still missing, and... Well, she just has too much to do to be down and out like this. Not wanting to get into it, though, she takes the subject change readily. "Be glad you did, then. I'd hate to add 'hunt down Akhenaton for breaking my daughter's heart' to my list." She may or may not have contemplated wringing his neck upon his return, but at least she hadn't ever intended to maim him too badly. And besides, he can make himself useful, now that he's here.
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He half smiled, but wasn't

He half smiled, but wasn't sure how to take her response. It was either treat it as the threat it was or as a joke. "I'd never dream of abandoning her, Phaios," he murmured, staring off into space.
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Xetkal registered all right,

Xetkal registered all right, and so did the unforgettable images of the damage he inflicted on Eraline so many moons ago.
"Xetkal's son was killed?" Was she comprehending correctly? Good. GOOD.
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Dinah- "Yes," she answers

Dinah-

"Yes," she answers solemnly. "He calls himself 'Thane' now - he has since Eraline died. I don't know why. I haven't seen head or hide of him in a while, but his beast took the body of his son... I'm sure he knows, and I dread what may be yet to come as retribution. Things have been quiet the past few days, and I just know there's a storm ahead. And there are more fawns involved, now. Moro was probably the best chance they had at a normal life... Xet has forbidden me from being with the family, so I can't intervene as well as I did with his first two." Phaios closes her eyes and she lays her head on one foreleg. "I'm worried."


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Waning-

It was, perhaps, a little bit of both. In all, the doe herself is really rather harmless; she has no desire to see Akhen hurt, and there were a number of potential suitors for her daughter she'd choose Akhen over any day. Maybe just a good bop on the head and a 'what the hell were you thinking?' would serve him right - but she's got larger worries at the moment, and the thought is pushed to the back of her mind. "Good," she smiles faintly. "I'll hold you to it."
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The family? This abomination

The family? This abomination had a family? What sort of family can exist with Xetkal in it's dynamic? Surely not a good one. Nothing good would ever come from the blood of Xetkal. Not Thane - Xetkal... the only name Dinah will ever call him. He doesn't get a new name. He doesn't DESERVE a new name. Why worry about his family? She wouldn't ask Phai this, because no answer would sit right in her mind. "Rest, Phaios. Need not worry."
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He nodded, stating a simple,

He nodded, stating a simple, "Yes," as he rose to his hooves. He seemed to contemplate wandering off, only to glance back at her, "I know I might be stepping on your pride by asking this, but do you need anything?"
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Dinah- Need not worry.

Dinah-

Need not worry. Somehow she doesn't feel that way. The doe buries her muzzle into her carpus to stifle another cough. "My granddaughter is missing, my daughter's worried sick, a fawn I helped raise is dead and his father may tear apart half the Forest for revenge, and he's got three new fawns to twist against the world. What's there to worry about?" she replies dryly.

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Waning-

"Pride, tch. I think I lost that in the birch the other day, with my sanity." Phaios clears her throat, trying to rid it of an itch that threatens to make her lungs spasm again. "No... I'll be alright. Take care of Aria while I'm ill and we'll call it even for you leaving."
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His beak twitched into

His beak twitched into something of a half smile, but he nodded, bowing, "As you wish, Phaios. Rest well."
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"Right now, worry about

"Right now, worry about yourself. You NEED rest, and you need your strength." Says Dinah firmly. "Has your granddaughter been missing long? And as for HIM - karma will eat him alive, Phaios." A confidant smile on her face. "It has already begun. Just... STAY. AWAY. FROM. HIM."
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Dinah- "It's been some time

Dinah-

"It's been some time now, yes," she answers quietly, eyeing the larger doe as she gets a little more assertive. "And you say that like I'm fond of Xetkal." His children might be another matter, but the bongo makes her uneasy. "I avoid him where I'm able." She has to wonder what Dinah means, though, in saying karma had already begun. Was she up to something? But Phai only sighs again and lets it go; she doesn't need another question of morality to roll around in her head. The party's large enough.
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She smiled softly and

She smiled softly and nodded,"Yes all seems well"she said touching the stomach with her nose. "They are heavy little ones that is for sure."She added though the smile slightly faded. "I havn't seen or heard from Authieu either..I looked for him but I think he's hiding again too."she admitted then sighed."Mother I know what I did with Akhen out of ...the moment was silly but I'm afraid I'll ruin these babies too"she said sounding a bit desperate but shook her head.There I go again...being selfish she thought. "Forget I said that, do you need any help mother?"she asked turning her concern to her instead."Water? Food?"
You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
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Orin- "You're allowed to

