what do you think of me? and my deer?

do you hate me? D:

or do you wuv me? <3

AND WHAT ABOUT MY BABEHS?!?

like Skokey?
and Fulu?
and Vessel?
and Q?

I MUST KNOW BECAUSE THE BANDWAGON PROMOTES IT

How do I begin? You all know me. I am Vessel, the Dream Watcher. You have heard my thoughts before, and you have seen myself change before you. I have come from being a hardened recluse to a... softened socialite. My heart has become heavy. My mind has gained so much more. The early wisdom of my youth has given me a different view of life. Many find my words cryptic. Many find them simple. Some are wiser than I. Some are not.

I do not know how I obtained this power. Some say the Twin Gods had granted me with it. Some say they cursed me. They never did tell me. I remember seeing a bright light, with two god-like figures in the distance. That was in my early youth. What they said is a mere whisper to me now. Their image, a blur. My fawnhood is not entirely clear to me. Reasons as to why are unknown.

I am writing this to you, because I have held my thoughts for quite some time now. Many of you might be curious as to what has been going through my head. In all the wisdom I can muster, I cannot begin to describe how I feel. Or rather, how I don't feel. I am numb. I do not know what to think.

'Tis a strange thing to endure. But so many things have happened at once. I've seen one of my dearest friends leave. I've felt a painful knife in my heart as I look upon a certain doe. I've had a flood of memories come to me all at once. Too many emotions to sort through now... I cannot feel one or the other.

i remember seeing something like this in the pictures. so instead of stretching it out, ill just post a blog

if anyone doesnt want to see this, ill take it down. it actually felt kinda good to write this...

so i get home after a painfully slow week, and guess what i find? thats right, dropping mom's computer actually did something...

her computer keeps shutting down for no reason, so we cant do ANYTHING with it. we cant even get on the internet for that long without it shutting down again.

so that means i cant play the Forest anymore until it gets fixed, cause no other computer in this house can properly run the game, for ONLY GOD KNOWS WHY.

so i cant see any of my friends until it gets fixed... or destress after a long day at school...

this years gonna be fun...

(that doesnt mean im leaving the site though )

stole from SarieBearie <3 because i WANT you to know when ill be on <3

NOTE: Central time USA...

WEEKDAYS

Mondays - Fridays = School

7:40 AM - 12 noon = school
12 noon - 1:00 PM = lunch/free time
1:00 PM - 2:45 PM = school
2:45 PM - 4:30 PM = free time staying after school
3:00 PM - 7:00 PM = volleyball practice
7:00 PM - whenever = homework
After that - 10:00 PM = whatever the heck I want

Lunch isn't as free as it was last year, and the computers are extra slow this year, so there's no time to check. I usually check after school.

And volleyball does NOT last 4 hours XD practice is always an hour and a half, but the time it starts always varies. And it's almost done. Last game's on Monday :>

WEEKENDS

Sunday - Saturday = Free all day mostly
Saturday - Entire day, except possible church at 6:30 (not likely)
Sunday - Church at 9:00 AM to 10:30

Depending on my chores, I'll be on a lot longer on weekends. You'll just have to catch me then

Rar... gonna be fun this year XD

SPECIAL NOTICE:

this weekend is a three day weekend XD dont know how long ill be gone, or if ill be gone at all (i bet i will though) so... yeah

yeah... first days always last the entire day. tomorrow ill be back a little earlier. and then when volleyball season starts, ill be getting back later >_<

so, to make it simple... im not coming on as much anymore. that means fewer comments, fewer blog entries, cetainly fewer screenshots, and fewer story entries

*sigh* oh well... im sure this year will go by pretty quick. things will happen, things might keep me from coming on here. for who knows how long...

ill definately miss you guys, but i guess ill be distracted... i will definately like going into the Forest to destress again

luv ya <3

i thought i would have more time to have internet, but it appears as if my moms friend came early. i shall explain...

we finally got rid of our nasty stinky carpet today downside, we had to unplug EVERYTHING. that meant my moms computer (which has the Forest on it) and the computer that moniters the internet. AND the modem. so we had no internet for a while.

THANKFULLY, i was mowing the lawn, so it didnt seem that long before we got it all hooked up again XD

so im sorry i so abruptly left :< moms computer still cant connect to the internet, so i cant get on the forest.

>_<

oh well... im sure itll be up some time this week...

gonna go through frickin TEF withdrawal AGAIN >_>

My heart has not been touched by these in so long...

After such a long absence from my home, I was finally granted access. And who to find first after so long? Ah! My good friend Atiq. I actually slipped a smile when approaching him, and he seemed to perk up at the sight of me. It seems he was helping some poor fellow with their set. And so I patiently waited for them to finish.

But soon, we were the only ones left, along with a doe who I now know as Lacey. I have not met her before, but she seemed kindhearted. The three of us sat together in the Birch Forest. Lacey and Atiq carried a conversation, and while I quietly sat back and listened, Atiq didn't forget my presence. He asked me an occasional question when the appropriate time came. And later, Lacey had left, leaving only him and I.

Ah, it was a good while before we set off to do something. Atiq had many questions, and I tried my hardest to answer them clearly. He seemed satisfied. We soon got up, and made our way to the Graveyard.

I try not to think about it... But we were right next to it. My father's grave behind me, a crooked and poorly buried stone showing where it was. He was obviously buried by the little creatures. Gods only know why. I tried to ignore it, and have a little pleasure in casting a few pelt spells on Atiq. But... that clinched it. Atiq ended up giving me the Kirin pelt...

'Twas not his fault, I know. It is bad enough I have those blue jewels forever embedded in my upper legs, but being granted the green scales to encase my entire being brought up the terrible memory. I was... sad... Atiq did not know what was going through my mind so... I showed him the grave. And he understood.

heh heh...

Tea party...

this is what happens when your brother keeps working on video game designs and theres nothing on TV. XD

yes, Skokey and Fenqua have secret tea parties...

if you cant read it, heres the dialogue:

Fulu: Hey Skokey... I've been wondering...
Skokey: Yeah?
Fulu: What's so special about that rock? Why do deer go in there?
Skokey: Well, it's the only hollow rock in the Playground. Most deer like it because it gives them privacy, to play, chat, whatever.
Fulu: I saw you and Fenqua go in there the other day... What did you two do?

*giggle* Tee hee...

Skokey: Care for a scone, Fen my dear?
Fenqua: Oh! Why thank you, sir!... We haven't done this in months! It's nice to do it again.
Skokey: Oh madam, you're such a tease! *giggle*

Fulu: Well?
Skokey: Uhh... I'll tell you when you're older...

SO THAR. i know, i suck at comedy >_<