♥ Precious friend, take care of yourself.

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WHY CANT I HOLD ALL THESE KOSTYAS

SCREAMS
I loved that game when I was younger sadly I was super bad at it! ;0; I was so sad when I couldn't find the disc when I moved recently.

I have Age of Mythology...


I think i only played it once though... >.> If youre willing to deal with noobishness my steam is Senecxys XD

They should team up with Chime and motherly the whole forest

On my phone, so sorry if this is jumbled or has a thousand spelling mistakes.

For me personally, and my characters, death and resurrection have gotten to the point where it's not surprising to them. However, loss is still something they don't like. Partly because, it's a loss no matter how short, but also because they (and I) know there's always a chance one will not come back. It's a small chance, but it's a chance. There is such a thing as too much optimism and expectation.

And they would teach young as such. They would tell them that while death is usually permanent, the forest has a way of bending reality. But that doesn't guarantee that soneone who has died will come back. "Chance and fate operate on whim," as Lacie would put it.

I think, for me, things have changed through experiences. Rip has mourned many friends who have passed no matter if they return or not. At first he thought death was final and strict, but nowadays he's aware there's higher powers in this world and absolutely anything can change, and death itself can reverse. He mourns for dead heavily, but most likely would always have that little flicker of hope they'd come back or exist somewhere else. I guess it has a lot to do with naivety, own beliefs and experiences. idk man i just live here

You know, I never really thoguht about it before!

My character Black Knife is from the human world, and they believe in permanent death and living spirits. My other character, Fooka, is also from the human world but does not visibly mourn death. She's sentient but often chooses not to show it, so she has a passively feral way of expressing concern for those she likes.

Both of these OC's are new to the forest, though. Maybe they'll be introduced to new life and death experiences!

Absences make them more anxious in regards to the one who disappeared; though if they don't appear for a very long time, it just makes them distant. If the individual returns in that case, then my characters would have to be approached first.

Regarding your question, my basic outline is "Don't kill any of them" lmao. If one of my characters died, I'd have to be 100% sure I'm ready to part with them because I want their death to actually be permanent. However, if I were to resurrect them, I keep pretty much everything intact; their memories, their emotions, etc. Because I'm cheap and I don't like starting something from scratch if I've been building them up for a long while.

The only real exception to any of this is Lacie. I play her/portray her in multiple worlds, but they're all linked; if she's alive in one, she's dead in all the others. So basically, yes, I'm playing her in Pokemon, but that means she's dead here. I guess it's super confusing for anyone but me (She's only still alive here because she's such a huge part of me and I refuse to let her die just yet...because I'd essentially be killing myself lmao.). For her it's "die in one world, wake up in another." And she's been doing this for a long time.

I'm losing my train of thought, but that's pretty much it.

For me personally I don't think that it's strange that many aren't desensitized to the whole dying thing. If I heard a family member was horribly injured but was completely stable in the hospital, would have no lasting issues/ect I'd still be immensely shocked and distressed.
So i think just because your friend might come back, doesn't mean you fear for how much it hurt for them to die, the fact that they just might not come back, orrrr even the effect it might have on their mentality?

Indigo is my best example because he dies every two seconds and everyone he loves has pretty much died at some point (not rly but close enough). HEEEE.. doesn't care when they die at this point. He's insensitive to other people when their loved ones die because he 'knows' they'll come back but others dying so much sort of doesn't leave him much in the way of being distraught even if they don't. Still, watching a friend be torn apart is a hell of a painful thing and desperation that comes along with it is a killer. He's desensitized to death, but can't easily take his loves hurting and brutally dying. IIIII think that goes for all my characters really- the last part. Not the sociopathic first bit sigh

Indi's pretty much the only one of mine who dies and returns regularly (because of his phoenix business) and that's moreso just because I like to 'realistically' dish his damage out. He's small, he can only take so much and he gets into plenty 203980239 hour long fights with people much larger than him. I want to be able to let him go down then bring him back.
Because anyone can choose to have their character not take enough damage to die in the first place. AAAND I can choose to have my character come back if they do die.

Lats'vel died once too, but his job outside of the forest tethers him to life and he's not.. all that easy to take down so it's typically not something that happens. I more felt it was more realistic for him to die than to ever have given up on fighting in that whole massacre situation.

Icarus/akos only returned because I didn't want to kill him in the first place- essentially I don't find it all that fun to have all of my characters capable of returning but in the end, I'd prefer them coming back to life rather than a: not being able to play them, or b: having them amazingly survive 109820918 broken bones, 3094809 punctured organs 390482093842 smashed heads, ORRRR JUST.. saying 'they were brutally beaten for 4 hours but got off okay'. Of course I don't mind others choosing to take only enough damage to survive (that actually just makes sense smh) I JUST dO THINGS A LITTLE EXTRA u kno what i mean s'how i enjoy shite. Like to take the repercussions when my size 7 birbdeer chooses to take on a giant like an idjit. AND SOMETIMES IT'S NICE FOR AN 'EFFECT', IDK

I don't think it's necessary to make a lasting effect on a character who comes back? Because it's not like it's an advantage- they died in the first place. BUT. Indigo is damaged permanently every time he dies, and has wound up with a few neurological issues as a result of being killed so many times. AAAaand at this point he's conscious of it and making an effort to calm the hell down and not ... get killed so many times.

I DO FREELY ADMIT THOUGH, oocly I'm not really impacted by characters dying anymore. It's not sad anymore so much as a 'GASP I WONDER WHAT'LL GO DOWN WHEN THEY COME BACK' which is! Exciting in its own right so I don't think it's a shame rly..

OMG THIS WAS SO MUCH I'M SORRY IAONLAKSDNLKASD i just wanted to b e part of the conversation

Aghhh I'm sorry you're going through such a tough time, that's rough.. I hope you begin feeling better soon, mental stuff can be hella tricky :c

Vee, you are an excellent person. I hope that everybody respects your wishes to not pry about what's going on and what you're feeling.
Words are so hard right now ._. I just want to say that I support you!!

lmao awwww that first clip where he's flailing.
"noooooooooo I want it gimmie"

omg what a cute mantis aahhhhh

Plops down here
_{Long overdue track!!}

No one's giving me crap. Knowing how the way she was going was effecting someone meant that I couldn't bring myself to continue with her knowing she was only meant to get worse.

Sad to see her go before any of my characters had the chance to meet her, other than observe her active form from afar as the rut went in full swing.

But I quite wonder what this will bring forth in the future.

ur face is sus

Led by Vee, lord of sus.

_{y'all right now}

man idk whatchu talkin aboot
i aint sus
im innocent af

that reminds me I need to throw Corvus at Eliah because he needs interactions even if it's just quiet alskndlgknba

hadoukin: I LOVE THAT VIDEO SO MUCH.
Clare: gives u tissue
silentlikethat: I don't often see you around, but I'm always happy to see you when you are. I really hope you're doing okay in life. Perhaps we should hang out more when you are about. I'd be up for that. ♥
Draak: Yeees, as we've been meaning to. Tbh I really need to motivate myself to play him more. I guess it's difficult to me because he's so indifferent about things like socialising, where I want to interact with people. But he def makes for good quiet company.
Mjrn: <3
That's exactly what a guilty person would say...

Mjrn: -softly pats- shhh, I was responding to a previous comment of yours. <3 And I entirely get where you're coming from. I'm tentative to start conversations myself without something of a trigger. Though generally I don't let time or distance affect my relationships with people. I still hold you in as high esteem as I ever have.