Orin-
"You're allowed to have... moments... with your mate, Dove." Oh gawsh please no birds and bees. She shakes her head at Aria's question. "No... I don't eat, dear." Even after two years in the Forest - goodness, has it been that long? - she still finds it odd that she has to explain her eating habits; they had been completely normal back home. Phaios leaves the subject of water untouched, however, and quickly shifts the subject back again. "Ari... You're always going to wonder about how well you're able to raise your little ones. Look at you and your sister - all grown up and I still worry, but you've both turned out just fine."
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She felt silly forgetting

She felt silly forgetting about her mother's different habits. Perhaps it was her nerves making her mind blank. "Um medicine..do you need medicine!"she said perking up hoping that was a better suggestion. When she explained about her feelings as a mother she couldn't help but smile a little. "Thank you mother...I..I will try extra hard to do better with these little ones and..possibly make up with at least Autheiu"she said turning to look around as if she'd see him any second.
You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
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Phaios tilts her head to one

Phaios tilts her head to one side with a small smile. Medicine sounded... gross. At least from what she's been told. "I'm sure I'll be fine, Aria. Endri and I just need to rest for a while. It's just a few cuts." Little did she know she'd freeze herself in the pond a few days later and catch cold... Oh well. "You aren't a bad mother, little one. Sometimes things just happen that are beyond our control..."

[Yay time warps o3o lol]
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Wooo gotta love em --- She

Wooo gotta love em Laughing out loud

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She thought about that for a moment. It was very true though she felt things were far out of her own compared to most others. "I guess I just need to take it one day at a time...huh..."she said with a crooked smile as she looked up at her.
You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
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The doe lays her head across

The doe lays her head across Aria's shoulders gently. "Mm... Sometimes it's all we can do," she agrees. She'd been doing some of that lately, herself; there isn't much planning ahead to be done when you're off your feet, though there's ample time to consider past, present, and future. Too much time, most days. "Do you know how many, this time?" Ari had figured it out somehow the first time, and Phai wonders how many bouncing bubbles she'll be chasing this time. "Names?"
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She thought a moment then

She thought a moment then looked back at her,"I think two but there could be more"she said feeling as though all their movement made it difficult to tell."And we've discussed a few but havn't really settled on anything"she said with a soft laugh.
You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
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More? Phaios looses a long,

More? Phaios looses a long, slow breath as she chews on that. Well... Surely deer didn't have whole litters, at least. "Sounds like you'll be a busy girl, either way. Maybe teach them their auntie is lots of fun, and you'll get a break now and then," she says with a little wink.
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She laughed"Yes I'll let them

She laughed"Yes I'll let them know that "she said before sighing."After they are grown though..I...I need a break....no more kids for a while for me"she said looking exhausted just mentioning it.
You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
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GAh double post

GAh double post
You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis
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Phai smiles faintly. "What,

Phai smiles faintly. "What, four's enough?" She grooms at Aria's feather crest gently. "Believe me, dearest, I understand." She has something like five running around her feet at the moment, plus Aria's two - though they've made themselves scarce - plus Aria and Oria and 'her' other grown fawns... And more on the way! None of them are even labeled as her kids and she's still worn out. Yeah, four's plenty.

Just thought that some

Just thought that some artwork on Pai could be requested. But thankyou!
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Where would Pai put a whole pond? Pica felt verily assured. Speaking of thirst.. but Pica must listen to where Pai came from first. With a great effort, she steered her mind away from her growing thirst to listen to what Pai said, feeling a slight vibration as she spoke. Pica giggled quietly - she could hear Pai's muffled speech through the vibrations, and crawled back into her fluff to hear it. In the darkness, it was all too easy to imagine the world that Pai spoke of, and Pica soon became lost into the world of dreams.

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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Niri ♥ One ear flicks

Niri ♥

One ear flicks at the giggle. What was so funny about the story? But ah, well - kids will be kids. She raises a brow at the wriggling - hadn't they finished with that? And then it's just... quiet. Had Pica suffocated in her fur? Oh goodness... But no, there's a little tickle of breath against her neck. She had expected the fawn to be full of more questions, since it seemed she was a never-ending well of them, and she's rather surprised to find the fawn has gone silent. It takes her a few moments to figure out what exactly has happened, but it soon dawns on her that little Pica might have dozed off. Yawning, she figures it probably won't hurt her to do the same, since she certainly can't move until the little one wakes of her own accord. Well, she could, but she'd feel bad - so she doesn't. Content to snuggle with a little poof ball for the night, the doe lets her lids droop and nods off.
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She laughed again. It was not

She laughed again. It was not much of a conversation but already she was beginning to feel less weighed down. Perhaps because she was sharing her troubles and not bottling them up inside. "Thank you mother"she said feeling it was necessary to thank her. Though she felt Phai deserved so much more.
You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis

Is this the end of the

Is this the end of the roleplay? D8 -cries-
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Pica dreams of swirls, feathers, fluff and the gentle voice of Pai telling her that mushrooms tasted good. In the swirling blue forest she said to the Pai-voice: "But Pai don't eat!" Silence.

