I have decided to only list those he is currently active with and maybe a couple of other important relationships. Just because a deer is not listed does not mean Gustiro no longer knows or cares about them. It is just so much for me to keep up with that I think it is time I down sized it and it would be best to list mostly those currently active. I am still keeping a "complete" list for a reference for myself but not here. More deer are likely to be added later, of course, since it is late and I need sleep.
[In the process of editing.]
Gustiro is rapidly accepting reasons to reject companions. Loosing trust and interest. Quicker to anger or feel betrayed by. Struggling with knowing who to trust. May reject companions on different levels.
Since Gustiro has returned his mood has taken a complete turn around. He has become more insistent on holding onto those he cares for most. More demanding and attention seeking. It may almost appears he is making up lost time and is afraid to let go. Those that has hurt him the worse, however, may continue to be held at arms length if not met with aggression.
Newly Met List: (To help me remember. XD )
North (Not so new. Needs to be added.), Schadenfreude, Sabine, Prita, who else?
[Symbol Legend]
This is not what Gustiro perceives. It is what he feels.
Just because Gustiro feels one way does not mean the other deer feels the same.
Can have up to three: ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ / x
Singular: ♥
♥
Gustiro has a strong or even overpowering desire to be near them. Jealousy and possessiveness may run in the extremes. The closest Gustiro probably can get to being 'in love'.
♥
A purely platonic but emotionally strong relationship. Gustiro feels towards these as someone may feel towards a parent, sibling or offspring.
♥
A constant presence in his forest life. Gustiro has a deep emotional attachment to these.
♥
Gustiro is emotionally attached to this deer.
♥
A new or growing relationship. These hearts are likely to appear and disappear from names often.
♥
Gustiro receives comfort from all his deer. However these deer give him a higher amount of reassurance and he may go straight to them when under great distress. The type of distress can determine which deer he will go to for reassurance or comfort. Such as injury, illness, confusion, sadness, or deep depression. Some of these deer may even help cool his temperament in fights or even sooth him when mentally unstable.
♥
These deer have a trait (physical, behavioral, or otherwise) that reminds Gustiro of someone or another from his human life. While Gustiro might or might not be particularly close to these deer he is still drawn to them for these traits.
♥
Gustiro may feel betrayed by this deer or hurt in another way. He may feel they are a threat to his other companions. However Gustiro is likely to still have an emotional attachment to them.
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A sign of lost trust, if there was any to begin with, or simple dislike. These are added either because of a big negative event, a repeated offense, or something simply unforgivable. Once one is added it is permanent. Three strikes and you're out, there is unlikely there will ever be trust regained again and unlikely Gustiro will ever accept the deer fully.
x
The more X's the more likely Gustiro will attempt to kill a deer if they end up in a fight. With one X it may depend on a situation if he will attempt a kill or not. Three X's and Gustiro will kill a deer if given the slightest chance.
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[Wants]
Gustiro associates these deer with forbidden wanting. A want to be more then what he believes himself to be, a want above the desire to protect and serve.
A want to have and keep, to never let go or sacrifice. Silently Gustiro scolds himself in the words of phantom memories for betraying his vows. But as Gustiro continues to grow, piecing together new ways of thinking and understanding while living in The Endless Forest, he begins to abandon his phantom's long dead ideals.
If it comes down to it Gustiro may betray his own deer if only to protect, serve, and keep these specific deer.
Of course, his loyalties may lean more to one then the other.
Idelle
♥♥♥
His first born and only biological daughter.
Dinah Moon has been a long time companion to Gustiro and is the mother of his first born (and only) child, Idelle. At times their relationship had been rocky on account of both their jealous and possessive natures. For his distorted understandings of the ways of love and devotion Gustiro had once been oblivious to her affections for him and unwittingly hurt her many times. As Gustiro grows with his understandings of the forest so does his affections for Dinah Moon. Her loyalty and flow of returned affections soothes his insecurities and gives him something stable to latch onto. Gustiro clings to her like a living life preserver who keeps him from drowning in his confusions and fears.
Though they are not officially a pair Gustiro finds himself questioning whether he could or should call her his "wife" or if by his 'principles' it would even be acceptable. Either way Gustiro seems to have grown rather devoted to her as far as the opposite sex is concerned, having lost interest in the fairer sex in anything above platonic relations.
