It seemed as though my life were normal for a girl of sixteen. School was steady and the ballet dancing was a joy to endure. It was not until that night on June 2,2009 that my life had changed for ever. Mom and I had just moved into a house by the sea. So naturally we were going through the chaos of finding and organizing our stuff between bites of pizza.Even our tabby cat Zozen seemed to enjoy the house. While organizing cds the phone rang, naturally I thought it was my grandmother checking up on us.However I sensed a change in the atmosphere and one look at my mother I knew some thing was terribly wrong.I asked whats wrong but she would not respond. I stood by her side loyaly
not knowing what was going on. It was not until I heard her say they did not take him out, that I knew something terrible had happened.After she hung up the phone she said " Marrissa your brothers dead he was in a car acci........" that was all she could manage to say before we both burst out crying. Neither one of us slept that and the next few days are to painful to talk about. It was a harsh reallity to realize my brother was gone and not at all pleasant to dwell on.

Chapter1
A Beginning with bittersweet memories


August 29,2009


My alarm clock screeched 5:30 as I rolled sluggishly to shut it off."Dabburnet" I mumbled as I hoisted myself out of the comfort of the blankets.Looking out the window the sun was still hiding behind the clouds.I yawned absent mindedly as I went to the bathroom to turn on the water for the shower.I took my shower slowly as if somehow trying to slow down time. After all the first day was today. After I dressed in capris and a T-shirt I stumbled out onto the deck to view the oceon.My brother had once said that the oceon is the earth's heatbeat. This memory put a smile on my face but was short lived. Smiles never really stayed on my face these days.

Just leave me in peace
I did you no wrong
I confessed all my sins
But eventually I will be punished
I know the truth of this matter
And that is certain
But for now
I feel content to hide in the shadows
And wallow in my conscience
No yet admitting defeat
But how much longer will I last
Till all at once I become a ghost
Diseased by my sins
After this point of of no return
I shall walk forever in this shadow land
Always feeling hollow
And empty inside
That is the day I have gone
And can not return
How many days or hours are left
Till that time
That I am no more
Than a mere ghost in your prescence.



Please give your opinions.!!

Just be you because being you is ausome


A place for chatter Rp or whatever really.

Dare I even whisper these trivial words
For fear of no reply

When times are dark and dreary
And the sun is blocked
By relentless clouds
Dont fear the worst
Hold your head high
And there will always be a helping hand
To guide you back to the light
The times might be scary
But the journey
In the end will be worth the risk
And the outcome
Will be more enjoyable
Just wait with patience
And take your time
And you will find the light
In the darkness
No matter how much it hides
You will always find hope.

Im not going to play by the rules
Why should I
Not every ones going to
Im just gona let my hair down
And run throught the grass
With out a care
Why should I become like a robot
With those daily routines
Always knowing the next move
The next breath
Im sorry
I dont play that way
I just cant play by the rules
If my life is always planned
Wheres the excitement and passion for life in that.
I wont mock at those who do
But Ill be honest
I feel sorry for you
Stuck in a mindless routine
Youll loose your true self that way.
But if someday you breakfree
And taste that air of freedom
You will never go back
For there is something in the way
In going with the flow
That is challenging and exciting
That always leaves you begging for more.
So lets play the game our way
After all we only get one turn.

Dont let this white dress fool you
Pure as it may seem I still have my faults
Though I generally try to do good
It is easy to slip up
I heal the hurt
That burdens your body
Even mine at times
Though my strenght will not wain treating you
You will certainly see
The beauty of mine eyes at this time
Glowing green in front of you
These scars that I bare
Dont worry
They are of mine own dimise
And are the price I pay for my foolishness
My smile is different from the rest
Because it is always bittersweet.
But for now Ill put this introduction to rest
And leave you with my simple yet beautiful name Kahlan.



Sorry it took so long. I hope you like it.

You see me from day to day
Unless the city banishes me till I am no more
I often help make the food you eat
But beware I am no spice that you would like to eat
But if you guess me right
And solve this riddle
A present of poetry you shall receive.

Stay away
Far Away
My hands have become claws
My senses are sharper
My form looks disfigured
But I feel fine
But you are in grave danger
For I can not control this instinct
This instinct to kill
It is true
That we once called each other firends
But for your own safty
You must stay away
Avert your eyes
So you will not see the animal I have become
Cover your ears
So you will not hear the screams
Hide yourself well
So that I may never find you
Never look back
Dont regret letting go
Of this beast that I have become.
This animal within
Gets fiercer every day
He is vile and can not be reasoned with
I would never harm a person
Especially a friend like you
But this creature within
Will stop at nothing
Please forget me
And run
From this animal within.

I am what they call an anciet one
I will not speak with vain words
For only the words of the heart
Can only be expressed in the moment
I do not know much of my past
For I believe the future is the key
Yet the ancient language of are for-farthers
Offer us much wisdom in not repeating our mistakes
I will not oppose you ith my prescence
However if in a moment youll allow it
I will become your friend
But beware I often speak in a language
That you will not understand
And even though I can not help it
I know it is apart of.
And this I will accept
Parden me for my long introduction,
I am called Atiq.



(I hope you like it)