Forgot to tell you, but decided on a speechcolour. -squee-

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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Orin- Phai smiles quietly to

Orin-

Phai smiles quietly to herself, still preening her daughter's feathers. Always with this thanking thing. "That's what moms are for," she replies simply. "So tell me - what else have you been up to, lately? I feel like I've hardly seen you in the past several days." She'd been a busy bee, as the cuts across her shoulders could testify.

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Niri-
Haha, if you want we can keep going, or start a new one Sticking out tongue Phai just knows better than to wake a sleeping child xD And what color? o:

The doe's ear twitches as she lingers on the edge of consciousness. Had Pica said something? "Mm?" she ventures drowsily, wondering if she was just imagining things as she teetered on the edge. It had happened before.

Doesn't matter to me - what

Doesn't matter to me - what do you think? As for the speechcolour - you'll see. >:]
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Pica awoke with a muffled squeak, frantically trying to flail her legs to get whatever was squishing her off, the voice of Pai still echoing in her ears. The darkness had become much too suffocating - in desperation, she cries out; "Pai!" For the brown doe had been most mother-like figure to her since her mama, and she instinctively felt that she was the one to run to.

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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I think this rock just

I think this rock just sprouted a head, rofl - and ooh blue o:
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It's rather difficult to drift off with little toes jabbing you in the side of your neck. "Nnfh! Gracious... Pica. Pica, I'm right here," she answers, confused as she lifts her head to reveal the little thing flailing against her. Peering down at the fawn curiously, Phai inquires, "Bad dream..?"

I love rockheads. o 3o Did

I love rockheads. o 3o
Did you notice the pun I did there? -nudgenudge- Teal. To be precise. o 3o
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"Hrnn?" Dragging herself with a great fawn-effort out of the rest of her dream, Pica comes to her senses - and with an apologetic glance, crawls out from under Pai, the fresh air cold on her small sweaty form. Breathing deeply, the small fawn blinks at the bright sunlight before turning around to frantically nuzzle Pai again. "Uh-huh. Water." Was all she said, before sniffing at the air and bounding off in the general direction of the pond.

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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Rossamund bounded over to

Rossamund bounded over to Phaios. "Huwwo Phay!" He settled by the doe's side and nuzzled her.
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Niri- Very punny : D Phai

Niri-
Very punny : D

Phai rasps her tongue against Pica's forehead for some reassuring grooming. "Water?" Had Pica been dreaming about drowning? Oh... Oh, water, she realizes, as the fawn leaps away. Heaving herself up, the doe trots after the little brown bundle that bounds ahead. Better make sure she doesn't fall in.

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Echo-

A smile flickers across her muzzle as the warm body of the fawn snuggles up against her damp side. "Hey, you," she greets him warmly with a little nuzzle at his cheek.
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The little fawn smiled, and

The little fawn smiled, and snuggled closer. He peered at the butterfly pelted doe sitting next to Phaios. "Who dat?"
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Echo- "Hm?" She turns to

Echo-

"Hm?" She turns to peer at her company as well. "That's Geisha. She's a nice lady."

Pica was scared by those

Pica was scared by those antlers. o_o "HOOGE." <-- Pica thought
And I'm working on that Pica plushie. >:l Probably will never get beyond the stage of planning, but. o 3o
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Humming happily, Pica wriggles in mid-air, with her little game of seeing how many wriggles she could do. Te small fawn did a double take though when she saw Pai heave herself up to follow her. But at least now Pica can splash her at the pond. Scenting water in the breeze, and taking one last glance towards Pai, Pica dashes towards the pond, and very nearly tumbles in after tripping over a half-submerged log. Stumbling up, Pica shakes out her fur - and turns into a spiky wet fluffball.

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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Niri- Haha, that's exactly

Niri-
Haha, that's exactly what Phai thought when she was a fawn x3
And I had a deer pattern I've modified a little... and black and white fabric... and I've been meaning to pick up brown fabric for a while now... and I have batting and noses and eyes...
So really all I need is to find my needles and thread and some brown fabric. o3o Might be my spring break project, haha.
Also, I've taken my sleeping pill, and typing is very difficult, so this is going to have to be the last one for the night and it may be slightly incoherent :<
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Phai smiles slightly as Pica seems surprised to see her following. And... what's this jig she's doing? The doe chuckles to herself each time the fawn bounces up. Ah, kids. Oh! And off she goes. Lengthening her stride, Phai trails after Pica at an easy lope. When the fawn's head vanishes beneath the water, however, her steps kick into an urgent canter for several beats before that little nose re-surfaces. "Did you forget you weren't a fish for a minute there?" she chides gently as she reaches the banks of the pond.