The young deer is the peace to Gustiro's war. If Gustiro is a blaze of turmoil Vodun is the stream of serenity. He flows through Gustiro's constant, violent chaos as patient and quiet loyalty. One of the few deer that had never turned antler or hoof on him. Gustiro feels more confident, more secure in what he is and what he does in Vodun's company.
A complicated relationship. A confusing and painful experience.
If Gustiro had ever loved romantically she would have been truly the first. He had even gone so far as offering to give up everything he was, did, and cared for if only for her. Gustiro still cares deeply for the dragon doe and that is unlikely to ever change. However, though he continues to ache and yearn for her he has accepted he would never be her true choice. And with his growing devotion to Dinah Moon he finds himself emotionally shutting down around Illrose.
Currently rejecting her company. Believes her to be traitorous and reinforces this belief on their many fallouts in the past.
There is a quiet, powerful love for Phaios. Not the kind of love that warrants lust or even romance. No, it is something so much more tender and sweet. Like a mother's kiss. Phaios maybe much younger then Gustiro as far as the endless time of the forest is concerned, in fact Gustiro met her when she was merely a fawn, but to Gustiro she brings him the kind of comfort only someone maternal could give. Gustiro feels safe in her presence even though he is the one that would fight fiercely to protect her.
After having given Phaios a scare their relationship has become strained. He is still very protective of her however he hesitates to get too close to her. Her obvious discomfort and underlying fear of him leaves him with an overpowering guilt that he does not know how to deal with. His confidence within himself slips when in her presence, as well as an undeserved resentment towards her.
A relationship that has had it's very high and rocky ups and downs. Gustiro met Eli one day where the red bull mistook the blue's interference in a fight as a 'rescue'. Since then Gustiro would not leave the poor fellow alone. Which left Eli often run ragged or forced to attempt chasing the bull away much to the blue stag's displeasure. Somewhere along the way however a more solid relationship formed. Gustiro becoming all the more devoted to Eli's preservation. Things spiraled down again however with an event that involved Gustiro's doe Dinah Moon and a jealousy towards a stag known as North leaving the pair at each other's throats. Well, more or less.
Things seemed to have calmed down again leaving Gustiro with a good dose of guilt. The red bull is not quite sure what to make of their current situation or relationship. Though Gustiro could be said to still want to ensure the blue's well being.
Ysrael
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Fear, frustration, jealousy. There is so much negativity that Gustiro associates with the lovely young doe. She leaves him shaken every time he senses her near and more so when Vodun is around. Gustiro believes that the young stag had already chosen her over him once before and leaves the red bull fearing the worst the next time. Because of this he accepts her grudgingly. Though not without clinging desperately to the young stag whenever she is around who of which he is sure she will someday take away. His suspicions of her has only been reinforced by memories and experiences that do not even involve her.
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[Deceased]
Evania
♥♥♥ ♥♥
(Deceased. 10/16/2011)
A memory that can not be forgotten. Gustiro's first great failure.
Well, howdy! -snuffsnuffhug-<3 The community certainly did miss you c:
This looks neat-o so far! I'm curious to see who'll all fall into the categories 83
Please let me know if anyone Gustiro has met is missing. I still have my work cut out for me. Heh.
Also if your deer has met Gustiro during the rut you're welcome to tell me your deer can be added to interests. Those he sees more in the forest will be added too I just want to make sure that it is ok beefore assuming since it was an event.
Shaku, Yah, sorry about that. Actually I been meaning to add Vodun and a few others to the lists for ages. Sometimes it's hard to keep up and even harder when they were fawns that grew up. lol That's why I started a fawn list. >_>;
Z.m123, At the lake? Yah, Gustiro just gave her a sniff. Lol
Vandettta, Hello. : )
SnowSauria, Hey. :3 Well, it is really late for me right now. Or rather early depending how you look at it. Maybe we will catch each other another time.
What a glorious fight indeed!
I hope you don't mind Serendipity hanging about, he's an odd little creature, but he likes deer that are...interesting, ahaha
This is a track
Serendipity, Is he the little white mini? Don't mind at all. :3
And it wasn't very glorious actually. That poor red deer got ganged up on by Gustiro and Tieff. Gustiro had a jealous fit. Heh.