-squee- Nightnight Pai.

-squee- Nightnight Pai. <3
-is working on le plush- .-.
And I wish I had time to actually do that. D8
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Glancing towards Pai, Pica attempts to smooth down her fur, to no avail. So rather grumpily, she turns to face Pai, a much more fluffier ball of wet than she had started with earlier. "Inorrafishy.. A barely audible grumble is heard as Pica sneezes out droplets of water from her nose. Pica dunks her body into the water with her head held high, fur spread out on the surface of the water before submerging as she wriggles about in the bank mud.

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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"Oh." The little fawn

"Oh." The little fawn examined the gashes on Phaios's back. He frowned. "Phay better soon?"
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Niri- "Yernerrisshy?" she

Niri-

"Yernerrisshy?" she mimics Pica's little mumble with a smile. The fawn's just too cute all spiked up and grouchy, and it takes some effort not to laugh. The doe is a little surprised, though, when Pica decides to start flailing about in the muck. She might not be a fish, but maybe she can be a mud monster. Phaios steps forward and settles on the bank of the pond, just close enough that she can reach forward and take a few sips of water at the edge.

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Echo-

"Yes, I think so," she answers softly. "It doesn't hurt as much today." At least, the cuts themselves didn't.
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Isobel and Phai should

Isobel and Phai should interact here sometime. Not sure if it should be when she talks or what. ;-;
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Adjjdjsbfusbdi Pica having a

Adjjdjsbfusbdi Pica having a temper tantrum. I'd love to see what happens when she does that in an rp one day.
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With her ears dragged down into the water from the weight of he wet fur on them, Pica thankfully does not hear Pai's imitation of her grumble and continues wriggling around blissfully in the slippery mud unsure whether the sensation of the cool mud pressing against her side was good or bad. Pica decided good, just because Pai was there. And if Pai were there, why shouldn't she join in as well? Rising stealthily, pica inches forwards, under the pretence of frolicking around.

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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The Forest would explode from

The Forest would explode from cute overload, is what.
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Lifting her muzzle from the water, droplets speckling the thin fur of her snout and chin, the doe peers curiously at Pica. The fawn's sudden cessation of thrashing and playing wiggles at a little red flag somewhere in the back of her mind, but she still seems busy enough playing in the water. Phaios cocks her head to one side as she watches the little one and wonders how she'll go about convincing Pica she needs some serious bath time after she's finished thoroughly sludging herself. Kids never seemed to like baths. Hmm.

Wonder what would the twins

Wonder what would the twins think about that...
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Out of the corner of her eye, Pica sees that Pai is unaware of her master plan. As she allows a small giggle to escape, Pica suddenly splashes up the bank, covering the short distance in a few moments to flail and rub on Pai's back with her muddy hooves and sides, and making as big a mess and splash as she could possibly do.

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!

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...lmao, major fail. I

...lmao, major fail. I ignored the Forest while it loaded and then Phai got up to go find Pica... but Pica was already there, the little ninja xD
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When the fawn turns and crashes through the water, Phai's brows shoot up and her ears lay flat in surprise. Ohhh, no, you don't! She makes to spring to her feet, but the soft earth of the bank gives way beneath her frantic hooves and her scramble only serves to splash her face-first into the shallows while Pica has her muddy way with her sides and back. Very graceful, Phai. A yelp of protest is lost beneath the surface of the water, the only proof of its existence a mess of bubbles and a muffled "Blhhrlbh!"
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lol phai XD

lol phai XD
You do not have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.
~ C.S. Lewis

Why thank you! She's been

Why thank you! She's been perfecting her Mission-impossible.
When Pica came back, she seemed intent on gobbling down the entire blueberry patch around them and maybe getting Phai to help.


Aah, it does sound rather silly when you phrase it like that. XD Didn't seem so weird then. o_o
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Pica was having way too much fun. But not for long - when she turned around to see how Pai was reacting to this she was verily alarmed to see that Pai seemed to be having a unique reaction. Most of-sames would either look surprised or annoyed - the annoyed ones she quickly scampered off - but Pai seemed to be.. blowing bubbles in the water? Curious, Pica hops off her to shuffle forwards and bend down to further inspect exactly what Pai was doing. "....Pai?"

Thank you, Tuo and Kohva!