If it was a doe who greeted him recently, then that would have been my Starling.
But I'm not sure if he met Kauna today anyway, so you could be right c:
Oh, I know that's Sterling. :3 Need to add her too. If that is ok? Since it was Virgil she met up with first I was not sure if I should put her up or not. But earlier another doe had came up when Gustiro was in a fight he picked with a deer and after she came up to say hi. I am pretty sure it was Kauna.
Tullow,
Hello again! Good to see you. I would like to add your doe to Gustiro's 'claimed' deer since he has known her for quite a while. Since she does not have a name shall I just put Tullow?
Tracking! Glad to see you
There you are! Tracking. c:
nice to see you again
I was wondering what had
Glad to see you back!!
ohai. ...how are you..?
...how are you..? everything all rite?
I've been wondering where you
Glad to see you here again. :')
GUSTIROOOOOO, HAI!
Welcome back!
Thank you everyone for the
AliceV, Everything is fine. Life has just been keeping me busy. No worries.
hehe, kay... ... know that
... know that feeling >_>
Well, howdy! -snuffsnuffhug-
This looks neat-o so far! I'm curious to see who'll all fall into the categories 83
-snuffsnuffhug again and scurries off-
Track and welcome back! :'D
Glad to see you around again. <3
Gustiroo!
Gustiro has been insanely
Ah welcome back! We had
Good to see you again. =D
Welcome back!
I wondered where you had
Mick Kreiger: You Know You Love Me XOXO
Welcome back : ) I'm glad to
I'm glad to hear you're okay.
Thank you all. : ) Please
Please let me know if anyone Gustiro has met is missing. I still have my work cut out for me. Heh.
Also if your deer has met Gustiro during the rut you're welcome to tell me your deer can be added to interests. Those he sees more in the forest will be added too I just want to make sure that it is ok beefore assuming since it was an event.
Nice to see you back. I hope
I'm simply beside myself with
I'm simply beside myself with joy that Vodun is on that list TTuTT Gustiro is his childhood HERO. ♥Pffft what. I'm too cool to be a fangirl. Shut up.
Hi! Good to see you
Good to see you again~
-track-
*Waves to Ocean and
Shaku, Yah, sorry about that. Actually I been meaning to add Vodun and a few others to the lists for ages. Sometimes it's hard to keep up and even harder when they were fawns that grew up. lol That's why I started a fawn list. >_>;
I totally understand~ That's
Hi! Good to see you back!
Track of death
Nuevapaz, Thanks. :
Valsin, Was your deer the poor guy that Gustiro fussed at earlier? Do not mind him. He is a meany head. D:
I think you met my doe
She's a meanie >8cI was wondering where you
track<3
Darn, I really want to throw
Z.m123, At the lake? Yah,
Vandettta, Hello. : )
SnowSauria, Hey. :3 Well, it is really late for me right now. Or rather early depending how you look at it. Maybe we will catch each other another time.
Here it's 08.00 in the
Yeah, guess we do. I was really happy when I saw Gustiro was back. :')
What a glorious fight
I hope you don't mind Serendipity hanging about, he's an odd little creature, but he likes deer that are...interesting, ahaha
This is a track
Serendipity, Is he the little
And it wasn't very glorious actually. That poor red deer got ganged up on by Gustiro and Tieff. Gustiro had a jealous fit. Heh.
ahh, any fight can be
And yes, that would be him~
Welcome back~
Interesting ♥
-does the track dance-
Thank you all. : )
:B
track
If it was a doe who greeted
But I'm not sure if he met Kauna today anyway, so you could be right c:
Oh, I know that's Sterling.
Yes, you can add her if you
And in that case it definitely was Kauna~
[edit] Her name's Starling heehee. <3
"It was really nice seeing
Yup, the doe who came to lurk around, while Gust was fighting, was Kauna c:
Starling, I knew that. D: I
I knew that. D: I blame the fact I am still getting over a cold.
Rouda,
Thank you for confirming it for me. : )
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I'm more than a bit late, but
Starling, Thank you. :
Thank you. : )
Tullow,
Hello again! Good to see you. I would like to add your doe to Gustiro's 'claimed' deer since he has known her for quite a while. Since she does not have a name shall I just put Tullow?